cheap cheap. 50 baht.

yeah im back from my escapade to the land of smiles! a new fresher me!!! feel so energized, no doubt i felt tired. but well, thats the after effects of all trips ba! the shopping is great, the massage is shiok, i cant find a reason not to love thailand! the short 4 days trip is a good recharge for me before ns! or so for me at least. haha.

Destination- Thailand, BangKok!
Hours clocked: 2 Sept to 5 sEpt!
Involved~ kel, gary, kahying, jamica, jacintha.

queueing up to board the plane

first time trying out the budget carrier

not too bad, thats our plane!

highlights of the trip:

1) got to know new friends
jam and jacintha are great outing buddies! even thou we just know each other during this trip, it was hell lots of fun! and they are really helpful girls to help me ard when i am less mobile. haha!

the V hand sign is in da trend now!

2) got to know a new side of my buddy
gary was never this outgoing in my memory ok! haha.. last time he used to be like quite resistance to strangers? but this time round everything turns out so well!!! am happy he is more outgoing. hoho.

gary posing with kah ying

3) kel keeps falling
er.. haha. yes its me. i fell like quite a few times lor. hmmhmm.. i hereby wanna thank the other 4 partners for the care, concern, and help given to me when i fell. love ya all!!!

4) lots of great shopping
do we have to say more? its BANGKOK leh!!!

when we are going home...

...we bought back lots of staff!

5) food
from tom yum to jap food to donuts. you name it, they have it.

donuts!!!

6) massage
did i mention that the massage is the best well spent money we spent during this trip? hurhur-



7) revisited some places of interest
got a better chance to have a good look at these places.. climbed to the top of Wat Arun, which was not opened the last time i was here..

boat ride

garland

Chao Phraya River

waves..

views of buildings along the river bank..

wat arun

temple

peak of wat arun

we went up to the highest point!!

this building is half torn down.

street views

I CANT WAIT FOR A NEXT TRIP. PEOPLE LETS SAVE UP!! lets hit other mega-shopping-malls-like-country like hong kong or taiwan soon!!! i will take leave from my ns. haha!!! i love to travel!! also hope to go to other ideal places like Cambodia and Vietnam soon. tsk tsk. gotta save up. haha!

ramen. puncak.

my long-awaited-escapade-to-refresh-myself is finally coming!!! who say only some people can have graduation trip while i cant? now i am going to my own! woohoo-!

*****

supposedly to be my last day of work yest.. but i extended 4 more days.. part of the reason is to help agnes, who have been a really nice boss to me. another reason is also to earn some pocket money before i land on green man island, where the there will be no pay and only allowance for the next 2 years.. however i will still take yest as last day of work!! woohoo-!

*****

met up with pebb last nite.. been so long since i see her! shes still the same.. haha.. shopped ard and had dinner at puncak. its nice to meet up with friends you can talk to and bitch about work stuff!! hohoho.

*****

lunch on thurs was branja-ed by DA JIE! thanks!!! actually was already vvv paiseh with all these treating "farewell" lunches le.. they are not cheap!! i really appreciates it alot.. =) the two of us and SH went to that ramen stall at central where we have heard so much about it already but have not tried yet. personally i find it pretty good while DA JIE and SH finds that tam popo is still better..

*****

agnes gave me a lift yest after work to town, and we shared some views on working.. at the same time i reflected how working and temping the last few years changed me.. in personality wise and others.. hope that i have became someone better! definately learnt alot but i think that a person on whole is not only measured by the knowledge, right?

*****

this few days is quite crazy at work. there is just quite alot of urgent things to do but no time. why am i so busy just when i am leaving!! now i got not enough time to finish the tasks and i will feel so pek cek!! haha.. JIAYOUS~!

*****

met up poly gang at new york new york for short gathering dinner. QQ's back from navy! so fast 2 weeks liao. i hope when i am inside time past fast as well!!

don't we look like small kids?

sweet kinda life.

i heart sepia photos!!

