ramen. puncak.

my long-awaited-escapade-to-refresh-myself is finally coming!!! who say only some people can have graduation trip while i cant? now i am going to my own! woohoo-!

*****

supposedly to be my last day of work yest.. but i extended 4 more days.. part of the reason is to help agnes, who have been a really nice boss to me. another reason is also to earn some pocket money before i land on green man island, where the there will be no pay and only allowance for the next 2 years.. however i will still take yest as last day of work!! woohoo-!

*****

met up with pebb last nite.. been so long since i see her! shes still the same.. haha.. shopped ard and had dinner at puncak. its nice to meet up with friends you can talk to and bitch about work stuff!! hohoho.

*****

lunch on thurs was branja-ed by DA JIE! thanks!!! actually was already vvv paiseh with all these treating "farewell" lunches le.. they are not cheap!! i really appreciates it alot.. =) the two of us and SH went to that ramen stall at central where we have heard so much about it already but have not tried yet. personally i find it pretty good while DA JIE and SH finds that tam popo is still better..

*****

agnes gave me a lift yest after work to town, and we shared some views on working.. at the same time i reflected how working and temping the last few years changed me.. in personality wise and others.. hope that i have became someone better! definately learnt alot but i think that a person on whole is not only measured by the knowledge, right?

*****

this few days is quite crazy at work. there is just quite alot of urgent things to do but no time. why am i so busy just when i am leaving!! now i got not enough time to finish the tasks and i will feel so pek cek!! haha.. JIAYOUS~!

*****

met up poly gang at new york new york for short gathering dinner. QQ's back from navy! so fast 2 weeks liao. i hope when i am inside time past fast as well!!

don't we look like small kids?

sweet kinda life.

i heart sepia photos!!

*****

on the side note, i just feel so dead. cos in 15 days time i am going to be enlisted and i have not started any form of training yet! -_-

work vs rest.

i don't know if the decision to work right till the week i am enlisting is right. i thought i should earn a lil bit more before i go in but it seems that everyone is quite against that idea. everyone keeps saying i should rest that week. hmmhmm...

life. happy. not.

you are unhappy because you are not living your life in the way you want

Dickson said this to me.

what do i want, exactly?

i love myself. only.

feelin kind of bored recently, or rather easily bored! haha. work hasn't been smooth cos the new temp to take over me aren't up to the supp's standards and i think they are dropping her.. so that means i gotta do da work again!! -_-...

anw, have been busy for the finance things and helping to organise the retreat this coming friday.. suppose to be her work but i am like taking over quite a lot liao.. as for the finance matters, i am really trying hard to be a good coach, i am already very kind with her cos i thought of how i was like when i started out - and i dun want to treat others badly when people actually treated me well with patience when i started out. but i really on the verge liao!! i cannot stand it when people keep saying they have checked their work but when i vet through there is so many mistakes and its serious mistakes! she can actually forget to process all the invoices last week!! and she made a mess of the invoice listing today. and she din ask me to check before she try to process them.. hais now a lot of problems.. hmmhmm.. i shall continue to advise her to be more meticulous ba... some things cant force de..

*****

didnt go for the fireworks last sat.. for some reason i do not wish to bring up anymore.. that feeling just sucked.. and i hate it.. i dunno.. i mean.. sometimes i wonder.. what exactly kind of a person i am to those people?

maybe just a sucked to the core guy. =(

*****

jus chatted with peter! that fella! haha. he always sound cheerful thou he might be unhappy.. that guy is going Israel for a business trip! dunno safe or not. anw i think he is coming to meet us for lunch soon! good good. lunch is getting bored when the people are going for meetings and i got no one to lunch with me!!!

*****

i am quite "nua" recently. even at work. can't stand it. i gonna be more energetic!! k la go zz liao. tmr morn still got a meeting with the finance people regarding virement.. got to get it done before i leave!! bwahaha..

i miss the peeps.

those peeps that has made a difference in me..

saw sushi's and yan's post and it made me so emo all over again.. missing school life al over again. some things, missed, can never be found back.

suddenly.. just so suddenly i realised how much i wish i was back in poly.. the icas.. the never endin projects.. the truck loads of presentations.. the bumpin into those ppl tt we dun lik.. the breaks we spend in fj and cheers.. i'm fuc*in missin all of them.. really very very very badly.. i miss yen and kel.. i miss it when she doesn't want to go for class then i'll drag her to go with me.. i miss kel's constant complains and naggin.. i even miss it when he always "pang se" us.. i feel so sad.. it's lik even when i go for lectures alone without them it's so much better.. it's lik everything's so different.. it's lik even sittin in the 3rd row of the lecture hall alone was fun...

i miss. i truly do.

sushi.yan.herry. the pals in class. and of cos. many others who have impacted me alot. i love ya all lots!

n nw i suddenly realised everything's so different from the past... times where we gossip tgt, luff tgt, and cry tgt... nw everyone's separated... tis is e path of growing up i supposed.....

growing up. bu xiang zhang da. but time never stops. time waits for no one. reminiscing is good. but whats important is that we manage to hold on to that friendship and let it stretch beyond that period of time in school. dunch ya all agree pals? whats important is whats going to happen. not what has happened. =)

寂静 · 孤独

永远 · 太远

人家说：爱情不会是永远的，只有友情才会。

我说：这一切都是骗人的。




wats friends? friendships not forever..

forever.

nothing lasts forever.

NOTHINGNOTHINGNOTHINGNOTHINGlastsforever!!!!

now playing: 张惠妹 - 如果你也听说

突然發現站了好久 不知道要往哪走
還不想回家的我 再多人陪只會更寂寞
許多話題關於我 就連我也有聽過
我的快樂要被认可 委屈卻沒有人訴說

夜把心洋蔥般剝落 拿掉防衛剩下什麼
為什麼脆弱時候想你更多


如果你也聽說 有沒有想過我 像普通舊朋友
還是你依然會心疼我
好多好多的話想對你說
尋找一顆心沒著落
要怎麼負荷 捨不得 又無可奈何

如果你也聽說 會不會相信我 對流言會附和
還是你知道我還是我
跌跌撞撞才明白了許多
等我的人就你一個
想到你想起我
胸口依舊溫熱


許多話題關於我 就連我也有聽過
我想我寧可都沉默 解釋反而顯的做作
也把心洋蔥般剝落 拿掉防衛剩下什麼
為什麼脆弱時候想你更多


如果你也聽說 有沒有想過我 像普通舊朋友
還是你依然會心疼我
好多好多的話想對你說
尋找一顆心沒著落
要怎麼負荷 捨不得 又無可奈何

如果你也聽說 會不會相信我 對流言會附和
還是你知道我還是我
跌跌撞撞才明白了許多
等我的人就你一個
想到你想起我
胸口依舊溫熱

如果你也聽說 有沒有想過我 像普通舊朋友
還是你依然會心疼我
跌跌撞撞才明白了許多
等我的人就你一個
想到你想起我
胸口依舊溫熱

如果你想起我
你會想到什么...





希望.. 会是美好的回忆..

hung up.

the sms that you said you'll send never reached me.








i'll take that as a choice made by you guys then.

30 days to 15 Sept 2007!!!

Official count down starts today! one month later it will be off to green men island.

42 and still counting.

