no need to work still got salary.

york that cb, haha. dun worry i will be back just in time for your ord treat. wakakaka!

yes was away for the past three days for my "holiday" at chalet SGH. admitted due to acute appendicitis. in chinese we call it 割盲肠。 hha. sudden and fast game.

pain in gastric started in late afternoon on sunday after i ate the 3 not so good looking choc muffin left from the previous night. continued all the way till the next morning after i dismount and went to have breakfast with the guys at ADF canteen. couldn't even finish a plate of char kway tiao and i sensed that things were not good but just didnt expect it to be this bad!

head home and took a nap but woke up after only about 1 hour. not usual at all for me! woken up by the pain actually. headed to the gp which refered me to a&e straight away. haha.

things moved on super fast from then. admitted on monday night straight away and the op is on 4am of tuesday. woken up by the pain at 5.45am again and i thought i woke up in the middle of the op-silly me! haha.

and so i am home today. i wanna say thanks to the doc who did a good job. the scar dun look ugly at all. thanks to the nurses who are very patient with my dressing of wound and constant shoutings of pain. haha. and to the male nurse who managed to carry me out of bed to help me to the toilet so many times thru out the day!! youre the hero who saved me! haha.

one month mc. bless me. i will have a good rest and recuperate. hehe. =)

quoted: supergirl

i duno if its a good thing when colleagues become ur only frens.

quoted: [anch]

Everything's gone.

why am i keep having this feeling like i am begging you all for a meet up?
why am i like begging people whom i have not seen for a long time just for a gathering?

reply a sms got so difficult not?
calling back a missed call is so hard is it?

that thing called "friendship" is just so not mutual. freaking hell, this feels like shit.






and guess what? its not the first time this kind of things have been happening to me.. i am just so fucked up lor..

On this day.

365 days ago, i step into a new unknown phase of my life. met a platoon of people from a thousand different backgrounds and lived with them together for 3 months.

don the green uniform, learnt how to fold smart four from anwar who slept on my right, learnt how to tie my boot lace from alan, and how to forget, my bunk buddy, azhar! whom we have partnered for the trainings too.. =)

the re-re-re sitest, the marches, grenade throwing, all the shits, RT....

I'm a one year soldier!

met up with geoffery yesterday for the peep's (eugene, azhar, setoh, chin, junwei, alan, kianhao) commission parade at safti. the place's damn ulu can. haha. one small regret is that i did not manage to locate my bunk buddy, azhar. didnt manage to take a photo with him in his no. 1. =(

xiangming was there too to support his friend. and i also saw jingyao and angelayuen there. small world it is..

we've all come a long way. one more year to go and we will be heading back to civillian life!

*****

was talking to daren on msn. both of us concluded that its a happy and sad at the same moment thing. half way through already at last. but at the same time we're also nearer to ord. what are we going to do next? the future seem smoky and unclear. he said his results are a sandstorm, i told him mine arent that good either. hai.. one more year to think of what we are going to do!

学习放下

我怀念的



可是为什么
却苦笑说我都懂了
自尊常常将人拖着
把爱都走曲折
假装了解 是怕 真相太赤裸裸
但被逼失去难受


谁懂我多么不舍得
太爱了　所以呢　没有哭　没有痛

Madness!

just total madness! i have just finished the two 4 yolk mooncake that cousin gave me just 3 days ago! *gasps* and its not even near to mooncake fest yet! still two days away. wahaha. i've got 2 more boxes with cousin as i have still not collected it from her. woohoo-!

*****


just home not long ago, from the acer carnival. everyone was given half day off for it and we all went to bishan park. the ground was extremely muddy from the morning's rain la and our shoes all gone. haha. luckily i was wearing slippers! but well, shd have worn the saf sandles, that would be easier to wash!

quite fun, walking around playing the games, winning the toys, having some light snacks. reminds me that i have actually not been to a carnival for many years. but well, at least i went to one today, and its still not too late to go for more right? haha.

anyway, we forgot to take photos today! tze wei bought camera and we were all having so much fun that we actually forgot to take any pictures. haha!

*****


suddenly i thought of this song. had definately posted it here before, but i just felt like listening to it right now.


张智成 - 很想你

of the past.

i want to go for night cycling again.
i want to go ubin as i have not been there before.

but the peeps who say they're going to do it with me arent here anymore. they have proceeded on so much with their life while i am still the pathetic soul stuck in the old memories of the past, abandoned. or rather, i abandoned myself.

不会. 不懂. 不痛.