*****

on the side note, i just feel so dead. cos in 15 days time i am going to be enlisted and i have not started any form of training yet! -_-

work vs rest.

i don't know if the decision to work right till the week i am enlisting is right. i thought i should earn a lil bit more before i go in but it seems that everyone is quite against that idea. everyone keeps saying i should rest that week. hmmhmm...

life. happy. not.

you are unhappy because you are not living your life in the way you want

Dickson said this to me.

what do i want, exactly?

i love myself. only.

feelin kind of bored recently, or rather easily bored! haha. work hasn't been smooth cos the new temp to take over me aren't up to the supp's standards and i think they are dropping her.. so that means i gotta do da work again!! -_-...

anw, have been busy for the finance things and helping to organise the retreat this coming friday.. suppose to be her work but i am like taking over quite a lot liao.. as for the finance matters, i am really trying hard to be a good coach, i am already very kind with her cos i thought of how i was like when i started out - and i dun want to treat others badly when people actually treated me well with patience when i started out. but i really on the verge liao!! i cannot stand it when people keep saying they have checked their work but when i vet through there is so many mistakes and its serious mistakes! she can actually forget to process all the invoices last week!! and she made a mess of the invoice listing today. and she din ask me to check before she try to process them.. hais now a lot of problems.. hmmhmm.. i shall continue to advise her to be more meticulous ba... some things cant force de..

*****

didnt go for the fireworks last sat.. for some reason i do not wish to bring up anymore.. that feeling just sucked.. and i hate it.. i dunno.. i mean.. sometimes i wonder.. what exactly kind of a person i am to those people?

maybe just a sucked to the core guy. =(

*****

jus chatted with peter! that fella! haha. he always sound cheerful thou he might be unhappy.. that guy is going Israel for a business trip! dunno safe or not. anw i think he is coming to meet us for lunch soon! good good. lunch is getting bored when the people are going for meetings and i got no one to lunch with me!!!

*****

i am quite "nua" recently. even at work. can't stand it. i gonna be more energetic!! k la go zz liao. tmr morn still got a meeting with the finance people regarding virement.. got to get it done before i leave!! bwahaha..

i miss the peeps.

those peeps that has made a difference in me..

saw sushi's and yan's post and it made me so emo all over again.. missing school life al over again. some things, missed, can never be found back.

suddenly.. just so suddenly i realised how much i wish i was back in poly.. the icas.. the never endin projects.. the truck loads of presentations.. the bumpin into those ppl tt we dun lik.. the breaks we spend in fj and cheers.. i'm fuc*in missin all of them.. really very very very badly.. i miss yen and kel.. i miss it when she doesn't want to go for class then i'll drag her to go with me.. i miss kel's constant complains and naggin.. i even miss it when he always "pang se" us.. i feel so sad.. it's lik even when i go for lectures alone without them it's so much better.. it's lik everything's so different.. it's lik even sittin in the 3rd row of the lecture hall alone was fun...

i miss. i truly do.

sushi.yan.herry. the pals in class. and of cos. many others who have impacted me alot. i love ya all lots!

n nw i suddenly realised everything's so different from the past... times where we gossip tgt, luff tgt, and cry tgt... nw everyone's separated... tis is e path of growing up i supposed.....

growing up. bu xiang zhang da. but time never stops. time waits for no one. reminiscing is good. but whats important is that we manage to hold on to that friendship and let it stretch beyond that period of time in school. dunch ya all agree pals? whats important is whats going to happen. not what has happened. =)

寂静 · 孤独

永远 · 太远

人家说：爱情不会是永远的，只有友情才会。

我说：这一切都是骗人的。




wats friends? friendships not forever..

forever.

nothing lasts forever.

NOTHINGNOTHINGNOTHINGNOTHINGlastsforever!!!!

