REcap for the past week

sorry man i missed out posting for soo soo long!!! hais. wasn't in the mood to really do anything. work has been quite hectic but i aren't really in the mood. some things pending undone but i said i will finish it in a quite unrealistic time frame. dooms day man.

anyways, went to collect my grad robe, finally! last sat - the last day to collect - typical kk. pretty last min. haha. went with herry and saw loy there and also dilys. i wanna say sorry to loy cos i neglected him! haha.. but wells, i saw his gf. i am happy that my friends are finding the love that belongs to them!!! also chatted with dilys at mc, must go place in sch. talking about school, quite a few changes already in this short period of time i left school. Fj no more!! its now kou fu. -_- north canteen is also renovated. sighs.. 變是唯一的不變！

the day continues when i went to j8 to meet rena, yan and joey. i have not seen the darlings for sucha long time!!! went arcade siao and shopping ard before rena meets family and the couple goes to movie.

the rest of the day goes by rather mundane-ly. nothing much happened. yes life IS that boring. haha. i wonder what will happen when i really step into the working world after i finish serving ns. omfg. i dun even wanna think about it right now. haha.

oh yea. i fixed scv in my home. like finally. and after 2 days of non-stop-watching-tv-on-cable, i found out how deprived i have been of good tv show. screw those crap that mediacorp has been showing us! no wonder taiwan has a entertainment industry that is so prosperous. look at the programmes that they produce - quality entertainment variety shows. and they dun even need to have scary drag queens to scare the kids - yes i am referring to jack neo.

so, that is also another reason for the lack of post. am too engrossed in the shows. haha.

and to yuping - stop calling me auntie sha shou!
and to peter - thanks very much for sending me home todaY!
and to eugene - thanks for the teh c today!
and to sandy and connie - thanks for the cakes and tarts today!



oh yea! ahao, if u see this, i saw you at my work place today! yes designsingapore. i am working there. part time. hohoho.



goodnights!

蜻蜓 · 戀人

　　那是一個非常寧靜而美麗的小城﹐有一對非常恩愛的戀人﹐他們每天都去海邊看日出﹐晚上去海邊送夕陽﹐每個見過他們的人都向他們投來羨慕的目光……

　　可是有一天﹐在一場車禍中﹐女孩不幸受了重傷﹐她靜靜地躺在醫院的病床上﹐幾天幾夜都沒有醒過來。白天﹐男孩就守在床前不停地呼喚毫無知覺的戀人﹔晚上﹐他就跑到小城的教堂裡向上帝禱告﹐他已經哭乾了眼淚。


　　一個月過去了﹐女孩仍然昏睡著﹐而男孩早已憔悴不堪了﹐但他仍苦苦地支撐著。終於有一天﹐上帝被這個痴情的男孩感動了。於是他決定給這個執著的男孩一個例外。上帝問他﹕“你願意用自己的生命作為交換嗎﹖”男孩毫不猶豫地回答﹕“我願意﹗”上帝說﹕“那好吧﹐我可以讓你的戀人很快醒過來﹐但你要答應化作三年的蜻蜓﹐你願意嗎﹖”男孩聽了﹐還是堅定地回答道﹕“我願意﹗”


　　天亮了﹐男孩已經變成了一隻漂亮的蜻蜓﹐他告別了上帝便匆匆地飛到了醫院。女孩真的醒了﹐而且她還在跟身旁的一位醫生交談著什麼﹐可惜他聽不到。


　　幾天後﹐女孩便康復出院了﹐但是她並不快樂。她四處打聽著男孩的下落﹐但沒有人知道男孩究竟去了哪裡。女孩整天不停地尋找著﹐然而早已化身成蜻蜓的男孩卻無時無刻不圍繞在她身邊﹐只是他不會呼喊﹐不會擁抱﹐他只能默默地承受著她的視而不見。夏天過去了﹐秋天的涼風吹落了樹葉﹐蜻蜓不得不離開這裡。於是他最後一次飛落在女孩的肩上。他想用自己的翅膀撫摸她的臉﹐用細小的嘴來親吻她的額頭﹐然而他弱小的身體還是不足以被她發現。


