dong dong qiang!

just back home meeting mich at kovan and i was greeted by the chinese new year songs from the loud speakers at the pasar malam.

like omg la its coming already! in less that a month!

time flies...

death.

has been thinking, what if i were to die suddenly one day? like suddenly.

not say i am paranoid becos everyone will eventually die la. but i have just been pondering this thing for a long long time.

have i lived with no regrets? done everything with my max and fullest effort?
what will happen to my parents? friends?

what will people who have been pushing away my request for gatherings feel?
what will people who have been excluding me in gatherings feel?
what will people who do not reply sms and missed calls feel?
what will people who pangseh me feel?
what will people who like me feel?
what will people who hates me feel?

so this is how you think?

u've given up thinkin much abt tryin to meet with frens and all wen it seems it doesnt matter much.

i am so disappointed.

You, you and you.

我不需要，也不惜罕。

Crap.

I've always thought the whole gala dinner thing is a crap. compulsory attendance even though we are still paying. what crap!

back to school.

it feels so much like back to school days, met up with tat, janet, erica over sat AND sun! it has been so long since we met up straight two days, which makes me feels like back to school all the way!

saturday was for janet's 21st! headed to her house after some present hunting in town. jan's family is a lively and fun one! all the relatives are so friendly! we talked to her uncle, cousin, godpa and godma and alot more other members!

next was chilling in town with loads of talks. met up with the trio after the lunch with campmates. camped at burger king (!) before the girls left at ard 6, so me and tat roams around and talked alot. its good to do catching up once in the while.. which is what we have been unable to do since we have all got on to our busier lives..

anw, we have been thinking of a small trip overseas! i am thinking of having it at my birthday week, haha! not a bad choice what. since everything i have planned for the chalet is SCREWED UP cos there is no more chalet available.

If you know me,

but you don't.







If ever...

boo.

how long can someone live with that increasing amount of disappointment before they finally snap?

i don't know, don't ask me.








i am really so sick of communicating.
so sick of putting up a fake front.