逃。#2

i have low credibility.

everyone choose to believe what some one else said of me. you choose to believe what someone else said of me but u forget, i am ur fren too. everyone of you has doubt on my credibility but no one talks to me abt it. no one has plans to clear it up.

yea yea. u guys must be saying i am a bastard yea, after what has happened. that i am heartless, unwilling to make any effort, that why some one can be present i cant. that i arent 'friend' enough.

why is it that no one choose to believe i am genuine busy and its not that i DO NOT want to go. i even brought that present to office. but with no destination for me to go to and no one picking up call, where do you guys want me to go?

why am i rushing and pushing myself to finish all the work in that limited time for? and for who?

had enough. didnt expect that not a single one have that lil faith in me.



and yes, they are my class mates. pals whom i spend 3 fucking years with. thru thick and thin and everything. but what did all these bring? it only turn out that they trust what someone else said of me. and that some heck cared.

i arent even angry, nor pissed off. i am jus...

lifes sad, that no one wants to know what i am thinking thru the person, but only thru my blog..

quotes: from h o z

If only you could see the tears in the world you left behind…
If only you could heal my heart just one more time…

Even when I close my eyes,
There’s an image of your face…

And once again I come to realize…
You’re a loss I can’t replace…

說曹操曹操就到

as i was ranting a few posts back about how nyp is slow even in graduation.. i got the letter today re the graduation! and yes we have the graduation robe too! i can foresee.. 數百人同時在謀殺底片的壯觀場面...

anw, jus out with ling and binz.. havent met them for a long long time! had xin wang hk cafe and it arent that good la.. but we made up with all the chatting! strolled from heartland mall back home.. ha! the last time... we strolled home after our outing too.. maybe the next time, we can just meet up and stroll the whole day.. *i was jus joking..*

work is getting more intense this few days! deadline for submission of budget is coming but the mgt has so many things not fixed yet! and things getting messier.. -_- and i also become more slack sighs.. everything pls be well soon!!! i hope that work can be more smoothly la..

why? #3

i dunno...

when i told hao "forget it la"... it just pierced my heart.. that things have to come to this end..


thanks to hao for listening to me...

msn: k e l - 15sept, 1030am, bmtc 1 - who same slot???

wK says:
muahahahhaa
prepare to burn
in hell

thanks weikeong. for the comment haha!


EDIT:
weikeong posted something later on..

wah lau. it feels damn good to have come out of army. and see other people suffering
AHHAHA. sorry

-_-"


EDIT:

aiyah the only consolation you can have is that everyone has gone through it
and then you will, and can come out of it alive

ok. this makes me feel better. thanks wK!

It's here!

yeap the enlistment letter is here. nope did not get into police as i hoped. but yes i did get to enlist later. sept 15. but thinking ahead, arent that good huh cos that also means i ord later. -_-

erm, had a very mixed feeling when i got to know that the letter had finally arrived.. i wouldn't deny that there is a lil lil percentage in me that i actually felt a bit scared. but heys, thats a big uncertainty ahead yea! who would not? nervous!!!

anw, i will heed father's advise and start to work out so that i would not suffer when i go in.. i still have 4 more months! i hope i will be ready by then...

now playing: 我懷念的/北極星的眼淚

yes am listening this two songs. haha. i heart wo huai huai nian de!!!! its the best song is stef's latest album.

...我怀念的 是无话不说 我怀念的 是一起作梦 我怀念的 是争吵以后还是想要爱你的冲动 我记得那年生日 也记得那一首歌 记得那片星空 最紧的右手 最暖的胸口 谁 记得 谁 忘了 我怀念的 是无言感动 我怀念的是绝对炽热 我怀念的 是你很激动 求我原谅抱得我都痛 我记得你在背后 也记得我颤抖着 记得感觉汹涌 最美的烟火 最长的相拥 谁爱得太自由谁过头太远了 谁要走我的心 谁忘了那就是承诺 谁自顾自地走 谁忘了看着我 谁让爱变沉重 谁忘了要给你温柔 我怀念的 我还有想要爱你的冲动我记得那年生日 也记得那一首歌 记得那片星空 最紧的右手 最暖的胸口 我放手 我让座 假 洒脱 谁懂我多么不舍得 太爱了 所以我 没有哭 没有说


*****


was quite a old song. has been in my shuffle for quite some time but i tend to skip it most of the time cos i wanna listen to 楓, 專屬天使 and 我們小時候。recently, listened to this song again and felt that it is really not bad!

...当对的人 等不到对的时间 就在放放开手的瞬间 爱撕成两边

why? #2

actually, i cant find the logic why someone has to comment on the way i mend my blog. seriously.

Do not cross(the line).
我們井水不犯河水。

why?

from SP..

from NP..

AGAIN! again! how come nyp also so much more slower than all the other schools de? how come they have graduation robe and we dun have de!

sighs.. some may say whats the big deal its jus a graduation.. but to me i think it may be the last lap of my education le.. if thats the case then it does mean that its impt rite!

lets home some news of graduation come fast!!!

天使

每個女孩都是天使
當她落下第一滴淚時
上帝就收回她的翅膀
所以
世間的男孩都應該知道
當你面前的女孩
為你落下第一滴淚時
她已經為你放棄了整個天堂

An excrept.

an excrept from an email i get...

zzZzzZzzZZzzz..

sometimes, parents don't know that some small things they do will hurt their children: that look in their eyes, that small gesture they show, that phrase they say, the un-understanding that they showed.

ok case close! i dun want to go into the details cos i ddun wanna remember it.. haha..


now in office.. feeling damn bored.. cos once again i got nothing to do again.. hmm later jus got to go get lunch for those people thats having meeting... ciao~!

