爱 · 孤独

康正行 余守恒 杜慧嘉
三个 孤独的心灵
最孤独的不是没人爱
而是 所爱的人在眼前
却不能说出口
因为一旦说出口
一切就可能都会改变
维持现状
成了最奢侈的愿望
心里的拉扯
却让自己陷入矛盾的万劫不复之地

小时候因为太皮而被杯葛的他
独自坐在公车上流泪的他
坐在床边听着他的倾诉的她
都是 孤独的

“我们真的长大了
人长大了
真的什么都变了”

余守恒是这么说的
一切都不再单纯
一切也都无法再单纯




曾经在那个盛夏
他喜欢上他
用了一光年的时间
陪伴在他的身边
彗星擦身而过
惊醒了 这一片宁静

人都必须长大
不是吗？

Cute!

YS bring her boy boy to office last fri-! cute cute but act shy no want to talk. haha!

i love...

KRISPY KREME!!!! saw the big box on my desk when i reach office yesterday morning.. and it just made my day can!


i totally heart Eugene who got it back from his Australia work trip!!! omfg. u cant imagine how nice it is until u have tasted it!!! thanks Eugene!!! 沒有白費我平時為你們rush invoice and payments。哈哈！

Gary.

my best friend. ten years in to the friendship. one who bothers to remember my birthday. one who bothers to ask me out when holiday comes. hes always been there.

we've had quarrels before, but things got back into shape. discussed about girls and other stuff. yea he got attached before me. mum was kidding me that i lose out la.. but i am more happier for him than anything else.

yea mum noes him too. we're neighbours - next door kind. not a few blocks away hor. lol. thou he has moved away for some time, we still meet up as often, and i can always make myself feel home - at his home. will never forget the times we go for neo prints at hougang, bubble tea, buying them or even making them at home. the tuition, the shopping, the late night craving for ica kachang we have.

i often ask, how often can we find friends thats so dear? Mabel says, whats more important is that we have 1, but not how many we have. quality over quantity yea?

he's enlisted today. am supp to go send him at tekong this morn but had to be in office. part of me was sad cos i cant be there. but thinking back, maybe it would be a blessing in disguise. imagine me, emo, stand there, wave good bye. OMG hilarious i cant imagine. haha. HAHA!

wells, he called me. just! called to tell that he has been well and how it is inside.. frankly, i am touched. cos he made the effort to at least call me to let me know he's well la.. haha.

soon! i'll join u in serving the nation!! =)

now playing: 萬芳 - 新不了情

心若倦了泪也干了
这份深情难舍难了
曾经拥有天荒地老
这一份情永远难了
愿来生还能再度拥抱
爱一个人如何斯守到老
怎样面对一切我不知道
回忆过去痛苦的相思忘不了
为何你还来拨动我心跳
爱你怎么能了
今夜的你应该明了
缘难了情难了

已不见你暮暮与朝朝
这一份情永远难了
愿来生还能再度拥抱
爱一个人如何斯守到老
怎样面对一切我不知道
回忆过去痛苦的相思忘不了
为何你还来拨动我心跳
爱你怎么能了
今夜的你应该明了
缘难了情难了

buzz off.

heard if the saying that best friends share your joys and tears?

i can tell you,





ITS FAKE.

i didn't know,

its just so fucked up.

sometimesi really hoped that i never ever existed.

just what the fuck can.

Junxiong.

cited the first best friend i had in nyp. he is going to be enlisted to serve the nation tmr.

its a bottle of mixed feelings, that we friends one by one are going in.

over the three yrs of friendship, so much has happened. be it good or bad, it is part of our shared memories.

you're going into a new phrase of ur life! must take care. everything will be well. you will get good bunk mates, and "good friends" wun come and find you, haha!

*****

jus home not long ago. yea yea once again rushing for the last train home from town. dinner plus fantastic four II at cine. was there for JX's "bye bye boy boy life" outing! hmms. all will be well for u dun worry.

movie's nice, worth the watch. =)

*****

"dun worry. open up more to us and things can still be better yea!"

thanks for this reassurance given. it has given me a lil more of confidence to carry on things.. ^^

11th Jun - Cheryl's bdae.

horrendous.

lunch was at about 12 plus and i had wanton noodles.. felt it was not full enough and then i ta pao-ed a roti john back. just finished the roti john not long ago and jus when i put the last piece into my mouth, i realised that i am just damn bloody fat! that tummy.. omfg!

no more tea breaks!

chase.

everyone's chasing after something.
money? fame?
peace? happiness?


-but who has gotten it, anyway?

*****

another farewell lunch today. for Shirley and Yvonne who's leaving by the end of this week. seems like theres going to be less and less people around.. another expensive lunch, and that means i have gotta scrimp and save for the next, on top of the jacket i wanna buy, the eternal summer novel + sound track that has to be ordered from Taiwan cos its not available here only means it will cost more. how! how to save like that!

eat less eat less.

i think my diet has more or less turned me into a horrid pile of fatty flesh. cant believe that i actually ate two bowls of rice for today's lunch and even got myself a butter cake from toast box for tea..

anw, to counter this prob, i have decided that i REALLY will wake up in the morn to jog.. a desperate measure to shed some of those extra flesh on my face before graduation.. i wanna have pics that look good!!!! haish haish.. determination!!!

now playing: 龚诗嘉 - 再一次拥有

我想念去年的冬天
下着雪的那一夜
你给的温柔
紧握的双手
温暖整个寒冬

失去了曾经的拥有
在你离开以后
带走了笑容
只留下寂寞
忘了幸福是什么

没有你的夜特别的漆黑
只能闭上双眼去感觉
没有我的夜谁在你身边
代替了那个从前

能不能再听一次你说爱我
回到还在你怀里的时候
能不能让我再一次拥有
曾属于我的温柔
能不能让我再一次拥有
曾属于我的温柔

left or right?

YS sent me a test some days back. and today tEr send to me too. shall post it here!

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First, identify yourself as right or left brainperson:

1. Hold your hands together, as if you were praying. Look at your hands. If you see Left thumb is below the right thumb ---> left brain Right thumb is below the left thumb ---> right brian

2. Fold your arms in front of you (as if you are angry) Right arm above left arm ---> left brain Left arm above right arm ---> right brain

Based on 1+ 2 (order important), below is the interpretation of your personality:


Right-Left
==========

Considerate, traditional, indirect type can instinctly read other's emotion, and respond friendly by natures. Although not very into taking intiatives in moving forward, but this person will always take a step back in supporting others. Stable personality and considerate, give others a being protected feeling. But the weakness is they cannot say no; regardless how unwilling they are, they will take care of others.

