worried is the only word to describe myself now.

wad is really happening.. seeing u distracted the whole day.. discouraged.. sad.. and nothing i can do to help you.. i saw the smiles on your faces.. but i noe deep inside they are jus fake.. you are trying to make us less worry.. zhen zuo qi lai ok!! i will be waiting for the old cherry you to be back soon..

arh!! and i jus found out that finance ica 2 due next week.. shits... sigh.. must buck up lah...

went to book my basic theory today also.. haha.. was like so lazy duh~ jenn birthday april oso pass liao.. sigh.. too lazy me.. must jia you lor hahaz..

looking forward to la kopi with weihao this weekend..

Your Birthdate: January 20

Your birth on the 20th day of the month adds a degree of emotion, sensitivity, and intuition to your reading. The 2 energy provided here is very social, allowing you to make friends easily and quickly. Yet you are apt to have a rather nervous air in the company of a large group. You have a warmhearted nature and emotional understanding that constantly seeks affection. You are very prone to become depressed and moody, as emotions can turn inward and cause anxiety and mental turmoil. It can be hard for you to bounce back to reality when depression sets in. When things are going well, you can go just as far the other way and become extremely affectionate.

What Does Your Birth Date Mean?

sianz la.. now in ICT.. JX cut his hair!!!!! haha.. so short.. reminds me of my younger days.. where my hair is as short.. but dun worry.. its nice.. it is..

and also this guy is lost in sengkang on sat nite! its like past 12 and i got his call.. desperately calling for help! haha.. but too bad i am outside can help a much.. jus managed to bring him to the destination by fone.. lol.. so in the end he got home lor.. haha.. din noe i noe my place so well.. haha..

i think i am considered lucky or just pure suay?

heard from some seniors that they have not seen the priciple b4.. not director, but principle.. the big shot!!

and today i saw him.. twice some more! when i was in the lift, i was called for not wearing landyard in the lift.. stooopid rite! who is going to check out your admin card in the lift!!!!

then after that, i went to the lab.. and as usual my sweet tooth came and i have to go to the arcade for some yummy.. and guess what? the idiot came to the arcade and i am scolded for the second time! and i din bring admin with me.. left in bag.. so have to like siam here and there..

actually oso not principal catch.. is director.. i think they just wana put up something nice for credits.. please lor.. sbm is the most stingy one.. buay ta han..

ooh.. today i went to corpthorne orchid hotel for buffet.. my aunt's treat.. haha.. food there not so bad la.. but also nothing much special.. so.. after that went to town with ann.. while waiting to meet with mabel we walked around and i went to meet huishan. then ann went back and i meet up with mabel. ate and shopped around. and i bought a pair of boardshort from foxx man, FINALLY! haha.. was like wantin to buy for so long liao and today finally saw it.. offer item cost only 19 lor! hehe... aniwaes.. i will update again..

now in free access.. jus "accidentally" saw the sms in ur fone and i think there is a lot of things i din noe. call me tonite to tell me more k.. haha dun later say drift apart.. I AM HAPPY!!!! (as requested by herry) wahlao mao*2 i tell u everything u lidat treat me.. sux la u.. wad brudders... haha...

haha.. sometimes i think junxiong's blog got alot of wonderful entries that is realli worth the time to read.. jus wana let ya noe they are great.. and that its not rubbish.. dun listen to those who duno how to appreciate.. haha.. now in lab le getting ready for ICT presentation.. cya!

give me back the life that i deserve! i dont want those stupid resposibilities that i shouldnt be bearing. why cant i be just any other teens of my age?

ok.. now in e plaza doing MM and ICT exam at the same time.. and CANDISE next to me.. *(haha now i mentioned u in my blog liao rites?) was slacking for a moment.. but these few days havent been so good.. in fact the past weeeks havent been good.. sigh.. gary jioed me to seoul garden.. haha.. he's rite.. yrs since we last went.. remember those sec sch days where that is our fav hang out.. when ever there is event and we release sch early... its a sure to go there.. then after that we got the discount card its even more crazy.. it has been a place that i am attached to cos its all our memories.. i can say gary is the one that realli noes me. life is actually not a waste to have wonderful family and also a friend. a true one. even now we were no longer classmates and neighbour i think the friendship is stronger.. must go on k! lolz.. must dedicate to him this post.. haha..

a meaningful post..

