nite cycle trip #5

its the fifth time we have nite cycle! routes have ranged from ECP, Changi V and airport runway. But this time round, we went to GEYLANG~! woohoo. Crew includes Herry, Hao, Jx, Ter, Jess, Yh, QQ, Cd. out of them its me, herry and jx who had been in for all the five trips. *JJJ ROX*

As usual, they are FREAKING LATE, which i don't understand why. all of them don't work and they are still late for near to one and half hour. I GOT WORK I STILL REACH EARLY CAN!! -_-"

the bikes suck. they don't give us discounts like they used to anymore.. citing "renovation liao then mor ex" as an excuse.. but the new bikes are not even better then those old one! those seats.. omg we are just starting and everyone's butt is like pain liao lor. CONDEMN next time find another shop!! haa..

ate alot for this trip too! its like an endless supper.. best is the tau huay at geylang la.. where we rest and talk.. and discussions lead to topics that is closely linked to geylang.. Jx has all the best insights! he must have alot of experience. ha! the way he give his comments confidently. ooh~

all activities ends at mcd as usual.. where we have our breakfast.. overall i think its considered a successful outing? just that i hate it when they are so late laa.. haa! was very tired after that with the tighs and ass that is hurting like hell.. gotta go rest liao!


ciao~

Defeat vs Giving Up

i don't know anymore.

若應有的生氣與不快盡只被失望取而代之，那麽到底還剩下些什麽？




5是一個漂亮的數字。就讓他停在這裡，留一個美好的記憶吧。

不要再有“以後”了..

Fashion show?!

yays went to the first fashion show of my life. but a kinda flop one. haa! its the levi's copper fashion show. went cos dickson has tix and no one to go with so i went with him lor. its actually the first time i am going out with a net friend, but luckily things are still not so bad and we can chat alot. well we already talk alot online, so not much diff. he's taller than i tot! haa...

anw, on why the show is a flop? we go as members but were given not so good seats. the door gifts on the chair is all koped by people. sucky arrangement laa... what to do? must see which company also. haha!

after that we were shopping ard and ate dinner at the heeren wanton mee, followed by fav-ed tau huay at short street. but then the standard dropped so much!! =( i am going to give them only two more chances, if things arent changing for the better they will have to go off my list of yum yum.

i need more energy!

haven't blogged for quite long.. and dun think i got energy now.. i don't know why i feel SO drained. i am even starting to question myself how am i going to nite cycle with the gang this coming friday. but anws, i have already gave my words to Herr Bro so i will go!

last sat, went to the xin yao concert at stadium.. the supposedly "last major commercial event at the national stadium that is going to be closed in june". kind of a sad feeling.. cos i was actually quite attached to that place. watching ndp near to ten years there.. was there is pri sch years to support my fren for national track and field.. was there when fandi ahmad scored goal.. was there at Kallang roar and wave.. was part of THAT era.

an era that will soon be gone. national theater was gone. national library was gone. now even national stadium is going to be gone. i wonder what will be left to our nation. yes progress, better facilities, but 就是少了那麽一點人情味吧。

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anw, i have also started working, after the three weeks "break" i gave myself after i grad-ed.. and its really very tough! got too used to the timing of sleeping at the wee hours. now that i have to wake up real early, get to office and work during the timing when i was napping and having all the snacks - in short, enjoying life.

Life is a contradict!! when you are free, you cant really enjoy, cos no work = no money. when you got money, you cant enjoy cos got money = got work = really no time. now i believe, why people say they no time to execise when they work. its cos of the fatigue that makes them no more energy to move ard.


sadly, i am one of them. =(

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hasn't seen the gang for a long time. like one week? hey thats considered long ok! considering i see them like everyday for the near to past 3 years.. couldnt join them for tmnt yesterday as i was working.. bleahs! wanted to watch that show de.. now that they have all watched, i guess i'll just have to wait for the dvd to be out lor. hao's back from taiwan, check out his blog for those nice sceneries he captured along the trip!

talking about going overseas.. i really envy them! 我也要我的畢業旅行！！！ but i dun think its possible le ba. haha. maybe.. after ns?

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herry is going to be enlisted on 10 apr. i will be going to send him off at tekong. haha! so fast.. time flies.. i think within a few more blinks of the eyes.. we will be going to each other's wedding banquets liao.. and that is another scary thot!!!!

i wanna stay young, carefree and have nothing to worry about.

but thats not possible. time waits for no one yea. and therefore, its more important to cherish what we have right now! thats the common mentality that me and hao shares. and i hope, the rest of the gang will share with me too!

