Fool.

damns.
i am the biggest fucking fool on earth.
how on earth can i,
go and accompany the girl i like to buy a present for her boyfriend!

i just hate.

can? the kind of people i know, the kind of things i do, everything.

f-

y cant mum just be more understanding and stop buzzing me with all those nonsense things? yes i do love my parents, but sometimes, it just reach a point where i have had enough and i just feel like runningg awayyy. far far awayyy.

爱 · 孤独

康正行 余守恒 杜慧嘉
三个 孤独的心灵
最孤独的不是没人爱
而是 所爱的人在眼前
却不能说出口
因为一旦说出口
一切就可能都会改变
维持现状
成了最奢侈的愿望
心里的拉扯
却让自己陷入矛盾的万劫不复之地

小时候因为太皮而被杯葛的他
独自坐在公车上流泪的他
坐在床边听着他的倾诉的她
都是 孤独的

“我们真的长大了
人长大了
真的什么都变了”

余守恒是这么说的
一切都不再单纯
一切也都无法再单纯




曾经在那个盛夏
他喜欢上他
用了一光年的时间
陪伴在他的身边
彗星擦身而过
惊醒了 这一片宁静

人都必须长大
不是吗？

Cute!

YS bring her boy boy to office last fri-! cute cute but act shy no want to talk. haha!

i love...

KRISPY KREME!!!! saw the big box on my desk when i reach office yesterday morning.. and it just made my day can!


i totally heart Eugene who got it back from his Australia work trip!!! omfg. u cant imagine how nice it is until u have tasted it!!! thanks Eugene!!! 沒有白費我平時為你們rush invoice and payments。哈哈！

Gary.

my best friend. ten years in to the friendship. one who bothers to remember my birthday. one who bothers to ask me out when holiday comes. hes always been there.

we've had quarrels before, but things got back into shape. discussed about girls and other stuff. yea he got attached before me. mum was kidding me that i lose out la.. but i am more happier for him than anything else.

yea mum noes him too. we're neighbours - next door kind. not a few blocks away hor. lol. thou he has moved away for some time, we still meet up as often, and i can always make myself feel home - at his home. will never forget the times we go for neo prints at hougang, bubble tea, buying them or even making them at home. the tuition, the shopping, the late night craving for ica kachang we have.

i often ask, how often can we find friends thats so dear? Mabel says, whats more important is that we have 1, but not how many we have. quality over quantity yea?

he's enlisted today. am supp to go send him at tekong this morn but had to be in office. part of me was sad cos i cant be there. but thinking back, maybe it would be a blessing in disguise. imagine me, emo, stand there, wave good bye. OMG hilarious i cant imagine. haha. HAHA!

wells, he called me. just! called to tell that he has been well and how it is inside.. frankly, i am touched. cos he made the effort to at least call me to let me know he's well la.. haha.

soon! i'll join u in serving the nation!! =)

now playing: 萬芳 - 新不了情

心若倦了泪也干了
这份深情难舍难了
曾经拥有天荒地老
这一份情永远难了
愿来生还能再度拥抱
爱一个人如何斯守到老
怎样面对一切我不知道
回忆过去痛苦的相思忘不了
为何你还来拨动我心跳
爱你怎么能了
今夜的你应该明了
缘难了情难了

已不见你暮暮与朝朝
这一份情永远难了
愿来生还能再度拥抱
爱一个人如何斯守到老
怎样面对一切我不知道
回忆过去痛苦的相思忘不了
为何你还来拨动我心跳
爱你怎么能了
今夜的你应该明了
缘难了情难了

buzz off.

heard if the saying that best friends share your joys and tears?

i can tell you,





ITS FAKE.

i didn't know,

its just so fucked up.

sometimesi really hoped that i never ever existed.

just what the fuck can.

Junxiong.

cited the first best friend i had in nyp. he is going to be enlisted to serve the nation tmr.

its a bottle of mixed feelings, that we friends one by one are going in.

over the three yrs of friendship, so much has happened. be it good or bad, it is part of our shared memories.

you're going into a new phrase of ur life! must take care. everything will be well. you will get good bunk mates, and "good friends" wun come and find you, haha!

*****

jus home not long ago. yea yea once again rushing for the last train home from town. dinner plus fantastic four II at cine. was there for JX's "bye bye boy boy life" outing! hmms. all will be well for u dun worry.

movie's nice, worth the watch. =)

*****

"dun worry. open up more to us and things can still be better yea!"

thanks for this reassurance given. it has given me a lil more of confidence to carry on things.. ^^

11th Jun - Cheryl's bdae.

horrendous.

lunch was at about 12 plus and i had wanton noodles.. felt it was not full enough and then i ta pao-ed a roti john back. just finished the roti john not long ago and jus when i put the last piece into my mouth, i realised that i am just damn bloody fat! that tummy.. omfg!

no more tea breaks!

chase.

everyone's chasing after something.
money? fame?
peace? happiness?


