POP.

Falcon! falcon! all the way!

Tadaa! with JB, Anwar, Kev, Clement, Toby, Ben.

after 13 weeks. it just zoomed past like this. *snaps finger* initial thought is that is will not be that fast, but the fact is that it has already passed. cleared all the essential lessons and passed out as Private Kho! no more a chao recruit!!

BMTC 1 Falcon Platoon 1

rehearsals for the parade is packed.. even till the night before it. din really liked the long waiting but somehow everyone didnt complaint much yea.. after all its one of the last thing that we can do together..

Hormat, Senja-ta!

its nervous at the very last min in the contingent waiting to go out. stand tall and proud in front of our parents. was afraid of hearing the wrong command, doing the wrong things and making a fool out of myself. thank god, it did not happen.

Salute!

everyone is reluctant to go off after the parade. stayed and took tonnes of photos. its a mixed feeling. on the walk down the lane leading to the ferry terminal.. knowing that we're not coming back to this island anymore.. and that the brothers we fought together side by side won't be there all the time anymore. the feeling is bitter-sweet. for all the songs we sang, rain or shine..

Platoon 1 and PS

Platoon 1 and PC

The Re-re-sitester! Leslie not in pic.

BMTC Roar!

POP Lo!!

I won't forget, its hard to forget. It'll be an important part in my life.. a turning point for me.. a time where i really grew up..

"Pain is a sign that fear is living our bodies."

sick.

i am so sick of dad having so many of his unrealistic dream. enough.

quotes: bluey grey.

“怎么会那样？”趁着距离下一个访问还有些时间，他赶到三藩市咖啡座跟几位老同学会面，没想到沙发还没坐暖便听到这愕然的消息：琦琦自杀了。

喝着熟悉的热巧克力，感觉味道却比平常来得苦涩。脑子里一片空白，隐约划过她在中学穿着啦啦队制服，脸上是那招牌式的阳光笑容；在台上演唱《我愿意》时认真的眼神，还有在毕业典礼上代表全体毕业生上台致词时，眼眶里打转的热泪。

“最后一次见她，也是半年前的事了吧！”安妮突然打破沉默，把我从回忆中拉回现实。“我在逛街时突然碰上她一个人在咖啡座里坐着，但也只是上前聊了几句，当时就有察觉到她的脸色不是很好，已不像以前那么开朗。原以为只不过是因为感情上有些纠纷，没想到她竟然患上忧郁症，最终还…”

“听说她的男友跟黑帮有关系的诶，会不会是对方在外面胡搞乱搞才会搞到这下场？”老是唯恐天下不乱的阿俊插嘴说，突然让我感觉很反感：“好了，不要再说了！”

如果人生是个学习的过程，小学学习解答加不完除不尽的数学题，中学学习面对剪不断理还乱的初恋感情纠纷，大学学习面对即将踏入社会的忧虑与不安，那长大之后要学习的，就是如何面对死亡。家人的离去亲戚患上癌症朋友意外身亡，接二连三的死讯，一波接一波的失落与恐惧感。

最可怕的，不是死亡。而是死亡后，身边的人还得好好活下去。就像是有人毫不留情地把相框里的照片剪掉一半，原本温暖的双人床只剩下一个人的体温，再硬生生地把他与她的影像从发黄的回忆里扒出来。

他在想，如果份量等于重量，这空白的残缺，无疑就是生命中不可承受的轻。血淋淋的伤口，再多的眼泪再多的悲伤再多的思念再多的遗憾再多的愧疚再多的追悼也于事无补。只能面对，接受，放下后，再继续生活。

落地窗外的阳光，好刺眼。他微微地闭上双眼，深深地吸了一口气。突然间，洒下的炙热阳光勾勒出熟悉的背影。“你还在做什么呢？”熟悉的酒窝，耳边还传来那熟悉的微笑。“让自己活得那么不开心，你究竟在做什么呢？”

20 pounds.

that is officially the weight i lost since i enter bmtc 1. 10 solid kg ok!

忽然之间

suddenly, some one comes up into my mind.

some lost memories.. or so i thought.
a lost friendship..

i just realised that i have never seen him smile before.

now playing: 劉若英 - 生日快樂

仿佛你就在我身边
等待了一年又一年
对你的思念
三百六十五天
我只等这一天
勇敢地把从前
情人节快乐
变成
祝你生日快乐

i love you
说不出口的倾诉
i miss you
让挂念代替了相处
瞬间是永远感情变祝福
可惜甜言也带苦

i love you
是最完美的结束
i miss you
一辈子靠今天接触
瞬间是永远感情变祝福
可惜都于事无补

今夜有人陪你庆祝
不枉我一年的孤独
请你原谅我不多写一个字
像普通人紆糊
多一字多份痛
今夜我不想哭

happy birthday to you
happy birthday to you

On a monday.

don't need to wonder why i am blogging on a monday. i am sick. haa!!! got food poisoning so there is a 2 day mc which means i can book in only tonight. that also means that i would have one more night's rest at home. hais. rest is so badly needed but not there all the time.

coming weekends will be bad as i will continue to book out late as i failed my ippt. still a zero fighter!!! dare not hope for much just hope that i can at least PASS my ippt when i book out. SOC can pass then forget it le. i just couldn't get over the first obstacle which is the low wall that is not low at all.

days inside is frustrating and demoralising. being a zero fighter and physically so unfit does not help at all. i just hope that endure will help me past this 3 months fast.