now playing: 张惠妹 - 如果你也听说

突然發現站了好久 不知道要往哪走
還不想回家的我 再多人陪只會更寂寞
許多話題關於我 就連我也有聽過
我的快樂要被认可 委屈卻沒有人訴說

夜把心洋蔥般剝落 拿掉防衛剩下什麼
為什麼脆弱時候想你更多


如果你也聽說 有沒有想過我 像普通舊朋友
還是你依然會心疼我
好多好多的話想對你說
尋找一顆心沒著落
要怎麼負荷 捨不得 又無可奈何

如果你也聽說 會不會相信我 對流言會附和
還是你知道我還是我
跌跌撞撞才明白了許多
等我的人就你一個
想到你想起我
胸口依舊溫熱


許多話題關於我 就連我也有聽過
我想我寧可都沉默 解釋反而顯的做作
也把心洋蔥般剝落 拿掉防衛剩下什麼
為什麼脆弱時候想你更多


如果你也聽說 有沒有想過我 像普通舊朋友
還是你依然會心疼我
好多好多的話想對你說
尋找一顆心沒著落
要怎麼負荷 捨不得 又無可奈何

如果你也聽說 會不會相信我 對流言會附和
還是你知道我還是我
跌跌撞撞才明白了許多
等我的人就你一個
想到你想起我
胸口依舊溫熱

如果你也聽說 有沒有想過我 像普通舊朋友
還是你依然會心疼我
跌跌撞撞才明白了許多
等我的人就你一個
想到你想起我
胸口依舊溫熱

如果你想起我
你會想到什么...





希望.. 会是美好的回忆..

hung up.

the sms that you said you'll send never reached me.








i'll take that as a choice made by you guys then.

30 days to 15 Sept 2007!!!

Official count down starts today! one month later it will be off to green men island.

42 and still counting.

Happy National DAy!!!

woohoo-! headed to marina bay for the parade! nope no tix, we gotta stand at the esplanade bridge. haha. but it was enjoyable!! weather was great- nice cool and not warm. it's an eventful outing!



1. malay uncle go gila and hit a foreign worker.
think its cos of the crowd that caused the accidental push but malay uncle lost his cool and hit FW. poor guy. action strongly discouraged singaporeans! we're all out to have fun so dun spoil anything k?

2. Mabel 飾演 孟太太.
mabel's new found "love" over there.. we wouldn't forget how he helped us 開路 and also let you stand at a strategic position to have a good view. haha!

3. friendly strangers 飾演 紅先生與毛太太.
friendly Caucasian couple we met there. chatted with us and thought that the 4 of us are out on a double date. HAHA! they even made newspaper cuttings to note the time of the fireworks. apparently, husband don't really like crowded place but came cos wife wanted to. so sweet. but he did say no next time. haha.. Thanks to their tripod, we got a clear view of the fireworks! *why we will explain in the next point*

4. some bangalas 飾演 assholes.
not all. but those who refuse to be considerate. they roughly squeeze themselves to the front and stood on the railings, not caring whether people at the back can see. and they are those who came later! ggrrhh.. for what we come so early man..

5. boon and kel 飾演 hokkien beng.
enough explained thru the previous point. the two boys were extremely outraged and got angry. haha! shan't go into details of the explicit words they used to scold.. lol!

it was a very memorable nite. not forgetting how the 4 of us got to see our own eye candies.. namely kumar of mabel's, and "cheryl" of me and boon.. haa.. food at CA is still good too! would not forget how great the fireworks are.. do hope that all worries and troubles would go up in the sky with the sparks and burst into the beautiful flowers.. becoming bright flowers that lit up the night sky..

Horoscope today.

Someone could offer you some compliments, Kelvin kho. You have a kind, gentle manner, and people often take your compassion for granted. But right now you could receive some positive feedback. A colleague might thank you for helping them out in the past. Or a friend could tell you that they really appreciate all that you have done for them. Realize that you have made a positive difference in many people's lives.

one day to national day.

1. outing with lingz and binz. nice catching up with the two of them! thou we were indecisive about what to eat, everything was great!

2. for once since a long time ago, gary dropped by my home after his event at punggol last sunday. eating and talking and walking ard before we set of to tampines mall for some shopping. he got a levi's tee. thank god that the burms i try at s&k don't look nice on me, otherwise its another hole in the pocket! ate at jacks place too. woohoo we indulge in good food!!

3. met up with chelle on tuesday. thanks to her otherwise i would never have been to forum shopping center before! she treated me organic juices from her shop.. thanks! dinner was at pasta menia, not nice! we both regretted going hohoho. was nice chatting and gossiping with her, not forgetting the impromptu decision to call su lao shi. we're all so ji dong to hear her voice! da next gathering shall be with her.