Happy National DAy!!!

woohoo-! headed to marina bay for the parade! nope no tix, we gotta stand at the esplanade bridge. haha. but it was enjoyable!! weather was great- nice cool and not warm. it's an eventful outing!



1. malay uncle go gila and hit a foreign worker.
think its cos of the crowd that caused the accidental push but malay uncle lost his cool and hit FW. poor guy. action strongly discouraged singaporeans! we're all out to have fun so dun spoil anything k?

2. Mabel 飾演 孟太太.
mabel's new found "love" over there.. we wouldn't forget how he helped us 開路 and also let you stand at a strategic position to have a good view. haha!

3. friendly strangers 飾演 紅先生與毛太太.
friendly Caucasian couple we met there. chatted with us and thought that the 4 of us are out on a double date. HAHA! they even made newspaper cuttings to note the time of the fireworks. apparently, husband don't really like crowded place but came cos wife wanted to. so sweet. but he did say no next time. haha.. Thanks to their tripod, we got a clear view of the fireworks! *why we will explain in the next point*

4. some bangalas 飾演 assholes.
not all. but those who refuse to be considerate. they roughly squeeze themselves to the front and stood on the railings, not caring whether people at the back can see. and they are those who came later! ggrrhh.. for what we come so early man..

5. boon and kel 飾演 hokkien beng.
enough explained thru the previous point. the two boys were extremely outraged and got angry. haha! shan't go into details of the explicit words they used to scold.. lol!

it was a very memorable nite. not forgetting how the 4 of us got to see our own eye candies.. namely kumar of mabel's, and "cheryl" of me and boon.. haa.. food at CA is still good too! would not forget how great the fireworks are.. do hope that all worries and troubles would go up in the sky with the sparks and burst into the beautiful flowers.. becoming bright flowers that lit up the night sky..

Horoscope today.

Someone could offer you some compliments, Kelvin kho. You have a kind, gentle manner, and people often take your compassion for granted. But right now you could receive some positive feedback. A colleague might thank you for helping them out in the past. Or a friend could tell you that they really appreciate all that you have done for them. Realize that you have made a positive difference in many people's lives.

one day to national day.

1. outing with lingz and binz. nice catching up with the two of them! thou we were indecisive about what to eat, everything was great!

2. for once since a long time ago, gary dropped by my home after his event at punggol last sunday. eating and talking and walking ard before we set of to tampines mall for some shopping. he got a levi's tee. thank god that the burms i try at s&k don't look nice on me, otherwise its another hole in the pocket! ate at jacks place too. woohoo we indulge in good food!!

3. met up with chelle on tuesday. thanks to her otherwise i would never have been to forum shopping center before! she treated me organic juices from her shop.. thanks! dinner was at pasta menia, not nice! we both regretted going hohoho. was nice chatting and gossiping with her, not forgetting the impromptu decision to call su lao shi. we're all so ji dong to hear her voice! da next gathering shall be with her.

4. national day observance ceremony this morning. interesting. i didn't know ministry do such things too. makes me feel like a student all over again. sing a long session of national songs, performance, speeches, only diff is we have food here! teeheehee. was down a bit late so i stood at the front with the directors. after the performance, colleagues and i were waiting for the queue to shorten at the buffet when minister called us to eat with them at the "special" buffet for them. hohoho. so in the end no need to queue and have better food! lol.

5. happy national day tmr!!

Snap.

i think, everyone jus snapped from the super high tension. i dont mean to say those things to M, which i think was quite sarcastic of me. i am sorry. but i cant help but just feel like hanging half way there la. sighs.

its that sometimes i really get sick of working here cos it like so unappreciated. but after all, thats what real work life is. its business. its not the first time i am working, i also know perfectly that this is how the society works.. maybe i just need some time for the adjustment ba.. YP is rite. i am just a boy who has not grown up yet.

同事 · 朋友

知道M只是在开玩笑，但只是听到她这么说，it gets me into deep thoughts。

我们不是朋友，只是同事。

说者或许只是开玩笑，但其实听者会觉得满sad 的。i mean, ok la i can understand the reality of this society.. that colleagues should not cross the line of being friends.. but well, after all working together might result in a situation where you see these colleagues more than you see everyone else- ur family, classmates, friends. since then why cannot be friends? i don't understand.

havent been into contact with the classmates since grad.. suddenly, i found out that i have turned exactly like them- only knowing how they are thru their blog, jus like how they know how i am through my blog.

its saddening. i knew it would come. just that, i didnt expect it to come so quickly. comm'on whats wrong with this world man. this is making me sick. and want to escape all these..

我要旅游！！

1. I really want: to be the jovial and careless and funny and expressive and talkative and driven KK I used to be. I really want to be less morbid, cynical and skeptical. I want to be optimistic and loving and hopeful.

*****

2. i find that its easier to blog in point form. haha! but its kind of "unprofessional" la. will see how and then adjust my blogging habits accordingly.

3. YP's last day today, one less temp staff here. soon me will be gone too! work is kind of over the load. "beyond my capabilities" is the word. not that i am not capable, bbut how to expect me to cover work of two person! =X

4. thinking of going to sentosa. any takers?

5. just saw today's paper, there is discount on tics to taipei! O.M.G.

璀璨 · 失落

渐渐的，我才明白为什么大家那么爱看烟火表演

因为在暗暗的夜空中，突然光芒四射的那瞬间

其实真的很美

就像五颜六色的流星迫不及待地要将你所有梦想都实现

而如果伴你身边的是你的挚爱

其实真的会很浪漫的

quoted Adrenalynne.

I Can't Communicate.

the difficulty to communicate with father is always there. its like something that just a thin membrane, but no matter how hard we try, its still there.

and this is making my life shit. things are not getting better and there is no solution to it. no even when we win 10million toto.. hais..

the connection is just not there. its just my fault for not being that kinda son that they want..

now playing: 张智成 - 很想你

1. i am f- bored. bored to the extend that i went to friendster and start to search around for people i know.. saw the profile of I and W. haha. the eye candy of YP! *YP better stop calling me stalker of blogs and friendster.. i is just pure bored la ok.

2. was reminded by Sandy that this coming weekend is the last fri of the month again- department lunch. it means i have to organise again.. and to my horror it also means aug is here! and sept is right after that. NS. -_-

not that i am afraid of ns. its just that i discovered i am totally unprepared and time left is very little. i better start jogging!!!!!


3. a few days ago mum was telling me about Gary. and NS. she reminded me that i need to bring those papers when i enlist. its lost. how ha?

4. met up with Gary last sat for gathering- da first after he enlist. the irony is that the botak recruit did not wear a cap, but i wore a beanie. LOL. caught Invisible Target, a show starring Nic Tse, Shawn Yue and Jaycee Chan. not bad a show! after that was tau huay and i went to his house for a while to chat and sorts.

5. usually i manage to catch the last train home from Gary's home. but this time i missed the last bus! jus sian la.. in order to save the cab fare i decided to take another last train to serangoon. called sammy to ask if he wanna meet supper, since i already has to take midnight cab. makes no diff in how much longer i stayed right?

sam couldnt meet for supper. however he offered to give me a lift home.. how nice of him! kind of missed the days in school where we hang out like almost everyday.. life seems to have like missed some pieces without the people so constantly being around..

6. just before i alight the car, it was the usual shake and hug bye we do. 933 was our best friend and it played 很想你 by 张智成 at that very moment.

