work vs rest.

i don't know if the decision to work right till the week i am enlisting is right. i thought i should earn a lil bit more before i go in but it seems that everyone is quite against that idea. everyone keeps saying i should rest that week. hmmhmm...

life. happy. not.

you are unhappy because you are not living your life in the way you want

Dickson said this to me.

what do i want, exactly?

i love myself. only.

feelin kind of bored recently, or rather easily bored! haha. work hasn't been smooth cos the new temp to take over me aren't up to the supp's standards and i think they are dropping her.. so that means i gotta do da work again!! -_-...

anw, have been busy for the finance things and helping to organise the retreat this coming friday.. suppose to be her work but i am like taking over quite a lot liao.. as for the finance matters, i am really trying hard to be a good coach, i am already very kind with her cos i thought of how i was like when i started out - and i dun want to treat others badly when people actually treated me well with patience when i started out. but i really on the verge liao!! i cannot stand it when people keep saying they have checked their work but when i vet through there is so many mistakes and its serious mistakes! she can actually forget to process all the invoices last week!! and she made a mess of the invoice listing today. and she din ask me to check before she try to process them.. hais now a lot of problems.. hmmhmm.. i shall continue to advise her to be more meticulous ba... some things cant force de..

*****

didnt go for the fireworks last sat.. for some reason i do not wish to bring up anymore.. that feeling just sucked.. and i hate it.. i dunno.. i mean.. sometimes i wonder.. what exactly kind of a person i am to those people?

maybe just a sucked to the core guy. =(

*****

jus chatted with peter! that fella! haha. he always sound cheerful thou he might be unhappy.. that guy is going Israel for a business trip! dunno safe or not. anw i think he is coming to meet us for lunch soon! good good. lunch is getting bored when the people are going for meetings and i got no one to lunch with me!!!

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i am quite "nua" recently. even at work. can't stand it. i gonna be more energetic!! k la go zz liao. tmr morn still got a meeting with the finance people regarding virement.. got to get it done before i leave!! bwahaha..

i miss the peeps.

those peeps that has made a difference in me..

saw sushi's and yan's post and it made me so emo all over again.. missing school life al over again. some things, missed, can never be found back.

suddenly.. just so suddenly i realised how much i wish i was back in poly.. the icas.. the never endin projects.. the truck loads of presentations.. the bumpin into those ppl tt we dun lik.. the breaks we spend in fj and cheers.. i'm fuc*in missin all of them.. really very very very badly.. i miss yen and kel.. i miss it when she doesn't want to go for class then i'll drag her to go with me.. i miss kel's constant complains and naggin.. i even miss it when he always "pang se" us.. i feel so sad.. it's lik even when i go for lectures alone without them it's so much better.. it's lik everything's so different.. it's lik even sittin in the 3rd row of the lecture hall alone was fun...

i miss. i truly do.

sushi.yan.herry. the pals in class. and of cos. many others who have impacted me alot. i love ya all lots!

n nw i suddenly realised everything's so different from the past... times where we gossip tgt, luff tgt, and cry tgt... nw everyone's separated... tis is e path of growing up i supposed.....

growing up. bu xiang zhang da. but time never stops. time waits for no one. reminiscing is good. but whats important is that we manage to hold on to that friendship and let it stretch beyond that period of time in school. dunch ya all agree pals? whats important is whats going to happen. not what has happened. =)

寂静 · 孤独

永远 · 太远

人家说：爱情不会是永远的，只有友情才会。

我说：这一切都是骗人的。




wats friends? friendships not forever..

forever.

nothing lasts forever.

NOTHINGNOTHINGNOTHINGNOTHINGlastsforever!!!!

now playing: 张惠妹 - 如果你也听说

突然發現站了好久 不知道要往哪走
還不想回家的我 再多人陪只會更寂寞
許多話題關於我 就連我也有聽過
我的快樂要被认可 委屈卻沒有人訴說

夜把心洋蔥般剝落 拿掉防衛剩下什麼
為什麼脆弱時候想你更多


如果你也聽說 有沒有想過我 像普通舊朋友
還是你依然會心疼我
好多好多的話想對你說
尋找一顆心沒著落
要怎麼負荷 捨不得 又無可奈何

如果你也聽說 會不會相信我 對流言會附和
還是你知道我還是我
跌跌撞撞才明白了許多
等我的人就你一個
想到你想起我
胸口依舊溫熱


許多話題關於我 就連我也有聽過
我想我寧可都沉默 解釋反而顯的做作
也把心洋蔥般剝落 拿掉防衛剩下什麼
為什麼脆弱時候想你更多


如果你也聽說 有沒有想過我 像普通舊朋友
還是你依然會心疼我
好多好多的話想對你說
尋找一顆心沒著落
要怎麼負荷 捨不得 又無可奈何

如果你也聽說 會不會相信我 對流言會附和
還是你知道我還是我
跌跌撞撞才明白了許多
等我的人就你一個
想到你想起我
胸口依舊溫熱

如果你也聽說 有沒有想過我 像普通舊朋友
還是你依然會心疼我
跌跌撞撞才明白了許多
等我的人就你一個
想到你想起我
胸口依舊溫熱

如果你想起我
你會想到什么...





希望.. 会是美好的回忆..

hung up.

the sms that you said you'll send never reached me.








i'll take that as a choice made by you guys then.