　　轉眼間﹐春天來了﹐蜻蜓迫不及待地飛回來尋找自己的戀人。然而﹐她那熟悉的身影旁站著一個高大而英俊的男人﹐那一剎那﹐蜻蜓幾乎快從半空中墜落下來。人們講起車禍後女孩病得多麼的嚴重﹐描述著那名男醫生有多麼的善良﹑可愛﹐還描述著他們的愛情有多麼的理所當然﹐當然也描述了女孩已經快樂如從前。


　　蜻蜓傷心極了﹐在接下來的幾天中﹐他常常會看到那個男人帶著自己的戀人在海邊看日出﹐晚上又在海邊看日落﹐而他自己除了偶爾能停落在她的肩上以外﹐什麼也做不了。


　　這一年的夏天特別長﹐蜻蜓每天痛苦地低飛著﹐他已經沒有勇氣接近自己昔日的戀人。她和那男人之間的喃喃細語﹐他和她快樂的笑聲﹐都令他窒息。


　　第三年的夏天﹐蜻蜓已不再常常去看望自己的戀人了。她的肩被男醫生輕擁著﹐臉被男醫生輕輕地吻著﹐根本沒有時間去留意一隻傷心的蜻蜓﹐更沒有心情去懷唸過去。


　　上帝約定的三年期限很快就要到了。就在最後一天﹐蜻蜓昔日的戀人跟那個男醫生舉行了婚禮。
　　蜻蜓悄悄地飛進教堂﹐落在上帝的肩膀上﹐他聽到下面的戀人對上帝發誓說﹕我願意﹗他看著那個男醫生把戒指戴到昔日戀人的手上﹐然後看著他們甜蜜地親吻著。蜻蜓流下了傷心的淚水。


　　上帝嘆息著﹕“你後悔了嗎﹖”蜻蜓擦乾了眼淚﹕“沒有﹗”上帝又帶著一絲愉悅說﹕“那麼﹐明天你就可以變回你自己了。”蜻蜓搖了搖頭﹕“就讓我做一輩子蜻蜓吧……”






有些緣份是註定要失去的。愛一個人不一定要擁有﹐但擁有一個人就一定要好好去愛他。你的肩上有蜻蜓嗎﹖

Fool.

damns.
i am the biggest fucking fool on earth.
how on earth can i,
go and accompany the girl i like to buy a present for her boyfriend!

i just hate.

can? the kind of people i know, the kind of things i do, everything.

f-

y cant mum just be more understanding and stop buzzing me with all those nonsense things? yes i do love my parents, but sometimes, it just reach a point where i have had enough and i just feel like runningg awayyy. far far awayyy.

爱 · 孤独

康正行 余守恒 杜慧嘉
三个 孤独的心灵
最孤独的不是没人爱
而是 所爱的人在眼前
却不能说出口
因为一旦说出口
一切就可能都会改变
维持现状
成了最奢侈的愿望
心里的拉扯
却让自己陷入矛盾的万劫不复之地

小时候因为太皮而被杯葛的他
独自坐在公车上流泪的他
坐在床边听着他的倾诉的她
都是 孤独的

“我们真的长大了
人长大了
真的什么都变了”

余守恒是这么说的
一切都不再单纯
一切也都无法再单纯




曾经在那个盛夏
他喜欢上他
用了一光年的时间
陪伴在他的身边
彗星擦身而过
惊醒了 这一片宁静

人都必须长大
不是吗？

Cute!

YS bring her boy boy to office last fri-! cute cute but act shy no want to talk. haha!

i love...