7. now playing: 张智成 - 很想你




你在哪里 这些年来如意不如意
还快乐 还单纯 还美丽
时光如何对你

我在这里人海中的一座岛屿
很平静风平浪静
只除了深夜里回忆会疯狂来袭

我很想你 你知道吗
如果可以就让我再见你
美好微笑清澈眼睛
好确定那持离只毁了我 一个而已

我在哪里?你会不会偶尔好奇?
有没有曾经怀疑?
我说我会忘记只是种好意

我很想你 听见了吗
这是唯一我无解的困境
那些过去不肯过去
不管我后来遇见多少人
只能叹息
都不是你
我只想爱你

Horoscope today.

This could be a day when people are expressing themselves in strong ways, Kelvin kho. Some people might let their anger come out. Others might become critical with their language. If any of this negativity is aimed your way, try to duck! It's not your responsibility to be an emotional caretaker or baby-sitter to people's mood swings. Demand that colleagues approach you in a professional manner, and don't indulge anyone who isn't rational in their tone.





wallaos. damn true. hoho.. i've got that feeling!!!

Horoscope today.

You are a very self-sufficient person, Kelvin kho, and you don't always trust other people with your true thoughts and concerns. Sometimes it's good to humble yourself and just be human. Let someone new into your life today and open up to them. Or maybe dare to get a little closer with someone who might only know you on a superficial level. You are due to make a new friend soon, and this person will add much to your life.


wa. like real. dunno true or not.

breakdown

the second day that is low in productivity. yesterday morning, there is a power break down at the govt data center. all net access and lotus email access were cut off. access did not come back even when i am knocking off at 6 plus..

net access is back today but theres something wrong in the email. all my mails are gone and there is actually quite alot of impt info i stored there.. =(

sianz.. not that i am itching for work but its just pure rotting here when theres nothing to do.. nothing much to surf too and surfing blogs will make yuping and the rest say i am a STALKER!!! haha..

ok enough of the boring stuff..

lunch was at komalas yesterday! i havent been there for a long long time.. but my first attempt there was with the FNN class.. and that already like 4 plus yrs ago!! food was ok only la.. but at least get to eat something diff from the food courts that i have been eating like for how many months liao. had the poori briyani.. big serving lor.. the poori is not bad..

*****

1144hrs

kb. fed up lor. some people jus know how to chao keng. everything also say dont know. like just dont come and work like might as well stay at home. its not that i have not taught how to do it before. bad moodie. i hope she dont come and step on my toes right now.

*****

dont exactly feel welcomed or wanted. like so out of place. i wanna go... =(

15 more mins, lunch here i come!

*****

updates 1435hrs:

on news!

now playing: 蔡依林 - 你还爱我吗

夜里传来雨的声音
轻轻拨动心的旋律
情不自禁想起你
那些甜蜜的回忆
总是不小心就淋湿了我的眼睛
爱情需要一些呼吸
偶尔保持一点距离
回到朋友的关系
任你自由的来去
从此想念你只能放在我心里

你还爱我吗
一直好想问你这句话
却又怕听到你真实的回答
你还爱我吗
为何你总是不说话
眼看我为爱不爱挣扎
你爱我吗
好久没有你的消息
心里还惦记着你

在这冷冷的夜里
感觉那么的熟悉
好想再见你想听听你的声音
感情的路总让人好无助
我会学着面对独处
给深爱的你祝福

oh
一直好想问你这句话
却又怕听到你真实的回答
你还爱我吗
这是我唯一的牵挂
不管你会有什么回答
我会一直等你
你还爱我吗

Passive Vs Assertive.

to those people, i was passive. i kept thinking that if i try to make the effort, the friendship can go on.

now, i am more like assertive. cos i have had enough of those un-replied sms-es and calls.




bye bye. thanks for once being there.

Graduated: Class of 2007

06 07 07, the day i GRADUATED! a day full of mixed feeling. a place i so damned wanna get out when i was in there, a place i so wanna get back to when i am outta it. met a lot of familiar faces, including the lecturers, frens, tep mates, and many people. having gotten so used to a life where i see them everyday, it does make me miss them alot, even thou it is just a short 5 month since we are done with the exams.

A multimedia video the MS students made is shown at the start of the grad, is quite impressive lor. i like it- simple, nice, brings back lots of sweet memories. it reminds me of the three years here.. the ceremony is ok, something i had not been to before. thank god that rena is sitting next to me!!! if not i will die of boredom.. not a long wait before its finally my turn to go up.. saw steven lee and also miss ang.. the short chat with her jus before i go out onto the stage managed to calm me down slightly..

Anw, i think i blurly strided to the centre stage, but deep in my mind i am walking a lil more carefully in order not to fall flat or trip on the carpet or gown, making the myself the biggest joke of my life! haha. in the end, dad says i was too blur that i was not facing the right side when i am accepting the empty folder. and he also says my head is very big. -_-"

Proceeded for reception after the ceremony. flew to find my family and friends, ready to take tonnes of photos! Thats the only interesting thing i’m looking forward to.. the food at the recep was pathetically ok~ took more photos before leaving that place.



*****


Sidenote: The moment I stood on stage waiting to receive the damned cert i worked hard for 3 years to get it, the thoughts and playbacks crammed my mind. Lots of thots in fact. but the one question that stayed afloat:

I graduated. Are my parents proud?

Studies hasnt been smooth for me since sec sch. i will never forget that day where i failed my math exam. that my parents are called to sch. and the words that my dad said to me.. Jus hope that today has made up for it la! =)

now playing: 周杰伦 - 不能说的秘密

冷咖啡离开了杯垫
我忍住的情绪在很后面

拼命想挽回的从前
在我脸上依旧清晰可见

最美的不是下雨天
是曾与你躲过雨的屋檐 oh
回忆的画面
在荡着秋千梦开始不甜

你说把爱渐渐放下会走更远
或许命运的签只让我们遇见
只让我们相恋这一季的秋天
飘落后才发现这幸福的碎片
要我怎么捡

quotes: from DTF

...我只知道，当时抱着志聪的我，虽然很努力地不去回想5年前的一个下午，但还是失败了。那天，一个穿着深蓝色衬衫、戴着眼镜的男孩，亲手送了一盒来自瑞士的巧克力给我。

lets welcome.

mr 作文簿!!!

thats peter in his fav shirt. we call him 作文簿先生. very handsome right!

he adores doraemon like me too!!! he got that doraemon umbrella!! who says guys cant like cartoons?

Grouchy.

yet again.

as usual, i am grouchy over a hair cut. it did not turn out well, despite having to spend more at jean yip. hair cut aren't bad but i just don't like it when it looked like my hair hasn't been cut at all. worse- the stylist GEL my hair when its done. GEL. omfg. that thing has not gotten onto my hair since eons ago. even the xiao di who rinse my hair is laughing at me!!! the ending sentance he gave me is the best:

你是不是回家？ok 啦回家就不要緊。要出去就要重弄。

-_-

aarrgghh!!! sianzation. i was v tempted to try that hair style that i have not had the balls to try it for very long liao. should i should i???

*****

hais. life has reached yet another new low. there is absolutely nothing i am looking forward to right now. its kinda sad, that life is feeling quite meaningless. what is becoming of me...

