我的心有一点抽痛。。但至少没遗憾了，不是吗？

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原来心酸比心痛难受
茫然的走到了门口
倔强还是念旧
我听见我回头说
你们要快乐要天长地久
你们没有错爱是自由
走出这扇门后至少我还有辽阔
你们要快乐要紧紧牵手
你们不幸福我会难过
成全最爱的人不是为了看着她寂寞

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sighs.

i think i got enough.

y must u make me feel so annoyed and vexed?

i wanna run away...

I've been asked to do this quiz..haha..so i shall obliged and do it before i update abt today...hahaha..=))

21 People
Can you name 21 people you can think of right of the top of your head?Don't read the questions underneath until you write the names of all 21 people.*This is a lot funnier if you actually list the names first. No cheating, duhhh!*

1. Gary
2. Huishan
3. Jennifer
4. Michelle
5. Mabel
6. Yonghui
7. Jessica
8. Yuyan
9. Cheryl
10. Jorcelyn
11. Angelia
12. Herry
13. Kailing
14. Shaune
15. Serser
16. Rena
17. Weihao
18. Kang An
19. Serene
20.Jieying
21. Zibin

The Questions:

How did you meet 10?
Miss Chia. Met in TEP. my supervisor at MSC!

What would you do if you had never met 6?
Yonghui. from IM.. complicated.. maybe i wud lead a more miserable life.. hahas=)

What would you do if 19 and 15 dated?
Serene and Serser. LMAO* tt will not be possible. i think. haha!

Have you ever seen 13 cry?
Kailing. No.

Would 4 and 12 make a good couple?
Michelle and Herry. erm. no? cos my herry is already hapilly attached to his dear jessamine! hahahaha..=x

Would number 1 and 2 make a good couple?
Gary and Huishan?rofl.... nono cos gary is also happily attached to his dear!!=x

What is number 3's best quality?
Jenn. listening and giving good advices!=D

Desbribe 8:
Miss Cai. "Strong" bubbly gal! Full of lame jokes and fun to be with!=D

Do you like 12?
Herry. yeah~! herry is the love of my life!!! ..hahah~

Do you think 15 is attractive?
Serser. Definately! you will find ur white horse prince soon! ;)

Tell me something about 17?
Weihao. very friendly, creative, we go to the same saloon, we are room mates, we are both fat!! hhahaah~

What's 7's favorite color?
Jessica. i hope i dun get this wrong. its blue..haha~

What would you do if 1 just confessed he/she liked you?
Gary. LOL....we are best bros k!!! :p

When was the last time you talked to number 19?
Serene. two days ago when i tot she is in schand wanted to ask her if she wanna meet lunch.

Who is 21 going out with?
Zibin. no one i think....=x hahah~

What grade is 16 in?
Rena. she is same class as me!! my nu er!! =x

What is 5's favorite music?
Mabel. hahaha..lots. mostly Jay's =)

Would you ever date 11?
Angelia. y nt if i have chance? lol..

Would you ever want to be in a serious relationship with 2?
Huishan. DUH~?! we buddy buddy ok!

Where does 18 live?
Kang An. CCK..=p

What do you think about 20?
Jieyingz. Nice girl. quite quiet at times, but can be crazy too! lol... we talk alot..

What is the best thing about 2?
Huishan. talking to me and listen tome complaint.=D

What would you like to tell 9 right now?
Cheryl. xiao yao jing! hahaha...=x

How did you meet 15?
Serser. class mates since yr 2.=)

Are you going to know 1 forever?
Gary. DUH!tat goes without saying!

