而我已经分不清。

岁月无情，人事已非，
我们已好似擦肩而过的陌路人。

改变? · 疏远?

change. by mothyyku

原来人真的会变
只是所需的时间是长还是短而已

曾经对某些事很执着
随后也会淡然处之

曾经对某些物很重视
随后也会搁置一旁

曾经对某些人很在乎
随后也会形同陌路

珍惜当下
因为 人 真的会变

quoted dasmond koh

a silent scream.

Basketball sunday by ~Youth-Defenestration

walked past the basketball court today while going home.. actually, everyday, when i walk home from the bus stop, i will pass this court. i like to stay there a while to watch the kinds play bball everytime. today, i saw a few boys playing bball there.. nice school life.

then i realise, i never even had close guy friend. i will never get to have this kinda of life, this kind of friendship, i guess.

什么都不.

shouldn't have called him yesterday.

just to feel that our conversations are so distant. like we were just mere acquaintances..


and i was left out again. for a gathering.

no newspaper.

I'm giving the papers a miss for these two days.. life's already a sucky bastard and the news on the disasters are too much heart wrenching for me to read. accidentally saw today's shinmin report on the kids under the rubbles.

上天保佑他们.

now playing: 苏芮 - 是否

是否这次我将真的离开你
是否这次我将不再哭
是否这次我将一去不回头
走向那条漫漫永无止境的路
是否这次我已真的离开你
是否泪水已干不再流
是否应验了我曾说的那句话
情到深处人孤独
多少次的寂寞挣扎在心头
只为挽回我将远去的脚步
多少次我忍住胸口的泪水
只是为了告诉我自己
我不在乎

旅行的意义.

两个人带着各自的烦恼一起逃亡去..

Till we're back 4 days later.. (and that means hiatus from tmr till the thirteenth.)

silent run by toyib

Koizora · 恋空

happy birthday mummy!

happy birthday to mummy dearest!!!

极度愤怒 · 突然感伤

昨天duty时在对阿口转述那个关于我与gang的友情故事的时候, 终于能在愤愤不平中找到一些平静。是终于放下了吗？我希望。

alrite? ok?

to yan, kahying, sushi, mandy who tagged me to show that you cared, i suppose i am alrite. please don't force me to say i am ok as appearantly i arent'.. theres just far too much things happening and its beyond my control.. but i believe soon, i'll be ok. =)

Such Irony.

dun think so much on whether our gang will separate or anot.
treasure now, and as for the future, well… i can’t predict what will happened.

this very someone who said this to me before is saying it to someone else. the reassurance that he gave me last time did not come true: look at what the situation is now.

i am not being nasty or "zek ark" but i wish this person best of luck on this statement. i hope it comes true for you.

Setoh Yifeng.

chatting with Jake Sato on msn.

suddenly, i thought of kfc.

the last time i had it was with him and ah lau one fine saturday when we book out after a re-sitest. an impromptu decision to makan there while we are on the bus back from sft.

think this is the first time we actually had a proper talk since pop. miss those days man.

bluff.

stop bluffing me. stop lying to me. its ok. just let me know the truth.. the truth that is. i am left out.

am i not your friend? had i not done enough? had i not been there for you all?

why am i left out, over and over again?


****

nothing hurts than having your friend lying to you. i don't know.. i'll just...

呐喊

Mabel.

Happy birthday!!!

had a celebration for mabel's "20th birthday", as suppose she is always one year younger than boon. hehee! had steamboat at seoul garden, havent been there for long! at least a few years. they have since also changed the pan they use for steamboat. food is nt bad but its a fun meal for the four of us gathers together again and talk like endleessly. also had a mini cake cutting for her. k followed by the dinner at a new venue which we forgot the name. the place is nice, nicer then k box! but the song system is quite complicated..sound system also soso nia.. maybe we shd stick back to k! ha.

JJ. Xiu.

JJ rox my sox! his live singing is great! woohoo!

went to his performance with mabel last night at suntec. its actually a annual dinner for a particular MLM co. haa! thou had to wait for like 3 hours before he sings, its totally worth it! he sang like more than 10 songs la.. and the seat is so strategic. thanks to mabel for the invitation!

last week also went for xiu's 21st.




happy 21st dear.

周记.

while packing my things some times ago, saw the weekly journal that i used to do with AC. there will be a theme set and i would write some thing. she would in turn write some comments and sharing of opinions on the topic.

霎时发现，原来我还曾经愿意与人分享。

AC says she no longer has time to do it with me anymore, and commented that i still has my blog to do it. but 曾几何时，我的博客已不再是我能抒发我的情绪与意见的地方了。



i miss the times.. where there is a place i can air my emotions.. i can get honest opinions and people really care. i cant even write all in MY blog now. cos people is watching, and they are scrutinising. sadly, it sometimes even became a place where people hate me get information and tag at my board.

friends- i really scared le. those who were there, and said they will be there, arent here anymore. those who are still here, has pretty much a life of their own too. i am really sick of people missing me out in their outings and the only reason they gave is cos some one else doesnt like me is going. i dont know how i should feel. i feel that i sucks. cos despite knowing those peeps for so long.. i am forsaken cos of this kind of reason. my heart felt cold. why do i stop asking people out? stop asking me and say i keep MIAing. ask yourselves. i am tired. and sick, of all these.

and not only that, i am feeling worthless with reasons like my family. when will i ever get over it? i dont think it will ever end.



*****


S.H.E - 天灰




如果你不再出现
我的世界还有什么可贵
可惜不够时间
让我们试验什么叫永远

想念变成怀念
心动变成心碎
偏偏还会关切
你最后属于谁
我的天空今天有点灰
我的心是个落叶的季节
我不知道如何度过今夜
所有的灯早已经全都熄灭

如果你从没出现
我会不会觉得快乐一些
可惜残忍时间
总要把诺言一点点摧毁

Memories.

was packing my things recently cos moved house.. saw alot of things, some still needed but some not. but why are they still kept? i think i have kept a little far too much "junks"- things that has 太过沉重的记忆与意义。

有些东西往往太过沉重，继续绑在身上也会阻碍前进。但为什么这些东西，却甩不掉又丢不了？

my ex house.

was there yesterday after duty to collect some letters that was still sent to the old add.. they're kind enough to let me in and have a juice.

that is a freaking odd feeling! that was my home.. MY home! and now its someone elses one liao. haha. i dunno how to explain that feeling...