Right-Right
===========

Loves challenges type Straightfoward. Once they decided on one thing, will take action right away. Very curious, and love challenges. Dare to face dangers without thinking through (sometimes foolishly). Their weakness is they dont listen to others, will filter in only what whey want to hear in a conversation, and very subjective. However, because of their straightforward attitude, they tend to be fairly popular.

Left-Left
=========

Dedicated, cold, perfectionist Very logical in all aspects. The only way to defeat (or win over) him/her is through reasons. Has a lot of prides, and feeling strongly about doing the right thing. If they are your friends, they are very trustworthy. However, if they are your opponets, they will be very tough to deal with. Because they can be very "anal" as a perfectionist, they usually leave a bad impression of being hard to deal with when first met.

Left-Right
==========

Likes to take care of others, leader type Has a cool and keen observation ability to see through situations, yet still can be considerate in others needs. Because of their cool and calm nature, and strong sense of responsibility, they tend to become head of a group. Popular among people. However, they may not be able to help themselves in meddling because they want to take care of others too much. Very concerned about how others view them, and always on alert.

*****

whats ur result? =)

Sentosa: Isand Resort (no more!)

yeap. i do think that sentosa is no longer that island resort that i have used to know and remember off. call me out dated or too nostalgic but i don't care. i just want the old sentosa to be back! all they have now is construction sites here and there..

anw, i went to the island resort sentosa yesterday with Kahying! we've been wanting to go there for quite some time and finally we went there to "pa-tor". haha!

suddenly, i noticed that when ever we go picnic, our meal will include a baguette. (look back at that post a few months ago on the suntec picnic).

here is us, in front of merlion, eating, before a monkey come and scared the shit out of both of us. -_-"

yummy breads we had and a scare from monkey!

seems that i didn't know sentosa that well after all.. other than the merlion, ferry terminal, musical fountain.. apparently imbiah hill is there all along and i didn't know there is a imbiah hill there till recently. and the fact is that i had been there many years ago before. with this i conclude that we need to be more observant with out surrounding yea!

did noticed that alot of places are also gone.. like the ferry terminal, musical fountain and monorail rides! remembered my family used to go to the ferry terminal there to take photo when we were at sentosa, cos the structure of the building is nice and there is this spiral staircase that is very nice. monorail rides were also a must-have. its really good cos its open air, meaning we can touch the leaves. the trail is also a round the island one, unlike the current sentosa express. but well, we live in a society that economy values are more important.. sighs..

actually, i have been wanting to look for a natural trail that has dragon and dinosaur bone structure, which i was there when i was camping at sentosa 10 years ago. (gasp!) didn't really remembered where it was and thou we saw it on the map, we could not locate it. walked for a long long distance around sentosa, past where the old musical fountain and volcanoland used to be.. they're all closed up for that stupid IR development liao..

just when we were about to give up, we saw this small entrance at the beach, looking hidden in the trees. seems like it is quite deserted and the branches are falling. the adventurous two decides to just go in and explore. and taadaa! found! but the whole trail seems quite hidden and deserted liao... which is quite sad cos i tot it was quite a good natural trail. we walked for quite a long time, exploring the place and taking photos before settling at the beach to watch the musical fountain performance. wasn't in cos it was full house and couldn't get a tic laa... =(

dino trail. rrooaarrr!

dinner follows at Vivo, the noodle shop next to the food court.. which is quite nice!! strongly recommended by the both of us!

finally we went there and even thou it is no longer as good as before, i would still go.. cos that is what little we are left of some nature we can touch. bukit timah hill is too in accessible so dun ask me go there. haha!

sentosa/express.
fun/with/structure.
old/signboard/of/non-existance/places.
merlion.
fireworks

now playing: 陈奕迅 - 不如不见

头沾湿无可避免
伦敦总依恋雨点
乘早机忍耐着呵欠
完全为见你一面
寻得到尘封小店
回不到相恋那天
灵气大概早被污染
谁为了生活不变
越渴望见面然后发现
中间隔着那十年
我想见的笑脸只有怀念
不懂怎去再聊天
像我在往日还未抽烟
不知你怎么变迁
似等了一百年忽已明白
即使再见面
成熟地表演
不如不见


*****

nice song by eason. this is the cantonese version of the song 好久不见 from his new album. actually, i prefered this original canto version. sometimes i feel, they can convey their feelings through their native language better. its so much more better than the new one!

quotes: from Nat #4

If only things were as simple as friendship between little children. When you were small, friendship was pure and forthcoming. You didn't expect anything from other people, and people never expected anything in return. You were friends simply because you were friends. No one owed anyone anything, because young children have no ulterior motives.

When little children grow into big humans, dynamics change. Perhaps that explains why at the end of the day, people often go back to the friends they had back when they were in school. These people were your friends when you were a nobody - not rich, not famous, not successful. These people have seen you at your most unglam. These people have seen you fall, seen you cry, seen you with chicken pox.

In short, these people were your friends.




-:how many have i?

you've missed the bus.

just home not long ago. was out after work to meet up with herry, angie, di and adi. the 5 of us was walking around and windowing before hitting mos burger. but then, the small rice burger is not really enough for my normal meal quantity.. and so i went over to ta pao some dau huay home. like total yays. sometimes i need alot of food therapies to make myself feel better..

with lotsa love.

photo credits to angiee baby.

*****

saw a jacket on the flesh imp web!! thanks to sue for sending the web to me ha.. now i got one more thing to buy.. =( i gotta see if she can help me get a discount!! but i really like it.. any comments friends??? check it out and tag me a reply k!

*****

on some random thoughts, i was just thinking that how some things that are lost can never ever be back again..

i once told herry bro before, that once u missed the bus, you miss it forever. you may be able to catch the next bus, but it is already a different bus. no doubt you are on a "bus", but still its not that first one that you are supposed to be on, and the feeling is not the same. no matter how hard you try to chase the bus.. it just will not wait for you..

whats lost can never come back, agree? let me know how you think through the tag yea. this place feels so dead.

back from hiatus.

wasn't in a blogging mood at all. even till now. thats y for the long hiatus. but wells, i am afraid some day my memory will fail and i can no longer remember what happened during this period.. so blog lor! lol.

work has been ok, what more to ask? can work then good lor got income, but the fact that great Singapore sale is here is no good news. had already bought several items.. gotta tahan and stop shopping ard jus in case is see things that i like again!!

anw, i finally sent my engineered jeans for alteration. hasnt been able to wear it for a long long time cos its too long and i am lazy to fold. well, the 15 bucks spent would be good money, cos now i can wear it more!!! yays. oh yea, i saw nat tan there when i was picking up my jeans yesterday - u know the guy in proj superstar 2.. no picture of him to post here ok, i am no stalker to snap pictures of people secretly, ha!

