Setoh Yifeng.

chatting with Jake Sato on msn.

suddenly, i thought of kfc.

the last time i had it was with him and ah lau one fine saturday when we book out after a re-sitest. an impromptu decision to makan there while we are on the bus back from sft.

think this is the first time we actually had a proper talk since pop. miss those days man.

bluff.

stop bluffing me. stop lying to me. its ok. just let me know the truth.. the truth that is. i am left out.

am i not your friend? had i not done enough? had i not been there for you all?

why am i left out, over and over again?


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nothing hurts than having your friend lying to you. i don't know.. i'll just...

呐喊

Mabel.

Happy birthday!!!

had a celebration for mabel's "20th birthday", as suppose she is always one year younger than boon. hehee! had steamboat at seoul garden, havent been there for long! at least a few years. they have since also changed the pan they use for steamboat. food is nt bad but its a fun meal for the four of us gathers together again and talk like endleessly. also had a mini cake cutting for her. k followed by the dinner at a new venue which we forgot the name. the place is nice, nicer then k box! but the song system is quite complicated..sound system also soso nia.. maybe we shd stick back to k! ha.

JJ. Xiu.

JJ rox my sox! his live singing is great! woohoo!

went to his performance with mabel last night at suntec. its actually a annual dinner for a particular MLM co. haa! thou had to wait for like 3 hours before he sings, its totally worth it! he sang like more than 10 songs la.. and the seat is so strategic. thanks to mabel for the invitation!

last week also went for xiu's 21st.




happy 21st dear.

周记.

while packing my things some times ago, saw the weekly journal that i used to do with AC. there will be a theme set and i would write some thing. she would in turn write some comments and sharing of opinions on the topic.

霎时发现，原来我还曾经愿意与人分享。

AC says she no longer has time to do it with me anymore, and commented that i still has my blog to do it. but 曾几何时，我的博客已不再是我能抒发我的情绪与意见的地方了。



i miss the times.. where there is a place i can air my emotions.. i can get honest opinions and people really care. i cant even write all in MY blog now. cos people is watching, and they are scrutinising. sadly, it sometimes even became a place where people hate me get information and tag at my board.

friends- i really scared le. those who were there, and said they will be there, arent here anymore. those who are still here, has pretty much a life of their own too. i am really sick of people missing me out in their outings and the only reason they gave is cos some one else doesnt like me is going. i dont know how i should feel. i feel that i sucks. cos despite knowing those peeps for so long.. i am forsaken cos of this kind of reason. my heart felt cold. why do i stop asking people out? stop asking me and say i keep MIAing. ask yourselves. i am tired. and sick, of all these.

and not only that, i am feeling worthless with reasons like my family. when will i ever get over it? i dont think it will ever end.



*****


S.H.E - 天灰




如果你不再出现
我的世界还有什么可贵
可惜不够时间
让我们试验什么叫永远

想念变成怀念
心动变成心碎
偏偏还会关切
你最后属于谁
我的天空今天有点灰
我的心是个落叶的季节
我不知道如何度过今夜
所有的灯早已经全都熄灭

如果你从没出现
我会不会觉得快乐一些
可惜残忍时间
总要把诺言一点点摧毁

Memories.

was packing my things recently cos moved house.. saw alot of things, some still needed but some not. but why are they still kept? i think i have kept a little far too much "junks"- things that has 太过沉重的记忆与意义。

有些东西往往太过沉重，继续绑在身上也会阻碍前进。但为什么这些东西，却甩不掉又丢不了？

my ex house.

was there yesterday after duty to collect some letters that was still sent to the old add.. they're kind enough to let me in and have a juice.

that is a freaking odd feeling! that was my home.. MY home! and now its someone elses one liao. haha. i dunno how to explain that feeling...

Gong Xi!

yr of rat coming in a few hrs time. Hereby wishing everyone a very prosperous and happy new yr! Gong xi gong xi!

Updated thru Sam's iPhone.

Key - to freedom, and the responsibilities that comes with it.

when my friends got enlisted and their blog literally went 'dead', i secretly told myself that MY blog will definitely not be like theirs. I AM SO VERY WRONG.

life of a ns man is very sian. serious. no bluff. nothing much has been happening la.

*****

anw, birthday last week. twentyfirst, the key to adulthood, more freedom, and of cos- i finally stand a chance to get those perks that the govt is giving! new singapore share, progressive package, gst package. come quick!!

am touched. by the people who made the effort to take time and come down to the small celebration.. am not touched, by the people who did not come but didnt even inform.. but its ok la. i am happy for what i get.

thanks everyone.. for the present, for coming.. to my cousins who came over to help out. for the memory.

On my 21st.

No replies?

i dun get replies from those peeps. now its not that i dun wanna call them huh herry.


done my part. now its none of my business.

whats life?

我真的受夠了..



寧願我其實根本都沒有存在過...

quotes: xiangming

只是兩种不一樣的幸福罷了。
原來當我們看見別人在幸福的時候，
常常忘了自己也在幸福之中。

Bye bye '07.

last day of 2007! this year has zoomed by very fast..