One Month.

yup. finally, i posted. one month into tekong already. also marks the end of PTP phrase. going in to NS is a total new experience in life, a total culture shock, a total drainage of energy in the body. weekends are all burnt out for me to have quality sleep and rest.

anw, i love my new hairstyle! hohoho. jus shaved second time on fri before book out.. and so fast its sunday again and booking in time.. bye!

say BYE to boyhood!

till the next time i blog again, it should be 2 weeks later.



i will be well and ok with all the well wishes from my family and friends!!! =)

Packed

yesterday is packed to the brim. went back to office for some handover, visited ms soh at cat high, met up with jess and gang in the evening. woohoo-!

have not gotten the pics from chelle yet so i will post about the Cat High 一日游 later.



now on the night outing, we had dinner at crystal jade. its my first time there and i love their congee. theres so much we talk about cos we have not met for so long!



tat and me is going in on sat. both sch 1 and same time. will we become bunk mates? i will let you know when i come back two weeks later.

in need of sponsor

i just found out i dun have a proper bag to bring the things in to tekong. any1 want to be a nice sponsor and get me one? haha.

so far i have not yet prepared the things yet! sianz.


P/S: i think there will be some things i will miss when i go inside..

my family, frens
mcdonalds
coke
freedom
my bed.

游车河

just met up with boon and mabel. boon is going to be enlisted in the morning! police academy, that lucky chap! he specially waited for mabel to end school and drove us to jln kayu for supper. i got a shock when i got up the car, cos he has already went to shave his head!! he says he want it to be perfectly shaved so he go shave himself first. haa..

went to two shops for prata and satay. eating and chilling is never better than this. mabel also got us both a cap each as a ns gift! haa so cute.



and it was road trip on his car for the first time after that. went to yishun dam which is a quiet and peaceful place. ideal for chilling. we will go there the next time!

Sushi.

met up with Gary, the outing-before-ns. we went for ichiban sushi and its great! the sashimi is better than those of sakae!

and of cos, how can we miss the tau huay. cool relaxing outing!!

cheap cheap. 50 baht.

yeah im back from my escapade to the land of smiles! a new fresher me!!! feel so energized, no doubt i felt tired. but well, thats the after effects of all trips ba! the shopping is great, the massage is shiok, i cant find a reason not to love thailand! the short 4 days trip is a good recharge for me before ns! or so for me at least. haha.

Destination- Thailand, BangKok!
Hours clocked: 2 Sept to 5 sEpt!
Involved~ kel, gary, kahying, jamica, jacintha.

queueing up to board the plane

first time trying out the budget carrier

not too bad, thats our plane!

highlights of the trip:

1) got to know new friends
jam and jacintha are great outing buddies! even thou we just know each other during this trip, it was hell lots of fun! and they are really helpful girls to help me ard when i am less mobile. haha!

the V hand sign is in da trend now!

2) got to know a new side of my buddy
gary was never this outgoing in my memory ok! haha.. last time he used to be like quite resistance to strangers? but this time round everything turns out so well!!! am happy he is more outgoing. hoho.

gary posing with kah ying

3) kel keeps falling
er.. haha. yes its me. i fell like quite a few times lor. hmmhmm.. i hereby wanna thank the other 4 partners for the care, concern, and help given to me when i fell. love ya all!!!

4) lots of great shopping
do we have to say more? its BANGKOK leh!!!

when we are going home...

...we bought back lots of staff!

5) food
from tom yum to jap food to donuts. you name it, they have it.

donuts!!!

6) massage
did i mention that the massage is the best well spent money we spent during this trip? hurhur-



7) revisited some places of interest
got a better chance to have a good look at these places.. climbed to the top of Wat Arun, which was not opened the last time i was here..

boat ride

garland

Chao Phraya River

waves..

views of buildings along the river bank..

wat arun

temple

peak of wat arun

we went up to the highest point!!

this building is half torn down.

street views

I CANT WAIT FOR A NEXT TRIP. PEOPLE LETS SAVE UP!! lets hit other mega-shopping-malls-like-country like hong kong or taiwan soon!!! i will take leave from my ns. haha!!! i love to travel!! also hope to go to other ideal places like Cambodia and Vietnam soon. tsk tsk. gotta save up. haha!

ramen. puncak.

my long-awaited-escapade-to-refresh-myself is finally coming!!! who say only some people can have graduation trip while i cant? now i am going to my own! woohoo-!

*****

supposedly to be my last day of work yest.. but i extended 4 more days.. part of the reason is to help agnes, who have been a really nice boss to me. another reason is also to earn some pocket money before i land on green man island, where the there will be no pay and only allowance for the next 2 years.. however i will still take yest as last day of work!! woohoo-!

*****

met up with pebb last nite.. been so long since i see her! shes still the same.. haha.. shopped ard and had dinner at puncak. its nice to meet up with friends you can talk to and bitch about work stuff!! hohoho.

*****

lunch on thurs was branja-ed by DA JIE! thanks!!! actually was already vvv paiseh with all these treating "farewell" lunches le.. they are not cheap!! i really appreciates it alot.. =) the two of us and SH went to that ramen stall at central where we have heard so much about it already but have not tried yet. personally i find it pretty good while DA JIE and SH finds that tam popo is still better..

*****

agnes gave me a lift yest after work to town, and we shared some views on working.. at the same time i reflected how working and temping the last few years changed me.. in personality wise and others.. hope that i have became someone better! definately learnt alot but i think that a person on whole is not only measured by the knowledge, right?

*****

this few days is quite crazy at work. there is just quite alot of urgent things to do but no time. why am i so busy just when i am leaving!! now i got not enough time to finish the tasks and i will feel so pek cek!! haha.. JIAYOUS~!

*****

met up poly gang at new york new york for short gathering dinner. QQ's back from navy! so fast 2 weeks liao. i hope when i am inside time past fast as well!!

don't we look like small kids?

sweet kinda life.

i heart sepia photos!!

*****

on the side note, i just feel so dead. cos in 15 days time i am going to be enlisted and i have not started any form of training yet! -_-