*****

ok i am like stuck here on this page for 1 plus hour.. tonnes of things that i feel like saying but there is like nothing coming out.


kels out-

masquerade.

i just found out.

looking back at the past and seeing the current situation things are at, i think i am pretty much a failure.

i don't wanna lose some people, but i've lost them. and it seem pretty permanent. things arent getting better and even i myself is escaping.

i jus dun wanna admit that i have lost.. thats y i have not broken down yet.. but the biggest prob is i dont know when i will.

sometimes i do wonder:-

why he cant find anything to talk to me anymore? we're supp to be good friends.. but now we are no better than strangers. have i not tried hard enough?

and many other cases. i know my friend has been sandwiched but that is not what i want either. the situation is making me wonder whether i has been sucha rotten person. that no one can have a way to communicate to me. that people are believing what they heard of my instead of the 'me' tat they know, that.. i am pretty shunned by the rest..

am i really that bad, friends? do you still treat me as, friends?

i reckon, its more or less my fault. maybe i try too hard. maybe our paths are just meant to intertwined at only a certain part.. and that part has ended already..




lost were the days, gone were the days. no matter how much and hard i try, things just arent getting better. i used to be v outspoken and speak my mind when i feel i dun like it. at that time, people say i was too direct. and that i put out all emotions on my face. now, people are saying i am too quiet and not really willing to communicate.. which is the kind of face that people want to see me put?

now playing: 蘇打綠 - 小情歌

what was in my mind then?

i think i was abit scared. to fact the reality i think.

scared that i will be in the same situation again. a situation where my existance is forgotten and everyone just go on and on yaking about that event - yes the one that i arent involve yea.. and i will like be in that awkward situation again which i do not know how i should react.

Pain.

it always sets me to think:-

how much pain does it take for one to suffer before he/she becomes numb and dun feel it anymore?

how much pain is "alot"?

all but just emotions felt.

*****

days passed fast with work, thou the endless spreadsheets and payment checklists are driving me absolutely crazy. running here and there does not make me look busy and hardworking, but only a crazy mad dog pacing ard.

=(
lunch today is like delayed till one cos of the meeting with promo peoples for the budgeting issues.. and after that is lunch. cant help but kinda feel left out, or issit that i had unknowingly isolated my self?

since when has that wall been built!

quotes: from Nat #3

One of the hardest lessons in life is to learn how to love without having
to say it; And to learn when someone is loving you even when it isn’t
spoken.

now playing: 王菲 - 红豆

还没好好地感受雪花绽放的气候
我们一起颤抖会更明白什么是温柔
还没跟你牵著手走过荒芜的沙丘
可能从此以后学会珍惜天长和地久

有时候有时候我会相信一切有尽头
相聚离开都有时候没有什么会永垂不朽
可是我有时候宁愿选择留恋不放手
等到风景都看透也许你会陪我看细水长流

还没为你把红豆熬成缠绵的伤口
然后一起分享会更明白相思的哀愁
还没好好的感受醒著亲吻的温柔
可能在我左右你才追求孤独的自由

有时候有时候我会相信一切有尽头
相聚离开都有时候没有什么会永垂不朽
可是我有时候宁愿选择留恋不放手
等到风景都看透也许你会陪我看细水长流

Herry, Angie, Adi, Kel.

it has been long since we all had a "good serious" gathering.. angiee had been at africa with her parents for the past 6 months.. and herry was.. more engaged with army and some other things. lol. it seems like it had been one hundred years since we were last this close. THANK GOD WE STILL ARE THIS CLOSE. everyone seem to be busy with their own life at one moment.. but i cant afford to lose them. lol. we must meet more!!!

was at PS and VIVO, also went to the spain2dream private sale, which we bought nothing but choclates. lol. snacked Carls Jr at the open plaze *is that what u call the open air level that is highest at vivo??*.

good talk with herry. i am happy. life shd be happy. and i am happy that i have a fren like him to care about me. what more can i ask? =) dunch worry bro i will be fine and will be the good old kk u loved!!! hohoho.

Let the pics tell the happiness:-

at subway..

in the MRT to vivo..

shopping.eating.chatting.chilling.

pics: Tank Concert @ RP

quotes: from Mars vs Venus

you can fix a broken phone, but can you fix a broken friendship?

坏了的手機能修，
有裂痕的友誼，能嗎？

brooding.

havent had a proper post for quite a few days. blogger has been down down into the drain and its irritating the hell outta me.

lunch today is at miss clarity, at bugis there right next to KA's new work place! hoho but he is not there so didnt manage to ka jiao him when i went.. as you know, office people are mostly "less sporting" to go somewhere further for lunch.. and so it is a feat for us to travel there by bus for lunch!! haha.. like what shrl say, "its good that we colleagues share some memories outside of central kopitiam". haha! foor there is not bad and affordable. $8.80 for set lunch with drinks, soup and dessert. ok rite! i ordered chrispy chicken baked rice and it is good.. nex time i will try the other dishes that the rest tried..

anw, ITS FRIDAY-!!! i do think that friday is a day which working people looks forward to.. for the good rest and the time to do things that they want. hit town after work to get some destress from walking ard.. called jas and she happens to be ard so we met up and chat/dinner! its been long.. also went to look up dan. that ah fat! haha..

shopping ard orchard!

sometimes, hearing what's happening at your ex-workplace do makes you feel fortunate that you are no longer there - that that place is already an 'ex'. heard from jas what has been happening, arent surprised but didnt tot that things have already gone this bad. well, current work is still not so bad after all! =)

like what ting says, wang shi zhi neng hui wei. those nice old good times only lives in memory..

*****

carina has left! hais one less "partner" at work liao.. soon after shrl is going too.. and then ys and ly is going too.. like all the original people in dsg almost gone le.. the interns are leaving nex week too.. sianz.. i hope i will not be dragged my the snr mgt to have lunch tgt!! omg.. cant stand having to discuss work over lunch.. -_-

lunch is over at this super ex place at robertson quay. famous for their mussels. i love mussels but i didn't give it a try. remember i said it was expensive.. -_-

they've got nice decos on the walls.. one of the wall is made into the silhouette of TIN TIN characters. my fav comic! think i finish the whole series le.. last time, at old bedok library, there is a special shelf all TIN TIN comics!!

bye bye carina!

and i had the steak set lunch *cheapest on menu* which already cost near to 30. omg its jus a lunch for a part timer i would say it is VERY EX. as so agreed by the interns too. haha.

and so. that means i have to save save save for the coming weeks!

run.

suddenly, i feel like i am in the middle of no where. and that i dont belong to anywhere.


i wanna runn awayy...

quotes: from NAT #2

Disappearance

Sometimes we wonder: If I disappeared (or died), would people come looking for me? Methinks that's the reason why a lot of people go into hiding. They want to know if they did make a difference. Whether their existence mattered.

