世界の中心で、愛を叫ぶ。

我害怕被人遗忘..
可不可以替我照张相？
可以永远的保存..
~亜紀

rainbow.

no, i didn't manage to see the rainbow everyone saw. no luck maybe, ha ha.

here's a song thou! same title, by jay. love the lyrics.



哪里有彩虹告诉我
能不能把我的愿望还给我
为什么天这么安静
所有的怨都跑到我这里
有没有口罩一个给我
释怀说了太多就成真不了
也许时间是一种解药
也是我现在正服下的毒药

看不见你的笑 我怎么睡得着
你的身影这么近我却抱不到
没有地球太阳开始环绕
没有理由我也能自己逃
你要离开 我知道更简单
你说依赖 是我们的阻碍
就算放开 那能不能别没收我的爱
当作我最后才明白

thank you.

to mrs quek and joseph over the concern at fb. didnt expect any reply at all when i posted those things.. but well i am really touched by the comments!

thanks mrs quek, for he support thru out the years..
thanks joseph, though i don't even know you at a personnel level at all.. your words of encouragement really perked me..


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the cyberspace has became a place which i have lots of qualms on.. no doubt its my blog, but people is watching this space. my life, and how i am making a fool of myself in it.

people come here for gossips, to know how i am doing, to know all sorts of things. even my cousin and godma comes here!

but i really dunno if this is still that space that i can post my thoughts freely, like i used to be. 有些事是我觉得可以说的，想要说的，其实却是不能说的。因为会引起太多人的揣测，没必要的争论，关心我的人的担心。。

having said that, i will still post my thoughts here la. haha. my dumping ground!

quoted: Jeslin, yh, york, emily.

from jeslin's blog:

CAPRICORN - The Go-Getter Patient and wise. Practical and rigid. Ambitious. Tends to be good-looking. Humorous and funny. Can be a bit shy and reserved. Often pessimists. Capricorns tend to act before they think and can be unfriendly y at times. Hold grudges. Like competition. Get what they want.

from yh's nick:

we're meant to lose the people we love. how else would we know how important they are to us?

from york's conversation:

anyways, let me give you a word of advice
when things cant be any worst....
it only can get better!
ai zai...u will be just fine man

from me to mrs quek:

i dunno.. as you know right i am a very verbal person. No matter what I think or feel, there is no problem in me articulating these thoughts. But sometimes...you simply have too many of such ideas in your mind that suddenly, talking/writing them out does not seem to do yourself justice.

from mrs quek to me:

BE yourself. We put on many mask everyday. We act in various roles.

ColorGenics.

Name: Kelvin
Date: 2/19/2009
Colorgenics Number: 15623407

You have always longed for tenderness, love and a sensitivity of feeling into which you would like to blend. You are a very gentle warm person and responsive to 'All things bright and beautiful'. This personifies a caring person, a person who 'needs' and indeed 'needs to be needed'.

You are finding the present situation extremely demanding and you're having difficulty coping with it. A great deal of strain is involved and you would really like everyone and everything to leave you alone for a while, just so that you can put everything into perspective.

Your confidence has been shattered. There are so many things that you would like to do with your life, so many dreams to be fulfilled - and you know that your hopes and dreams are not just figments of your imagination, they are real and you are looking for reassurance from someone. Basically your fears are such that you may be prevented in attaining your hopes and dreams. Even now you would like to broaden your fields of endeavour but in order to develop your 'inner- self' you need peace and solace. You are distressed by the fear that you may be prevented from attaining your goals. What you really need at this particular moment in time is quiet reassurance from someone close to you to restore your confidence.

You are being unduly influenced by the situation that is all around you. You do not like the feeling of loneliness and whatever it is that seems to separate you from others. You know that life can be wonderful and you are anxious to experience life in all its aspects, to live it to the full. You therefore resent any restriction or limitations that are being imposed on you and you insist on going it alone.

You wish to be left in peace... no more conflict and no more differences of opinion. In fact you just don't want to be involved in arguments of any shape or form. All you want is for 'them' to get on with it - and to leave you alone.

情人节不孤单！

happy v day! haha.

met up with mabel and boon on friday the 13th. supper plus some night activity.. we've not done so for so long! i think the last time is the prata trip just before enlistment. this time round, met at bugis first before hitting starbucks for some drink and desserts at liang seah street.

anw, saw that benjamin buttons is finally out! must find one day go see, as usual i will always say but arent sure if it will realise. haha.. cos mabel and boon not very keen on the show leh!

after the dessert it was k at marina square. another sing-till-they-close session, which ended with the 3 of us damn seh and falling asleep on the cab. ha! its always great to be out with the gang, i hope we can all try to make time to meet up more frequently..

quoted: Nat

There are some friends who'll always know you for you, for the times when you're crying beneath the biggest grin in the whole wide world. Brave fronts don't always work. But they love you despite all that anyway.

quoted: Yahui.