KRISPY KREME!!!! saw the big box on my desk when i reach office yesterday morning.. and it just made my day can!


i totally heart Eugene who got it back from his Australia work trip!!! omfg. u cant imagine how nice it is until u have tasted it!!! thanks Eugene!!! 沒有白費我平時為你們rush invoice and payments。哈哈！

Gary.

my best friend. ten years in to the friendship. one who bothers to remember my birthday. one who bothers to ask me out when holiday comes. hes always been there.

we've had quarrels before, but things got back into shape. discussed about girls and other stuff. yea he got attached before me. mum was kidding me that i lose out la.. but i am more happier for him than anything else.

yea mum noes him too. we're neighbours - next door kind. not a few blocks away hor. lol. thou he has moved away for some time, we still meet up as often, and i can always make myself feel home - at his home. will never forget the times we go for neo prints at hougang, bubble tea, buying them or even making them at home. the tuition, the shopping, the late night craving for ica kachang we have.

i often ask, how often can we find friends thats so dear? Mabel says, whats more important is that we have 1, but not how many we have. quality over quantity yea?

he's enlisted today. am supp to go send him at tekong this morn but had to be in office. part of me was sad cos i cant be there. but thinking back, maybe it would be a blessing in disguise. imagine me, emo, stand there, wave good bye. OMG hilarious i cant imagine. haha. HAHA!

wells, he called me. just! called to tell that he has been well and how it is inside.. frankly, i am touched. cos he made the effort to at least call me to let me know he's well la.. haha.

soon! i'll join u in serving the nation!! =)

now playing: 萬芳 - 新不了情

心若倦了泪也干了
这份深情难舍难了
曾经拥有天荒地老
这一份情永远难了
愿来生还能再度拥抱
爱一个人如何斯守到老
怎样面对一切我不知道
回忆过去痛苦的相思忘不了
为何你还来拨动我心跳
爱你怎么能了
今夜的你应该明了
缘难了情难了

已不见你暮暮与朝朝
这一份情永远难了
愿来生还能再度拥抱
爱一个人如何斯守到老
怎样面对一切我不知道
回忆过去痛苦的相思忘不了
为何你还来拨动我心跳
爱你怎么能了
今夜的你应该明了
缘难了情难了

buzz off.

heard if the saying that best friends share your joys and tears?

i can tell you,





ITS FAKE.

i didn't know,

its just so fucked up.

sometimesi really hoped that i never ever existed.

just what the fuck can.

Junxiong.

cited the first best friend i had in nyp. he is going to be enlisted to serve the nation tmr.

its a bottle of mixed feelings, that we friends one by one are going in.

over the three yrs of friendship, so much has happened. be it good or bad, it is part of our shared memories.

you're going into a new phrase of ur life! must take care. everything will be well. you will get good bunk mates, and "good friends" wun come and find you, haha!

*****

jus home not long ago. yea yea once again rushing for the last train home from town. dinner plus fantastic four II at cine. was there for JX's "bye bye boy boy life" outing! hmms. all will be well for u dun worry.

movie's nice, worth the watch. =)

*****

"dun worry. open up more to us and things can still be better yea!"

thanks for this reassurance given. it has given me a lil more of confidence to carry on things.. ^^

11th Jun - Cheryl's bdae.

horrendous.

lunch was at about 12 plus and i had wanton noodles.. felt it was not full enough and then i ta pao-ed a roti john back. just finished the roti john not long ago and jus when i put the last piece into my mouth, i realised that i am just damn bloody fat! that tummy.. omfg!

no more tea breaks!

chase.

everyone's chasing after something.
money? fame?
peace? happiness?


-but who has gotten it, anyway?

*****

another farewell lunch today. for Shirley and Yvonne who's leaving by the end of this week. seems like theres going to be less and less people around.. another expensive lunch, and that means i have gotta scrimp and save for the next, on top of the jacket i wanna buy, the eternal summer novel + sound track that has to be ordered from Taiwan cos its not available here only means it will cost more. how! how to save like that!

eat less eat less.

i think my diet has more or less turned me into a horrid pile of fatty flesh. cant believe that i actually ate two bowls of rice for today's lunch and even got myself a butter cake from toast box for tea..

anw, to counter this prob, i have decided that i REALLY will wake up in the morn to jog.. a desperate measure to shed some of those extra flesh on my face before graduation.. i wanna have pics that look good!!!! haish haish.. determination!!!

now playing: 龚诗嘉 - 再一次拥有

我想念去年的冬天
下着雪的那一夜
你给的温柔
紧握的双手
温暖整个寒冬

失去了曾经的拥有
在你离开以后
带走了笑容
只留下寂寞
忘了幸福是什么

没有你的夜特别的漆黑
只能闭上双眼去感觉
没有我的夜谁在你身边
代替了那个从前

能不能再听一次你说爱我
回到还在你怀里的时候
能不能让我再一次拥有
曾属于我的温柔
能不能让我再一次拥有
曾属于我的温柔

left or right?