Copy and do one now!

awe.. one week holiday liao.. but havent rested alot.. went to uncle's shop to help out.. therefore i havent feel the effect of the post-tep-syndrome. miss the peeps there alot!!! hehe.. all the fun we had.. anw this week at shop also ate alot! some times 2 bowl of rice.. i think i am going fatter and fatter... bad to worse!! must control ar!! hahas..

bored recently.. always wanted to go online but my mother keeps on nagging and nagging that i goes online too often.. but wads the point of leaving it there not to use? moreover its holiday.. sianz..

just home! went to orchard to meet up my aunt and cousin for a swenson feast! its my aunt's birthday so its her treat.. thanks hor!!!

anw, today we all learnt something.. that is.. SWENSON AT ORCHARD IS MORE EX THAN AT OTHER OUTLETS!!! and its not jus one two bucks hor.. quite a lot can haha.. we ate quite alot! fish and chips.. grilled salmon thing.. steak.. baked rice.. ice cream.. and one new stuff that i have never tried before and strongly recommanded by them.. the banana crumbler!! so nice!!! wahlao.. now think already also can mouth water.. hahas!

You're a Wild Drunk

You can get enough drink. Seriously, you'll just go puke and start pounding them back again!

What Kind of Drunk Are You?

You Are An Intro-Extrovert!

Sometimes you're social - sometimes you're shy You've got a bit of an Introvert / Extrovert split going on You enjoy all sorts of situations. Parties, small groups, and alone time. Too much of one, and you'll long for the other. You need varity! Chances are, you've got both serious and fun friends - and they don't get along.

Are You An Extrovert or Introvert?

STARS of tep part II~*

zibin n kailing: buddies of ardc with me. went out to christmas lighting, exchange present, all the site visits and lotsa more activities! two good people who always remembers me.. love you two~!
shaune: hao ren. thru out ardc first few weeks was like only talking to her when ser ser is making fun of her and i join in. but after that found out she is really some one very nice and easy to talk to. during my final times at fsrc we really xiang yi wei ming.. cos alot of di ren ard us. haha...
debbie: last time when i was yr 1 she got online my class before.. but dat time never talked to her before for one whole sem. but at tep found out that she is a nice gal.. and part of our $2 breakfast gang! (kailing zibin me and deb)

#not in pic:
Mr Steven Lee.
very good guy who is my lecturer at ardc. guides me alot and a good mentor. had fun and many meaningful talks together!

Yonghui: this guy don't knw me after 9 weeks at ardc. initial stages a very cool guy. talk LITTLE and its really very little. then gradually opens up alot. a gd buddy in tep! been thru thick and thin together and also SOMETIMES quite take care of me ba hahas!
Jessica: my best jie mei. a friend special in my heart cos she fulfilled my years long dream of celebrating my bdae with a cake in sch. haha.. i will never forget..
Cheryl: heys some one who is tall and i am taller.. (only we will noe wad this means) hahas..
#note: we are the fantastic 4!

Jieying: heys.. first generation ops. very friendly and we talked alot! remembered my birthday nt like someone. haha.. and really a good girl.. all the time trying to pull me back together with some "friends".. haha.. but well somethings jus cant mian qiang one la haha..

Peisin: hardcore SHE and HIM artist fan. very da jie da to us.. hahas.. yay~
Cindy: heys cindy is a quite girl in the beginning.. but after that we all became chatty.. a good listener to me..

Ben: like me has a bad temper and like to attitude.. hahas.. jus like me!!!

#not in pic:
Miss Cai: a good mentor to me who has talked some sense into me sometimes.. and also another one who always give me good makan! ahhaas.. one of the first few i bonded with in my MSC days.. and i am going to miss those days!
Miss Chia: lolx we all do finance with hasanah and cindy.. i miss those days! those lunch.. those fun we all had..

Angelia: got to noe her during open house.. and i remembered her cos of her hp number XXXX5566! a nice girl i would not forget.. and also she is i think the only one who does not think i walks too fast. i will miss the cam-whoring days! miss ya!

Tat wee, Rachel, Erica, Janet: nice people! cheryl's friend.. and cheryl always pang seh us for them haha.. so later we decided to all mix together!!

#not in pics
Cheers people: people like kian how huixiang constance aiqing shaun and the rest! rrhahas.. one thing bout my terrible last stop is that there is too much free time and cheers is growing to be like my second home.. will miss those talking with kh and others.. and my lo mai kai!!

