dA: clear sky

天空是晴朗的。
心裏卻是陰霾的。

陰霾后的彩虹何時才會到來？

by ~tiberiunedelea

i'm still waiting..

i don't know.. it seems that the people who made me pissed dunno whats going on.. but wells, i can't blame them yea. i shall keep mum if no one brought up the matter anymore.

anw, had a conversation today with the other temp staffs today over lunch and teabreak. the topic somehow landed on "ghost stories".. from travelling experiences to ns stories we heard and some experience from them. OMG spooky ones from sue and dave! hmm that joss paper story.. i hope i will NEVER EVER gonna experience that!!

am really tired.. mentally.. i need a break! i wanna go siem reap/viet/bali/batam or those short trips thats not expensive!!! any takers?

hmm

its like coming to 5 am liao! tired.. thats of cos! but i dunno why i suddenly fel like going down to mcd to have their breakfast.. hha!

was supp to meet herry.. but in the end he's out of home late and so couldnt meet me as he has to meet jess. well well, first time he is back since he got enlist. but we did not meet. but anw, it was only like 4 or 5 days since he enlist? -_- thats the plus point for signing on laa... haha.. not like us.. chao recruit go in must 3 weeks then can come out.. but still, must find time to meet! maybe next week then.. gf more impt haha thats of cos! but i am VERY touched that herr msn me last nite when he is back.. =) smiley!!!

*****

last friday, i met up with Hao! yea consecutive two days lol. but this time round its for a specific reason. hao remembered i was craving for the frog leg porridge!!! and so we went.. awwweee i am so touched when i receive his sms asking me if i still crave and wanna meet for dinner not.. haha.. and so we went! also had some bbq chicken wings and its total yummy. plus shopping ard chinatown area.. and we also stopped by a booth at somewhere near temple street.. display of pictures of singapore in the older days.. photos of the old cathay building.. bugis street ah gua, old ck tangs, national theater.. and some other interesting places that too bad now has been torn down le... =(

there, we also met a 60+ y.o uncle who told us some stories of the older days.. interesting and informative! not a opportunity that comes by easy yea to know something not normally taught in classrooms... were there talking till like that boss sort of shoo us off!

in all, it was a great night spent. we talked alot, of people ard us, our future and sorts. hao even ask me why i dun wan to get a gf! well...

we gotta meet more hao! since office is so close.. haha...

*****

ok at the end of this post, ten mins later, i have decided not to go down to mcd.. maybe some cereals or noodles will do! but sighs.. thats damn harmful to my growing tummy! i wan it to go off soon!!

now playing: 光良 - 雨

冷冷的空气
湿红的眼眶里装满忧郁
默默的聆听
窗外这场大雨下个不停
伞下还有你的痕迹
勉强撑过这场雨
我却没有更多勇气
坚强过这一个雨季
单薄的伞下那是多么孤寂

听雨的声音像悲伤的歌曲
滂沱大雨竟如此的孤寂
我陪雨哭泣雨却还不肯停
寂寞的人才懂雨的心情
雨反复唱着熟悉旋律
用悲伤的情绪
听雨的声音仿佛谁在哭泣
倾盆大雨淋湿我们爱情
雨模糊记忆我忘记了冷静
是经历艰辛才走能到如今
这漫长的路还有多少泥泞

还没有晾干的外衣
闷在寂寞的房里
面对明天沉重的心
悬挂着伤感的水滴
你我的爱似乎等不到天晴
听雨的声音像难过的心情
我的泪飘进冷冷的雨里
雨何时才停伤何时能痊愈
而我何时才能够不再想你
积雨的感情终究还是分离
下着雨的天气
爱消失的气息
想念你的心情我淋着雨

bad luck with makan.

sighs. the curry puffs i bought for this morn breakfast turns out to be potato ones when what i wanted are the sardines ones... -_-

since tues, my lunches had been screwed. had the cheater not nice claypot rice on tues and the tasteless hong kong mee on wed. whats the irony? carina and david ordered food from the same store on both days and their food turns out to be nice. double -_-

i must make a good choice for today's lunch!!!!!

You know what?

You guys can go *&*##@!@#$%^&* for not picking up calls. Gosh what are handphones for! dammit.

You guys think it's plain fucking easy to support you pple all the way, I can tell you, it was a fucking emotional draining thing to do. But I still did it. I didn't do it for myself, I did it for you pple. You want to fucking ignore me because I pressured you, because I didn't make the choice that suited you, think of the pressure you yourselves have placed me into, which I placed aside.

Yea, maybe I was really too nice. Till the point that one of these days, you'll just see me snap.

Just look how many are willing to stand by me when I'm down at this moment. Just one person. And I wasn't even exactly close to that person.

Pissed.

yes i am pissed. don't ask me why. cos i dun even think those involved will know. so yea. its ok. jus let me be.

anw, happy birthday tEr!!!

edit: erm.. ok not so much pissed i think... i guess its more disappointment... =(

now playing: Hebe - She's The One

I was her
she was me
We were one
we were free

And if there's somebody calling me on
She's the one
If there's somebody calling me on
She's the one

We were young
we were wrong
We were fine all along
If there's somebody calling me on
She's the one

When you get to where you wanna go
And you know the things you wanna know
You're smiling

When you said what you wanna say
And you know the way you wanna play
You'll be so high you'll be flying

Though the sea will be strong
I know we'll carry on
Cos if there's somebody calling me on
She's the one

stop it. i say stop it.

what do you think i am? a robot?


so what if i wanna slack at home during the weekends? so what if i decide that i want to rot my weekends away? its MY weekend and i decides how i shd rest on my rest day after a week of work.


stop it. youre driving me up the wall.

dA: Sparks

Artist's Comments

"What's love, Daddy?"

