home is not as warm as it is.

why am i having this feeling? i am really sad.. arent home suppose to be the place we feel most protected? why is all these nonsense happening?

i told fraw i dont like to stay home nowadays. cos always quarrels will start and all the cycle continues on and on..

am i not giving in enough? am i not doing enough?







i dont know.

i need to get a life. my OWN life.

and so you are commenting that me blogging all the time is 无聊 aka meaningless. and that instead i should spend MY time doing YOUR so called "money making" activity.

wtf. what the BIG fuck!

i had enough. you are jus not listening to what i wanna say and doing all things by your way. do it by all means, but dun force me to join you. cos I HAD ENOUGH~!

dang dang dang dang... wedding bells ring!

bride's room with double 喜

buffet coming in..

and so is the peoples!

tea ceremony #1: offer tea to the ancestors of ONG family

/tea to parents/

and grandma gives daughter in law a chain~

my parents.

the fan belongs to the bride and must be kept to signify something which i have forgotten.

the sweet desserts for the couple! and the basket is for the "change flower" ceremony where the 小舅子 will come with it
and bring the flowers in it back home.
i think. haha!
inside it has those traditional powder and perfume too!

the nice bed sheets. so joyous rite!

their wedding fotos is very nice.

da set for tea ceremony..

boy boy is suppose to jump on the bed.
but he is clinging tight to mummy!

the light for many offsprings is to be lit the whole day.

the sisters.

sisters and brother in laws.

family foto.

muacks!

mum doing hair for the dinner.

and i went too. trimmed my hair and got them to style nice nice for me.

:at the restaurant:

mum and godmum

sister and cousin.

at the entrence #1.

at the entrence #2.

door gift.

crowds..

..and more crowds!

cut the cake and yum seng!

the vip table..

me and cousin.

godmum and cousin.

father and cousin.

count down// 2 more days!

my uncle is young rite?

all the things so retro! with the double "喜"..
the cigs and perfumes and toileries..

very traditional, need to have - the cosmetics and comb and mirror.

the tea set for the tea ceremony, and also the lights at the bed to signify lots of offsprings.

self made deco by my aunt to be!

deco at bed post.

sewing machine - a must have during wedding as heard from my mum and grandma.

and they are not excited YET!

no fate with THE jacket

i is pissed.

oh no no no..

i is SUPER PISSED~!

*****

i jus dun want to argue anymore about that jacket. how can i NOT he pissed? after being dragged for so long. in the end i missed the offer. and the jacket COULD NOT be found in sg anymore. i shd have just fucking bought it with no worries of you liking it or not in the first place.


now that the day is approaching, and all of you are busy spending to get all the nice and new clothes, i got NOTHING to gget for the wedding dinner. thanks eh. i have decided to jus dress down all i can. anw i dun throw my own face. i throw YOURS!




P/S: hitsu if you got sick of the jacket PLS!!! sell it to me... can see how desperate i am for it? haha.

xmas faster come!!!

got news from "good fren" that there will be something on at christmas.. i am so happy! looking forward to it definately. *grins

quite touched la cos its planned to "customise" to the "current situation". i really appreciates the effort u and "good fren's dear" made!

and when i say i appreciates, i really do... =)

*****

anw, i was lazy bum and missed lectures this morn. cos stomache and i dun wanna rush myself and make myself feel miserable..

ameline soh called today and i was shocked. didnt expect her to call but wells still picked up the call. she called to tell me.. that my report was well done up. *yays hard work paid off. and that she hope i can give her a soft copy so that she can keep and show as example in the future. i am happy! it was quite a hard work for me to do this report.. cos time was limited, ideas took a long time then flow out and partly was cos i was still not happy at that point of time that some of my work was claimed by others. but well, now i noe i did well for the report, i am happy le. at least my hardwork is paid off. my supp's grading wise, i think it shdn't be a prob. i got confidence. haha. jus pray that everything will be alrites and i can get my A!

pics: randoms for the past week

first day of the sem.. da shoes and the trip down to DG for the tau huay!

meet up with jenn for breakfast..
its been long since we sat down and has a good talk!

some flop pics we took during the JB trip..

last sun.. day out with gary!

been some time we meet k! haha.. was so looking forward to it.. thanks for willingly squeezed out time to spend.. you are the only one who is willing to do so! every one has their buddy.. and i have mine too.. ehhee..

headed town after work to meet and lunch/dinner is at rocky monster. the food is quite nice and filling! after which. we shopped ard at kino and art friend// talked// walked to 欣赏 the christmas and its chill at his home. didnt do much just slacked ard like usual. was chatting with auntie and uncle.. and also ate some cake as its his bro's bdae the day before.. and not forgetting the home videos! haha. kept praying that uncle dun show anything with me inside and luckily i didnt appear. phew~

headed home quite late. and hit the bed immediately..