Keemeng: the batch of IM after me.. crazy guy who is very gay and go around love biting people.. and sadly i am one of his victim.. haha.. but dun siao siao leh he cycle for singapore one hor haha.

Joseph: "father" of IM. hahas. we all noe y. a easy to chat with guy!

Sihui: i miss eating instant noodle with u at the place where we are not suppose to! hahas

Shiyun: nice girl who will chat with me at lifestyle.. cos we are direct neighbours! in the same room! haha..
Pebble: you love swee heng!!!! haha.. pebble always go hyper when i brings swee heng to school for her.. and her piano is fantastic.. all the pop songs she listen a few times can play liaos. clever rite?

Christina and Christine: known from IM days.. i am in qiubing's possession while christine is mei ya.. the mother of shinchan(which is me).. arrghh complicated.. hahas

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sorry if i missed out anyone.. but all of you that i have known made an impact in me.. maybe soon we will lose contact.. but we all also noe that we will never forget these days that we have gone thru.. rite?
=)

ok i am just home! today was a eventful day.. went to GARY's house for the dinner for his birthday.. advance celebration wor~~

reached ard 4 plus and i am late!!! luckily his parents not home yet and no one noe i was late except him and his girl.. haa~ then watched tv and ate biscuits.. lazed ard like no one's business laa.. cos we all so close liao.. haha.. even his parents ard i also like that de.. then we talk talk.. until near to six when his parents came home. then rested a while then his uncle's family also came and we proceeded to the zi char place to eat. yummy~!

talked alot. crapped alot. as usual. also crapped with his cousin, chatted with his parents and aunt and uncle. cos last time he stays nex door to me only.. and his cousin always stay at his home.. so we all sort of like all noe each other one la. so its really like at my own home like that. hahas

then today the reason i am there is also its the first time he is bringing his gf back home. and i am there!!! got a bit gan dong.. cos we are grow up tog one.. and to see each other grew up is like.. "wah.. time flies.. so many yrs liao.." this feeling.. and the fact that i am the only friend there with the family, i noe that my weight to him is equal to that of him in me. ( meaning i am also a important friend of his, jus like he is to me) its like.. meet the parent got a special meaning.. and he hopes that i am there.. haha.. i am so touched can!

i feel so very the fortunate that i have a buddy like gary. i was never sad thou i have only one. cos its already enough. cos when i am lost, i noe who i can go to. i still love my other friends!

dedicates this to ma dearest GARy!!!

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A simple friend, when visiting, acts like a guest. A real friend opens your refrigerator and helps himself or herself.

A simple friend has never seen you cry. A real friend has shoulders soggy from your tears.

A simple friend doesn't know your parents' first names. A real friend has their phone numbers in his or her address book.

A simple friend brings a bottle of wine to your party. A real friend comes early to help you cook and stays late to help you clean.

A simple friend hates it when you call after they've gone to bed. A real friend asks you why you took so long to call.

A simple friend seeks to talk to you about your problems. A real friend seeks to help you with your problems.

A simple friend wonders about your romantic history. A real friend could blackmail you with it.

A simple friend thinks the friendship is over when you have an argument. A real friend calls you after you had a fight.

A simple friend expects you to always be there for them. A real friend expects to always be there for you!
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last day at TEP.

nothing much happening at fsrc. also no people org farewell. morn time was like wondering ard and ate swee heng with pebble and co. they really like the cakes la! haha..

went ard sharing the cake.. i was actually quite sad. like now, all of us are so bonded. i noe where i can go to find who. yonghui and miss cai at IM. Ben at OPs. ms chia at 309. serene at eldc. ser ser at small room. sighs. but all these ends today - the end of my tep.

ben doesnt understand why i am so sad.. to be frank i couldnt really mix well with my class.. only a few i can talk to. thats why when i came to tep and am pampered like hell, i couldnt think of wad life would be like without those pals at tep.

i will miss those days. the days at ARDC and IM.