"Sparks. That get to you. Always lovely at first, but what happens after is a cloud of smoke."

"Just like those fireworks?"

"Yeah, just like them son, just like them."

*****

from ~if-i-nvr-knew

a plead from me.

我好像從來沒求過你.. 沒有要求過什麽。

驟雨之後，真地會有彩虹嗎？曾幾何時，說“有”已經變成了一種自欺欺人，自我安慰，一個似乎永遠都不會實現可能。




不敢奢望些什麽，只希望，未來，我的路會好走一些... 不敢想象何時我會放棄，但至少現在的我，還能有那麽一點點的力氣繼續下去。

你知道，真實的我是怎樣的嗎？

難過與失望不斷升溫，做什麽都事與願違。



原來在你們面前，我從來都不曾是真實的我...

quotes: from Tokyo Juliet

通常會留下的人，都知道自己該何去何從。反而是那些拿不定主意的人，最後總是會離開。

quotes: from Chelle

A lost love cannot be recovered.
Same thing goes to a lost friendship cannot be recovered.
I thought time will heal the wound.
But i forget it will leave a scar...


*****

a day spent at home. on my own. i think sometimes.. i jus need times like this where i can get to enjoy that lil bit of tranquility that is needed? had some plans to go china town or catch a movie.. but in the end, called it off... was it due to my unwillingness to accept the fact that i am unable to find even one soul to go with me? most probably... i hate that feeling. but there arent much i can do about it yea.. they've got appts already... one simply jus dont reply... =(

*****

jus chatted with Jan!! she's currently having a break and travelling ard europe with her class mates.. will be going to austria, italy, france. and she is going to venice too!!! omg. a place where i hope i can go laa!!!! i hope one day i can have the chance to go to these places too.. hope that i can travel more to widen my visions... stay safe jan!

*****

now playing: 張惠妹 - 記得

谁还记得
是谁先说永远的爱我
以前的一句话
是我们以后的伤口
过了太久
没人记得当初那些温柔
我和你手牵手
说要一起走到最后

我们都忘了
这条路走了多久
心中是清楚的
有一天有一天都会停的
让时间说真话
虽然我也害怕
在天黑了以后
我们都不知道会不会有遗憾

谁还记得
是谁先说永远的爱我
以前的一句
是我们以后的伤口
过了太久
没人记得当初那些温柔
我和你手牵手
说要一起走到最后

我们都累了
却没办法往回走
两颗心都迷惑
怎么说怎么说都没有救
亲爱的为什么
也许你也不懂
两个相爱的人
等对方先说找分开的理由

谁还记得
爱情开始变化的时候
我和你的眼中
看见了不同的天空
走的太远
终于走到分岔路的路口
是不是你和我
要有两个相反的梦

谁还记得
是谁先说永远的爱我
以前的一句话
是我们以后的伤口
过了太久
没人记得当初那些温柔
我和你手牵手
说要一起走到最后

你真的覺得.. 我可以嗎？

因爲連我自己都覺得.. 我快不行了..

Happy Bdae Chelle!! (3/4/07)

woo~! dinner at sam's place. the best ramen on earth. would like to thank chelle for her generous treat!! sigh too bad i choose the wrong flavour for the cake.. but i really hope we all enjoyed that nite! i hope that next year.. next next yr.. and so on.. we all could stll be able to enjoy.. and i hope that one day.. that someone could join us back too..

Its Sat!!!

weekends here again... FINALLY! i think thats seriously what all working people are looking forward every week rite.. hha..

well, its good friday yesterday and my family went to Choa Chu Kang cemetry for qing ming festival praying.. wanted to take some pics to blog but in the end lost the kick to do so.. i reckon nex yr i wun be joining? cos of ns... hope that i can still go but maybe it arent matter to some anw.

*****

i freaking hate all people who dun reply sms, miss calls and such. i hope all their hps DROP INTO THE TOILET BOWL~~~!!!!!

*****

will i be part of the recalled memories of u guys? the tot of this is depressing...

*****

its saturday. weekend.

and i arent happy. whats wrong with me?

Lie down to look at the stars.

it was ONLY two hrs spent eating, jaywalking, talking abt this & that this & that, us sitting there keeping a lookout for those disturbing ants, u wanting to cross over e 'gate' (happily happily forgetting abt e security who appeared b4 us talking to others b4 that!) YET it was time HAPPILY WELL SPENT esp after e whole longggg dae at work..

uve said -> 'we dun need to haf too many ppl at a chalet to enjoy' & now i say -> 'we dun even need a chalet to b able to enjoy!' =))

this testi from xiu pretty much sum up what we did last nite.. a gathering out of the busy work schedules we all have yea.

now playing: 伍思凯 - 寂寞公路

说好和你一起流浪

失约的我独自飞翔

窗外景物不断的变换

提醒我背叛的心慌

说好不让你再流泪

迷惑的我不知是错是对

下雪街头独自的行走

握不住一杯温热的咖啡

new york dallas los angeles

寂寞公路每站都下雪

想念等候流逝的梦

寂寞公路每寸都伤痛

sunrise moomshake heartbreaker

寂寞公路每站都下雪

冷漠激情点烟的手

寂寞公路哪里是尽头

Damns!

wallaoz. i jus found out that i am the lowest paid temp staff there!! damns. Sue, the other temp got 7.6 while i am only paid 5.2!!!!! fucks la.. so much for having worked here before and being a poly grad. how much is experience worth seriously? and she even got OT pay!!!!

gee. but the place is really not bad laa... sighs. got used to this place le and then the environment is suitable for me...


the next time, i gotta seriously negotiate my pay!!!