the late at night song.

and i don't wanna say it.

while people are praying for another vacation, for another school holiday to arrive, here all i am hoping for is i can get the darned school fees so that i can start classes.

damn! don't wanna take this shit no more. fecking sick of it.

$_$

money oh money, why don't you just grow on the trees?


its fucking depressing to not even have enough money to pay for that freaking school fees. i wish i was born in sweden or finland where education is free!!!

and I am still on my own.

今天偶然经过那坚寿司店,

让我想起了当天我们一起吃着那盒过了九点就半价的寿司.




人, 真的是好变化无常哦. 霎时间就会变成陌生人.

One more second.

习惯就好 习惯就好
我承认我的伪装是真的不够好
请给我 多一秒。

Quarter of a Pound.

facebook just reminded me that i have not tried the quarter pounder at macs. its so tempting, i think i will try it for lunch one day this week!

of 黑道，友情 and 义气.

风往哪个方向吹，草就往哪个方向倒，年轻的时侯，我也已为自己是风，可到最后遍体鳞伤，我才知道我们都只是草.

Obligated.

yes/no/i consider.

theres only three options and "being obligated" is not one of them. why are you making decisions based on feeling the obligation, when there isn't even any?



why commit and say yes, when you're not even certain you will be doing it? why say you are scared to promise? a promise should be made only if its on something that you are going to embark on. if not, its not considered a promise.

disappointment is not even a word strong enough to describe what i am feeling.

void.

i'm feeling jaded.. empty, alone.

don't want to be this disorientated. needa escape.



anyone out there care to join me?

25 minutes.

thats how long i leave my mask on my face.
thats when i feel that nothing elses matters,
thats when i feel that i am actually not alone.

5-month-day

i went for the 五月天 concert!!

its very very good. the rain did not dampen the mood, and i enjoyed myself totally, singing to all their songs.

its only today that i realised, that many of mayday's songs actually accompanied me through my growing up year - the secondary school and poly growing up years when we know whats happening ard us. all the happiness and sadness...

一场欢喜一场空

讨厌那种满心期待后的失望。

when will my holiday ever come!!! :(

to my aunt who don't read my blog.

i flared today. i screamed at aunt.

i am quite guilty cos after all she is elder and its not very nice. but sometimes the things she do is really quite too much and this time round concerning my sister i have to talk it out to her. maybe, my approach is wrong.

i will use a better approach next time, my apologies...

solved.

sometimes i think that i need to just move to another place where no one knows me and start all over again.




maybe that will just solve all the problems.

小年夜。

今天是小年夜，再过没多久就是除夕了。


而我却到了现在都还在大扫除，真是临时抱佛脚啊！





其实过年是不错的。因为需要大扫除的时候，可以借机把一些平时丢不掉、割舍不了的东西，统统倒进垃圾桶里！:)

倒是老妈就别再唠叨啦！拜托拜托！现在不就打扫干净了嘛。。


在此先恭祝各位：

财源广进、身体健康、心想事成！

Said.

你可知道，说出去的话就有如覆水难收。

you can delete the things you've said, but you can't change the fact that you have said those words, nor can you reverse the damage caused.

Masquerade.

i've recently seen quite a few jokers being

very good 'actors' and 'actresses',

saying one thing and doing another.

只要 · 一个人就好

為什麼 越相信誰能依靠
越換來 又一次靈魂寂寥
有沒有永遠 再不會讓心絕望的解藥

High maintenance.

and so i realised, that sometimes 一面的一厢情愿 will usually land you in very sad situations.

like not getting the things/responses that you want.

and worse, you might even end up with people irritating/annoyed of you. and cos of what? not that you are not putting any effort into maintaining the relationship, but its when what you're giving is too much for them to handle, and they will easily brush you off as 'asking for too much'.

am i really so high maintenance? maybe different people would have different answer..



sometimes i am so sick of how things is going, that i got no one to share how i am feeling with.

等等等等.

我.. 是什么？

只是你填充空闲时间的一个人吗？



无止境的等让我觉得好累.. 或许是我想太多了吧？