ai. 爱.

叫我怎么能不难过
你劝我灭了心中的火
我还能够怎么说 怎么说都是错

你对我说 离开就会解脱
试著自已去生活
试著找寻自我 别再为爱蹉跎

只是 爱要怎么说出口 我的心里好难受
如果能将你拥有 我会忍住不让眼泪流
第一次握你的手 指尖传来你的温柔
每一次深情眼光的背后
谁知道会有多少愁 多少愁

叫我怎么能不难过
你劝我灭了心中的火
我还能怎么做 怎么做都是错

如果要我 把心对你解剖
只要改变这结果
我会说我愿意做 我受够了寂寞

只是 爱要怎么说出口
我的心里好难受
如果能将你拥有 我会忍住不让眼泪流
第一次握你的手 指尖传来你的温柔
每一次深情眼光的背后
谁知道会有多少愁 多少愁

爱要怎么说出口 我的心里好难受
如果能将你拥有 我会忍住不让眼泪流
第一次握你的手 指尖传来你的温柔
每一次深情眼光的背后
谁知道会有多少愁 多少愁

叫我怎么能不难过
你劝我灭了心中的火
我还能怎么说 怎么说都是错
你对我说 离开就会解脱
试著自已去生活
试著找寻自我 何必为爱蹉跎

help!

did anyone even realised i was in need of help?

or is it that i just seemed too nonchalant? i am just too afraid to look like i am trying too hard, like an attention sucker..

一月五日，晴。

下雨也好 迷路也好
空气里有种相依为命的味道
爱你很好 连风都知道
第一次心甘情愿不想逃

当爱 相随
能完美一切不完美
当你 皱眉
我陪你留在天黑的世界

我们是座城堡
爱情放在里面很好
就算没有人看好
幸福是因为互相依靠
爱情这座城堡
牵著手才能找到
当我们彼此微笑 请不要打扰

into 2010.

and i realise, i have been much neglecting my blog. its too much of a convenience to just upload how i feel as and when i can on the profile status, that i had became so lazy to even pen out my thoughts properly! its starting to show its damage at work recently and i think its high time that i go back to blogging to at least have a practice of writing a longer passage that makes sense.

so, its the first day of the new decade! happy new year my readers! (if theres still any.)

the past year had been one of many changes.. i'm done with NS, got a job and started working back at Dsg. like what Ah Jie says- 2009 has been a yr of changes, challenges and lots of cheeriness, including knowing colleagues who became lunch khakis and much more! for my team managers who have been tolerating and teaching, thanks! and also siang, ah jie and jacq who has added so much colors to my life. siang and ah jie, i will constantly remind myself not to say that i have no friends!

dad is also back home.. though i think we are all still getting used to having each other around, haha! things will be better. ;)

i hope, that this 2010 will be a better one, with all the issues we have at home can be settled in the real near future. also hope that i can get back to school soon, and save up more money to travel around this wonderful world!

to talk, not to talk.

some times i wonder, whats the point in putting in the effort in commuicating.

Yes i know, u r trying too, but u just have to change the way u want things work. not always wanting people to only agree with u, but pls also open up and take in opinions..

level 1.

那可怕的无力感又再度来袭。


该怎么样才能把它赶走？

secret.

i'm hiding the biggest secret.

everything is going to be alright.

grandpa is hospitalized. he fell and has a cut on his forehead, which needs 6 stitches.




i'm feeling damn guilty cos i am not doing my part enough! and i should start by visiting them more often..

quoted: Wei An

Forgive by ~OnlyCurious

It made me wonder how many times we forgive just because we don’t want to lose someone, even if they don’t deserve our forgiveness.

just another day.

right things that happens at the wrong time simply means its not going to be a joyous affair after all.


i got the big envelop from SIM.
i'm accepted, but its totally no cause for any happiness and excitement.
who'll understand the plight i am in? who even bothers!

i am so sick and tired of the low vibes. all the shit i am in.

am i sick?

fridae.

what a sucky fridae night.


and that all i can rely on is a piece of ginseng face mask. to make myself happier, make me feel that i at least existed.








how pathetic.

hello.

i haven't been blogging seriously for a long long time. the thing is i have been writing quite alot at work and it really made me realised how bad my writing is, kinda demoralized me and lost all the 'feel' to write..

and the blunders at the events aren't helping. Singa says i should give myself more time cos i am still new and learning, i really hope i can learn fast enough to make my existence a help and not a nuisance. that kinda of feeling is so sianz.

iap + festival starting next week, and its actually something i am quite 期待-ing. other than the meetings which i am afraid i will fall asleep, the exhibitions and parties will definitely be fun!

things aren't going quite well recently.. lots of low vibes.. can the better days come faster? :(

sucks.

my mum just said some thing that hurts me alot. hais. i feel damn sucky.

and i really mean it! DAMN SUCKY!




to my sis and cousin who comes to my blog, please stop telling the adults what i am writing here! =D

quoted: Nat

void mirror

There's really no point being angry with the people you love.

Sure, you might do a "tit for tat", give an eye for an eye. But at the end of the day, what are you trying to do? Prove a point? Spite them?

An eye for an eye makes the whole world blind.
-Ghandi

Why in the world would you want to hurt someone whom is dear to you? They might not even be around tomorrow. Nor you.

Time is very precious. And we're running out of it - every day, every hour, every minute. This very second.

Some things are not worth holding on to. Anger is one of them. Sometimes, the person you're angry with might not even know it. So all that effort and energy put into being angry only puts a toll on your body. For what? It's too troublesome.

If you have to make a point, and it's someone you love, then Trust that there's enough Love for you to put that point across, and for them to receive it. Just be sure to do it only when the anger has subsided.

Have you let go of your Anger today?

happy or not?

smile by =dunnalildiffernt

i'm so so tired of wearing that mask everyday. who noticed that face behind that frail smile?

quoted: dickson.

...alone by ~nunoramos0

Ever have that one person in your life that you just can’t give up on, the one person that can screw you over time after time yet you always seem to give them another chance, and no matter how many times you say this is their last one, you know it’s a lie because there’s always just one more waiting for them. the one person you know you’re better off without but yet you can’t find a way to let them go because deep down inside, you wouldn’t know what to do without them. The one person you know doesn’t deserve you but yet you choose to overlook it because you love her. -dickson.

ka ching.

first pay's in.

i told mum, its been 2 years since my bank acct seen 4 figure. haha.

2nd shot.

i was quite free today, doing some research online, and saw this photo. i suspect that it is taken from my office, so i am so going to try and take a second shot photo- the time difference is definitely more than 50 years!

this is going to be challenging.

只想说声 · 对不起·

Mother Thersa once said:

We can don't do great things, but we do small things with great love.

沉沦.

i feel like i am in a boat..
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a sinking boat.