have been noticing myself unknowingly going to raffles city for walk walk everyday after work.. i jus need time to be alone walking wondering ard to cool off all the stress! actually i wonder where my stress comes from but most of them comes from myself..
well well well. jess has been blogging saying that i don't blog la! so i going to blog a post for her. ha!
days have been rather mundane. and i am growing to be sick of it! i can stand it no more! *well at least GOING TO if not now* have been trying my very best to learn all the things but i really cant help it when i starts to doze off when miss lee is teaching us on the GeBiz system. i hope those info that i manage to get in is useful! otherwise later i will be lost when asked to operate it.. and there goes my good grades.. T_T have been hoping hard to get a good grade to pull up the gpa but i seriously dunno where i am in the scale of my supervisor. am i up to standards? sighs. rather not think of so far. week three in jus a wink! i jus hope i can go back to school soon..
ma workplace.. colourful! but not fun de.. haa.
housed in the meeting room..
da kuku com dat hurts my eyes n my so-cramp desk
the food.. we love food!
Mabel, Kel, Boon. More then ten years and counting..sat i went to meet vinas.. passing her bdae present.. for last yr and this yr! haa.. has been owing her.. we are all jus too busy*excuses* and not giving enough attention to our frens la!! chit chatted and she gave me a surprise.. i am so shocked but well i will be happy for u if u are really happy la!
chatted with shan on fone too and she gave me a surprise too! haha.. life is like a box of chocoloate.. full of surprises cos u wun noe wad u will get..
life at IPP is sure about eating and more eating! got to eat pocky la. and those drinks. love my daily suppl of coffee from the espresso machine.. so shiok to have the fresh coffee!! but well, no fab food ard. only week 3 and lunch has been growing into a chore. but still everyone is looking forward to it! have been telling mel, if we really become white collars whose purpose in being in the office everyday is to wait for lunch to come, isnt that a v sad thing?
pocky!
da old school strawberry milk we used to order thru our primary school...anw, i jus hope the remaining nine weeks will be fab for me. PLEASE~! well almost no one has been asking me how my ipp is going.. haha.. peeps like H, Y, J, and some others. sighs. do i really have no frens? seen someone's blog la.. and found out that despite being quite close to him, i know nutting bout him.
how is his ipp?
how is his pay?
how is his life?
i dun noe at all. sometimes i felt like i am not qualified to be ur pal. cos i dunno u at all! sometimes i feel that u shut me out. well.. i am really at my wits end. jess teach me wat to do!
as for dearest H, after making me absolutely pissed with the undecisive guys, have not contacted me AT ALL. boo hoo. maybe i have grown used to people ignoring me. its happening too often. so often to the extend that i dont know how i should react.
at the last day of exam, S asked me: isnt there any time you wanted to find out why we hated you so much? frankly, my heart skipped a beat when i heard the word "hate". i never tot someone would use such a word on me. especially this bunch of people whom i treated them like family in school can! but after that, i calmed down real quick in a split second and replied: is the reason really important? what will happen even if i noe it? will anything change?
she was dunbfolded. so am i. i dunno what gave me the power to reply so calmly, i have never been so calm before when handling such probs! but i think what i says really make senses la.. will it really help if i know? i am hated, and i move away. i jus felt it was logic to do so.. so that i annoy no one more. is that a fault too?
even if thing has turn well, i don't think i can still be as close with them as before? to make it simple, the trust is no longer there.. actually, i know that they have tonnes of activities but didnt call me. i actually don't mind, cos whats the use of me going and in the end everyone is unhappy? if its me 8 months ago, i would have died from anger. but that is the past. i think i must thank the quarrel with T and J, cos without that quarrel that disconnects me with the whole class, i would not have learnt so much. the truths.. abt frens.. what is actually real friendships? i doubt anyone will ever find an answer to it..
i am not being cold blooded now! stop calling me that! its not that i have no emotions.. and not that those friends meant nothing to me that its ok to lose them.. its jus that my perceptions have changed.. like i have said, its no use of my appearance if it is going to make everyone annoyed la.
how is his ipp?
how is his pay?
how is his life?
i dun noe at all. sometimes i felt like i am not qualified to be ur pal. cos i dunno u at all! sometimes i feel that u shut me out. well.. i am really at my wits end. jess teach me wat to do!
as for dearest H, after making me absolutely pissed with the undecisive guys, have not contacted me AT ALL. boo hoo. maybe i have grown used to people ignoring me. its happening too often. so often to the extend that i dont know how i should react.
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at the last day of exam, S asked me: isnt there any time you wanted to find out why we hated you so much? frankly, my heart skipped a beat when i heard the word "hate". i never tot someone would use such a word on me. especially this bunch of people whom i treated them like family in school can! but after that, i calmed down real quick in a split second and replied: is the reason really important? what will happen even if i noe it? will anything change?
she was dunbfolded. so am i. i dunno what gave me the power to reply so calmly, i have never been so calm before when handling such probs! but i think what i says really make senses la.. will it really help if i know? i am hated, and i move away. i jus felt it was logic to do so.. so that i annoy no one more. is that a fault too?
even if thing has turn well, i don't think i can still be as close with them as before? to make it simple, the trust is no longer there.. actually, i know that they have tonnes of activities but didnt call me. i actually don't mind, cos whats the use of me going and in the end everyone is unhappy? if its me 8 months ago, i would have died from anger. but that is the past. i think i must thank the quarrel with T and J, cos without that quarrel that disconnects me with the whole class, i would not have learnt so much. the truths.. abt frens.. what is actually real friendships? i doubt anyone will ever find an answer to it..
i am not being cold blooded now! stop calling me that! its not that i have no emotions.. and not that those friends meant nothing to me that its ok to lose them.. its jus that my perceptions have changed.. like i have said, its no use of my appearance if it is going to make everyone annoyed la.