*****

...and im gonna stick with u through this fight called LIFE!

If only.

nothing to type for this post. i just suddenly think of alot of if onlys.



people CAN say what they do not meant..
people CAN say nice things, just for the sake of saying it..




i was never in there.

愛 · 放手

該放手？不該放手？好多人都提出了看法。

說似容易，要付諸行動，談何容易？



其中的酸甜苦辣，除了當事人，又有誰能真正了解？跟著感覺走，其他人說的只能儅意見。

愛與不愛，在於自己。

REcap for the past week

sorry man i missed out posting for soo soo long!!! hais. wasn't in the mood to really do anything. work has been quite hectic but i aren't really in the mood. some things pending undone but i said i will finish it in a quite unrealistic time frame. dooms day man.

anyways, went to collect my grad robe, finally! last sat - the last day to collect - typical kk. pretty last min. haha. went with herry and saw loy there and also dilys. i wanna say sorry to loy cos i neglected him! haha.. but wells, i saw his gf. i am happy that my friends are finding the love that belongs to them!!! also chatted with dilys at mc, must go place in sch. talking about school, quite a few changes already in this short period of time i left school. Fj no more!! its now kou fu. -_- north canteen is also renovated. sighs.. 變是唯一的不變！

the day continues when i went to j8 to meet rena, yan and joey. i have not seen the darlings for sucha long time!!! went arcade siao and shopping ard before rena meets family and the couple goes to movie.

the rest of the day goes by rather mundane-ly. nothing much happened. yes life IS that boring. haha. i wonder what will happen when i really step into the working world after i finish serving ns. omfg. i dun even wanna think about it right now. haha.

oh yea. i fixed scv in my home. like finally. and after 2 days of non-stop-watching-tv-on-cable, i found out how deprived i have been of good tv show. screw those crap that mediacorp has been showing us! no wonder taiwan has a entertainment industry that is so prosperous. look at the programmes that they produce - quality entertainment variety shows. and they dun even need to have scary drag queens to scare the kids - yes i am referring to jack neo.

so, that is also another reason for the lack of post. am too engrossed in the shows. haha.

and to yuping - stop calling me auntie sha shou!
and to peter - thanks very much for sending me home todaY!
and to eugene - thanks for the teh c today!
and to sandy and connie - thanks for the cakes and tarts today!



oh yea! ahao, if u see this, i saw you at my work place today! yes designsingapore. i am working there. part time. hohoho.



goodnights!

蜻蜓 · 戀人

　　那是一個非常寧靜而美麗的小城﹐有一對非常恩愛的戀人﹐他們每天都去海邊看日出﹐晚上去海邊送夕陽﹐每個見過他們的人都向他們投來羨慕的目光……

　　可是有一天﹐在一場車禍中﹐女孩不幸受了重傷﹐她靜靜地躺在醫院的病床上﹐幾天幾夜都沒有醒過來。白天﹐男孩就守在床前不停地呼喚毫無知覺的戀人﹔晚上﹐他就跑到小城的教堂裡向上帝禱告﹐他已經哭乾了眼淚。


　　一個月過去了﹐女孩仍然昏睡著﹐而男孩早已憔悴不堪了﹐但他仍苦苦地支撐著。終於有一天﹐上帝被這個痴情的男孩感動了。於是他決定給這個執著的男孩一個例外。上帝問他﹕“你願意用自己的生命作為交換嗎﹖”男孩毫不猶豫地回答﹕“我願意﹗”上帝說﹕“那好吧﹐我可以讓你的戀人很快醒過來﹐但你要答應化作三年的蜻蜓﹐你願意嗎﹖”男孩聽了﹐還是堅定地回答道﹕“我願意﹗”


　　天亮了﹐男孩已經變成了一隻漂亮的蜻蜓﹐他告別了上帝便匆匆地飛到了醫院。女孩真的醒了﹐而且她還在跟身旁的一位醫生交談著什麼﹐可惜他聽不到。


　　幾天後﹐女孩便康復出院了﹐但是她並不快樂。她四處打聽著男孩的下落﹐但沒有人知道男孩究竟去了哪裡。女孩整天不停地尋找著﹐然而早已化身成蜻蜓的男孩卻無時無刻不圍繞在她身邊﹐只是他不會呼喊﹐不會擁抱﹐他只能默默地承受著她的視而不見。夏天過去了﹐秋天的涼風吹落了樹葉﹐蜻蜓不得不離開這裡。於是他最後一次飛落在女孩的肩上。他想用自己的翅膀撫摸她的臉﹐用細小的嘴來親吻她的額頭﹐然而他弱小的身體還是不足以被她發現。


　　轉眼間﹐春天來了﹐蜻蜓迫不及待地飛回來尋找自己的戀人。然而﹐她那熟悉的身影旁站著一個高大而英俊的男人﹐那一剎那﹐蜻蜓幾乎快從半空中墜落下來。人們講起車禍後女孩病得多麼的嚴重﹐描述著那名男醫生有多麼的善良﹑可愛﹐還描述著他們的愛情有多麼的理所當然﹐當然也描述了女孩已經快樂如從前。


　　蜻蜓傷心極了﹐在接下來的幾天中﹐他常常會看到那個男人帶著自己的戀人在海邊看日出﹐晚上又在海邊看日落﹐而他自己除了偶爾能停落在她的肩上以外﹐什麼也做不了。


　　這一年的夏天特別長﹐蜻蜓每天痛苦地低飛著﹐他已經沒有勇氣接近自己昔日的戀人。她和那男人之間的喃喃細語﹐他和她快樂的笑聲﹐都令他窒息。


　　第三年的夏天﹐蜻蜓已不再常常去看望自己的戀人了。她的肩被男醫生輕擁著﹐臉被男醫生輕輕地吻著﹐根本沒有時間去留意一隻傷心的蜻蜓﹐更沒有心情去懷唸過去。


　　上帝約定的三年期限很快就要到了。就在最後一天﹐蜻蜓昔日的戀人跟那個男醫生舉行了婚禮。
　　蜻蜓悄悄地飛進教堂﹐落在上帝的肩膀上﹐他聽到下面的戀人對上帝發誓說﹕我願意﹗他看著那個男醫生把戒指戴到昔日戀人的手上﹐然後看著他們甜蜜地親吻著。蜻蜓流下了傷心的淚水。


　　上帝嘆息著﹕“你後悔了嗎﹖”蜻蜓擦乾了眼淚﹕“沒有﹗”上帝又帶著一絲愉悅說﹕“那麼﹐明天你就可以變回你自己了。”蜻蜓搖了搖頭﹕“就讓我做一輩子蜻蜓吧……”






有些緣份是註定要失去的。愛一個人不一定要擁有﹐但擁有一個人就一定要好好去愛他。你的肩上有蜻蜓嗎﹖

Fool.

damns.
i am the biggest fucking fool on earth.
how on earth can i,
go and accompany the girl i like to buy a present for her boyfriend!

i just hate.

can? the kind of people i know, the kind of things i do, everything.

f-

y cant mum just be more understanding and stop buzzing me with all those nonsense things? yes i do love my parents, but sometimes, it just reach a point where i have had enough and i just feel like runningg awayyy. far far awayyy.

