quoted: Wei An

Forgive by ~OnlyCurious

It made me wonder how many times we forgive just because we don’t want to lose someone, even if they don’t deserve our forgiveness.

just another day.

right things that happens at the wrong time simply means its not going to be a joyous affair after all.


i got the big envelop from SIM.
i'm accepted, but its totally no cause for any happiness and excitement.
who'll understand the plight i am in? who even bothers!

i am so sick and tired of the low vibes. all the shit i am in.

am i sick?

fridae.

what a sucky fridae night.


and that all i can rely on is a piece of ginseng face mask. to make myself happier, make me feel that i at least existed.








how pathetic.

hello.

i haven't been blogging seriously for a long long time. the thing is i have been writing quite alot at work and it really made me realised how bad my writing is, kinda demoralized me and lost all the 'feel' to write..

and the blunders at the events aren't helping. Singa says i should give myself more time cos i am still new and learning, i really hope i can learn fast enough to make my existence a help and not a nuisance. that kinda of feeling is so sianz.

iap + festival starting next week, and its actually something i am quite 期待-ing. other than the meetings which i am afraid i will fall asleep, the exhibitions and parties will definitely be fun!

things aren't going quite well recently.. lots of low vibes.. can the better days come faster? :(

sucks.

my mum just said some thing that hurts me alot. hais. i feel damn sucky.

and i really mean it! DAMN SUCKY!




to my sis and cousin who comes to my blog, please stop telling the adults what i am writing here! =D

quoted: Nat

void mirror

There's really no point being angry with the people you love.

Sure, you might do a "tit for tat", give an eye for an eye. But at the end of the day, what are you trying to do? Prove a point? Spite them?

An eye for an eye makes the whole world blind.
-Ghandi

Why in the world would you want to hurt someone whom is dear to you? They might not even be around tomorrow. Nor you.

Time is very precious. And we're running out of it - every day, every hour, every minute. This very second.

Some things are not worth holding on to. Anger is one of them. Sometimes, the person you're angry with might not even know it. So all that effort and energy put into being angry only puts a toll on your body. For what? It's too troublesome.

If you have to make a point, and it's someone you love, then Trust that there's enough Love for you to put that point across, and for them to receive it. Just be sure to do it only when the anger has subsided.

Have you let go of your Anger today?

happy or not?

smile by =dunnalildiffernt

i'm so so tired of wearing that mask everyday. who noticed that face behind that frail smile?

quoted: dickson.

...alone by ~nunoramos0

Ever have that one person in your life that you just can’t give up on, the one person that can screw you over time after time yet you always seem to give them another chance, and no matter how many times you say this is their last one, you know it’s a lie because there’s always just one more waiting for them. the one person you know you’re better off without but yet you can’t find a way to let them go because deep down inside, you wouldn’t know what to do without them. The one person you know doesn’t deserve you but yet you choose to overlook it because you love her. -dickson.

ka ching.

first pay's in.

i told mum, its been 2 years since my bank acct seen 4 figure. haha.

2nd shot.

i was quite free today, doing some research online, and saw this photo. i suspect that it is taken from my office, so i am so going to try and take a second shot photo- the time difference is definitely more than 50 years!

this is going to be challenging.

只想说声 · 对不起·

Mother Thersa once said:

We can don't do great things, but we do small things with great love.

沉沦.

i feel like i am in a boat..
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a sinking boat.

sshhhh..

Gossip by Gashez

有时不是说问心无愧就能心安理得，因为人言可畏。

day 1 as a NS men.

lazing till the sun is shining all the way on my back side is definitely shiok.

headed out to meet jessamine for catching up at town area. talked alot about all the things and had some serious updates about the various happenings in our lives.. kang an join in later too, after his classes. had not seen him for near to 2 years liao..

oh yea. i is sipeh hiao. i went to dye my hair diy, with help from dad and mum. the color is nice, but i thought its a tat too bright. would have prefered something more subtle. maybe get it properly done the next dye!

tmr is first day of work, hope all will be well! =D

and so it is.

today i ord.

but the feeling isn't as intense as people told me. its more like any other day, not even the 'ic moment' caused any huge ripple in emotions.

its only till i am home and wanna wash and keep my uniforms, then i feel that its really the end of it. almost surreal, like it has never happened before.

night was gathering with the falcon boyz. turn out was really good i must say, almost half the platoon here. some of the people i have not seen since we left tekong.. i am really glad that every one is well..

D DAY.

its it. tmrw is the day.

after two years, back to a civilian. one full circle. still remember mum, godma and grandma sending me off to tekong just like it happened not long ago..


its a very special feeling. i dunno how to describe it.

pow.

i'd rather spend time with my lao ya computer that is going to break down anytime than with you.




i'm serious. stop irritating the shit outta me. you never seem to get enough, always only wanting people to do things you like, do things your way. we're like rubber bands being pulled to the max, not knowing when we will snap.

12 days later.

finally got the ffi done today, after two weeks since the dental one is done. was supposed to have done it a few days back but was not in camp due to the mc.

my friendly medic, YEO, is a good one. damn good skill when drawing blood, i totally almost don't feel it at all! so much better than the one at polyclinic for my regular check up.

half of the clearance form is also signed, thanks to JL for bringing me around to the various people who are suppose to sign. don't know most of them as i am posted in half way de.. so not really familiar with many people.

up next- get all the names signed probably by next mon/tues, return pass on wed/thurs and get ready to get out of the place!

*pukes.

first it was the vomiting. then its the LS-ing. almost yao le wo de ming!

now recovering, but stomach still feeling queasy.. hope i'll be better tmr! if not my wednesday will be damn miserable.. cos i will be back camp already! =(

in the end,

i still had to seek help in the end, even though i really didn't wanted. it wasn't easy to open mouth on that kind of topic..

but i dun wanna the folks to see the pit bottom account and start worrying, i chose to seek help from the trusted friend. am really thankful to him..

today, i confirmed my job and i will start work the week i ord. i hope things will start to pick up from there..



jingyao, you're the best. =D