At most, one or two people might come by, searching for you out of genuine concern. You retreat further. It breaks their heart but in the end, they give up. Maybe one of them might come by now and then to just drop in on you.

Then you move house without telling anyone. At the same time, you wonder where everybody has gone.

And you realise that when you wake from your hibernation, everyone else has moved on with their own life and have their own families and children and grandchildren. You remain trapped in the past. But you can't blame anyone because it was you who went into hibernation.

Everyone else thinks you died. They missed you for a little while, and then they moved on and resumed Life - as all living creatures are wont to do.

It was a sad day to learn the even sadder truth.

Like a modern day Rip van Winkle, the only company you have now is your own shadow and your very long beard.

dA: Sky

check out this new series that i have put up onto my dA. hope that i can me motivated enough to make it a ongoing project thou.. =)

blogthing #1

quotes: from Nat

If people think you are bad, anything you do will always be perceived as
bad.

*****

7. Love is: something that you can't impose on someone. You can only give it and hope that it's reciprocated. Love is also something that we must learn to receive, no matter how unworthy we think we are.

*****

forgotten #2.

It's true. Do one wrong and all the goodness that's ever been done will be erased.

People are indeed forgetful.

-_-

after being very late for work yesterday, i forced myself to get up real early today. and to make my self awake, i decided to jog for 1/2 hour before i go to work. shun bian training for NS!!!

but what happen this morning? managed to wake up at about 650.. buts its pouring like no one's business out side the window.. -_-"

sipeh sian!! told sandy when i reach office, and she say it means i am meant to go in to NS to suffer thats y now wake early le also cant jog. double -_-"

aarrhhgg!! tmr morn i will wake again to jog de!!!

forgotten.

sometimes, knowing more of the truth might only make ourselves feel worse off.. people say: curiosity kills the cat. the truth hurts. very.

日就見人心，時間久了就能看到真相，夢想就會破碎。

why? #4

当他们不断地用“忙”来搪塞你想要聚会的要约，那意味着什么？

Hate This Feeling.

i hate this kinda ambiguous feeling that i am having right now. like i am dying to find out what some people feel but to no avail. and i keep feeling like they have doubt of me/ my character/ hate me/ despise me.

haish..

when will the days like those we have in the past come back??

Spidey III

caught the show with the WSGang. qq,herry,jx,ka,ter,jess,cd. not bad a show i would say. after that is dinner at kfc and then slacking at SMa till 11 when everyone head home for guess3 - selina and hebe.

只是放手未必就好過.

其實，有多少人能真正了解，什麽是貌合神離？什麽是話不投機半句多？

並不是想說又是他們的不對，只是，那件事發生以後，什麽都變了吧。

回不到從前了。。是這樣嗎？

聼著他們說著我不不會被邀請的聚會，確實是有點尷尬。因爲不知道要怎樣面對，縱使我早已知道了這件事。

真的會像T所說的，事情縂有一天會好轉，時間能使一切變得正常嗎？希望如此。

只是放手未必就好過.

quotes: from Mary

怎样忘记他

失恋后，我们总爱问：

“我怎样可以忘记他？我很想忘记他，但我就是没法忘记他。”

如果没法忘记他，就不要忘记好了。

为什么要那么痛苦地去忘记一个人？时间自然会让你忘记他。

现在，我请你干万别想着一头粉红色的大笨象。

请问，你想到的是什么？

你立刻就想到一头粉红色的大笨象了。



你愈努力想去忘记，你愈是无法忘记。

仍然爱着他，忘不了他，是理所当然的事，不必觉得惭愧。

有些人明明忘不了，却自欺欺人说：

“我已经忘了他。”

然而，只要别人一提起他，她就无法控制自己。

有一天，你会忘记他的。

真正的忘记，是不需要努力的。

有一天，你从浴室洗了一个澡出来，扭开唱机听听自己喜欢的音乐，你忽尔想起，

你曾经爱过一个人，啊，原来你爱过这个人，那仿佛是很遥远的事，你已经一点感觉也

没有了。这就是忘记。

有一天，别人提起某某，你才猛然想起，你曾经爱过这个人，现在已经不记得了。

这就是忘记。






如果时间不可以令你忘记那些不该记住的人，我们失去的岁月又有什么意义？

over the weekend.

remember the fire drill here at mica last yr? during the last week of my internship? its suppose to not happen so often. like once or twice a year only. and guess wat? i actually met one again. -_- last thurs!!!

as usual our dept is like one of the latest la. cant imagine what if a fire really break out. haha!

sentosa! still as good but not the same paradise anymore.

went over to sentosa on sun cos its mum's bdae.. and dad suggest going there cos its like long since we last went (10 yrs) and also to see the new musical fountain. there so much changes over there!!! but anws, i am quite disappointed la.. cos theres no longer the tranquility that i used to be able to find there.. so many places down there that i used to go are gone liao.. even the ferry terminal! i think hor its like quite a icon of sentosa leh.. hm hmm.. maybe they're right.. we need these changes for a better future.. lets hope the better future will really come!

song of the sea! great!

dropped by at the new musical fountain too! now its called the songs of the sea. with abit of simple story line and a few people acting, combined with fire and pyrotechnics. actually i do find that its quite worth the 6 bucks. not too bad. and also met YJ there! know he's working at sentosa but didnt really expect to see him there.. lol.. going there makes me so tempted to work there!!! i think if i really work there.. my mood will become v good lor haha. pictures up later. too lazy to upload. lol.

my autographed 延長比賽 album!

and for today!!! i took half day leave hehe. went to meet sis peisin and jieying for TANK'S CONCERT!!! woohoo-! walaos its like totally so good lor. i heart him. his songs are great. one minor disappointment is that he did not sing 我們小時候。otherwise it would have been total perfect. also bought his album there since i have wanted to long ago, its cheaper there at 16, and i get to get it autographed! y not right??

eh.. the concert this time round is by 1003 de but i keep thinking and thot that it is 933.. till i see lingzhi i shocked.. cos i forgot she "jump" to 1003 liao.. still miss her way of hosting but she makes better chemistry with cruz back at the 933 days la..

view from MRT on my way to amk..

after the concert, i see jieying home while peisin rush of to the next filming at mediacorp.. while i went to meet GC. haish.. miss her alot.. its been quite some time since we last met up and i really felt like i miss her alot on sat.. so i asked her if she wanna meet today.. was shopping ard amk hub and talking before her mum came and join us for dinner.. everything was great la.. the chat, the food, the company.




