Maybe you might even forget me one day.

sigh.

today i saw someone. a used to be super close friend.

well its used to be cos something happened in the middle..

should have say hi but was jus too busy dashing around trying to finish my work.. dunno if i will be misunderstooded as being tao. haha. dunno if he will see this post.. last time he used to always read one.. but now i dunno lor.. haa..

many say i shd take initiatives.. but actually i am quite scared that history repeats itself. that is why till now.. i shuts myself alot from this friend. i dunno if he finds that i am at fault too.. cos this wound is never talked about.. it was kept in the heart.. kept and kept.. till one day i cant stand it and it exploded and we havent been talking since. maybe it should have been talked about since the early stage.. but it was not.. maybe that is why things have turned to this stage ba.. thats y i told ben and kailing today, i am actually quite scared to go back to classical. cos going back to class means that we will be meeting each other everyday. its not cos i hate u or what.. but its jus sometimes when i think back on the happy and sad times, i feel very sad. cos i dunt noe what has caused things to land to this stage.

will things turn to better? i dont know.. maybe it will.. but i dunt know how much confidence i can give to myself...