somebody validate me.

http://www.spiritualcinemacircle.com/scc/ecs/public/main/validationMovie.html

must watch! watch till the end...

thanks royce, for making my day. the video is really good...

1088.

done with the last duty, and started signing my clearance..

was clearing my arms at philip's, and i got a damn weird feeling out of the sudden. people all say that a soldier's rifle is his laopo.. and now i am signing it off, not needing to draw it again anymore..

that feeling is damn surreal. leaving way before my ord, 8 more months away.. something that i have least expected.

york says its the same, be it post out or ord. everyone has to go thru it. its just a matter of earlier of later. but post out is diff la.. its you and alone, leaving. where as ord, you leave together with your batchmates to new phase of life!

now i will leave alone.. haha. rsm say he will indent a rover to send me to the new camp, so i dun have to go on that journey on my own. ha! we shall see.

although we have been complaining how sucks, but we also have many happy moments here... so when you leaving, you will feel sad...
-jingyao

再见。

我只是简单问你，你知道我最近的生活怎么样了吗？你知道发生在我生活里的点滴吗？
不。你并不知道。

你有什么资格教训我？

不要口口声声说你什么都了解，因为你什么都不。

作为朋友，我问心无愧。你能吗？
我不会再钻牛角尖了。要听他们的一面之词，就去吧。

管不了，不想管，懒得管。
反正到最后，罪人还是我。

whirlpool.

i don't wanna waste anymore effort trying to explain myself. every story has its sides, its just that who wanna look at things from my perspective.

i dunno.. everyone is looking at her perspective, his perspective.. wanting me to look in their perspective.. but who's looking in to mine?

haha.. damn tired.. dun wanna fall into this whirlpool anymore..

and i realise.

my blog is meant for me, and myself.

not for you to judge me.

dun make assumptions. if you wanna know what i am thinking, why not ask me? by not saying anything does not mean i agree wholesomely with you.

i have a life too you know. i have my family, my other friends, i dun just sit there and wait for you guys to come and find me. and so things i blog is not totally about you!

it seems funny, i am here alive and kicking and no one bothers to find out how i am from me, but rather from my blog.

For myself-

insincere.

没诚意。

sometimes i just cant be bothered. the level of insincerity is just too high for my to even turn up the event. dun even bother to tell me the details of it. and when i call to ask at the eleventh hour i can even be told sorry forget to tell you. walao!

nuff said.

posted out!

just got the news yesterday, 20 minutes before its time for me to go off. shocked, very.

no reason at all, just citing- posted out due to medical grounds.

in short, i am becoming a clerk.

omg its like a dream come true!!!

end of misery?

i hope so.. after hanging there for so long, i snapped. i thought i could have just hanged there all the time.. but some things, some words he said, just triggered me and everything was let go..

will things turn for a better? or for the worse?

let time decide.

absurd.

singaporeans are full of nonsense.

they want chen xi and yue niang to be together. how is that possible! especially after the both of them living in the guilt of causing yu zhu all her misery of being raped and abused.

no, i still dun think they should be together.

but well, i do agree the ending is not very good. too hasty. too much to tell, too little time.

2009!

Happy 牛 year!

cny in 3 weeks. clothes-buying season!!! woohoo-!