if only we were really together...

quotes: from [。小鳥與樹是甜蜜的。]

放棄不是逃避

放棄不是個錯誤

放棄不完全就叫半途而廢

放棄不一定比持續來的好過

狠下決心放棄一個人一件事其實是很難的

往往都是不得已才會有放棄的念頭

這是要經過漫長的考慮

想很多想很遠想很久才做得出的選擇

當人們選擇放棄

往後卻總是會想起當初如果沒放棄會如何

一直思考這無解的問題更是種折磨

now playing: 丁当 - 明白

盛夏光年 电影主题曲
词曲:五月天阿信



你说你感觉不对
心情很坏
我无法控制
泪水流下来

莫名的难过是情绪作祟
没有谁错谁对需要安慰
不能离开

我只是要你明白
明白我对你的爱
除了你我的爱无可取代
没有人让我如此的依赖
ho……

因为你我的爱
永远存在

爲何? #2

好朋友是不是阿
好啊 那我告訴你啊
我從來就沒有自願要儅你的朋友
小時候 是老師規定我要去儅你的朋友
我根本就不想做你的朋友

明明就已經不是這樣.. 爲什麽還要說這種話傷害對方?

爲何?

愛一個人不應該是這樣的..
爲何要這麽自甘墮落?

盛夏光年

quotes: from YJ

i see the nature of human,
i see through it
and realised all that touches the surface is nothing but a façade.

now playing: 吳青峰 - 小情歌

这是一首简单的小情歌
唱着人们心肠的曲折
我想我很快乐
当有你的温热
脚边的空气转了
唱着我们心头的白鸽
我想我很适合
当一个歌颂者
青春在风中飘着
你知道就算大雨让这座城市颠倒
我会给你怀抱
受不了看见你背影来到
写下我度秒如年难捱的离骚
就算整个世界被寂寞绑票
我也不会奔跑
逃不了最后谁也都苍老
写下我时间和琴声交错的城堡
最后谁也都苍老

*****

its may day!! for the labourers.. and i do "farm" so that means i can celebrate it too! woohoo-! the best way to celebration is to have uninterupted sleep till 11... and i am now so happy! no sleep = unhappy. haha!

mediacorp suck. cos there is no shows to watch on every channel on a PH. i hope their business fold soon!!! but i think thats difficult... cos there is only one station.. bo pian all have to watch their programmes.. even when it suck.. -_-

had mac for brunch.. and fish burger lost the good old flavors of the past.. now its small and no longer nice... =( shall head to grandma's place later soon!

*****

a new series i shot for my dA, i got this idea of reflection cos of the recent series of things that happens between me and my fren, and that i wanna have a better picture of how people see me as. cos i wanna know.. if things really happened becos of me..

逃。#2

i have low credibility.

everyone choose to believe what some one else said of me. you choose to believe what someone else said of me but u forget, i am ur fren too. everyone of you has doubt on my credibility but no one talks to me abt it. no one has plans to clear it up.

yea yea. u guys must be saying i am a bastard yea, after what has happened. that i am heartless, unwilling to make any effort, that why some one can be present i cant. that i arent 'friend' enough.

why is it that no one choose to believe i am genuine busy and its not that i DO NOT want to go. i even brought that present to office. but with no destination for me to go to and no one picking up call, where do you guys want me to go?

why am i rushing and pushing myself to finish all the work in that limited time for? and for who?

had enough. didnt expect that not a single one have that lil faith in me.



and yes, they are my class mates. pals whom i spend 3 fucking years with. thru thick and thin and everything. but what did all these bring? it only turn out that they trust what someone else said of me. and that some heck cared.

i arent even angry, nor pissed off. i am jus...

lifes sad, that no one wants to know what i am thinking thru the person, but only thru my blog..

quotes: from h o z

If only you could see the tears in the world you left behind…
If only you could heal my heart just one more time…

Even when I close my eyes,
There’s an image of your face…

And once again I come to realize…
You’re a loss I can’t replace…

說曹操曹操就到

as i was ranting a few posts back about how nyp is slow even in graduation.. i got the letter today re the graduation! and yes we have the graduation robe too! i can foresee.. 數百人同時在謀殺底片的壯觀場面...

anw, jus out with ling and binz.. havent met them for a long long time! had xin wang hk cafe and it arent that good la.. but we made up with all the chatting! strolled from heartland mall back home.. ha! the last time... we strolled home after our outing too.. maybe the next time, we can just meet up and stroll the whole day.. *i was jus joking..*

work is getting more intense this few days! deadline for submission of budget is coming but the mgt has so many things not fixed yet! and things getting messier.. -_- and i also become more slack sighs.. everything pls be well soon!!! i hope that work can be more smoothly la..

why? #3

i dunno...

when i told hao "forget it la"... it just pierced my heart.. that things have to come to this end..


thanks to hao for listening to me...

msn: k e l - 15sept, 1030am, bmtc 1 - who same slot???

wK says:
muahahahhaa
prepare to burn
in hell

thanks weikeong. for the comment haha!


EDIT:
weikeong posted something later on..

wah lau. it feels damn good to have come out of army. and see other people suffering
AHHAHA. sorry

-_-"


EDIT:

aiyah the only consolation you can have is that everyone has gone through it
and then you will, and can come out of it alive

ok. this makes me feel better. thanks wK!

It's here!

yeap the enlistment letter is here. nope did not get into police as i hoped. but yes i did get to enlist later. sept 15. but thinking ahead, arent that good huh cos that also means i ord later. -_-

erm, had a very mixed feeling when i got to know that the letter had finally arrived.. i wouldn't deny that there is a lil lil percentage in me that i actually felt a bit scared. but heys, thats a big uncertainty ahead yea! who would not? nervous!!!

anw, i will heed father's advise and start to work out so that i would not suffer when i go in.. i still have 4 more months! i hope i will be ready by then...

now playing: 我懷念的/北極星的眼淚

yes am listening this two songs. haha. i heart wo huai huai nian de!!!! its the best song is stef's latest album.

...我怀念的 是无话不说 我怀念的 是一起作梦 我怀念的 是争吵以后还是想要爱你的冲动 我记得那年生日 也记得那一首歌 记得那片星空 最紧的右手 最暖的胸口 谁 记得 谁 忘了 我怀念的 是无言感动 我怀念的是绝对炽热 我怀念的 是你很激动 求我原谅抱得我都痛 我记得你在背后 也记得我颤抖着 记得感觉汹涌 最美的烟火 最长的相拥 谁爱得太自由谁过头太远了 谁要走我的心 谁忘了那就是承诺 谁自顾自地走 谁忘了看着我 谁让爱变沉重 谁忘了要给你温柔 我怀念的 我还有想要爱你的冲动我记得那年生日 也记得那一首歌 记得那片星空 最紧的右手 最暖的胸口 我放手 我让座 假 洒脱 谁懂我多么不舍得 太爱了 所以我 没有哭 没有说


*****


was quite a old song. has been in my shuffle for quite some time but i tend to skip it most of the time cos i wanna listen to 楓, 專屬天使 and 我們小時候。recently, listened to this song again and felt that it is really not bad!