4. national day observance ceremony this morning. interesting. i didn't know ministry do such things too. makes me feel like a student all over again. sing a long session of national songs, performance, speeches, only diff is we have food here! teeheehee. was down a bit late so i stood at the front with the directors. after the performance, colleagues and i were waiting for the queue to shorten at the buffet when minister called us to eat with them at the "special" buffet for them. hohoho. so in the end no need to queue and have better food! lol.

5. happy national day tmr!!

Snap.

i think, everyone jus snapped from the super high tension. i dont mean to say those things to M, which i think was quite sarcastic of me. i am sorry. but i cant help but just feel like hanging half way there la. sighs.

its that sometimes i really get sick of working here cos it like so unappreciated. but after all, thats what real work life is. its business. its not the first time i am working, i also know perfectly that this is how the society works.. maybe i just need some time for the adjustment ba.. YP is rite. i am just a boy who has not grown up yet.

同事 · 朋友

知道M只是在开玩笑，但只是听到她这么说，it gets me into deep thoughts。

我们不是朋友，只是同事。

说者或许只是开玩笑，但其实听者会觉得满sad 的。i mean, ok la i can understand the reality of this society.. that colleagues should not cross the line of being friends.. but well, after all working together might result in a situation where you see these colleagues more than you see everyone else- ur family, classmates, friends. since then why cannot be friends? i don't understand.

havent been into contact with the classmates since grad.. suddenly, i found out that i have turned exactly like them- only knowing how they are thru their blog, jus like how they know how i am through my blog.

its saddening. i knew it would come. just that, i didnt expect it to come so quickly. comm'on whats wrong with this world man. this is making me sick. and want to escape all these..

我要旅游！！

1. I really want: to be the jovial and careless and funny and expressive and talkative and driven KK I used to be. I really want to be less morbid, cynical and skeptical. I want to be optimistic and loving and hopeful.

*****

2. i find that its easier to blog in point form. haha! but its kind of "unprofessional" la. will see how and then adjust my blogging habits accordingly.

3. YP's last day today, one less temp staff here. soon me will be gone too! work is kind of over the load. "beyond my capabilities" is the word. not that i am not capable, bbut how to expect me to cover work of two person! =X

4. thinking of going to sentosa. any takers?

5. just saw today's paper, there is discount on tics to taipei! O.M.G.

璀璨 · 失落

渐渐的，我才明白为什么大家那么爱看烟火表演

因为在暗暗的夜空中，突然光芒四射的那瞬间

其实真的很美

就像五颜六色的流星迫不及待地要将你所有梦想都实现

而如果伴你身边的是你的挚爱

其实真的会很浪漫的

quoted Adrenalynne.

I Can't Communicate.

the difficulty to communicate with father is always there. its like something that just a thin membrane, but no matter how hard we try, its still there.

and this is making my life shit. things are not getting better and there is no solution to it. no even when we win 10million toto.. hais..

the connection is just not there. its just my fault for not being that kinda son that they want..

now playing: 张智成 - 很想你

1. i am f- bored. bored to the extend that i went to friendster and start to search around for people i know.. saw the profile of I and W. haha. the eye candy of YP! *YP better stop calling me stalker of blogs and friendster.. i is just pure bored la ok.

2. was reminded by Sandy that this coming weekend is the last fri of the month again- department lunch. it means i have to organise again.. and to my horror it also means aug is here! and sept is right after that. NS. -_-

not that i am afraid of ns. its just that i discovered i am totally unprepared and time left is very little. i better start jogging!!!!!


3. a few days ago mum was telling me about Gary. and NS. she reminded me that i need to bring those papers when i enlist. its lost. how ha?

4. met up with Gary last sat for gathering- da first after he enlist. the irony is that the botak recruit did not wear a cap, but i wore a beanie. LOL. caught Invisible Target, a show starring Nic Tse, Shawn Yue and Jaycee Chan. not bad a show! after that was tau huay and i went to his house for a while to chat and sorts.

