2011.

I saw someone's comment on FB, that new year makes one emo.

can't help but agree. this countdown, i stayed home instead of going out to the fireworks. cos i don't want to be that poor soul anymore that catches fireworks on my own.

for the first time i watched the taiwan countdown show on tvbs LIVE instead of the repeat telecast, which i don't usually watch to the end. mayday and amei are the 壓軸s this year.

when mayday sang 突然好想你，i nearly teared. nothing much in particular, but just a sudden surge of emotions.

hmmm...



我已經不再敢做夢。這是不是老了的跡象？

hereby wishing everyone, a happy and healthy 2011.


here's my new year resolution:

Dear Blog.

and i realised that i had not been here ranting about my boring life for more than four months.

my life, has been taken over by work, school, and mere trying to survive.

just this month, life has been much of a roller coaster. the ex-boss, milton, passed away due to leukemia. to think that we were still celebrating his 100th day recovery some where in june/july. what is life, sometimes we might question. but well, i've also realised that the usual 'chao kuan' human nature that everyone possesses, will make us think of what we have, be thankful, and cherish everything. BUT, just for a while. before you know it people will start all over again to take things for granted and the cycle continues, until (sadly) another star has fallen from the sky.

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and while i was away for study leave, undesirable stuff happened at work. im not saying that i am totally indispensible, and that everything has to go through me. but well, doesnt it makes sense that if its stuff concerning me and that they are stuff that i had been doing, wouldnt it make more sense if my inputs were seeked? i think some times, my (limited) experience might be useful yea?

also, i don't think i should be carrying your loads simply cos you 'are overwhelmed'. i mean, comm'on who isn't? you think you're paid to just enjoy life? think about it. who else isn't as busy? and what about those unemployed who needed a job so badly?

but that aside, who would have cared? we're just some lowly support staff. everyone was kao pehing on how tired/tied down they are, but had anyone thought of those that were behind supporting them? the reason why the support staff are losing the motivation to work harder is simply cos, we are treated like shit. period.

thanks for listening to my wordy vomit. haven't been typing such long text since twitter has taken over a larger part of my life (with the arrival of a smartphone and dataplan).

OH, i forgot about the amount of stuff i wrote while working. BLEAHZ~!

Unexpected.

the word to describe today.


j and w did not turn up for lecture, and i was all alone.

dil called and we met during break.

angie wanted to crash my lect, but didnt come in the end.

my spoilt earphones worked and i am able to listen to radio, caught the programme of this dj whom i have never heard of before, but somehow i like his style. the very 'warm' kind of voice.

he talked about taking a break, about work life balance, and feeling 'un-inspired'.



i can totally relate to him.

ring ring.

ahhhh!! calculated wrongly and now i can't buy the new hp that i am aiming for!! need to wait till 20 aug! aarrgh.

thats one more month, and i had already sold the old phone. bleahx..

有过那一次幸福的机会吗？

awfully good performance by stanley. really like the emotions he put into this song.

nobody wants to bare the responsibility.

for the things that i had stopped believing in,

why is the blame always on me when such things happen?

730 Days.

time flies, so fast, without us realising it.

its been two years- 你好吗？





i may not know you well, but hope that you'll be in peace, and keep blessing the ones who loved you so dearly.

the late at night song.

and i don't wanna say it.

while people are praying for another vacation, for another school holiday to arrive, here all i am hoping for is i can get the darned school fees so that i can start classes.

damn! don't wanna take this shit no more. fecking sick of it.

$_$

money oh money, why don't you just grow on the trees?


its fucking depressing to not even have enough money to pay for that freaking school fees. i wish i was born in sweden or finland where education is free!!!