30 days to 15 Sept 2007!!!

Official count down starts today! one month later it will be off to green men island.

42 and still counting.

Happy National DAy!!!

woohoo-! headed to marina bay for the parade! nope no tix, we gotta stand at the esplanade bridge. haha. but it was enjoyable!! weather was great- nice cool and not warm. it's an eventful outing!



1. malay uncle go gila and hit a foreign worker.
think its cos of the crowd that caused the accidental push but malay uncle lost his cool and hit FW. poor guy. action strongly discouraged singaporeans! we're all out to have fun so dun spoil anything k?

2. Mabel 飾演 孟太太.
mabel's new found "love" over there.. we wouldn't forget how he helped us 開路 and also let you stand at a strategic position to have a good view. haha!

3. friendly strangers 飾演 紅先生與毛太太.
friendly Caucasian couple we met there. chatted with us and thought that the 4 of us are out on a double date. HAHA! they even made newspaper cuttings to note the time of the fireworks. apparently, husband don't really like crowded place but came cos wife wanted to. so sweet. but he did say no next time. haha.. Thanks to their tripod, we got a clear view of the fireworks! *why we will explain in the next point*

4. some bangalas 飾演 assholes.
not all. but those who refuse to be considerate. they roughly squeeze themselves to the front and stood on the railings, not caring whether people at the back can see. and they are those who came later! ggrrhh.. for what we come so early man..

5. boon and kel 飾演 hokkien beng.
enough explained thru the previous point. the two boys were extremely outraged and got angry. haha! shan't go into details of the explicit words they used to scold.. lol!

it was a very memorable nite. not forgetting how the 4 of us got to see our own eye candies.. namely kumar of mabel's, and "cheryl" of me and boon.. haa.. food at CA is still good too! would not forget how great the fireworks are.. do hope that all worries and troubles would go up in the sky with the sparks and burst into the beautiful flowers.. becoming bright flowers that lit up the night sky..

Horoscope today.

Someone could offer you some compliments, Kelvin kho. You have a kind, gentle manner, and people often take your compassion for granted. But right now you could receive some positive feedback. A colleague might thank you for helping them out in the past. Or a friend could tell you that they really appreciate all that you have done for them. Realize that you have made a positive difference in many people's lives.

one day to national day.

1. outing with lingz and binz. nice catching up with the two of them! thou we were indecisive about what to eat, everything was great!

2. for once since a long time ago, gary dropped by my home after his event at punggol last sunday. eating and talking and walking ard before we set of to tampines mall for some shopping. he got a levi's tee. thank god that the burms i try at s&k don't look nice on me, otherwise its another hole in the pocket! ate at jacks place too. woohoo we indulge in good food!!

3. met up with chelle on tuesday. thanks to her otherwise i would never have been to forum shopping center before! she treated me organic juices from her shop.. thanks! dinner was at pasta menia, not nice! we both regretted going hohoho. was nice chatting and gossiping with her, not forgetting the impromptu decision to call su lao shi. we're all so ji dong to hear her voice! da next gathering shall be with her.

4. national day observance ceremony this morning. interesting. i didn't know ministry do such things too. makes me feel like a student all over again. sing a long session of national songs, performance, speeches, only diff is we have food here! teeheehee. was down a bit late so i stood at the front with the directors. after the performance, colleagues and i were waiting for the queue to shorten at the buffet when minister called us to eat with them at the "special" buffet for them. hohoho. so in the end no need to queue and have better food! lol.

5. happy national day tmr!!

Snap.

i think, everyone jus snapped from the super high tension. i dont mean to say those things to M, which i think was quite sarcastic of me. i am sorry. but i cant help but just feel like hanging half way there la. sighs.

its that sometimes i really get sick of working here cos it like so unappreciated. but after all, thats what real work life is. its business. its not the first time i am working, i also know perfectly that this is how the society works.. maybe i just need some time for the adjustment ba.. YP is rite. i am just a boy who has not grown up yet.

同事 · 朋友

知道M只是在开玩笑，但只是听到她这么说，it gets me into deep thoughts。

我们不是朋友，只是同事。

说者或许只是开玩笑，但其实听者会觉得满sad 的。i mean, ok la i can understand the reality of this society.. that colleagues should not cross the line of being friends.. but well, after all working together might result in a situation where you see these colleagues more than you see everyone else- ur family, classmates, friends. since then why cannot be friends? i don't understand.

havent been into contact with the classmates since grad.. suddenly, i found out that i have turned exactly like them- only knowing how they are thru their blog, jus like how they know how i am through my blog.

its saddening. i knew it would come. just that, i didnt expect it to come so quickly. comm'on whats wrong with this world man. this is making me sick. and want to escape all these..

我要旅游！！

1. I really want: to be the jovial and careless and funny and expressive and talkative and driven KK I used to be. I really want to be less morbid, cynical and skeptical. I want to be optimistic and loving and hopeful.

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2. i find that its easier to blog in point form. haha! but its kind of "unprofessional" la. will see how and then adjust my blogging habits accordingly.

3. YP's last day today, one less temp staff here. soon me will be gone too! work is kind of over the load. "beyond my capabilities" is the word. not that i am not capable, bbut how to expect me to cover work of two person! =X

4. thinking of going to sentosa. any takers?

5. just saw today's paper, there is discount on tics to taipei! O.M.G.