to my aunt who don't read my blog.

i flared today. i screamed at aunt.

i am quite guilty cos after all she is elder and its not very nice. but sometimes the things she do is really quite too much and this time round concerning my sister i have to talk it out to her. maybe, my approach is wrong.

i will use a better approach next time, my apologies...

solved.

sometimes i think that i need to just move to another place where no one knows me and start all over again.




maybe that will just solve all the problems.

小年夜。

今天是小年夜，再过没多久就是除夕了。


而我却到了现在都还在大扫除，真是临时抱佛脚啊！





其实过年是不错的。因为需要大扫除的时候，可以借机把一些平时丢不掉、割舍不了的东西，统统倒进垃圾桶里！:)

倒是老妈就别再唠叨啦！拜托拜托！现在不就打扫干净了嘛。。


在此先恭祝各位：

财源广进、身体健康、心想事成！

Said.

你可知道，说出去的话就有如覆水难收。

you can delete the things you've said, but you can't change the fact that you have said those words, nor can you reverse the damage caused.

Masquerade.

i've recently seen quite a few jokers being

very good 'actors' and 'actresses',

saying one thing and doing another.

只要 · 一个人就好

為什麼 越相信誰能依靠
越換來 又一次靈魂寂寥
有沒有永遠 再不會讓心絕望的解藥

High maintenance.

and so i realised, that sometimes 一面的一厢情愿 will usually land you in very sad situations.

like not getting the things/responses that you want.

and worse, you might even end up with people irritating/annoyed of you. and cos of what? not that you are not putting any effort into maintaining the relationship, but its when what you're giving is too much for them to handle, and they will easily brush you off as 'asking for too much'.

am i really so high maintenance? maybe different people would have different answer..



sometimes i am so sick of how things is going, that i got no one to share how i am feeling with.

等等等等.

我.. 是什么？

只是你填充空闲时间的一个人吗？



无止境的等让我觉得好累.. 或许是我想太多了吧？

改变所有的错。

今天就是将来的以前, 与其总想着从头再来, 不如从现在开始好好地过, 不要让将来的自己后悔。

Roooaaarrr...

in ten days its cny.

the traditions are really wearing out. i think the society have reached a point where they no longer care about festivals like these. i remembered, when i was much younger, the atmosphere would already be real good if its ten days before cny.

but right now all i see is sparingly deco-ed places. but at least i still hear alot of cny songs la.. hehe.. i like those old old, 'off beat' 80s kind.. need to be that kind that will have the gong xi fa cai feel! i'll be blasting them on chu 1!

any, its going to be my year this year. will it be a good year?

you have 1 new message.

but i want my tau huay lei... ;(

你还记得吗？

ai. 爱.

叫我怎么能不难过
你劝我灭了心中的火
我还能够怎么说 怎么说都是错

你对我说 离开就会解脱
试著自已去生活
试著找寻自我 别再为爱蹉跎

只是 爱要怎么说出口 我的心里好难受
如果能将你拥有 我会忍住不让眼泪流
第一次握你的手 指尖传来你的温柔
每一次深情眼光的背后
谁知道会有多少愁 多少愁

叫我怎么能不难过
你劝我灭了心中的火
我还能怎么做 怎么做都是错

如果要我 把心对你解剖
只要改变这结果
我会说我愿意做 我受够了寂寞

只是 爱要怎么说出口
我的心里好难受
如果能将你拥有 我会忍住不让眼泪流
第一次握你的手 指尖传来你的温柔
每一次深情眼光的背后
谁知道会有多少愁 多少愁

爱要怎么说出口 我的心里好难受
如果能将你拥有 我会忍住不让眼泪流
第一次握你的手 指尖传来你的温柔
每一次深情眼光的背后
谁知道会有多少愁 多少愁

叫我怎么能不难过
你劝我灭了心中的火
我还能怎么说 怎么说都是错
你对我说 离开就会解脱
试著自已去生活
试著找寻自我 何必为爱蹉跎

help!

did anyone even realised i was in need of help?

or is it that i just seemed too nonchalant? i am just too afraid to look like i am trying too hard, like an attention sucker..

一月五日，晴。

下雨也好 迷路也好
空气里有种相依为命的味道
爱你很好 连风都知道
第一次心甘情愿不想逃

当爱 相随
能完美一切不完美
当你 皱眉
我陪你留在天黑的世界

我们是座城堡
爱情放在里面很好
就算没有人看好
幸福是因为互相依靠
爱情这座城堡
牵著手才能找到
当我们彼此微笑 请不要打扰

into 2010.

and i realise, i have been much neglecting my blog. its too much of a convenience to just upload how i feel as and when i can on the profile status, that i had became so lazy to even pen out my thoughts properly! its starting to show its damage at work recently and i think its high time that i go back to blogging to at least have a practice of writing a longer passage that makes sense.

so, its the first day of the new decade! happy new year my readers! (if theres still any.)

the past year had been one of many changes.. i'm done with NS, got a job and started working back at Dsg. like what Ah Jie says- 2009 has been a yr of changes, challenges and lots of cheeriness, including knowing colleagues who became lunch khakis and much more! for my team managers who have been tolerating and teaching, thanks! and also siang, ah jie and jacq who has added so much colors to my life. siang and ah jie, i will constantly remind myself not to say that i have no friends!

dad is also back home.. though i think we are all still getting used to having each other around, haha! things will be better. ;)

i hope, that this 2010 will be a better one, with all the issues we have at home can be settled in the real near future. also hope that i can get back to school soon, and save up more money to travel around this wonderful world!

to talk, not to talk.

some times i wonder, whats the point in putting in the effort in commuicating.

Yes i know, u r trying too, but u just have to change the way u want things work. not always wanting people to only agree with u, but pls also open up and take in opinions..

level 1.

那可怕的无力感又再度来袭。


该怎么样才能把它赶走？

secret.

i'm hiding the biggest secret.

everything is going to be alright.

grandpa is hospitalized. he fell and has a cut on his forehead, which needs 6 stitches.




i'm feeling damn guilty cos i am not doing my part enough! and i should start by visiting them more often..