Featuring...

my STARS of tep.. gr8 people that i have knew here!

Evonne n Jamie: nice girls that i met at ardc.. i will miss the fun gaming with jamie and the shaker fries times with evonne..

Serene: alot of fun with her.. even after ardc.. and the fun continues to her aldc times.. when we were both at level 4.. all the crapping and eating and everything!!!

Zahidah: a gal from my sec school.. but we dunno each other before ardc.. maybe noe the existance of each other la.. thats y can recognise each other.
Siew Chun: fun loving gal!! equally crazy like me.. haha! we talk alot and crap alot.. she is also the buddy of candise!
Xuehui: woo.. mature gal.. also my talking khaki at ardc..
*the above 3 are actually DBI students.. thats y they are only here for a short time.. but the are gr8 friends!

Lijia: since last time noe her this person liao cos of mingsiang.. but last time i tot she is tao tao one.. cos exam time we study at the library too noisy.. she will tiao us one.. haha.. but fact is she turned out to be someone more pleasant. very chat-able and friendly..

*- end of part one due to blogger server hang. to be continued.. people not featured yet dun panic. -*

Pebble is so clever!
she plays piano so well!

wah.. when i hear her play "feng" i sososo surprised.. but she did played well!!

to thank her for the nice piano.. i shall bring swee heng to our fsrc room tml.

*pebble jumping ard in joy

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Pebble says:

sometimes
people say
the people who appear the happiest
are actually the ones who need more love and care

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woo yesterday i watched the show 15. Singapore production. and the director is Roysten Tan.

well its a pretty vulgar show. but the topic is about 15yo ah bengs leh so i think it fits the theme well. haha.. FYI, one of the main cast Shaun is from my secondary sch. when i was sec one he got stare at me in the tuckshop before. haa! long long ago history liao..

seeing this show brings back alot of memories.. cos like the show last time my sec sch is really like that one. gang fights, gang cheers. sudden alot of bengs gathers.. i can still remember some of those cheers that i used to hear all the time.. several scenes in the show thats kinda gross, like the parts of piercing and drug trafficking by swallowing it. but some how see the show liao also abit sad.. esp there are parts where they talked about their future. its like.. "all i can see is only darkness ahead of me.. wads the use of thinking so much?"

are we really given a chance to replent the mistakes we made?
are they given one?

a show about brotherhood love, loyalty and gang life.

see the brothers share life and death.
see the brothers in a show of their real life.

“感动”难以说明，它是一种很微妙的感觉。

人生就像坐公车一样。
不同的驿站就代表着我们人生不同的阶段。
而在不同驿站上车、下车的人，
就是我们在这一生中不同时候、不同阶段
所结识并分享经历的朋友。

但是，
谁都不能保证谁会陪谁走到最后,
更不能保证谁不会先下车，从此离去。
是朋友也好，是情人也罢，
只要是能遇上能够分享旅程的有缘人，
就是一种 “ blessing ”。
而这 “ blessing ”，
是绝对可欲不可求的。

oh my gawd~! i saw them on the mags and i think i want them!!!

maybe no one will noe wad sesame street means to me.. cos its my only entertainment when i was a kid.. accompanied me thru many lonely hours and taught me ABC.. *hahas!

childish but its me! muahahaha..

awe.. thats so sweet of angi to leave this message at my com today when i was away.. but.. y this pic instead one of mine? issit cos we look alike???

*pukes

okok.. i got it.. =X

i think i am going to be cooked soon.. in the FSRC room.. cos they simply dun let me switch on the aircon!!!

-__-

like so hot can. for some moments i tot i am in a sauna, for some moments i tot i was suffocating.. cos there is just no windows in the room for ventilation! ok, the supervisors please dun blame me if i am away from the room. maybe i was some where out there "running away from the heat". Lolz. Maybe pebble is rite that i am born in egypt in my previous life. cos i simply cant stand it if its too heaty and suffocating! if its like in the sun natural heat then its ok. but if the heat is from no-moving-air-no-ventilation-suffocating then it nono for me.. haa~!