从以前到现在，我一直不断地认为这个人是个!@#$%^&*(.... some one i hated that much.

但是，他却还能和他们老友鬼鬼，而我却成了无关痛痒的旁观者。and i am supposed to have known them for a longer time..

或许，真正的!@#$%^&*( 是我才对...

爱情小品

Quoted from Mary.

爱，不需要让你知道

寒冷的二月，山中茫茫的雪中，一男一女艰难的移动着，他们都是户外运动的爱好者，相约进山看雪，途中意外碰到暴风雪，迷了路。

女人很喜欢男人，他们之间没有表白过，因为之前，女人仅仅是从男人的眼神中，捕捉到喜欢的信息，但是不确定。他们两个都是骄傲而怕受伤的人，因为不确定，所以不表白。

大雪中，他们手拉着手，说着鼓励的话，在齐膝的雪中艰难的前进，不停的走着，常常走不了几步就会摔交，衣服已经湿透了，被冷风一吹，两个人都嘴唇青紫。体 力消耗很大，但女人仍然边走边笑，男人看着女人，轻松不少。尽管都在微笑，但是他们知道，死神正一步步向他们逼近。已经三天了，周围仍然是一望无际的雪 地，体力已经透支，最糟糕的是，食物也越来越少了。

为了生存，他们把所有的食物都集中到了女人的背包里，由女人好好规划，控制每天的食量，以应付最糟糕的情形。更不幸的事情发生了，由于雪太深，在路过一片 树林时，女人掉进雪洞里扭伤了脚，整个腿肿了起来，每走一步都要忍住巨痛。男人已经极度疲惫了，没可能背上女人前进，而且，女人也拒绝男人背她，她很清 楚，这样的话，他们会一起死在山上。

斟酌再三，只能由男人独自前行，找到出山的路，寻求救援。男人为女人支好了帐篷，安顿好。他们整理了彼此的背包，女人告诉男人“还剩下八块压缩饼 干，咱们一人四块“，随后说“你出去帮我烧点水好吗？“男人烧好水送进帐篷来，女人说饼干分好了，装在两个包的头包里，男人摸了摸两个背包的头包，凭感 觉，的确是一样多。他拉着女人的手，说“等着我，我马上回来”。

直到这时，他们仍然没有向对方表达自己的爱恋，他们都是理智的人，这种情况下，可能一分手就是永别，如果表白之日就是永别之日，未免太过残忍。

男人根本不知道自己能不能走出去，如果，他们中只有一人能生存，那何必让对方用一生的时间，去忘记一个逝去的爱人呢？记得一个普通的朋友就足够了。女人无限依恋的看着男人“我等你，我知道你能走出去。”男人站起身，替女人盖好睡袋，转身。

每走一段路，男人都做下记号，他一心想着找到救援，回去接女人，饿了，啃一口饼干，渴了，吃两口雪。男人的速度越来越慢，他提醒自己，不能停，只要停下就意味着死亡，那女人也就没救了，他努力坚持，他告诉自己，一定要出去。

终于，男人耗尽了最后一丝气力，倒下，失去知觉前，他想，女人的食物还够吗？还能撑住吗？醒来，男人发现自己躺在救援队的帐篷里，朋友发现他们没有按时出山，救援队已经进山搜救很久了。

其实救援队一开始并没有发现男人，他们先找到女人的帐篷，然后顺着男人留下的记号，找到几乎冻僵奄奄一息的男人。男人的体温渐渐恢复，他问“她 呢”，大家不语，他突然发现，救援队的成员眼角都隐隐有着泪光。男人一呆，“告诉我，她呢”，挣扎着要出去找她。救援队长用颤抖的声音说“别找了，她不在 了，我们发现她的时候，已经去了，可能是出去融雪烧水，没力气回到帐篷，冻死了”……

三年后，男人结婚了，是一个和女人一样喜欢户外运动、喜欢笑的可爱女孩。女人走后，这个女孩陪男人走过了最难受的日子，男人逐渐快乐起来，有了感情，两人走到了一起，有时，他们也会一起怀念惋惜女人的逝去，也更珍惜现在的感情。当年的救援队长参加了他的婚礼。

婚礼后，队长来到女人的墓地，女人在照片上，笑容依旧美丽。队长对女人说“你放心吧，他结婚了，很幸福“。队长流泪了，其实，当年，队长说谎了。女人不是冻死的，救援队发现她的时候，她好好的躺在帐篷里，睡袋盖的很好，男人替她盖好的，她舍不得动。

女人是饿死的，打开她的头包，只有几块平平的石板，没有什么压缩饼干，剩下的压缩饼干，不是八块，只有四块而已。女人，把剩下的所有食物，都留给了 男人，她真的，很爱他。队长发现女人的时候，她早已经僵硬的手中紧紧攥着一张小纸条：“我肯定撑不到他回来了，别告诉他，他该有自己的生活。”

Stabbed.

falling into that fucking drain is one thing. that kind of expression that she shows on her face is another thing.


wished my leg was broken or something.