Friends Forever.

普遍的两个字，隐藏着深奥的意义。

小时候，我老是把它挂在嘴边。

只要有一群朋友一起玩，就觉得自己和他们很投缘。

有时候还会讨论长大后要一起开店等等。

可是梦想往往和现实有落差。

人啊，总是在变。

很多知心朋友已经变成陌生人。

有些还比陌生人更陌生。

就是所谓的 “Hi-Bye Friend”。

心情：可悲。

可悲，因为觉得可惜。

可悲，因为想念过去。

可悲，因为你是我的。

可惜属于我们的过去已成为回忆。

不过，我应该感到欣慰。

虽然我们不能做永远的好友，但回忆是永恒的。

“朋友一生一起走，那些日子不再有。。。”

在我们的一生中，时时刻刻都会有新脸孔出现。

没有人知道谁才是你真正的朋友。

只有你，才能够让真正的朋友陪你一生一起走。

我们要懂得惜缘、惜福。

haiz.

today's only the second day at the new place and we've got ict in processing- meaning i have to reach early! had to wake up before 5 and reach by 645!! clementi! i'm late anyway, despite taking the first bus. -.-

i am seriously contemplating staying in on days which i have to reach super early. the car sickness is there even when i am on my way home, which is already near to the end of the day!

somebody validate me.

http://www.spiritualcinemacircle.com/scc/ecs/public/main/validationMovie.html

must watch! watch till the end...

thanks royce, for making my day. the video is really good...

1088.

done with the last duty, and started signing my clearance..

was clearing my arms at philip's, and i got a damn weird feeling out of the sudden. people all say that a soldier's rifle is his laopo.. and now i am signing it off, not needing to draw it again anymore..

that feeling is damn surreal. leaving way before my ord, 8 more months away.. something that i have least expected.

york says its the same, be it post out or ord. everyone has to go thru it. its just a matter of earlier of later. but post out is diff la.. its you and alone, leaving. where as ord, you leave together with your batchmates to new phase of life!

now i will leave alone.. haha. rsm say he will indent a rover to send me to the new camp, so i dun have to go on that journey on my own. ha! we shall see.

although we have been complaining how sucks, but we also have many happy moments here... so when you leaving, you will feel sad...
-jingyao

再见。

我只是简单问你，你知道我最近的生活怎么样了吗？你知道发生在我生活里的点滴吗？
不。你并不知道。

你有什么资格教训我？

不要口口声声说你什么都了解，因为你什么都不。

作为朋友，我问心无愧。你能吗？
我不会再钻牛角尖了。要听他们的一面之词，就去吧。

管不了，不想管，懒得管。
反正到最后，罪人还是我。

whirlpool.

i don't wanna waste anymore effort trying to explain myself. every story has its sides, its just that who wanna look at things from my perspective.

i dunno.. everyone is looking at her perspective, his perspective.. wanting me to look in their perspective.. but who's looking in to mine?

haha.. damn tired.. dun wanna fall into this whirlpool anymore..

and i realise.

my blog is meant for me, and myself.

not for you to judge me.

dun make assumptions. if you wanna know what i am thinking, why not ask me? by not saying anything does not mean i agree wholesomely with you.

i have a life too you know. i have my family, my other friends, i dun just sit there and wait for you guys to come and find me. and so things i blog is not totally about you!

it seems funny, i am here alive and kicking and no one bothers to find out how i am from me, but rather from my blog.

For myself-

insincere.

没诚意。

sometimes i just cant be bothered. the level of insincerity is just too high for my to even turn up the event. dun even bother to tell me the details of it. and when i call to ask at the eleventh hour i can even be told sorry forget to tell you. walao!

nuff said.

posted out!

just got the news yesterday, 20 minutes before its time for me to go off. shocked, very.

no reason at all, just citing- posted out due to medical grounds.

in short, i am becoming a clerk.

omg its like a dream come true!!!

end of misery?

i hope so.. after hanging there for so long, i snapped. i thought i could have just hanged there all the time.. but some things, some words he said, just triggered me and everything was let go..

will things turn for a better? or for the worse?

let time decide.

absurd.

singaporeans are full of nonsense.

they want chen xi and yue niang to be together. how is that possible! especially after the both of them living in the guilt of causing yu zhu all her misery of being raped and abused.

no, i still dun think they should be together.

but well, i do agree the ending is not very good. too hasty. too much to tell, too little time.

2009!

Happy 牛 year!

cny in 3 weeks. clothes-buying season!!! woohoo-!