5. usually i manage to catch the last train home from Gary's home. but this time i missed the last bus! jus sian la.. in order to save the cab fare i decided to take another last train to serangoon. called sammy to ask if he wanna meet supper, since i already has to take midnight cab. makes no diff in how much longer i stayed right?

sam couldnt meet for supper. however he offered to give me a lift home.. how nice of him! kind of missed the days in school where we hang out like almost everyday.. life seems to have like missed some pieces without the people so constantly being around..

6. just before i alight the car, it was the usual shake and hug bye we do. 933 was our best friend and it played 很想你 by 张智成 at that very moment.

7. now playing: 张智成 - 很想你




你在哪里 这些年来如意不如意
还快乐 还单纯 还美丽
时光如何对你

我在这里人海中的一座岛屿
很平静风平浪静
只除了深夜里回忆会疯狂来袭

我很想你 你知道吗
如果可以就让我再见你
美好微笑清澈眼睛
好确定那持离只毁了我 一个而已

我在哪里?你会不会偶尔好奇?
有没有曾经怀疑?
我说我会忘记只是种好意

我很想你 听见了吗
这是唯一我无解的困境
那些过去不肯过去
不管我后来遇见多少人
只能叹息
都不是你
我只想爱你

Horoscope today.

This could be a day when people are expressing themselves in strong ways, Kelvin kho. Some people might let their anger come out. Others might become critical with their language. If any of this negativity is aimed your way, try to duck! It's not your responsibility to be an emotional caretaker or baby-sitter to people's mood swings. Demand that colleagues approach you in a professional manner, and don't indulge anyone who isn't rational in their tone.





wallaos. damn true. hoho.. i've got that feeling!!!

Horoscope today.

You are a very self-sufficient person, Kelvin kho, and you don't always trust other people with your true thoughts and concerns. Sometimes it's good to humble yourself and just be human. Let someone new into your life today and open up to them. Or maybe dare to get a little closer with someone who might only know you on a superficial level. You are due to make a new friend soon, and this person will add much to your life.


wa. like real. dunno true or not.

breakdown

the second day that is low in productivity. yesterday morning, there is a power break down at the govt data center. all net access and lotus email access were cut off. access did not come back even when i am knocking off at 6 plus..

net access is back today but theres something wrong in the email. all my mails are gone and there is actually quite alot of impt info i stored there.. =(

sianz.. not that i am itching for work but its just pure rotting here when theres nothing to do.. nothing much to surf too and surfing blogs will make yuping and the rest say i am a STALKER!!! haha..

ok enough of the boring stuff..

lunch was at komalas yesterday! i havent been there for a long long time.. but my first attempt there was with the FNN class.. and that already like 4 plus yrs ago!! food was ok only la.. but at least get to eat something diff from the food courts that i have been eating like for how many months liao. had the poori briyani.. big serving lor.. the poori is not bad..

*****

1144hrs

kb. fed up lor. some people jus know how to chao keng. everything also say dont know. like just dont come and work like might as well stay at home. its not that i have not taught how to do it before. bad moodie. i hope she dont come and step on my toes right now.

*****

dont exactly feel welcomed or wanted. like so out of place. i wanna go... =(

15 more mins, lunch here i come!

*****

updates 1435hrs:

on news!

now playing: 蔡依林 - 你还爱我吗

夜里传来雨的声音
轻轻拨动心的旋律
情不自禁想起你
那些甜蜜的回忆
总是不小心就淋湿了我的眼睛
爱情需要一些呼吸
偶尔保持一点距离
回到朋友的关系
任你自由的来去
从此想念你只能放在我心里

你还爱我吗
一直好想问你这句话
却又怕听到你真实的回答
你还爱我吗
为何你总是不说话
眼看我为爱不爱挣扎
你爱我吗
好久没有你的消息
心里还惦记着你

在这冷冷的夜里
感觉那么的熟悉
好想再见你想听听你的声音
感情的路总让人好无助
我会学着面对独处
给深爱的你祝福

oh
一直好想问你这句话
却又怕听到你真实的回答
你还爱我吗
这是我唯一的牵挂
不管你会有什么回答
我会一直等你
你还爱我吗

Passive Vs Assertive.

to those people, i was passive. i kept thinking that if i try to make the effort, the friendship can go on.

now, i am more like assertive. cos i have had enough of those un-replied sms-es and calls.




bye bye. thanks for once being there.