-graduated from school and no longer a student.
-worked for some time at a real fun place before crossing over to a new level in my life: NS.
-got into bmtc1 f-coy for bmt and passed it safely, with the many happenings at the field camp and re re sitests.
-got posted to RP and will start the RP journey 100108.
-many new members in the family- the cousins and the nephews.

little surprises to expect from the coming yr, i mean whats there much to expect of a ns man's life?

thanks.. to the people who came into my life in this entire yr, to the people who left too.. to those who love me, to those who hate me, you guys made me grew up alot. to those whom gave me lots of good advise, said things that helped me grew up and made a better me.. thanks a lot! love ya all..

quotes: Zahidah's.

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One day a man saw an old lady, stranded on the side of the road, but even in the dim light of day, he could see she needed help. So he pulled up in front of her Mercedes and got out. His Pontiac was still sputtering when he approached her. Even with the smile on his face, she was worried. No one had stopped to help for the last hour or so. Was he going to hurt her? He didn't look safe; he looked poor and hungry. He could see that she was frightened, standing out there in the cold. He knew how she felt. It was those chills which only fear can put in you.

He said, 'I'm here to help you, ma'am. Why don't you wait in the car where it's warm? By the way, my name is Bryan Anderson.' Well, all she had was a flat tire, but for an old lady, that was bad enough.

Bryan crawled under the car looking for a place to put the jack, skinning his knuckles a time or two. Soon he was able to change the tire.. But he had to get dirty and his hands hurt.

As he was tightening up the lug nuts, she rolled down the window and began to talk to him. She told him that she was from St. Louis and was only just passing through. She couldn't thank him enough for coming to her aid.

Bryan just smiled as he closed her trunk. The lady asked how much she owed him. Any amount would have been all right with her. She already imagined all the awful things that could have happened had he not stopped. Bryan never thought twice about being paid. This was not a job
to him. This was helping someone in need, and God knows there were plenty, who had given him a hand in the past. He had lived his whole life that way, and it never occurred to him to act any other way.

He told her that if she really wanted to pay him back, the next time she saw someone who needed help, she could give that person the assistance they needed, and Bryan added, 'And think of me.'

He waited until she started her car and drove off. It had been a cold and depressing day, but he felt good as he headed for home, disappearing into the twilight.

A few miles down the road the lady saw a small cafe. She went in to grab a bite to eat, and take the chill off before she made the last leg of her trip home. It was a dingy looking restaurant. Outside were two old gas pumps. The whole scene was unfamiliar to her. The waitress came over and brought a clean towel to wipe her wet hair. She had a sweet smile, one that even being on her feet for the whole day couldn't erase. The lady noticed the waitress was nearly eight months pregnant, but she never let the strain and aches change her attitude. The old lady
wondered how someone who had so little could be so giving to a stranger.

Then she remembered Bryan.

After the lady finished her meal, she paid with a hundred dollar bill. The waitress quickly went to get change for her hundred dollar bill, but the old lady had slipped right out the door. She was gone by the time the waitress came back. The waitress wondered where the lady could be. Then she noticed something written on the napkin.

There were tears in her eyes when she read what the lady wrote: 'You don't owe me anything. I have been there too. Somebody once helped me out, the way I'm helping you. If you really want to pay me back, here is what you do: Do not let this chain of love end with you.'

Under the napkin were four more $100 bills.

Well, there were tables to clear, sugar bowls to fill, and people to serve, but the waitress made it through another day. That night when she got home from work and climbed into bed, she was thinking about the money and what the lady had written. How could the lady have known how
much she and her husband needed it? With the baby due next month, it was going to be hard....

She knew how worried her husband was, and as he lay sleeping next to her, she gave him a soft kiss and whispered soft and low, 'Everything's going to be all right. I love you, Bryan Anderson.'

There is an old saying 'What goes around comes around.'

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Neither here nor there.

i never belonged.

Powerhouse.

i can dance for nuts. haha. cant do it totally. just there to have fun and mainly to meet up with tat and ter.

met up kind of late. but still, braved through the long q, cos Tat got some friends who brought us in without q-ing! haha.. had breakfast at mac's after that too.. alone thou cos they went home le haha.. some how i suddenly miss the times i spent alone again..

totally hearts this kind of outing with the right peeps. helps me to unscrew from all the tension that is slowly killing me..!

Out for fun?

day filled with fun and lots of food! had buffet lunch at japs with cousins, followed by meeting jb for shopping at bugis. looked ard but theres no catch. wanted to get some clothes for cny la.. *opps actually bought some liao still wanna buy haha.* saw a shirt though. but didnt get it. YET! haa. met up with the rest of the gang afterwards for dinner and chill out at short street. beer and soccer. ended the day by prata afterwards, with special thanks to han for sending the peeps home. hohoho.

Posting is out.

whatever it is. i wish myself good luck. got total no idea what it is about.