**fotos cant be uploaded.. so wait for them in the next post! =)

also, the time table is out today. no sch for fridays~! *yays
everyone is running here and there.. announcing the releasing of the timetable and compairing it.. and i got one lecture that is same with jieying, kailing, shaune and some more.. so nice to be able to meet them again in classical!

the lecturer for this module is simon leong.. the one who taught us before when we were yr 1.. i still remember that time, after teaching us for one sem at the last lesson, he suddenly commented that me and sammy look alike.. like brothers.. well, i think now no longer liao cos i grew even fatter. haa! so, its good to have familiar faces to look forward to!

>> am having mixed feelings. shd i look forward to the starting of classical lessons? actually i wasn't really.. i rather hoped there will be more of tep. cos times here are definately betteR! better working partners, better friends, everyone cared about me.. how i feel and wad i really wants. its really some thing i don't really experience while i am in class. for the pass six months alot of things happened.. lost u and u. and maybe alot more unknowingly. have a talk with peisin and jessica over lunch, and i have came to a conclusion: instead of complaining more i shd cherish the present! =)

today's a tough day! haha.. went to cck cemetry to pray to my great grand ma and my grand father.. in the morn then uncle came and pick us up to meet up at grandma's place, and as usual someone's late. =)

nothing unusual. so everyone also doesnt want to say much already. haha. luckily this yr it doesnt rain when we were praying. otherwise we will all be drenched! but but! i dunch noe y all my cousins who were with me in the sun are tanned but i am not! so angry!! haha!

but anyways, every year i would always look forward to this qing ming jie. cos not only its a time for the family to gathers, its also a time we all go visit and pay respect to our ancestors.

erm.. got something i wanted to blog one.. sudden mind blanks and i forgot.. hahas! wil write more when i remembers wad i wanted to say.. hha..

now i really noe wads short term memory! (names changed to protect person involved)

[kel] says:
eh nex week k lunch cfm nt huh?

f**king phone. says:
OKAY!

f**king phone. says:
ON AR!!

f**king phone. says:
HAHA

[kel] says:
then the 4 of us can have fun!!

f**king phone. says:
4?

f**king phone. says:
me, you, Z?

[kel] says:
haha u want to exclude C ar? haha.. ok with me too lol

f**king phone. says:
ohh i forgot about him

f**king phone. says:
lol

[kel] says:
....

You scored as English. You should be an English major! Your passion lies in writing and expressing yourself creatively, and you hate it when you are inhibited from doing so. Pursue that interest of yours! English 92% Theater 83% Linguistics 75% Art 75% Journalism 75% Philosophy 67% Sociology 67% Mathematics 67% Dance 58% Biology 58% Anthropology 58% Engineering 50% Chemistry 33% Psychology 33% What is your Perfect Major? (PLEASE RATE ME!!<3) created with QuizFarm.com

convinced? i am not GAY!

To test your percentage, here you go…

today it rained.. just like yesterday.. but i still don't feel and cool wind on me!! instead its just humid and the oily feel.. (yuck!) after breakfast at 11 i stayed at shopping arcade and chatted with lijia and kailing.. havent chat properly with kailing for donkey months!

**kel and kailing at fusion.. thanks to fusion for lending the digi cam!

then after that we had lunch woth serene, kang an and chang da at mac. and i cant believe wad good deals we got! free lunch!!! mac is giving free beef fantastic with every meal cos they sold one million of it!! i nearly cant believe my eyes.. haha.. but i still got it! yummy!

**our feast!! note the number of free fan-tastics!

忘了过去一切的不快，或许我会活得更释怀。若不是好友，至少打打招呼，谈谈天，也总好过每天想着要如何讨厌这个人。还有两个，还有可能吗？