and so it is.

today i ord.

but the feeling isn't as intense as people told me. its more like any other day, not even the 'ic moment' caused any huge ripple in emotions.

its only till i am home and wanna wash and keep my uniforms, then i feel that its really the end of it. almost surreal, like it has never happened before.

night was gathering with the falcon boyz. turn out was really good i must say, almost half the platoon here. some of the people i have not seen since we left tekong.. i am really glad that every one is well..

D DAY.

its it. tmrw is the day.

after two years, back to a civilian. one full circle. still remember mum, godma and grandma sending me off to tekong just like it happened not long ago..


its a very special feeling. i dunno how to describe it.

12 days later.

finally got the ffi done today, after two weeks since the dental one is done. was supposed to have done it a few days back but was not in camp due to the mc.

my friendly medic, YEO, is a good one. damn good skill when drawing blood, i totally almost don't feel it at all! so much better than the one at polyclinic for my regular check up.

half of the clearance form is also signed, thanks to JL for bringing me around to the various people who are suppose to sign. don't know most of them as i am posted in half way de.. so not really familiar with many people.

up next- get all the names signed probably by next mon/tues, return pass on wed/thurs and get ready to get out of the place!

tick tock. tick tock.

can time pass faster please? fast forward to the 14th of september, where i can finally hang that blardy green uniform deep in the cabinet and not wear it soon in the near future!

get lost please.

grow up and get a life.

challenging me just because i have pointed out what are the things you have not been doing right? trying to scare me by calling outside "enforcements" in front of me?

you tactics are already wearing out my patience. not getting into a further argument with you does not mean i am scared or what. rather, i just cant be bothered anymore.


stop acting like a primary school kid.

boo!

shiate. i have a pes review coming up in two week's time. whats going to happen? up pes again and start to do all those shit all over again, but now at a brand new environment? or stay with my easy life i am having how? wish me good luck.

**

damn sian. has not been able to watch 17 again yesterday and today! i am on the verge of dropping this show from my watch list cos it just seem that i am not fated with this show. we shall see.

**

i want my ice cream from that shop at shaw tower!!! my rum and raisin with one month aged raisins!!! D=

just cui.

not very nice hor.


i feel very squeeze dried. all the rubbish being thrown to me and i am supposed to "hop" all of them.

nevermind, just remember,

ORD IN 5 MONTHS TIME!!!

haiz.

today's only the second day at the new place and we've got ict in processing- meaning i have to reach early! had to wake up before 5 and reach by 645!! clementi! i'm late anyway, despite taking the first bus. -.-

i am seriously contemplating staying in on days which i have to reach super early. the car sickness is there even when i am on my way home, which is already near to the end of the day!

1088.

done with the last duty, and started signing my clearance..

was clearing my arms at philip's, and i got a damn weird feeling out of the sudden. people all say that a soldier's rifle is his laopo.. and now i am signing it off, not needing to draw it again anymore..

that feeling is damn surreal. leaving way before my ord, 8 more months away.. something that i have least expected.

york says its the same, be it post out or ord. everyone has to go thru it. its just a matter of earlier of later. but post out is diff la.. its you and alone, leaving. where as ord, you leave together with your batchmates to new phase of life!

now i will leave alone.. haha. rsm say he will indent a rover to send me to the new camp, so i dun have to go on that journey on my own. ha! we shall see.

although we have been complaining how sucks, but we also have many happy moments here... so when you leaving, you will feel sad...
-jingyao

posted out!

just got the news yesterday, 20 minutes before its time for me to go off. shocked, very.

no reason at all, just citing- posted out due to medical grounds.

in short, i am becoming a clerk.

omg its like a dream come true!!!

Crap.

I've always thought the whole gala dinner thing is a crap. compulsory attendance even though we are still paying. what crap!

Of dust and heat.

yea.. back to camp for two days. think i have been to used to civilian life. missing my naps and late mornings man!

the uniform is making me feel so warm, the dust in guardroom makes me sneeze non stop, all the mundane stuff making me so sianz at all times..

35days of civilian life! i almost thought i ord-ed!

back to reality.

Rifle, buddy, me.

was talking to Alan and the conversation sort of ended with this line..

brought back lots of memories of b/m/t! he used to be one of the "lead singer" of the platoon and the timer as well.. and this is one of the favorite song we will always sing!

i'm glad that this few of us are still keeping contact.. even though its just through msn or facebook..

Events - outings.

quite eventful these few days! met up with Eugene on Thurs- he's on half day so i went over to raffles city to meet him for lunch and chill. I wanna say thanks bro for spending the whole afternoon with me and listen to my rants of my miserable life. it really helped alot. =D

coincidentally, agnes and gang was also at raffles city for lunch! haha. chatted with them for a while while waiting for eugene.. and so i arranged lunch with agnes the next day! haha.. certainly misses those working days with them.. unlike now where i feel so wasted and my brain cells all wasting away.

yesterday was at sofian's for hari raya! first time joining them as i didnt go for last year's. the food is great and so is the company! love the fried potatoes loads. hohoh. jielun finally turned up after so long. haha. headed to town for some walk walk afterwards with jielun and junwei.