-but who has gotten it, anyway?

*****

another farewell lunch today. for Shirley and Yvonne who's leaving by the end of this week. seems like theres going to be less and less people around.. another expensive lunch, and that means i have gotta scrimp and save for the next, on top of the jacket i wanna buy, the eternal summer novel + sound track that has to be ordered from Taiwan cos its not available here only means it will cost more. how! how to save like that!

eat less eat less.

i think my diet has more or less turned me into a horrid pile of fatty flesh. cant believe that i actually ate two bowls of rice for today's lunch and even got myself a butter cake from toast box for tea..

anw, to counter this prob, i have decided that i REALLY will wake up in the morn to jog.. a desperate measure to shed some of those extra flesh on my face before graduation.. i wanna have pics that look good!!!! haish haish.. determination!!!

now playing: 龚诗嘉 - 再一次拥有

我想念去年的冬天
下着雪的那一夜
你给的温柔
紧握的双手
温暖整个寒冬

失去了曾经的拥有
在你离开以后
带走了笑容
只留下寂寞
忘了幸福是什么

没有你的夜特别的漆黑
只能闭上双眼去感觉
没有我的夜谁在你身边
代替了那个从前

能不能再听一次你说爱我
回到还在你怀里的时候
能不能让我再一次拥有
曾属于我的温柔
能不能让我再一次拥有
曾属于我的温柔

left or right?

YS sent me a test some days back. and today tEr send to me too. shall post it here!

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First, identify yourself as right or left brainperson:

1. Hold your hands together, as if you were praying. Look at your hands. If you see Left thumb is below the right thumb ---> left brain Right thumb is below the left thumb ---> right brian

2. Fold your arms in front of you (as if you are angry) Right arm above left arm ---> left brain Left arm above right arm ---> right brain

Based on 1+ 2 (order important), below is the interpretation of your personality:


Right-Left
==========

Considerate, traditional, indirect type can instinctly read other's emotion, and respond friendly by natures. Although not very into taking intiatives in moving forward, but this person will always take a step back in supporting others. Stable personality and considerate, give others a being protected feeling. But the weakness is they cannot say no; regardless how unwilling they are, they will take care of others.

Right-Right
===========

Loves challenges type Straightfoward. Once they decided on one thing, will take action right away. Very curious, and love challenges. Dare to face dangers without thinking through (sometimes foolishly). Their weakness is they dont listen to others, will filter in only what whey want to hear in a conversation, and very subjective. However, because of their straightforward attitude, they tend to be fairly popular.

Left-Left
=========

Dedicated, cold, perfectionist Very logical in all aspects. The only way to defeat (or win over) him/her is through reasons. Has a lot of prides, and feeling strongly about doing the right thing. If they are your friends, they are very trustworthy. However, if they are your opponets, they will be very tough to deal with. Because they can be very "anal" as a perfectionist, they usually leave a bad impression of being hard to deal with when first met.

Left-Right
==========

Likes to take care of others, leader type Has a cool and keen observation ability to see through situations, yet still can be considerate in others needs. Because of their cool and calm nature, and strong sense of responsibility, they tend to become head of a group. Popular among people. However, they may not be able to help themselves in meddling because they want to take care of others too much. Very concerned about how others view them, and always on alert.

*****

whats ur result? =)

Sentosa: Isand Resort (no more!)

yeap. i do think that sentosa is no longer that island resort that i have used to know and remember off. call me out dated or too nostalgic but i don't care. i just want the old sentosa to be back! all they have now is construction sites here and there..

anw, i went to the island resort sentosa yesterday with Kahying! we've been wanting to go there for quite some time and finally we went there to "pa-tor". haha!

suddenly, i noticed that when ever we go picnic, our meal will include a baguette. (look back at that post a few months ago on the suntec picnic).

here is us, in front of merlion, eating, before a monkey come and scared the shit out of both of us. -_-"

yummy breads we had and a scare from monkey!

seems that i didn't know sentosa that well after all.. other than the merlion, ferry terminal, musical fountain.. apparently imbiah hill is there all along and i didn't know there is a imbiah hill there till recently. and the fact is that i had been there many years ago before. with this i conclude that we need to be more observant with out surrounding yea!

did noticed that alot of places are also gone.. like the ferry terminal, musical fountain and monorail rides! remembered my family used to go to the ferry terminal there to take photo when we were at sentosa, cos the structure of the building is nice and there is this spiral staircase that is very nice. monorail rides were also a must-have. its really good cos its open air, meaning we can touch the leaves. the trail is also a round the island one, unlike the current sentosa express. but well, we live in a society that economy values are more important.. sighs..