爱 · 孤独

康正行 余守恒 杜慧嘉
三个 孤独的心灵
最孤独的不是没人爱
而是 所爱的人在眼前
却不能说出口
因为一旦说出口
一切就可能都会改变
维持现状
成了最奢侈的愿望
心里的拉扯
却让自己陷入矛盾的万劫不复之地

小时候因为太皮而被杯葛的他
独自坐在公车上流泪的他
坐在床边听着他的倾诉的她
都是 孤独的

“我们真的长大了
人长大了
真的什么都变了”

余守恒是这么说的
一切都不再单纯
一切也都无法再单纯




曾经在那个盛夏
他喜欢上他
用了一光年的时间
陪伴在他的身边
彗星擦身而过
惊醒了 这一片宁静

人都必须长大
不是吗？

Cute!

YS bring her boy boy to office last fri-! cute cute but act shy no want to talk. haha!

i love...

KRISPY KREME!!!! saw the big box on my desk when i reach office yesterday morning.. and it just made my day can!


i totally heart Eugene who got it back from his Australia work trip!!! omfg. u cant imagine how nice it is until u have tasted it!!! thanks Eugene!!! 沒有白費我平時為你們rush invoice and payments。哈哈！

Gary.

my best friend. ten years in to the friendship. one who bothers to remember my birthday. one who bothers to ask me out when holiday comes. hes always been there.

we've had quarrels before, but things got back into shape. discussed about girls and other stuff. yea he got attached before me. mum was kidding me that i lose out la.. but i am more happier for him than anything else.

yea mum noes him too. we're neighbours - next door kind. not a few blocks away hor. lol. thou he has moved away for some time, we still meet up as often, and i can always make myself feel home - at his home. will never forget the times we go for neo prints at hougang, bubble tea, buying them or even making them at home. the tuition, the shopping, the late night craving for ica kachang we have.

i often ask, how often can we find friends thats so dear? Mabel says, whats more important is that we have 1, but not how many we have. quality over quantity yea?

he's enlisted today. am supp to go send him at tekong this morn but had to be in office. part of me was sad cos i cant be there. but thinking back, maybe it would be a blessing in disguise. imagine me, emo, stand there, wave good bye. OMG hilarious i cant imagine. haha. HAHA!

wells, he called me. just! called to tell that he has been well and how it is inside.. frankly, i am touched. cos he made the effort to at least call me to let me know he's well la.. haha.

soon! i'll join u in serving the nation!! =)

now playing: 萬芳 - 新不了情

心若倦了泪也干了
这份深情难舍难了
曾经拥有天荒地老
这一份情永远难了
愿来生还能再度拥抱
爱一个人如何斯守到老
怎样面对一切我不知道
回忆过去痛苦的相思忘不了
为何你还来拨动我心跳
爱你怎么能了
今夜的你应该明了
缘难了情难了

已不见你暮暮与朝朝
这一份情永远难了
愿来生还能再度拥抱
爱一个人如何斯守到老
怎样面对一切我不知道
回忆过去痛苦的相思忘不了
为何你还来拨动我心跳
爱你怎么能了
今夜的你应该明了
缘难了情难了

buzz off.

heard if the saying that best friends share your joys and tears?

i can tell you,





ITS FAKE.

i didn't know,

its just so fucked up.

sometimesi really hoped that i never ever existed.

just what the fuck can.

Junxiong.

cited the first best friend i had in nyp. he is going to be enlisted to serve the nation tmr.

its a bottle of mixed feelings, that we friends one by one are going in.

over the three yrs of friendship, so much has happened. be it good or bad, it is part of our shared memories.

you're going into a new phrase of ur life! must take care. everything will be well. you will get good bunk mates, and "good friends" wun come and find you, haha!

*****

jus home not long ago. yea yea once again rushing for the last train home from town. dinner plus fantastic four II at cine. was there for JX's "bye bye boy boy life" outing! hmms. all will be well for u dun worry.

movie's nice, worth the watch. =)

*****

"dun worry. open up more to us and things can still be better yea!"

thanks for this reassurance given. it has given me a lil more of confidence to carry on things.. ^^

11th Jun - Cheryl's bdae.

horrendous.

lunch was at about 12 plus and i had wanton noodles.. felt it was not full enough and then i ta pao-ed a roti john back. just finished the roti john not long ago and jus when i put the last piece into my mouth, i realised that i am just damn bloody fat! that tummy.. omfg!

no more tea breaks!

chase.

everyone's chasing after something.
money? fame?
peace? happiness?


-but who has gotten it, anyway?

*****

another farewell lunch today. for Shirley and Yvonne who's leaving by the end of this week. seems like theres going to be less and less people around.. another expensive lunch, and that means i have gotta scrimp and save for the next, on top of the jacket i wanna buy, the eternal summer novel + sound track that has to be ordered from Taiwan cos its not available here only means it will cost more. how! how to save like that!

eat less eat less.

i think my diet has more or less turned me into a horrid pile of fatty flesh. cant believe that i actually ate two bowls of rice for today's lunch and even got myself a butter cake from toast box for tea..

anw, to counter this prob, i have decided that i REALLY will wake up in the morn to jog.. a desperate measure to shed some of those extra flesh on my face before graduation.. i wanna have pics that look good!!!! haish haish.. determination!!!

now playing: 龚诗嘉 - 再一次拥有

我想念去年的冬天
下着雪的那一夜
你给的温柔
紧握的双手
温暖整个寒冬

失去了曾经的拥有
在你离开以后
带走了笑容
只留下寂寞
忘了幸福是什么

没有你的夜特别的漆黑
只能闭上双眼去感觉
没有我的夜谁在你身边
代替了那个从前

能不能再听一次你说爱我
回到还在你怀里的时候
能不能让我再一次拥有
曾属于我的温柔
能不能让我再一次拥有
曾属于我的温柔

left or right?

YS sent me a test some days back. and today tEr send to me too. shall post it here!

*****

First, identify yourself as right or left brainperson:

1. Hold your hands together, as if you were praying. Look at your hands. If you see Left thumb is below the right thumb ---> left brain Right thumb is below the left thumb ---> right brian

2. Fold your arms in front of you (as if you are angry) Right arm above left arm ---> left brain Left arm above right arm ---> right brain

Based on 1+ 2 (order important), below is the interpretation of your personality:


Right-Left
==========

Considerate, traditional, indirect type can instinctly read other's emotion, and respond friendly by natures. Although not very into taking intiatives in moving forward, but this person will always take a step back in supporting others. Stable personality and considerate, give others a being protected feeling. But the weakness is they cannot say no; regardless how unwilling they are, they will take care of others.

Right-Right
===========

Loves challenges type Straightfoward. Once they decided on one thing, will take action right away. Very curious, and love challenges. Dare to face dangers without thinking through (sometimes foolishly). Their weakness is they dont listen to others, will filter in only what whey want to hear in a conversation, and very subjective. However, because of their straightforward attitude, they tend to be fairly popular.

Left-Left
=========

Dedicated, cold, perfectionist Very logical in all aspects. The only way to defeat (or win over) him/her is through reasons. Has a lot of prides, and feeling strongly about doing the right thing. If they are your friends, they are very trustworthy. However, if they are your opponets, they will be very tough to deal with. Because they can be very "anal" as a perfectionist, they usually leave a bad impression of being hard to deal with when first met.

