周记.

while packing my things some times ago, saw the weekly journal that i used to do with AC. there will be a theme set and i would write some thing. she would in turn write some comments and sharing of opinions on the topic.

霎时发现，原来我还曾经愿意与人分享。

AC says she no longer has time to do it with me anymore, and commented that i still has my blog to do it. but 曾几何时，我的博客已不再是我能抒发我的情绪与意见的地方了。



i miss the times.. where there is a place i can air my emotions.. i can get honest opinions and people really care. i cant even write all in MY blog now. cos people is watching, and they are scrutinising. sadly, it sometimes even became a place where people hate me get information and tag at my board.

friends- i really scared le. those who were there, and said they will be there, arent here anymore. those who are still here, has pretty much a life of their own too. i am really sick of people missing me out in their outings and the only reason they gave is cos some one else doesnt like me is going. i dont know how i should feel. i feel that i sucks. cos despite knowing those peeps for so long.. i am forsaken cos of this kind of reason. my heart felt cold. why do i stop asking people out? stop asking me and say i keep MIAing. ask yourselves. i am tired. and sick, of all these.

and not only that, i am feeling worthless with reasons like my family. when will i ever get over it? i dont think it will ever end.



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S.H.E - 天灰




如果你不再出现
我的世界还有什么可贵
可惜不够时间
让我们试验什么叫永远

想念变成怀念
心动变成心碎
偏偏还会关切
你最后属于谁
我的天空今天有点灰
我的心是个落叶的季节
我不知道如何度过今夜
所有的灯早已经全都熄灭

如果你从没出现
我会不会觉得快乐一些
可惜残忍时间
总要把诺言一点点摧毁