...当对的人 等不到对的时间 就在放放开手的瞬间 爱撕成两边

why? #2

actually, i cant find the logic why someone has to comment on the way i mend my blog. seriously.

Do not cross(the line).
我們井水不犯河水。

why?

from SP..

from NP..

AGAIN! again! how come nyp also so much more slower than all the other schools de? how come they have graduation robe and we dun have de!

sighs.. some may say whats the big deal its jus a graduation.. but to me i think it may be the last lap of my education le.. if thats the case then it does mean that its impt rite!

lets home some news of graduation come fast!!!

天使

每個女孩都是天使
當她落下第一滴淚時
上帝就收回她的翅膀
所以
世間的男孩都應該知道
當你面前的女孩
為你落下第一滴淚時
她已經為你放棄了整個天堂

An excrept.

an excrept from an email i get...

zzZzzZzzZZzzz..

sometimes, parents don't know that some small things they do will hurt their children: that look in their eyes, that small gesture they show, that phrase they say, the un-understanding that they showed.

ok case close! i dun want to go into the details cos i ddun wanna remember it.. haha..


now in office.. feeling damn bored.. cos once again i got nothing to do again.. hmm later jus got to go get lunch for those people thats having meeting... ciao~!

&*^(%&%$ %#&*^

super shits. i just found out that the show i wanna watch is R21. and that means i cant watch!!! whats worse? i dun think i can pass off... cos i jus cut my hair and i look like i am sec four now. wth!!! -_- wrong timing!

happy happy day.

today, i took half day leave off the morning and spend some time with my grandmother!! woohoo-! happy happy cos i have not spend time with her for a long time liao..

took her to the poly clinic for the regular check up.. some things not so right but i hope the blood test will bring good news.. also went to settle some misc stuff before we have lunch at kopitiam! kopi roti egg + fish soup with rice.. its a nice meal! i heart ah ma. LOL.

work is pretty smooth today too. abit busy, but i like that feeling! it beats having nothing to do and rot at my seat laa..

quotes: from Dorence

theres a chinese saying: dui ren huan xi, bei ren liu lei (smile at others, heartache behind smiles). Sometimes you wanna have someone share with your sorrows, but theres something else. Ego or something else. So everytime you have to hide the truth and pretend to be strong in the forefront. this builds up and finally you think of giving up everything you have. Your life, your soul and yourself.

zZzZzzZzz..

getting tired easily nowadays.. it must be something to do with the late nights. but its not that i don't want to sleep early, but rather, its difficult to get into sleep. things keep flowing into the mind especially in the nights.. and i starts to think alot.

nights always gives me the very comfortable feeling.. that i can just think.. of a lot of things.. its truly a very good time to be in deep thots.

anw, just home not long ago. went to the pasar malam with mum and sis.. its been long since i go there to munch on the foodie!!! cos for a long long time.. i had been too lazy to go and always get the rest to tapao for me.. haha! miss those days man.. when i was still much younger and will always go pasar malam.. to play those games and buy those snacks..

biz there arent good. theres one stretch of the pasar malam practically has no one at all. how is biz going to cont man.. and then slowly this pasar malam culture wil be gone forever.. hm.. sad sad. cos its something truely singaporean.. and theres less and less of things that truely singaporean liao..

confused.

sometimes.. i dun understand. why is it that i must think the way some people want me to? why is it that i cant dun like some people simply cos everyone else thinks he is ok? why is it that it is always me in the wrong jus cos i am the only one who is not "ok" with the rest?

i have my own thinking and my own perception of some people.

i need to give it a clear thot yea. this whole issue is taking up too much of my time. maybe its also a good chance that i can leave? since.. i cant really blend in.. why stay and make people sick of me?

roti john at s'goon garden.

my mum is kp-ing to my dad about how "bad" i am on the fone now. damns. i am irritated. some arguement/disagreement/quarrel/whatever-u-call-it broke out this morn before i left home. less of this kinda life pls.. i am already very tired.. and these are adding weight onto me.. =(

went to cut my hair, cos the prev experience was bad enough and my hair was is bad condition ever since. hair is now short! cos i decide to cut off those damaged part and let my healthy hair grow.. i hope i can get back the length before i get enlisted!!

also had lunch with hitsu and a slacking session at her house. lunch's at serangoon garden hawker centre, its not chomp chomp.. its the one slightly opp it.

was home by about evening, bathed and was too lazy to go over to grandma's place.. so i rotted at home. how good it is to have the whole house just to my self and i can get a moment of quietness to myself and only myself? but not all the time yea.. family is still important too haha.

ok! thats it! tmr then cont to blog. ^^

feelin down..

on some recaps first, wed was spent out to be with the cousins for aunt's birthday.. dinner at fish and co! was a great gathering as we usually only gathers at grandma's place. seldom an outing like this!

when we were really young.. we had all the time to play together.. to enjoy every moments of our lives.. but as we all grow, time seems to be not enough. it has to be divided amongst other people. like friends, colleagues and others.. i hope that in future, we all can spend more time together!

*****

today's weikeong and david's last day, and theres a farewell lunch at highlanders at clark quay.. foods nice but its ex too! i think that place's name is highlander or something? had fun and laughter there.. and also foto taking! had wanted to take some fotos with the friends there.. but it seem like they dun really take fotos de.. hmm hmm...

thou know dave and wk for only a short time but i will miss the slacking times and crapping times we all had laa! life's all about like this.. people come and people go.. but what's impt is that they left footprints rite?

*****

jus home from supper with hitsu. wanted to go cut hair, shop close le. wanted to go prata, shop close down le. MY FAV ATHAR IS NO LONGER IN EXISTENCE!!!!

sighs.. its quite saddening.. its THE prata shop that accompanied me thru my sec sch days.. a fav hang out me and sam always go.. the supper place for me and hitsu. and now, without warning, its gone and its forever. how to say leh? its a horrible feeling. something you are familiar with and never thought will be gone, is just gone. and you know it won't be back.

that feeling suck. i stood for like 20 seconds outside the closed athar and my mind is at a sudden lost.

sometimes, i think that we as human take things too for granted.. that we never thought that one day, things might be gone.. for this athar case, its not only the food that i miss, but the feelings that i have grew for it over the years. countless supper, that late lunch i had there after my chinese story telling competition, breakfasts there before the remedial classes on sats... and the list goes on. these are part of my memories that i will treasure alot!!!

another task on hand right now is to find another supper/gathering spot at serangoon area. -_-

repeated telecast.