.:. On earth... .:.
Earth seems to be a interesting planet.
A planet with living beings on it.
Place with feelings around wherever you go.
Don't look down on feelings.
Cause thats the biggest weapon to overcome anything.
Anger, Courage, Love, Hatred, Confident, Sad, Joyous
These are the feelings of us.
Living beings on this planet.
You use different feeling for different area in your life.
But many neglect the positive feelings.
They rather choose the negative feelings.
Which makes me think.
Thinking on the feelings i use..
i think, thinking of many scenes in my memories.
Memories can't be brought back.
It lives in me always.
Always in me, That me, staying on earth...

courtesy of cjx's blog.

last night was like crazy lor! thunder storm.. lightning non stop.. lightning until very scary.. can see the lightning really "strike across the sky" literally. then somemore i still sleeping in my mum's room and my face is facing the window! aiyo.. for a moment i tot the end is coming.. but luckily i am still here.. ahaha.. crazy me saying crazy thing.. cya..

my oh my.. yest there is a grouping for another module.. and as usual i am excluded.. sigh.. it breaks my heart when i see my friends realli forget me..

i cant help but keep thinking, is it reali my fault and all thesE? wad haf i done that they have to do this to me? the second time their project doesnt includes me, i am realli shattered.

someone's hp also no longer our foto le.. last time its always 3 of us.. now its 2 of u and someone else.. y did things turned out to be like this? am i really out le? i noe now u all have ur own gang le.. i feel like a "outsider".. y!?

but today "he" offered me a sweet! haha.. happy like hell only.. hope things will go better ba.. *dream*

aiya.. i lost my hp accessory.. the "crow".. someone pulled it off while i am walking and now only the hook is there.. our bad boy accessory also pulled off.. who the hell did that i don't know.. but now i just noe that the lasts of my common identity with "them" is now gone. no more crow.. no more bad boys.. even their biz law group does not includes me.. sigh.. maybe angi is right.. i shouldnt have taken so many photos with them with me in the middle.. its suppose to be inauspicious and the middle guy will break off with the other two friends.. sigh... hope its not true k..

i cant help but feel i am a failure in all my friendships in the class.. well.. like someone once said, u can be a good classmate but necessary a good friend. maybe i am not well enough for them.. maybe i am not good enough for you!

"i didnt say hate coz at least theres Kang an n Junxiong in the klass.. the reason bein most of them are so cheeeeeennaaaaaa... talkin in chinese 24/7.. but at least i met new good frens like Jess and QQ.. yea.. and wat happen to u KELVIN KHO... even u've joined em.. "

Wow. its my fault again. :)

How Many Friends?
The old man turned to me and asked
"How many friends have you?"
Why 10 or 20 friends have I,
And named off just a few...He
rose quite slow with effort
And sadly shook his head"A lucky child you are
To have so many friends," he said
But think of what you're saying
There is so much you do not know
A friend is just not someone
To whom you say "Hello"
A friends a tender shoulder
On which to softly cry
A well to pour your troubles down
And raise your spirits high
A friend is a hand to pull you up
From darkness and despair...
When all your other "so called" friends
Have helped to put you there
A true friend is an ally
Who can't be moved or bought
A voice to keep your name alive
When others have forgot
But most of all a friend is a heart
A strong and sturdy wall
For from the hearts of friends
There comes the greatest love of all!!!
So think of what I've spoken
For every word is true
And answer once again my child
How many friends have you???

as seen on jun xiong's bloggie..

how many friends have i?

so long no talk to xiong le.. last nite i called him.. had a nice long talk.. and finally i can talk to someone who understands me.. and finally someone can listen to what i wana say..

wo shi lian le.. hai shi ta cong lai dou mei you kai shi guo?

i dont know.. maybe u can give me the answer?

George Benson - Nothing's Gonna Change My Love For You

If I had to life without you near me
The days would all be empty
The nights would seem so long
With you I see forever oh so early
I might have been in love before
But it never felt this strong
Our dreams are young and we both know
They'll take us where we want to go
Hold me now, touch me now
I don't want to live without you

[Chorus]
Nothing's gonna change my love for you
You oughta know by now how much I love you
One thing you can be sure of
I'll never ask for more than your love
Nothing's gonna change my love for you
You oughta know by now how much I love you
The world may change my whole life through
But nothing's gonna change my love for you

If the road ahead is not so easy
Our love will lead the way for us
Like a guiding star
I'll be there for you if you should need me
You don't have to change a thing
I love you just the way you are
So come with me and share the view
I'll help you see forever too
Hold me now, touch me now
I don't want to live without you

its our song.. and it will always be..