YS sent me a test some days back. and today tEr send to me too. shall post it here!

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First, identify yourself as right or left brainperson:

1. Hold your hands together, as if you were praying. Look at your hands. If you see Left thumb is below the right thumb ---> left brain Right thumb is below the left thumb ---> right brian

2. Fold your arms in front of you (as if you are angry) Right arm above left arm ---> left brain Left arm above right arm ---> right brain

Based on 1+ 2 (order important), below is the interpretation of your personality:


Right-Left
==========

Considerate, traditional, indirect type can instinctly read other's emotion, and respond friendly by natures. Although not very into taking intiatives in moving forward, but this person will always take a step back in supporting others. Stable personality and considerate, give others a being protected feeling. But the weakness is they cannot say no; regardless how unwilling they are, they will take care of others.

Right-Right
===========

Loves challenges type Straightfoward. Once they decided on one thing, will take action right away. Very curious, and love challenges. Dare to face dangers without thinking through (sometimes foolishly). Their weakness is they dont listen to others, will filter in only what whey want to hear in a conversation, and very subjective. However, because of their straightforward attitude, they tend to be fairly popular.

Left-Left
=========

Dedicated, cold, perfectionist Very logical in all aspects. The only way to defeat (or win over) him/her is through reasons. Has a lot of prides, and feeling strongly about doing the right thing. If they are your friends, they are very trustworthy. However, if they are your opponets, they will be very tough to deal with. Because they can be very "anal" as a perfectionist, they usually leave a bad impression of being hard to deal with when first met.

Left-Right
==========

Likes to take care of others, leader type Has a cool and keen observation ability to see through situations, yet still can be considerate in others needs. Because of their cool and calm nature, and strong sense of responsibility, they tend to become head of a group. Popular among people. However, they may not be able to help themselves in meddling because they want to take care of others too much. Very concerned about how others view them, and always on alert.

*****

whats ur result? =)

Sentosa: Isand Resort (no more!)

yeap. i do think that sentosa is no longer that island resort that i have used to know and remember off. call me out dated or too nostalgic but i don't care. i just want the old sentosa to be back! all they have now is construction sites here and there..

anw, i went to the island resort sentosa yesterday with Kahying! we've been wanting to go there for quite some time and finally we went there to "pa-tor". haha!

suddenly, i noticed that when ever we go picnic, our meal will include a baguette. (look back at that post a few months ago on the suntec picnic).

here is us, in front of merlion, eating, before a monkey come and scared the shit out of both of us. -_-"

yummy breads we had and a scare from monkey!

seems that i didn't know sentosa that well after all.. other than the merlion, ferry terminal, musical fountain.. apparently imbiah hill is there all along and i didn't know there is a imbiah hill there till recently. and the fact is that i had been there many years ago before. with this i conclude that we need to be more observant with out surrounding yea!

did noticed that alot of places are also gone.. like the ferry terminal, musical fountain and monorail rides! remembered my family used to go to the ferry terminal there to take photo when we were at sentosa, cos the structure of the building is nice and there is this spiral staircase that is very nice. monorail rides were also a must-have. its really good cos its open air, meaning we can touch the leaves. the trail is also a round the island one, unlike the current sentosa express. but well, we live in a society that economy values are more important.. sighs..

actually, i have been wanting to look for a natural trail that has dragon and dinosaur bone structure, which i was there when i was camping at sentosa 10 years ago. (gasp!) didn't really remembered where it was and thou we saw it on the map, we could not locate it. walked for a long long distance around sentosa, past where the old musical fountain and volcanoland used to be.. they're all closed up for that stupid IR development liao..