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*****

now playing: Richard Marx - Now and Forever

Whenever I'm weary
from the battles that rage in my head
You make sense of madness
when my sanity hangs by a thread
I lose my way but still you
seem to understand
Now and forever
I will be your FRIEND.

Sometimes I just hold you
Too caught up in me to see
I'm holding a fortune
that heaven has given to me
I'll try to show you each and
every way I can
Now and forever
I will be your FRIEND.

Now I can rest my worries and always be sure
That I won't be alone anymore
If I'd only known you were there all the time
All this time

Until the day the ocean doesn't touch the sand
Now and forever
I will be your FRIEND.

Now and forever
I will be your FRIEND.

now playing: 曹格 - 背叛

雨 不停落下来
花 怎么都不开
尽管我细心灌溉
你说不爱就不爱
我一个人 欣赏悲哀

爱 只剩下无奈
我 一直不愿再去猜
钢琴上黑键之间
永远都夹着空白
缺了一块 就不精采

紧紧相依的心如何
say goodbye
你比我清楚还要我说明白
爱太深会让人疯狂的勇敢
我用背叛自己
完成你的期盼

把手放开不问一句
当作最后一次对你的溺爱
冷冷清清淡淡今后都不管
只要你能愉快

心 有一句感慨
我 还能够跟谁对白
在你关上门之前
替我再回头看看
那些片段
还在不在



*****

常問自己，爲什麽我只能站在一旁看著他們快樂，而因而不快樂。這是我想要的嗎？因該不是吧，對於把朋友看得如此重的我。但爲何現實又不是如此？這些都是因我而起的嗎？我不會說我完全沒有責任，但 it takes two hands to clap.


原來事實就是如此。

dA: clear sky

天空是晴朗的。
心裏卻是陰霾的。

陰霾后的彩虹何時才會到來？

by ~tiberiunedelea

i'm still waiting..

i don't know.. it seems that the people who made me pissed dunno whats going on.. but wells, i can't blame them yea. i shall keep mum if no one brought up the matter anymore.

anw, had a conversation today with the other temp staffs today over lunch and teabreak. the topic somehow landed on "ghost stories".. from travelling experiences to ns stories we heard and some experience from them. OMG spooky ones from sue and dave! hmm that joss paper story.. i hope i will NEVER EVER gonna experience that!!

am really tired.. mentally.. i need a break! i wanna go siem reap/viet/bali/batam or those short trips thats not expensive!!! any takers?

hmm

its like coming to 5 am liao! tired.. thats of cos! but i dunno why i suddenly fel like going down to mcd to have their breakfast.. hha!

was supp to meet herry.. but in the end he's out of home late and so couldnt meet me as he has to meet jess. well well, first time he is back since he got enlist. but we did not meet. but anw, it was only like 4 or 5 days since he enlist? -_- thats the plus point for signing on laa... haha.. not like us.. chao recruit go in must 3 weeks then can come out.. but still, must find time to meet! maybe next week then.. gf more impt haha thats of cos! but i am VERY touched that herr msn me last nite when he is back.. =) smiley!!!

*****

last friday, i met up with Hao! yea consecutive two days lol. but this time round its for a specific reason. hao remembered i was craving for the frog leg porridge!!! and so we went.. awwweee i am so touched when i receive his sms asking me if i still crave and wanna meet for dinner not.. haha.. and so we went! also had some bbq chicken wings and its total yummy. plus shopping ard chinatown area.. and we also stopped by a booth at somewhere near temple street.. display of pictures of singapore in the older days.. photos of the old cathay building.. bugis street ah gua, old ck tangs, national theater.. and some other interesting places that too bad now has been torn down le... =(

there, we also met a 60+ y.o uncle who told us some stories of the older days.. interesting and informative! not a opportunity that comes by easy yea to know something not normally taught in classrooms... were there talking till like that boss sort of shoo us off!

in all, it was a great night spent. we talked alot, of people ard us, our future and sorts. hao even ask me why i dun wan to get a gf! well...

we gotta meet more hao! since office is so close.. haha...

*****

ok at the end of this post, ten mins later, i have decided not to go down to mcd.. maybe some cereals or noodles will do! but sighs.. thats damn harmful to my growing tummy! i wan it to go off soon!!

now playing: 光良 - 雨

冷冷的空气
湿红的眼眶里装满忧郁
默默的聆听
窗外这场大雨下个不停
伞下还有你的痕迹
勉强撑过这场雨
我却没有更多勇气
坚强过这一个雨季
单薄的伞下那是多么孤寂

听雨的声音像悲伤的歌曲
滂沱大雨竟如此的孤寂
我陪雨哭泣雨却还不肯停
寂寞的人才懂雨的心情
雨反复唱着熟悉旋律
用悲伤的情绪
听雨的声音仿佛谁在哭泣
倾盆大雨淋湿我们爱情
雨模糊记忆我忘记了冷静
是经历艰辛才走能到如今
这漫长的路还有多少泥泞

还没有晾干的外衣
闷在寂寞的房里
面对明天沉重的心
悬挂着伤感的水滴
你我的爱似乎等不到天晴
听雨的声音像难过的心情
我的泪飘进冷冷的雨里
雨何时才停伤何时能痊愈
而我何时才能够不再想你
积雨的感情终究还是分离
下着雨的天气
爱消失的气息
想念你的心情我淋着雨

bad luck with makan.

sighs. the curry puffs i bought for this morn breakfast turns out to be potato ones when what i wanted are the sardines ones... -_-

since tues, my lunches had been screwed. had the cheater not nice claypot rice on tues and the tasteless hong kong mee on wed. whats the irony? carina and david ordered food from the same store on both days and their food turns out to be nice. double -_-

i must make a good choice for today's lunch!!!!!

You know what?

You guys can go *&*##@!@#$%^&* for not picking up calls. Gosh what are handphones for! dammit.

You guys think it's plain fucking easy to support you pple all the way, I can tell you, it was a fucking emotional draining thing to do. But I still did it. I didn't do it for myself, I did it for you pple. You want to fucking ignore me because I pressured you, because I didn't make the choice that suited you, think of the pressure you yourselves have placed me into, which I placed aside.

Yea, maybe I was really too nice. Till the point that one of these days, you'll just see me snap.

Just look how many are willing to stand by me when I'm down at this moment. Just one person. And I wasn't even exactly close to that person.