&*^(%&%$ %#&*^

super shits. i just found out that the show i wanna watch is R21. and that means i cant watch!!! whats worse? i dun think i can pass off... cos i jus cut my hair and i look like i am sec four now. wth!!! -_- wrong timing!

happy happy day.

today, i took half day leave off the morning and spend some time with my grandmother!! woohoo-! happy happy cos i have not spend time with her for a long time liao..

took her to the poly clinic for the regular check up.. some things not so right but i hope the blood test will bring good news.. also went to settle some misc stuff before we have lunch at kopitiam! kopi roti egg + fish soup with rice.. its a nice meal! i heart ah ma. LOL.

work is pretty smooth today too. abit busy, but i like that feeling! it beats having nothing to do and rot at my seat laa..

quotes: from Dorence

theres a chinese saying: dui ren huan xi, bei ren liu lei (smile at others, heartache behind smiles). Sometimes you wanna have someone share with your sorrows, but theres something else. Ego or something else. So everytime you have to hide the truth and pretend to be strong in the forefront. this builds up and finally you think of giving up everything you have. Your life, your soul and yourself.

zZzZzzZzz..

getting tired easily nowadays.. it must be something to do with the late nights. but its not that i don't want to sleep early, but rather, its difficult to get into sleep. things keep flowing into the mind especially in the nights.. and i starts to think alot.

nights always gives me the very comfortable feeling.. that i can just think.. of a lot of things.. its truly a very good time to be in deep thots.

anw, just home not long ago. went to the pasar malam with mum and sis.. its been long since i go there to munch on the foodie!!! cos for a long long time.. i had been too lazy to go and always get the rest to tapao for me.. haha! miss those days man.. when i was still much younger and will always go pasar malam.. to play those games and buy those snacks..

biz there arent good. theres one stretch of the pasar malam practically has no one at all. how is biz going to cont man.. and then slowly this pasar malam culture wil be gone forever.. hm.. sad sad. cos its something truely singaporean.. and theres less and less of things that truely singaporean liao..

confused.

sometimes.. i dun understand. why is it that i must think the way some people want me to? why is it that i cant dun like some people simply cos everyone else thinks he is ok? why is it that it is always me in the wrong jus cos i am the only one who is not "ok" with the rest?

i have my own thinking and my own perception of some people.

i need to give it a clear thot yea. this whole issue is taking up too much of my time. maybe its also a good chance that i can leave? since.. i cant really blend in.. why stay and make people sick of me?

roti john at s'goon garden.

my mum is kp-ing to my dad about how "bad" i am on the fone now. damns. i am irritated. some arguement/disagreement/quarrel/whatever-u-call-it broke out this morn before i left home. less of this kinda life pls.. i am already very tired.. and these are adding weight onto me.. =(

went to cut my hair, cos the prev experience was bad enough and my hair was is bad condition ever since. hair is now short! cos i decide to cut off those damaged part and let my healthy hair grow.. i hope i can get back the length before i get enlisted!!

also had lunch with hitsu and a slacking session at her house. lunch's at serangoon garden hawker centre, its not chomp chomp.. its the one slightly opp it.

was home by about evening, bathed and was too lazy to go over to grandma's place.. so i rotted at home. how good it is to have the whole house just to my self and i can get a moment of quietness to myself and only myself? but not all the time yea.. family is still important too haha.

ok! thats it! tmr then cont to blog. ^^

feelin down..

on some recaps first, wed was spent out to be with the cousins for aunt's birthday.. dinner at fish and co! was a great gathering as we usually only gathers at grandma's place. seldom an outing like this!

when we were really young.. we had all the time to play together.. to enjoy every moments of our lives.. but as we all grow, time seems to be not enough. it has to be divided amongst other people. like friends, colleagues and others.. i hope that in future, we all can spend more time together!

*****

today's weikeong and david's last day, and theres a farewell lunch at highlanders at clark quay.. foods nice but its ex too! i think that place's name is highlander or something? had fun and laughter there.. and also foto taking! had wanted to take some fotos with the friends there.. but it seem like they dun really take fotos de.. hmm hmm...

thou know dave and wk for only a short time but i will miss the slacking times and crapping times we all had laa! life's all about like this.. people come and people go.. but what's impt is that they left footprints rite?

*****

jus home from supper with hitsu. wanted to go cut hair, shop close le. wanted to go prata, shop close down le. MY FAV ATHAR IS NO LONGER IN EXISTENCE!!!!

sighs.. its quite saddening.. its THE prata shop that accompanied me thru my sec sch days.. a fav hang out me and sam always go.. the supper place for me and hitsu. and now, without warning, its gone and its forever. how to say leh? its a horrible feeling. something you are familiar with and never thought will be gone, is just gone. and you know it won't be back.

that feeling suck. i stood for like 20 seconds outside the closed athar and my mind is at a sudden lost.

sometimes, i think that we as human take things too for granted.. that we never thought that one day, things might be gone.. for this athar case, its not only the food that i miss, but the feelings that i have grew for it over the years. countless supper, that late lunch i had there after my chinese story telling competition, breakfasts there before the remedial classes on sats... and the list goes on. these are part of my memories that i will treasure alot!!!

another task on hand right now is to find another supper/gathering spot at serangoon area. -_-