buffet!

haha my fav food is in the topic again for today's post.. cos my uncle borthday mah.. so got buffet lor.. had quite an enjoyable time at night with the mahjong.. lol.. hafta unwind mah.. and very paiseh lor win whole nite... my aunts and grandma killing me with their sharp eyes! haha then toked a lot too lor..

sing sing sing...

haha i am really happy today lor went out with mabel, george, and a new friend, meiling, who is mabel's friend. we first meet at cine there.. first time i on time lor then all the rest of them late.. sigh.. haha then we ate at the edo sushi there its so sux lor not nice one.. blacklisted sia.. then we went k box.. haha sori i noe my voice very nan ting.. but i realli like to sing.. also only u all can tolerate lor lol.. got go for neoprints too.. routine.. then after singing for 5 hrs mabel and meiling want to watch movie at 11.45.. then me and george wait with them lor eat at the cafe there.. till 11+.. then me and george leave but i stomache! then i went toilet.. then for the rest of the trip i ran like hell.. run for the last train.. last bus back home.. and finally reach home.. haha.. well.. u all willing to come out with me today.. i really appreciate it.. it really brightens up my this "dark period" that i driving me crazy already.. like mabel.. we r so close to the extend that we nearly sms everyday! everytime i feel real low.. her sms will suddenly appear one lor.. really like that kind "brighten up ur dae" one u noe.. that is why i really treasure this friendship.. cos i noe it doesnt come easily.. love ya all!

if the circumstances allows u, will i have a chance?

thats wad i ask u today.. the answer, i think its quite negative. its not that i hope u will do anything. but i jus want my feelings to be known.. u ming bai ma?

finally.. exam finish! hooray!

yay the exam finally finish today.. but no celebration for me.. so not me again rit? well.. for those who noe why.. good.. for those who dont.. its for u to find out! i think i will go celebrate my self.. see wait for jenn they all or wad lor all will see first..

meeting up

today michelle came to our school! haha cos her holiday mah.. was wondering why she find me when i see the miss calls.. cos she seldom finds me.. then i call back and she told me she is here lor.. waited for jennifer's presentation to finish and went home together.. talked alot.. jus like went back to the peicai days lor.. so nice.. its wad i always missed.. that is why i say.. my sec sch buddies are still the bestest frens i ever have.

first paper!!

today, i had my first paper in the first exam of the first semester of my poly life! and i started with a mess lor! i the morning then i stomache liao.. have to go toilet so many time.. until i have to take a cab. then leh.. i cant get a cab lor! its already 8.35 and my paper starts at 9!!! i was like.. shit.. this time really die.. then this cab came lor.. thank god. then this stupid uncle also dunno how to drive and never ask.. jus anyhow drive.. waste so much time.. when i enter the hall reading time started.. its stats paper lor.. i oso dunno is cause i nervous or wad.. but personally i dun feel nervous.. then as i do the chi-square question, half way i draw the table have to go toilet again!!! luckily i manage to finish off in 15 min.. if not die sure cannot finish the paper!

back for more revision..

today i went to library to study with herry, simran, junxiong, kang an, diyana and sammy. then do stats lor.. do and do.. actually i am really tired liao lor.. i think i finished all the past yr paper liao! but then do more also no harm wad.. exam period leh..

accounts?!

ooh thanks ya so much herry!!! for purposely cumming back to school to teach me accounts.. really learnt a lot and u really encouraged me a lot. haha.. i hope i wun disappoint you huh..

aniwae, met lay yin and bethia at mac.. they are there for project.. and lay yin gave me a get well soon card lor i am so touched! i put on my nick at msn.. a small corner.. and u r really observant enuf to see it lor! then after revision i went home with bethia.. i will continue to mug lor! only success, no failure!

sick..

when u r suay.. it just keeps going.. wun end.. sick for the past 2 days already.. throat pain and all sorts of nonsense.. why come at this time.. wasted so much time of the study week and i cant study at all lor.. felt so tired after taking the medicine.. some more fraw jie also borrowed my econs notes.. i feel so weak.. i dunno where to start studying..

Is everything illusions?

for the first time in my life.. i felt like i was treated like cheap dirt.. like some sort of plague that everyone is avoiding.. i dunno why am i suffering from all these you know? some people i know.. even if they are the most hated and unliked ones in the gang, they still have a bunch of pals that are with them, never left out. am i so bad to that extent that i cant even be compared to them? i dun even have anyone whom i can confide in! today is the last day of school for this samester.. and its also the first time i went home alone.. not even having any friends with me to the mrt.. so not me rite? i cant believe it either. but that is a moment when i tell myself: why b so cheap? but.. pls, is this all i deserve? living alone in this cruel world.. bearing the stares of others.. all by myself.. if thats the case.. why let me live in the first place? i am lost in this life... everything thats happening is tearing my heart apart..

2257hrs

2257hrs of 8th October.. a day i will remember.. finally.. i mustered all my courage and tell u.. i like u... haha i also duno wad got over me lor.. maybe is really ren bu zhu le lor.. well.. i've got ur answer.. i noe u r now in a realtionship.. but i will still always be here for u.. jus as usual..

no acc tut... yay...

haha today duno y accounts tut cancelled.. then got 5 hours of break lor lol... went with peishi, terissa, beeleng, jane, junxiong, kang an, and herry to watch white chicks at j8. so nice lor so funny... had a great laugh.. sigh... havent that familiar laughter that always come from me been gone for a long time?

aniwae, fraw jie is back to school today! so happy to see her back.. missed her so much that i gave her a hug! thou she is still quite troubled these few days over some of her private matters.. hope she can get happy soon..

After thinking..

Sigh.. maybe Peishi is rite.. maybe we r not frens to that long of an extent yet.. only a few months.. but i do cherish all these k?