Left-Right
==========

Likes to take care of others, leader type Has a cool and keen observation ability to see through situations, yet still can be considerate in others needs. Because of their cool and calm nature, and strong sense of responsibility, they tend to become head of a group. Popular among people. However, they may not be able to help themselves in meddling because they want to take care of others too much. Very concerned about how others view them, and always on alert.

*****

whats ur result? =)

Sentosa: Isand Resort (no more!)

yeap. i do think that sentosa is no longer that island resort that i have used to know and remember off. call me out dated or too nostalgic but i don't care. i just want the old sentosa to be back! all they have now is construction sites here and there..

anw, i went to the island resort sentosa yesterday with Kahying! we've been wanting to go there for quite some time and finally we went there to "pa-tor". haha!

suddenly, i noticed that when ever we go picnic, our meal will include a baguette. (look back at that post a few months ago on the suntec picnic).

here is us, in front of merlion, eating, before a monkey come and scared the shit out of both of us. -_-"

yummy breads we had and a scare from monkey!

seems that i didn't know sentosa that well after all.. other than the merlion, ferry terminal, musical fountain.. apparently imbiah hill is there all along and i didn't know there is a imbiah hill there till recently. and the fact is that i had been there many years ago before. with this i conclude that we need to be more observant with out surrounding yea!

did noticed that alot of places are also gone.. like the ferry terminal, musical fountain and monorail rides! remembered my family used to go to the ferry terminal there to take photo when we were at sentosa, cos the structure of the building is nice and there is this spiral staircase that is very nice. monorail rides were also a must-have. its really good cos its open air, meaning we can touch the leaves. the trail is also a round the island one, unlike the current sentosa express. but well, we live in a society that economy values are more important.. sighs..

actually, i have been wanting to look for a natural trail that has dragon and dinosaur bone structure, which i was there when i was camping at sentosa 10 years ago. (gasp!) didn't really remembered where it was and thou we saw it on the map, we could not locate it. walked for a long long distance around sentosa, past where the old musical fountain and volcanoland used to be.. they're all closed up for that stupid IR development liao..

just when we were about to give up, we saw this small entrance at the beach, looking hidden in the trees. seems like it is quite deserted and the branches are falling. the adventurous two decides to just go in and explore. and taadaa! found! but the whole trail seems quite hidden and deserted liao... which is quite sad cos i tot it was quite a good natural trail. we walked for quite a long time, exploring the place and taking photos before settling at the beach to watch the musical fountain performance. wasn't in cos it was full house and couldn't get a tic laa... =(

dino trail. rrooaarrr!

dinner follows at Vivo, the noodle shop next to the food court.. which is quite nice!! strongly recommended by the both of us!

finally we went there and even thou it is no longer as good as before, i would still go.. cos that is what little we are left of some nature we can touch. bukit timah hill is too in accessible so dun ask me go there. haha!

sentosa/express.
fun/with/structure.
old/signboard/of/non-existance/places.
merlion.
fireworks

now playing: 陈奕迅 - 不如不见

头沾湿无可避免
伦敦总依恋雨点
乘早机忍耐着呵欠
完全为见你一面
寻得到尘封小店
回不到相恋那天
灵气大概早被污染
谁为了生活不变
越渴望见面然后发现
中间隔着那十年
我想见的笑脸只有怀念
不懂怎去再聊天
像我在往日还未抽烟
不知你怎么变迁
似等了一百年忽已明白
即使再见面
成熟地表演
不如不见


*****

nice song by eason. this is the cantonese version of the song 好久不见 from his new album. actually, i prefered this original canto version. sometimes i feel, they can convey their feelings through their native language better. its so much more better than the new one!

quotes: from Nat #4

If only things were as simple as friendship between little children. When you were small, friendship was pure and forthcoming. You didn't expect anything from other people, and people never expected anything in return. You were friends simply because you were friends. No one owed anyone anything, because young children have no ulterior motives.

When little children grow into big humans, dynamics change. Perhaps that explains why at the end of the day, people often go back to the friends they had back when they were in school. These people were your friends when you were a nobody - not rich, not famous, not successful. These people have seen you at your most unglam. These people have seen you fall, seen you cry, seen you with chicken pox.

In short, these people were your friends.




-:how many have i?

you've missed the bus.

just home not long ago. was out after work to meet up with herry, angie, di and adi. the 5 of us was walking around and windowing before hitting mos burger. but then, the small rice burger is not really enough for my normal meal quantity.. and so i went over to ta pao some dau huay home. like total yays. sometimes i need alot of food therapies to make myself feel better..

with lotsa love.

photo credits to angiee baby.

*****

saw a jacket on the flesh imp web!! thanks to sue for sending the web to me ha.. now i got one more thing to buy.. =( i gotta see if she can help me get a discount!! but i really like it.. any comments friends??? check it out and tag me a reply k!

*****

on some random thoughts, i was just thinking that how some things that are lost can never ever be back again..

i once told herry bro before, that once u missed the bus, you miss it forever. you may be able to catch the next bus, but it is already a different bus. no doubt you are on a "bus", but still its not that first one that you are supposed to be on, and the feeling is not the same. no matter how hard you try to chase the bus.. it just will not wait for you..

whats lost can never come back, agree? let me know how you think through the tag yea. this place feels so dead.

back from hiatus.

wasn't in a blogging mood at all. even till now. thats y for the long hiatus. but wells, i am afraid some day my memory will fail and i can no longer remember what happened during this period.. so blog lor! lol.

work has been ok, what more to ask? can work then good lor got income, but the fact that great Singapore sale is here is no good news. had already bought several items.. gotta tahan and stop shopping ard jus in case is see things that i like again!!

anw, i finally sent my engineered jeans for alteration. hasnt been able to wear it for a long long time cos its too long and i am lazy to fold. well, the 15 bucks spent would be good money, cos now i can wear it more!!! yays. oh yea, i saw nat tan there when i was picking up my jeans yesterday - u know the guy in proj superstar 2.. no picture of him to post here ok, i am no stalker to snap pictures of people secretly, ha!

*****

ok i am like stuck here on this page for 1 plus hour.. tonnes of things that i feel like saying but there is like nothing coming out.


kels out-

masquerade.

i just found out.

looking back at the past and seeing the current situation things are at, i think i am pretty much a failure.

i don't wanna lose some people, but i've lost them. and it seem pretty permanent. things arent getting better and even i myself is escaping.

i jus dun wanna admit that i have lost.. thats y i have not broken down yet.. but the biggest prob is i dont know when i will.

sometimes i do wonder:-

why he cant find anything to talk to me anymore? we're supp to be good friends.. but now we are no better than strangers. have i not tried hard enough?

and many other cases. i know my friend has been sandwiched but that is not what i want either. the situation is making me wonder whether i has been sucha rotten person. that no one can have a way to communicate to me. that people are believing what they heard of my instead of the 'me' tat they know, that.. i am pretty shunned by the rest..

am i really that bad, friends? do you still treat me as, friends?

i reckon, its more or less my fault. maybe i try too hard. maybe our paths are just meant to intertwined at only a certain part.. and that part has ended already..




lost were the days, gone were the days. no matter how much and hard i try, things just arent getting better. i used to be v outspoken and speak my mind when i feel i dun like it. at that time, people say i was too direct. and that i put out all emotions on my face. now, people are saying i am too quiet and not really willing to communicate.. which is the kind of face that people want to see me put?

now playing: 蘇打綠 - 小情歌

what was in my mind then?

i think i was abit scared. to fact the reality i think.

scared that i will be in the same situation again. a situation where my existance is forgotten and everyone just go on and on yaking about that event - yes the one that i arent involve yea.. and i will like be in that awkward situation again which i do not know how i should react.