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ok this post is kind of cha pa lang and random. bye!

我很怕

scared.. that i could no longer take it. that i will just give up on my own..


that i could no longer find any more strength to brave all these invisible pressure that i has..

RROOAARR!!

i felt like stretching out my hand. but the thought that there aren't anyone there to rescue me turns me off the idea.. stretching out but only to the air? thanks but no thanks.

i more or less had enough at home. that stupid issue that someone thinks that i am unwilling to help is driving me up my blood pressure. when will this damn stupid thing going to stop?
stop questioning me as if i am the ungrateful bastard that cares only for myself! but that's nothing new yea.. who had been listening to what i wanna say? no one.

so much for the frustration, and things aren't getting better. finally i succumbed to the sickness and went to see the doc. asthma is acting up and i got lotsa pills to pop. meeting with xiu today had to be cancelled at the very last min and i am really sorry yea! will make it up soon! after you are back from taiwan.. ^^

as for the time being, i don't know when will the pressure cooker in me explode. i dun dare to wish for things to get better, but i jus hope it dont get worse. =(

Yea yea.

you can go to hell bastard. i don't need a friend like you. what's the use of clinging on when things aren't getting better? i give up.


sometimes, things just arent the way it seem to be.

i don't care! get it! do what ever you want and u think its correct.

DAMMIT!

that bitch ruined my hair!!! i will never go there to cut my hair! NEVER!

now, i look like some toot toot boy. knn!!!!




i is angry. sorry for the vulgarness. =)

now playing: 孫燕姿 - 雨天

站在十字路的交点
该怎么走 我却只剩回头
除了你给的伞我再也没有
别的借口 去拥有你的什么

你能体谅我有雨天
偶尔胆怯你都了解
过去那些大雨落下的瞬间
我突然发现

谁能体谅我的雨天
所以情愿回你身边
此刻脚步会慢一些
如此坚决
你却越来越远

牵手和分手来自同一双手
做回朋友 我却为何不懂挽留

是否太晚路已走远
我的眼眶泪太满
走不回你身边


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havent been raining for quite some time.. or its just that i did not notice?

just rained. was looking out of the window.. looking at the rain.. thinking..

havent done that for a long time liao. it just sets me.. thinking.

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going to interview tmr! havent been to one for a long long time... even thou its conducted by familiar faces but it is just very stressful! dun like.. but well that is something that has to be done! otherwise no job.. no life.. haha!

hope that everything will be fine~!

Truth.

the truth hurts, yet its even worst knowing that u're in it ALONE.

i saw this sentence in jessica anne's blog. well, how true? what's worse than being the last one to know..

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i received a letter from nyp today.

We are pleased to inform you that the Assessment Board has, on 14 March 2007, conferred on you the DIPLOMA IN BUSINESS MANAGEMENT.

Congratulations!!

err, kind of mixed feelings. haha. are they so rushing to send us off into the society to die? haa!

damn bored today! sort of feeling down at home.. i dun like this kinda feeling.. why do i feel like my world is crumbling down?

無題

反正你就是喜歡說我漠不關心。我還能說什麽？而我說的，有真得那麽重要嗎？如果真是，那爲什麽沒人在聼。。

我受夠了！我真的累了。。

tau huay break.

met up with chelle today. think of the 7 years we know eachother.. this is the first outing.. only us. ha!

from serangoon-dhoby ghaut-outram park-chinatown-serangoon. travelled alot! wanted some movie but chelle dun really like movies.. and also its kinda like wasting time la. could be better spent bonding and chatting. ate at rochor tau huay.. and ate alot! wanted to skip dinner but forgot abt it and we went to eat kfc zinger meal.. =( diet mission FAIL!

more activities coming please... =)

late night supper.

supper last thurs nite with chelle and vic! Was a very last min supper..

vic called chelle @ 11 plus and offered to drive us there. so we ate at amk S11 and after that decided to rot at Serangoon MAc. was talking.. eating.. slacking.. Time really flies! suddenly i realise that i have known them for 7 years.. i am glad we are still in touch.

More of these kind of gatherings please..! very destressing. haa!

with chelle.

with vic.

results for exam is out.

.: W.H :. says:
we grad le
wahahaha
waiting for our papers now!

yup, passed all modules! with that, its really the end le.