Cya soon!

Cya soon! or so we always say to people. but are we really doing it? i think its a phrase that is seriously over used.. if you really wanna see them soon then do it, don't leave any regrets..

Goodbye Beijing, Hello London.

Closing of the Olympics last night! after so many days.. of catching the respective matches on the tv its coming to an end. actually, this is kind of a bonding session for my family. didn't know father knew quite a bit about volleyball and table tennis matches yo!

caught the closing on channel 5 in camp last night. i have to say, mediacorp is one of the worse broadcaster! ads like every now and then causing us to miss alot of the performances! luckily we have channel 601-606 on cable. woohoo-!

anw, here's one of the song for Beijing2008-



shall save the lyrics as its too long! to get it watch the video.

=)

Latest: Its a Silver!

ahhhhahhharrggahh!!!!

WE GOT A MEDAL!!!! WE GOT A MEDAL!!!!

OMG OMG OMG!!!


SO EXCITED JUST NOW WATCHING THE MATCH LIVE!!

OMG OMG OMG!!!

two-wheeled love.

and how i miss those days too angiee. =)

Focus.

I wasted my one day leave at home!! =(

massive headache that has been going on for days and it just got worse today. these nothing i can do except lying around doing like NOTHING!

freak. why does this kind of things always happen on my leave or off days!?

43.

a happy 43rd Singapore!! love you much much. muacks. haha.

a busy and packed day! met up with mabel for the parade and its followed by boon's birthday and then chia's. too many programmes packed in a evening!! hah. almost couldn't reach in time.

once again, luck is with us as we got great seats again! sat just behind the ministers so the view is great.

the fireworks and black knights are the highlights of the parade, also trying hard to spot cousin at one of the performance! but was not able too. maybe i'll go home and check out the encore telecast at channel 8.

walked to raffles mrt with mabel after the parade and took train down to meet sally before cabbing to boon's party. haven't see sally for quite some time already and she had a new hairstyle!

Luckily, we reached the chalet in time to be the last group for the photo taking. i was quite worried that we might have missed it. haha. friends of 17 years, of course i wouldn't want to disappoint boon laa.. hope he likes the presents and everything.

shortly after that, rushed over to chia's birthday! practically ran over there! sweaty all over, even worse than IPPT! ha! sang bdae song and played like crazy, with help of some cream and coke lime.

some how i think its quite interesting to have this kind of gatherings for us who are serving.. most of the time we see each other only in uniforms la and suddenly when all of us are in civi, i am so not used to it! bleahx.

the night continues with mahjong at my place, with jianji, jamie and raymond. and i won 1 buck!! woohoo0-!

08.08.08

and so...

Beijing 2008 starts with a bang!!!

so looking forward to it.. those events that i like- I'd definitely try to catch it on tv! this time round v lucky, got SCV, and they're showing all the matches at dedicated channels! with no interruption! woohoo-!

watched the opening ceremony. grand i would say, a good job done! maybe its cause the show is about some how Chinese history, which we knows and can relate to. previous Olympics at western countries show their history which we aren't that familiar with, resulting us feeling bored?


their ideas are kind of creative. the way the touch is lite up, some parts of the performance, especially the part on chinese words being invented. and how can we forget bird's nest stadium and water cube! great architecture!


hmm.. i dunno. got a little bit of feeling proud of us chinese finally hosting something this big scale. haha.

如果. 沒有你.

hey 我真的好想你
现在窗外面又开始下着雨
眼睛干干的有想哭的心情
不知道你现在到底在哪里

hey 我真的好想你
太多的情绪 没适当的表情
最想说的话我应该从何说起
你是否也像我一样在想你

如果没有你
没有过去 我不会有伤心
但是有如果还是要爱你
如果没有你
我在哪里 又有什么可惜
反正一切来不及
反正没有了自已

hey 我真的好想你
不知道你现在到底在哪里
你是否也像我一样在想你



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heard this song of char's blog. hmm.. always liked karen mok's songs. but this one has bought special attention cos of the recent happenings and the emotions it lets out with the song.. i hope she is doing well..