Pain.

it always sets me to think:-

how much pain does it take for one to suffer before he/she becomes numb and dun feel it anymore?

how much pain is "alot"?

all but just emotions felt.

*****

days passed fast with work, thou the endless spreadsheets and payment checklists are driving me absolutely crazy. running here and there does not make me look busy and hardworking, but only a crazy mad dog pacing ard.

=(
lunch today is like delayed till one cos of the meeting with promo peoples for the budgeting issues.. and after that is lunch. cant help but kinda feel left out, or issit that i had unknowingly isolated my self?

since when has that wall been built!

quotes: from Nat #3

One of the hardest lessons in life is to learn how to love without having
to say it; And to learn when someone is loving you even when it isn’t
spoken.

now playing: 王菲 - 红豆

还没好好地感受雪花绽放的气候
我们一起颤抖会更明白什么是温柔
还没跟你牵著手走过荒芜的沙丘
可能从此以后学会珍惜天长和地久

有时候有时候我会相信一切有尽头
相聚离开都有时候没有什么会永垂不朽
可是我有时候宁愿选择留恋不放手
等到风景都看透也许你会陪我看细水长流

还没为你把红豆熬成缠绵的伤口
然后一起分享会更明白相思的哀愁
还没好好的感受醒著亲吻的温柔
可能在我左右你才追求孤独的自由

有时候有时候我会相信一切有尽头
相聚离开都有时候没有什么会永垂不朽
可是我有时候宁愿选择留恋不放手
等到风景都看透也许你会陪我看细水长流

Herry, Angie, Adi, Kel.

it has been long since we all had a "good serious" gathering.. angiee had been at africa with her parents for the past 6 months.. and herry was.. more engaged with army and some other things. lol. it seems like it had been one hundred years since we were last this close. THANK GOD WE STILL ARE THIS CLOSE. everyone seem to be busy with their own life at one moment.. but i cant afford to lose them. lol. we must meet more!!!

was at PS and VIVO, also went to the spain2dream private sale, which we bought nothing but choclates. lol. snacked Carls Jr at the open plaze *is that what u call the open air level that is highest at vivo??*.

good talk with herry. i am happy. life shd be happy. and i am happy that i have a fren like him to care about me. what more can i ask? =) dunch worry bro i will be fine and will be the good old kk u loved!!! hohoho.

Let the pics tell the happiness:-

at subway..

in the MRT to vivo..

shopping.eating.chatting.chilling.

pics: Tank Concert @ RP

quotes: from Mars vs Venus

you can fix a broken phone, but can you fix a broken friendship?

坏了的手機能修，
有裂痕的友誼，能嗎？

brooding.

havent had a proper post for quite a few days. blogger has been down down into the drain and its irritating the hell outta me.

lunch today is at miss clarity, at bugis there right next to KA's new work place! hoho but he is not there so didnt manage to ka jiao him when i went.. as you know, office people are mostly "less sporting" to go somewhere further for lunch.. and so it is a feat for us to travel there by bus for lunch!! haha.. like what shrl say, "its good that we colleagues share some memories outside of central kopitiam". haha! foor there is not bad and affordable. $8.80 for set lunch with drinks, soup and dessert. ok rite! i ordered chrispy chicken baked rice and it is good.. nex time i will try the other dishes that the rest tried..

anw, ITS FRIDAY-!!! i do think that friday is a day which working people looks forward to.. for the good rest and the time to do things that they want. hit town after work to get some destress from walking ard.. called jas and she happens to be ard so we met up and chat/dinner! its been long.. also went to look up dan. that ah fat! haha..

shopping ard orchard!

sometimes, hearing what's happening at your ex-workplace do makes you feel fortunate that you are no longer there - that that place is already an 'ex'. heard from jas what has been happening, arent surprised but didnt tot that things have already gone this bad. well, current work is still not so bad after all! =)

like what ting says, wang shi zhi neng hui wei. those nice old good times only lives in memory..

*****

carina has left! hais one less "partner" at work liao.. soon after shrl is going too.. and then ys and ly is going too.. like all the original people in dsg almost gone le.. the interns are leaving nex week too.. sianz.. i hope i will not be dragged my the snr mgt to have lunch tgt!! omg.. cant stand having to discuss work over lunch.. -_-

lunch is over at this super ex place at robertson quay. famous for their mussels. i love mussels but i didn't give it a try. remember i said it was expensive.. -_-

they've got nice decos on the walls.. one of the wall is made into the silhouette of TIN TIN characters. my fav comic! think i finish the whole series le.. last time, at old bedok library, there is a special shelf all TIN TIN comics!!

bye bye carina!

and i had the steak set lunch *cheapest on menu* which already cost near to 30. omg its jus a lunch for a part timer i would say it is VERY EX. as so agreed by the interns too. haha.

and so. that means i have to save save save for the coming weeks!

run.

suddenly, i feel like i am in the middle of no where. and that i dont belong to anywhere.


i wanna runn awayy...

quotes: from NAT #2

Disappearance

Sometimes we wonder: If I disappeared (or died), would people come looking for me? Methinks that's the reason why a lot of people go into hiding. They want to know if they did make a difference. Whether their existence mattered.

At most, one or two people might come by, searching for you out of genuine concern. You retreat further. It breaks their heart but in the end, they give up. Maybe one of them might come by now and then to just drop in on you.

Then you move house without telling anyone. At the same time, you wonder where everybody has gone.

And you realise that when you wake from your hibernation, everyone else has moved on with their own life and have their own families and children and grandchildren. You remain trapped in the past. But you can't blame anyone because it was you who went into hibernation.

Everyone else thinks you died. They missed you for a little while, and then they moved on and resumed Life - as all living creatures are wont to do.

It was a sad day to learn the even sadder truth.

Like a modern day Rip van Winkle, the only company you have now is your own shadow and your very long beard.

dA: Sky

check out this new series that i have put up onto my dA. hope that i can me motivated enough to make it a ongoing project thou.. =)

blogthing #1

quotes: from Nat

If people think you are bad, anything you do will always be perceived as
bad.

*****

7. Love is: something that you can't impose on someone. You can only give it and hope that it's reciprocated. Love is also something that we must learn to receive, no matter how unworthy we think we are.

*****

forgotten #2.

It's true. Do one wrong and all the goodness that's ever been done will be erased.

People are indeed forgetful.

-_-

after being very late for work yesterday, i forced myself to get up real early today. and to make my self awake, i decided to jog for 1/2 hour before i go to work. shun bian training for NS!!!

but what happen this morning? managed to wake up at about 650.. buts its pouring like no one's business out side the window.. -_-"

sipeh sian!! told sandy when i reach office, and she say it means i am meant to go in to NS to suffer thats y now wake early le also cant jog. double -_-"

aarrhhgg!! tmr morn i will wake again to jog de!!!

forgotten.

sometimes, knowing more of the truth might only make ourselves feel worse off.. people say: curiosity kills the cat. the truth hurts. very.