Graduated: Class of 2007

06 07 07, the day i GRADUATED! a day full of mixed feeling. a place i so damned wanna get out when i was in there, a place i so wanna get back to when i am outta it. met a lot of familiar faces, including the lecturers, frens, tep mates, and many people. having gotten so used to a life where i see them everyday, it does make me miss them alot, even thou it is just a short 5 month since we are done with the exams.

A multimedia video the MS students made is shown at the start of the grad, is quite impressive lor. i like it- simple, nice, brings back lots of sweet memories. it reminds me of the three years here.. the ceremony is ok, something i had not been to before. thank god that rena is sitting next to me!!! if not i will die of boredom.. not a long wait before its finally my turn to go up.. saw steven lee and also miss ang.. the short chat with her jus before i go out onto the stage managed to calm me down slightly..

Anw, i think i blurly strided to the centre stage, but deep in my mind i am walking a lil more carefully in order not to fall flat or trip on the carpet or gown, making the myself the biggest joke of my life! haha. in the end, dad says i was too blur that i was not facing the right side when i am accepting the empty folder. and he also says my head is very big. -_-"

Proceeded for reception after the ceremony. flew to find my family and friends, ready to take tonnes of photos! Thats the only interesting thing i’m looking forward to.. the food at the recep was pathetically ok~ took more photos before leaving that place.



*****


Sidenote: The moment I stood on stage waiting to receive the damned cert i worked hard for 3 years to get it, the thoughts and playbacks crammed my mind. Lots of thots in fact. but the one question that stayed afloat:

I graduated. Are my parents proud?

Studies hasnt been smooth for me since sec sch. i will never forget that day where i failed my math exam. that my parents are called to sch. and the words that my dad said to me.. Jus hope that today has made up for it la! =)

now playing: 周杰伦 - 不能说的秘密

冷咖啡离开了杯垫
我忍住的情绪在很后面

拼命想挽回的从前
在我脸上依旧清晰可见

最美的不是下雨天
是曾与你躲过雨的屋檐 oh
回忆的画面
在荡着秋千梦开始不甜

你说把爱渐渐放下会走更远
或许命运的签只让我们遇见
只让我们相恋这一季的秋天
飘落后才发现这幸福的碎片
要我怎么捡

quotes: from DTF

...我只知道，当时抱着志聪的我，虽然很努力地不去回想5年前的一个下午，但还是失败了。那天，一个穿着深蓝色衬衫、戴着眼镜的男孩，亲手送了一盒来自瑞士的巧克力给我。

lets welcome.

mr 作文簿!!!

thats peter in his fav shirt. we call him 作文簿先生. very handsome right!

he adores doraemon like me too!!! he got that doraemon umbrella!! who says guys cant like cartoons?

Grouchy.

yet again.

as usual, i am grouchy over a hair cut. it did not turn out well, despite having to spend more at jean yip. hair cut aren't bad but i just don't like it when it looked like my hair hasn't been cut at all. worse- the stylist GEL my hair when its done. GEL. omfg. that thing has not gotten onto my hair since eons ago. even the xiao di who rinse my hair is laughing at me!!! the ending sentance he gave me is the best:

你是不是回家？ok 啦回家就不要緊。要出去就要重弄。

-_-

aarrgghh!!! sianzation. i was v tempted to try that hair style that i have not had the balls to try it for very long liao. should i should i???

*****

hais. life has reached yet another new low. there is absolutely nothing i am looking forward to right now. its kinda sad, that life is feeling quite meaningless. what is becoming of me...

*****

...and im gonna stick with u through this fight called LIFE!

If only.

nothing to type for this post. i just suddenly think of alot of if onlys.



people CAN say what they do not meant..
people CAN say nice things, just for the sake of saying it..




i was never in there.

愛 · 放手

該放手？不該放手？好多人都提出了看法。

說似容易，要付諸行動，談何容易？



其中的酸甜苦辣，除了當事人，又有誰能真正了解？跟著感覺走，其他人說的只能儅意見。

愛與不愛，在於自己。