Pissed.

yes i am pissed. don't ask me why. cos i dun even think those involved will know. so yea. its ok. jus let me be.

anw, happy birthday tEr!!!

edit: erm.. ok not so much pissed i think... i guess its more disappointment... =(

now playing: Hebe - She's The One

I was her
she was me
We were one
we were free

And if there's somebody calling me on
She's the one
If there's somebody calling me on
She's the one

We were young
we were wrong
We were fine all along
If there's somebody calling me on
She's the one

When you get to where you wanna go
And you know the things you wanna know
You're smiling

When you said what you wanna say
And you know the way you wanna play
You'll be so high you'll be flying

Though the sea will be strong
I know we'll carry on
Cos if there's somebody calling me on
She's the one

stop it. i say stop it.

what do you think i am? a robot?


so what if i wanna slack at home during the weekends? so what if i decide that i want to rot my weekends away? its MY weekend and i decides how i shd rest on my rest day after a week of work.


stop it. youre driving me up the wall.

dA: Sparks

Artist's Comments

"What's love, Daddy?"

"Sparks. That get to you. Always lovely at first, but what happens after is a cloud of smoke."

"Just like those fireworks?"

"Yeah, just like them son, just like them."

*****

from ~if-i-nvr-knew

a plead from me.

我好像從來沒求過你.. 沒有要求過什麽。

驟雨之後，真地會有彩虹嗎？曾幾何時，說“有”已經變成了一種自欺欺人，自我安慰，一個似乎永遠都不會實現可能。




不敢奢望些什麽，只希望，未來，我的路會好走一些... 不敢想象何時我會放棄，但至少現在的我，還能有那麽一點點的力氣繼續下去。

你知道，真實的我是怎樣的嗎？

難過與失望不斷升溫，做什麽都事與願違。



原來在你們面前，我從來都不曾是真實的我...

quotes: from Tokyo Juliet

通常會留下的人，都知道自己該何去何從。反而是那些拿不定主意的人，最後總是會離開。

quotes: from Chelle

A lost love cannot be recovered.
Same thing goes to a lost friendship cannot be recovered.
I thought time will heal the wound.
But i forget it will leave a scar...


*****

a day spent at home. on my own. i think sometimes.. i jus need times like this where i can get to enjoy that lil bit of tranquility that is needed? had some plans to go china town or catch a movie.. but in the end, called it off... was it due to my unwillingness to accept the fact that i am unable to find even one soul to go with me? most probably... i hate that feeling. but there arent much i can do about it yea.. they've got appts already... one simply jus dont reply... =(

*****

jus chatted with Jan!! she's currently having a break and travelling ard europe with her class mates.. will be going to austria, italy, france. and she is going to venice too!!! omg. a place where i hope i can go laa!!!! i hope one day i can have the chance to go to these places too.. hope that i can travel more to widen my visions... stay safe jan!

*****

now playing: 張惠妹 - 記得

谁还记得
是谁先说永远的爱我
以前的一句话
是我们以后的伤口
过了太久
没人记得当初那些温柔
我和你手牵手
说要一起走到最后

我们都忘了
这条路走了多久
心中是清楚的
有一天有一天都会停的
让时间说真话
虽然我也害怕
在天黑了以后
我们都不知道会不会有遗憾

谁还记得
是谁先说永远的爱我
以前的一句
是我们以后的伤口
过了太久
没人记得当初那些温柔
我和你手牵手
说要一起走到最后

我们都累了
却没办法往回走
两颗心都迷惑
怎么说怎么说都没有救
亲爱的为什么
也许你也不懂
两个相爱的人
等对方先说找分开的理由

谁还记得
爱情开始变化的时候
我和你的眼中
看见了不同的天空
走的太远
终于走到分岔路的路口
是不是你和我
要有两个相反的梦

谁还记得
是谁先说永远的爱我
以前的一句话
是我们以后的伤口
过了太久
没人记得当初那些温柔
我和你手牵手
说要一起走到最后

你真的覺得.. 我可以嗎？

因爲連我自己都覺得.. 我快不行了..

Happy Bdae Chelle!! (3/4/07)

woo~! dinner at sam's place. the best ramen on earth. would like to thank chelle for her generous treat!! sigh too bad i choose the wrong flavour for the cake.. but i really hope we all enjoyed that nite! i hope that next year.. next next yr.. and so on.. we all could stll be able to enjoy.. and i hope that one day.. that someone could join us back too..

Its Sat!!!

weekends here again... FINALLY! i think thats seriously what all working people are looking forward every week rite.. hha..

well, its good friday yesterday and my family went to Choa Chu Kang cemetry for qing ming festival praying.. wanted to take some pics to blog but in the end lost the kick to do so.. i reckon nex yr i wun be joining? cos of ns... hope that i can still go but maybe it arent matter to some anw.

*****

i freaking hate all people who dun reply sms, miss calls and such. i hope all their hps DROP INTO THE TOILET BOWL~~~!!!!!

*****

will i be part of the recalled memories of u guys? the tot of this is depressing...

*****

its saturday. weekend.

and i arent happy. whats wrong with me?

Lie down to look at the stars.

it was ONLY two hrs spent eating, jaywalking, talking abt this & that this & that, us sitting there keeping a lookout for those disturbing ants, u wanting to cross over e 'gate' (happily happily forgetting abt e security who appeared b4 us talking to others b4 that!) YET it was time HAPPILY WELL SPENT esp after e whole longggg dae at work..

uve said -> 'we dun need to haf too many ppl at a chalet to enjoy' & now i say -> 'we dun even need a chalet to b able to enjoy!' =))

this testi from xiu pretty much sum up what we did last nite.. a gathering out of the busy work schedules we all have yea.

now playing: 伍思凯 - 寂寞公路

说好和你一起流浪

失约的我独自飞翔

窗外景物不断的变换

提醒我背叛的心慌

说好不让你再流泪

迷惑的我不知是错是对

下雪街头独自的行走

握不住一杯温热的咖啡

new york dallas los angeles

寂寞公路每站都下雪

想念等候流逝的梦

寂寞公路每寸都伤痛

sunrise moomshake heartbreaker

寂寞公路每站都下雪

冷漠激情点烟的手

寂寞公路哪里是尽头

Damns!

wallaoz. i jus found out that i am the lowest paid temp staff there!! damns. Sue, the other temp got 7.6 while i am only paid 5.2!!!!! fucks la.. so much for having worked here before and being a poly grad. how much is experience worth seriously? and she even got OT pay!!!!

gee. but the place is really not bad laa... sighs. got used to this place le and then the environment is suitable for me...


the next time, i gotta seriously negotiate my pay!!!