日就見人心，時間久了就能看到真相，夢想就會破碎。

why? #4

当他们不断地用“忙”来搪塞你想要聚会的要约，那意味着什么？

Hate This Feeling.

i hate this kinda ambiguous feeling that i am having right now. like i am dying to find out what some people feel but to no avail. and i keep feeling like they have doubt of me/ my character/ hate me/ despise me.

haish..

when will the days like those we have in the past come back??

Spidey III

caught the show with the WSGang. qq,herry,jx,ka,ter,jess,cd. not bad a show i would say. after that is dinner at kfc and then slacking at SMa till 11 when everyone head home for guess3 - selina and hebe.

只是放手未必就好過.

其實，有多少人能真正了解，什麽是貌合神離？什麽是話不投機半句多？

並不是想說又是他們的不對，只是，那件事發生以後，什麽都變了吧。

回不到從前了。。是這樣嗎？

聼著他們說著我不不會被邀請的聚會，確實是有點尷尬。因爲不知道要怎樣面對，縱使我早已知道了這件事。

真的會像T所說的，事情縂有一天會好轉，時間能使一切變得正常嗎？希望如此。

只是放手未必就好過.

quotes: from Mary

怎样忘记他

失恋后，我们总爱问：

“我怎样可以忘记他？我很想忘记他，但我就是没法忘记他。”

如果没法忘记他，就不要忘记好了。

为什么要那么痛苦地去忘记一个人？时间自然会让你忘记他。

现在，我请你干万别想着一头粉红色的大笨象。

请问，你想到的是什么？

你立刻就想到一头粉红色的大笨象了。



你愈努力想去忘记，你愈是无法忘记。

仍然爱着他，忘不了他，是理所当然的事，不必觉得惭愧。

有些人明明忘不了，却自欺欺人说：

“我已经忘了他。”

然而，只要别人一提起他，她就无法控制自己。

有一天，你会忘记他的。

真正的忘记，是不需要努力的。

有一天，你从浴室洗了一个澡出来，扭开唱机听听自己喜欢的音乐，你忽尔想起，

你曾经爱过一个人，啊，原来你爱过这个人，那仿佛是很遥远的事，你已经一点感觉也

没有了。这就是忘记。

有一天，别人提起某某，你才猛然想起，你曾经爱过这个人，现在已经不记得了。

这就是忘记。






如果时间不可以令你忘记那些不该记住的人，我们失去的岁月又有什么意义？

over the weekend.

remember the fire drill here at mica last yr? during the last week of my internship? its suppose to not happen so often. like once or twice a year only. and guess wat? i actually met one again. -_- last thurs!!!

as usual our dept is like one of the latest la. cant imagine what if a fire really break out. haha!

sentosa! still as good but not the same paradise anymore.

went over to sentosa on sun cos its mum's bdae.. and dad suggest going there cos its like long since we last went (10 yrs) and also to see the new musical fountain. there so much changes over there!!! but anws, i am quite disappointed la.. cos theres no longer the tranquility that i used to be able to find there.. so many places down there that i used to go are gone liao.. even the ferry terminal! i think hor its like quite a icon of sentosa leh.. hm hmm.. maybe they're right.. we need these changes for a better future.. lets hope the better future will really come!

song of the sea! great!

dropped by at the new musical fountain too! now its called the songs of the sea. with abit of simple story line and a few people acting, combined with fire and pyrotechnics. actually i do find that its quite worth the 6 bucks. not too bad. and also met YJ there! know he's working at sentosa but didnt really expect to see him there.. lol.. going there makes me so tempted to work there!!! i think if i really work there.. my mood will become v good lor haha. pictures up later. too lazy to upload. lol.

my autographed 延長比賽 album!

and for today!!! i took half day leave hehe. went to meet sis peisin and jieying for TANK'S CONCERT!!! woohoo-! walaos its like totally so good lor. i heart him. his songs are great. one minor disappointment is that he did not sing 我們小時候。otherwise it would have been total perfect. also bought his album there since i have wanted to long ago, its cheaper there at 16, and i get to get it autographed! y not right??

eh.. the concert this time round is by 1003 de but i keep thinking and thot that it is 933.. till i see lingzhi i shocked.. cos i forgot she "jump" to 1003 liao.. still miss her way of hosting but she makes better chemistry with cruz back at the 933 days la..

view from MRT on my way to amk..

after the concert, i see jieying home while peisin rush of to the next filming at mediacorp.. while i went to meet GC. haish.. miss her alot.. its been quite some time since we last met up and i really felt like i miss her alot on sat.. so i asked her if she wanna meet today.. was shopping ard amk hub and talking before her mum came and join us for dinner.. everything was great la.. the chat, the food, the company.




if only we were really together...

quotes: from [。小鳥與樹是甜蜜的。]

放棄不是逃避

放棄不是個錯誤

放棄不完全就叫半途而廢

放棄不一定比持續來的好過

狠下決心放棄一個人一件事其實是很難的

往往都是不得已才會有放棄的念頭

這是要經過漫長的考慮

想很多想很遠想很久才做得出的選擇

當人們選擇放棄

往後卻總是會想起當初如果沒放棄會如何

一直思考這無解的問題更是種折磨

now playing: 丁当 - 明白

盛夏光年 电影主题曲
词曲:五月天阿信



你说你感觉不对
心情很坏
我无法控制
泪水流下来

莫名的难过是情绪作祟
没有谁错谁对需要安慰
不能离开

我只是要你明白
明白我对你的爱
除了你我的爱无可取代
没有人让我如此的依赖
ho……

因为你我的爱
永远存在

爲何? #2

好朋友是不是阿
好啊 那我告訴你啊
我從來就沒有自願要儅你的朋友
小時候 是老師規定我要去儅你的朋友
我根本就不想做你的朋友

明明就已經不是這樣.. 爲什麽還要說這種話傷害對方?

爲何?

愛一個人不應該是這樣的..
爲何要這麽自甘墮落?

盛夏光年

quotes: from YJ

i see the nature of human,
i see through it
and realised all that touches the surface is nothing but a façade.

now playing: 吳青峰 - 小情歌

这是一首简单的小情歌
唱着人们心肠的曲折
我想我很快乐
当有你的温热
脚边的空气转了
唱着我们心头的白鸽
我想我很适合
当一个歌颂者
青春在风中飘着
你知道就算大雨让这座城市颠倒
我会给你怀抱
受不了看见你背影来到
写下我度秒如年难捱的离骚
就算整个世界被寂寞绑票
我也不会奔跑
逃不了最后谁也都苍老
写下我时间和琴声交错的城堡
最后谁也都苍老

*****

its may day!! for the labourers.. and i do "farm" so that means i can celebrate it too! woohoo-! the best way to celebration is to have uninterupted sleep till 11... and i am now so happy! no sleep = unhappy. haha!

mediacorp suck. cos there is no shows to watch on every channel on a PH. i hope their business fold soon!!! but i think thats difficult... cos there is only one station.. bo pian all have to watch their programmes.. even when it suck.. -_-

had mac for brunch.. and fish burger lost the good old flavors of the past.. now its small and no longer nice... =( shall head to grandma's place later soon!

*****

a new series i shot for my dA, i got this idea of reflection cos of the recent series of things that happens between me and my fren, and that i wanna have a better picture of how people see me as. cos i wanna know.. if things really happened becos of me..