just when we were about to give up, we saw this small entrance at the beach, looking hidden in the trees. seems like it is quite deserted and the branches are falling. the adventurous two decides to just go in and explore. and taadaa! found! but the whole trail seems quite hidden and deserted liao... which is quite sad cos i tot it was quite a good natural trail. we walked for quite a long time, exploring the place and taking photos before settling at the beach to watch the musical fountain performance. wasn't in cos it was full house and couldn't get a tic laa... =(

dino trail. rrooaarrr!

dinner follows at Vivo, the noodle shop next to the food court.. which is quite nice!! strongly recommended by the both of us!

finally we went there and even thou it is no longer as good as before, i would still go.. cos that is what little we are left of some nature we can touch. bukit timah hill is too in accessible so dun ask me go there. haha!

sentosa/express.
fun/with/structure.
old/signboard/of/non-existance/places.
merlion.
fireworks

now playing: 陈奕迅 - 不如不见

头沾湿无可避免
伦敦总依恋雨点
乘早机忍耐着呵欠
完全为见你一面
寻得到尘封小店
回不到相恋那天
灵气大概早被污染
谁为了生活不变
越渴望见面然后发现
中间隔着那十年
我想见的笑脸只有怀念
不懂怎去再聊天
像我在往日还未抽烟
不知你怎么变迁
似等了一百年忽已明白
即使再见面
成熟地表演
不如不见


*****

nice song by eason. this is the cantonese version of the song 好久不见 from his new album. actually, i prefered this original canto version. sometimes i feel, they can convey their feelings through their native language better. its so much more better than the new one!

quotes: from Nat #4

If only things were as simple as friendship between little children. When you were small, friendship was pure and forthcoming. You didn't expect anything from other people, and people never expected anything in return. You were friends simply because you were friends. No one owed anyone anything, because young children have no ulterior motives.

When little children grow into big humans, dynamics change. Perhaps that explains why at the end of the day, people often go back to the friends they had back when they were in school. These people were your friends when you were a nobody - not rich, not famous, not successful. These people have seen you at your most unglam. These people have seen you fall, seen you cry, seen you with chicken pox.

In short, these people were your friends.




-:how many have i?

you've missed the bus.

just home not long ago. was out after work to meet up with herry, angie, di and adi. the 5 of us was walking around and windowing before hitting mos burger. but then, the small rice burger is not really enough for my normal meal quantity.. and so i went over to ta pao some dau huay home. like total yays. sometimes i need alot of food therapies to make myself feel better..

with lotsa love.

photo credits to angiee baby.

*****

saw a jacket on the flesh imp web!! thanks to sue for sending the web to me ha.. now i got one more thing to buy.. =( i gotta see if she can help me get a discount!! but i really like it.. any comments friends??? check it out and tag me a reply k!

*****

on some random thoughts, i was just thinking that how some things that are lost can never ever be back again..

i once told herry bro before, that once u missed the bus, you miss it forever. you may be able to catch the next bus, but it is already a different bus. no doubt you are on a "bus", but still its not that first one that you are supposed to be on, and the feeling is not the same. no matter how hard you try to chase the bus.. it just will not wait for you..

whats lost can never come back, agree? let me know how you think through the tag yea. this place feels so dead.

back from hiatus.

wasn't in a blogging mood at all. even till now. thats y for the long hiatus. but wells, i am afraid some day my memory will fail and i can no longer remember what happened during this period.. so blog lor! lol.

work has been ok, what more to ask? can work then good lor got income, but the fact that great Singapore sale is here is no good news. had already bought several items.. gotta tahan and stop shopping ard jus in case is see things that i like again!!

anw, i finally sent my engineered jeans for alteration. hasnt been able to wear it for a long long time cos its too long and i am lazy to fold. well, the 15 bucks spent would be good money, cos now i can wear it more!!! yays. oh yea, i saw nat tan there when i was picking up my jeans yesterday - u know the guy in proj superstar 2.. no picture of him to post here ok, i am no stalker to snap pictures of people secretly, ha!

*****

ok i am like stuck here on this page for 1 plus hour.. tonnes of things that i feel like saying but there is like nothing coming out.


kels out-