L to R:Junwei, Leon, Han, Chin, Sofian, Jielun, JB, Me.

FED UP.

I is freaking fed up! that brainless freak. you think you just want to go ahead and plan things your way? by all means please go ahead. its not me who is going to suffer. its your people! i have done my due part by informing you wayyy before time.

Its out.

The report is out. I would say it is rather f-up la. Sounding like you guys have no fault at all huh s/a/f?

Actually, i aren't even waiting for it, cos i know that they are going to come out with this kind of report. One that seems rather like them shrieking responsibilities.

I dunno what to say la.. Those that has been in service before would know what the actual system is like.. Who really cared about us unless ourselves? Talk about "care for soldiers"...

Causes of death 2 NSmen who died during training revealed
By Margaret Perry, Channel NewsAsia | Posted: 22 October 2008 0043 hrs


SINGAPORE: The causes of death of two servicemen who died during training in June this year were revealed in Parliament on Tuesday.

Second Lieutenant Clifton Lam Jia Hao collapsed and died during a jungle training exercise in Brunei.

An inquiry found he died from heatstroke.

Defence Minister Teo Chee Hean told the House that Second Lieutenant Lam was given four litres of water and purification tablets.

But the Board established that he may not have hydrated himself adequately during the training exercise.

Mr Teo said neither case could have been detected through medical screening and no safety breach, foul play or negligence were found on the part of personnel.

The Defence Minister said despite the best efforts to reduce risks in training, it is not possible to guarantee no deaths or injuries.

He said: "Nevertheless, I can assure this House that the SAF will continue to do its best to look after our servicemen and servicewomen in terms of medical screening, proper training systems, training safety procedures, and medical coverage during training activities. They are after all our sons and our daughters and every life is precious to us." - CNA/vm

MC day 11.

freak. another ns man passed away during training. why is there so many of such cases this year? i cant help but feel alot. maybe its cos i am also in service.. maybe its becos...

*****

oh yea while i am napping this afternoon, my hp rang a few times with a few smses for me.

hey promoted liao. no more private. now lcp!

surprised. not sure of what happened, so i smsed back to ask. appearantly we are promoted due to so called "good performance", no more private till ord due to failing ippt! haha. but well, i still hope to pass it at least once before i ord.. =)

On this day.

365 days ago, i step into a new unknown phase of my life. met a platoon of people from a thousand different backgrounds and lived with them together for 3 months.

don the green uniform, learnt how to fold smart four from anwar who slept on my right, learnt how to tie my boot lace from alan, and how to forget, my bunk buddy, azhar! whom we have partnered for the trainings too.. =)

the re-re-re sitest, the marches, grenade throwing, all the shits, RT....

I'm a one year soldier!

met up with geoffery yesterday for the peep's (eugene, azhar, setoh, chin, junwei, alan, kianhao) commission parade at safti. the place's damn ulu can. haha. one small regret is that i did not manage to locate my bunk buddy, azhar. didnt manage to take a photo with him in his no. 1. =(

xiangming was there too to support his friend. and i also saw jingyao and angelayuen there. small world it is..

we've all come a long way. one more year to go and we will be heading back to civillian life!

*****

was talking to daren on msn. both of us concluded that its a happy and sad at the same moment thing. half way through already at last. but at the same time we're also nearer to ord. what are we going to do next? the future seem smoky and unclear. he said his results are a sandstorm, i told him mine arent that good either. hai.. one more year to think of what we are going to do!

Madness!

just total madness! i have just finished the two 4 yolk mooncake that cousin gave me just 3 days ago! *gasps* and its not even near to mooncake fest yet! still two days away. wahaha. i've got 2 more boxes with cousin as i have still not collected it from her. woohoo-!

*****


just home not long ago, from the acer carnival. everyone was given half day off for it and we all went to bishan park. the ground was extremely muddy from the morning's rain la and our shoes all gone. haha. luckily i was wearing slippers! but well, shd have worn the saf sandles, that would be easier to wash!

quite fun, walking around playing the games, winning the toys, having some light snacks. reminds me that i have actually not been to a carnival for many years. but well, at least i went to one today, and its still not too late to go for more right? haha.

anyway, we forgot to take photos today! tze wei bought camera and we were all having so much fun that we actually forgot to take any pictures. haha!

*****


suddenly i thought of this song. had definately posted it here before, but i just felt like listening to it right now.


张智成 - 很想你

Setoh Yifeng.

chatting with Jake Sato on msn.

suddenly, i thought of kfc.

the last time i had it was with him and ah lau one fine saturday when we book out after a re-sitest. an impromptu decision to makan there while we are on the bus back from sft.

think this is the first time we actually had a proper talk since pop. miss those days man.