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Mother Thersa once said:

We can don't do great things, but we do small things with great love.

沉沦.

i feel like i am in a boat..
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a sinking boat.

sshhhh..

Gossip by Gashez

有时不是说问心无愧就能心安理得，因为人言可畏。

day 1 as a NS men.

lazing till the sun is shining all the way on my back side is definitely shiok.

headed out to meet jessamine for catching up at town area. talked alot about all the things and had some serious updates about the various happenings in our lives.. kang an join in later too, after his classes. had not seen him for near to 2 years liao..

oh yea. i is sipeh hiao. i went to dye my hair diy, with help from dad and mum. the color is nice, but i thought its a tat too bright. would have prefered something more subtle. maybe get it properly done the next dye!

tmr is first day of work, hope all will be well! =D

and so it is.

today i ord.

but the feeling isn't as intense as people told me. its more like any other day, not even the 'ic moment' caused any huge ripple in emotions.

its only till i am home and wanna wash and keep my uniforms, then i feel that its really the end of it. almost surreal, like it has never happened before.

night was gathering with the falcon boyz. turn out was really good i must say, almost half the platoon here. some of the people i have not seen since we left tekong.. i am really glad that every one is well..

D DAY.

its it. tmrw is the day.

after two years, back to a civilian. one full circle. still remember mum, godma and grandma sending me off to tekong just like it happened not long ago..


its a very special feeling. i dunno how to describe it.

pow.

i'd rather spend time with my lao ya computer that is going to break down anytime than with you.




i'm serious. stop irritating the shit outta me. you never seem to get enough, always only wanting people to do things you like, do things your way. we're like rubber bands being pulled to the max, not knowing when we will snap.

12 days later.

finally got the ffi done today, after two weeks since the dental one is done. was supposed to have done it a few days back but was not in camp due to the mc.

my friendly medic, YEO, is a good one. damn good skill when drawing blood, i totally almost don't feel it at all! so much better than the one at polyclinic for my regular check up.

half of the clearance form is also signed, thanks to JL for bringing me around to the various people who are suppose to sign. don't know most of them as i am posted in half way de.. so not really familiar with many people.

up next- get all the names signed probably by next mon/tues, return pass on wed/thurs and get ready to get out of the place!

*pukes.

first it was the vomiting. then its the LS-ing. almost yao le wo de ming!

now recovering, but stomach still feeling queasy.. hope i'll be better tmr! if not my wednesday will be damn miserable.. cos i will be back camp already! =(