VERY not satisfied with the result. those that i tot i did well, i flop. those that i tot wasnt good, it turned out ok. and i got a present from "victim of a childish act" wor.. thief shout thief. i arent surprised about the outcome of that project. well, thats how the society works la. those who know how to tell tales will win.

apart from that, i reckon there is still room for celebration yea.. hehe. so cheerios! activities most prob will start when hao's back.. gotta wait for him la ! haa..

PLEASE~~~!!!!

someone get me the dvd for hana kimi can!!! i will be eternal greatful!!!!

i so wanna own the complete set!!

=( but i don't.

nite nite.

its late! 3.20 am le but i still cant sleep. (must be the nap at 8pm.)

and worse, i cant log on to msn! =(

sianz.

EMO

.: W.H :. says:
its a path to choose mah
different ppl will be waiting at different end
its as good as saying from now, we are splitting!
we know
but we do not speak it out

the above emo conversation with hao is started by his emo post as follows.

I went Dim Sum Buffet as organised by Xue Li and went singing session at Ten Dollar Club with yong hui(jay zhou), qq (Pu Xue Liang!), jx (andy lau), chang da (wang li hom) and kelvin (lee sheng jie!). The meal was hearty and i almost vomit out since i ate with no limits. But its the singing session that starts making me wonder ...

What a emotional day for me as my brain finally can't block the urge to think wad's the future for me, and this group of friends whom i've spent 2-3 interesting years with countless memorable events. I really don't know. It's this uncertainty that sets me into a confused and lost feeling which i don't usually faced!

Being emotional a.k.a EMO is not a familiar habit for me but still i know i can manage it. However, a loss of word in describing how i feel currently. So plain in my mind now.

It's a sign for a brand new start? or is it time to sleep? LOL. Will do the thinking these few daes or maybe even in taiwan where it's a 'no-friends' environment. Only family.

(I wonder what will happen to them when i'm in taiwan ..... )

(Will i leave a empty space inside their heart when i leave? ..... )

Sometimes i wonder ...

i hate making that choice that hao is saying. i know myself, that is i got too comfortable in my comfort zone and is reluctant to leave. i mean.. we are all so into each other's life for the past 3 years can! its not easy.. to leave.. to let go.. it never is...

i hate to make choices/decisions that is life-changing. to make things worse, i am in the stage of my life where alot of these decision makings are happening.. too much changes.. more than what i can handle. the "friends" issue is jus a starting point.. which will eventually root out to more decisions that is coming my way. but of cos, i do hope i can handle them well!

anw.. i still hope that this cycle of friends in my poly life will stay forever.. i dun dare to ask for all of them to be.. but i will make my effort on my part.. and i hope it will be reciprocated yea.. single hand cant clap. lol. and of cos, the creator of this emo feeling mr lee wei hao will be one of them who stays. haa!

and the rotting continues.

as much as i want to get out and stop rotting, the financial status of me now does not allow me to. its all "outs" and no "ins" can! anw, hope i can go back to Dsg to work. have already sent the resume back to them liao. hohoho. lucky i sms HY to ask her bout temp-ing there..

anw, i have finished 花樣 too! ok i am abit slow.. but thats cos i waited for cousin to lend me the dvd and so i can watch it in comfort lah.. haa.. its not as flop as all had said la.. some may complaint that it is too ambiguous but i think that it is still ok lo. its just trying to 延續 the idea of the show, that is 曖昧是愛裏最美的. so what if rui xi does not know that quan already know she is a "she"? she knows that he love her. she more or less can guess that he knows she is a girl. then jiu hao liao ma. it also leaves clue that there is a part two.. aren't that better!! but must be the same cast la.. otherwise the feeling is all diff liao.. look what happen to goong S. total flop. haha!

quotes: from DTF

“这么多年，你现在才知道我好啊？” Ah Toot说了这句话，停顿了一下。在那一瞬间，我似乎可以感觉到他心里的伤感。但，他很快就把话当玩笑，开心地笑了。

i don't know why, but this sentence have a 淡淡的憂傷。

sick tired

hate to face this time over and again! i noe 家家有本難念的經 but why is mine never ending?

just when i tot peace is here, things happen over and again jus to prove me wrong. when will peaceful life come? i dun even dare to think what things would become when i go to the army...

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its msia trip again today! but response was cold. only me and ka and qq and hao and hitsu. hitsu is last min i ask her go de. hoo~! little shopping, just went in there to eat.. cant really find the things that i wanna buy leh. maybe can cut down the number of times going in liao lo..

also, went to jx's house. first time hor, haha! no la. jus go there sit sit bond bond. cos the rest wanna go there dunno do what so i go together lo! life's been pretty mundane recently.. how long more can i hang on?