actually, i have been wanting to look for a natural trail that has dragon and dinosaur bone structure, which i was there when i was camping at sentosa 10 years ago. (gasp!) didn't really remembered where it was and thou we saw it on the map, we could not locate it. walked for a long long distance around sentosa, past where the old musical fountain and volcanoland used to be.. they're all closed up for that stupid IR development liao..

just when we were about to give up, we saw this small entrance at the beach, looking hidden in the trees. seems like it is quite deserted and the branches are falling. the adventurous two decides to just go in and explore. and taadaa! found! but the whole trail seems quite hidden and deserted liao... which is quite sad cos i tot it was quite a good natural trail. we walked for quite a long time, exploring the place and taking photos before settling at the beach to watch the musical fountain performance. wasn't in cos it was full house and couldn't get a tic laa... =(

dino trail. rrooaarrr!

dinner follows at Vivo, the noodle shop next to the food court.. which is quite nice!! strongly recommended by the both of us!

finally we went there and even thou it is no longer as good as before, i would still go.. cos that is what little we are left of some nature we can touch. bukit timah hill is too in accessible so dun ask me go there. haha!

sentosa/express.
fun/with/structure.
old/signboard/of/non-existance/places.
merlion.
fireworks

now playing: 陈奕迅 - 不如不见

头沾湿无可避免
伦敦总依恋雨点
乘早机忍耐着呵欠
完全为见你一面
寻得到尘封小店
回不到相恋那天
灵气大概早被污染
谁为了生活不变
越渴望见面然后发现
中间隔着那十年
我想见的笑脸只有怀念
不懂怎去再聊天
像我在往日还未抽烟
不知你怎么变迁
似等了一百年忽已明白
即使再见面
成熟地表演
不如不见


*****

nice song by eason. this is the cantonese version of the song 好久不见 from his new album. actually, i prefered this original canto version. sometimes i feel, they can convey their feelings through their native language better. its so much more better than the new one!

quotes: from Nat #4

If only things were as simple as friendship between little children. When you were small, friendship was pure and forthcoming. You didn't expect anything from other people, and people never expected anything in return. You were friends simply because you were friends. No one owed anyone anything, because young children have no ulterior motives.

When little children grow into big humans, dynamics change. Perhaps that explains why at the end of the day, people often go back to the friends they had back when they were in school. These people were your friends when you were a nobody - not rich, not famous, not successful. These people have seen you at your most unglam. These people have seen you fall, seen you cry, seen you with chicken pox.

In short, these people were your friends.




-:how many have i?

you've missed the bus.

just home not long ago. was out after work to meet up with herry, angie, di and adi. the 5 of us was walking around and windowing before hitting mos burger. but then, the small rice burger is not really enough for my normal meal quantity.. and so i went over to ta pao some dau huay home. like total yays. sometimes i need alot of food therapies to make myself feel better..

with lotsa love.

photo credits to angiee baby.

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saw a jacket on the flesh imp web!! thanks to sue for sending the web to me ha.. now i got one more thing to buy.. =( i gotta see if she can help me get a discount!! but i really like it.. any comments friends??? check it out and tag me a reply k!

*****

on some random thoughts, i was just thinking that how some things that are lost can never ever be back again..

i once told herry bro before, that once u missed the bus, you miss it forever. you may be able to catch the next bus, but it is already a different bus. no doubt you are on a "bus", but still its not that first one that you are supposed to be on, and the feeling is not the same. no matter how hard you try to chase the bus.. it just will not wait for you..

whats lost can never come back, agree? let me know how you think through the tag yea. this place feels so dead.

back from hiatus.

wasn't in a blogging mood at all. even till now. thats y for the long hiatus. but wells, i am afraid some day my memory will fail and i can no longer remember what happened during this period.. so blog lor! lol.

work has been ok, what more to ask? can work then good lor got income, but the fact that great Singapore sale is here is no good news. had already bought several items.. gotta tahan and stop shopping ard jus in case is see things that i like again!!

anw, i finally sent my engineered jeans for alteration. hasnt been able to wear it for a long long time cos its too long and i am lazy to fold. well, the 15 bucks spent would be good money, cos now i can wear it more!!! yays. oh yea, i saw nat tan there when i was picking up my jeans yesterday - u know the guy in proj superstar 2.. no picture of him to post here ok, i am no stalker to snap pictures of people secretly, ha!

*****

ok i am like stuck here on this page for 1 plus hour.. tonnes of things that i feel like saying but there is like nothing coming out.


kels out-