*****

sent some emails to the colleagues but i reckon gmail is always treated as spam at mica and it takes some time to reach.. huiyu replied today.. charlotte did so last week. but huiyu's email came at the time which i was quite low. and the things she said kind of made sense right now - when things ARE getting confusing and frustrating.

but life's still going to be great! =)

the world is never fair

i dun have the strength to care that much anymore. neither do i feel like explaining.

sometimes, it's hard to be moderate.

when u care too much, people will say you are KPO.
when u care less, they say u dun care tt much anymore.

when u try to probe in, they say you are possessive
when u probe nothing, they ask "are we friends?"

when u r straightforward, they say u are hurtful
when u lie, they say u r not trustworthly.


you see.. this kinda stuff keeps happening.. but when it happens to anyone else, that person is poor thing. that person is pitiful. but when it happens to me? its my fault. cos i am PETTY and get angry easily. why this everything? i have my reasons for all my actions. so please find out all the truth first before any comments is made..

damn the ipp report

submitted my ipp report today! phew.. like finally la.. was at the com for 10 hrs yesterday but then nothing came out.. only finished till half of q2. today deadline so i piah.. 8 plus than finish..

well, i saw "her" report... all the things that i say i wanna put she put all in her report! on top of that she still "claimed ownership" of some of the things that is done by me. sighs. very clever. i shd not have said out what i wanna do la~! but since then, i have nothing to say. all i can say is i have once again learnt to be more wise next time.

what's the use of living when i can't even live the life i want?

sometimes i really hate to have this hobby of blog hopping. i see so many of my friends enjoying their lives but i seem to be so not involve.

seafood
toy 's' rus
vivo city
k box
weekend chill out

just to name a few.

i jus question myself sometimes. am i really so difficult to hang out with? i don't want to be like last time where all i do is just to complaint. i wanna know why cos when somethings keep happening, i believe it has got a lot to do with me. right?

sianz. H asks me why i work all my weekends off and want to have no life. and i asked him back how to have a life when there is nothing in the first place? dunch wanna waste off those weekends at my grandmother's house anymore watching them mahjong the days away.. so i might as well work.. i do feel fortunate that sometimes H still asks me out.. but well..

now playing: 林俊杰 - 一千年以后

因为在一千年以后

世界早已没有我

没有我的世界，需要一千年以后才会实现吗？
或许在一些人眼里，他们的世界早就已没有我。

time for truth

people, can you all do me a favor? tell me if i am:

1) very thick skin
2) never admit my mistakes
3) fake
4) act innocent
5) act pitiful


so this is what i leave an impression in other people's mind.

*****

just home for a while.. from the JB trip! i is so satisfied with my shou huo. got myself a cap, a tee, CDs, alot of misc items and most importantly, had good food! never fail to report to THAT alley of yummys whenever i go there.. those present were me, herry, jess, ser ser, weihao, junxiong, kang an, ter and sam.

anw, we were really a bunch of sotongs. change currency also will screw up and took wrong amount and all happily go shopping for 4 hours before we realise it. short of like 100+ ringgit and its a real lot! anw, i think i will drop by soon cos i had not get that shoe YET and there still a few items i would like to get. MUAHAHA seems like i have to burn off more week ends to earn more income before i can go in liao la!

I have kept quiet for too long

some thing i hate about the starting of a new sem is always the problems of allocating groups for projects.

cos of conflicts that always arise from previous projects, choosing groups for the coming projects have always been a tough job - will i choose a right partner? will he/she be easy to work with? will have conflict not?

much thanks to my own itchy mouth, i am one of those who suggested for allocation of team instead of us choosing. and guess what? lao tian ye put "US" into the same group! rrrooooaaarrr!!!!

and thus, "someone" started spasming, look frustrated and frown and etc etc and looked as if the end of world has came.. my oh my!


i feel so much like a sinner who cause all these unhappiness in another individual.

please stop attitud-ing me lo. not as if you are the only one who don't want to do project with me. i have always tried to be nice to quietly take all the accusations and be the bad one. even thou people have been saying me not wanting to salvage the friendship and so on, i tried not to agrivate matters by talking to her and make her angry. and what happen in the end? people say i dun care at all. sighs. what should i do?

i don't even know the cause of this conflict. i dun even know what accusations have been made about me. but what can i say?

can someone teach me what to do to satisfy everyone?

kns. pay never increase expense keep on increasing.

Nov 14, 2006
The Straits Times

THE Goods and Services Tax (GST) will go up from 5 to 7 per cent to pay for more government spending to help the lower income. *are they really helped? govt suppose to take care citizens but now we have to pay for our benefit we are righted to have as a citizen. why are there still so many sad stories of people cant getting help and some have to resort to jump mrt tracks? *

Mapping out his government's plan for the next five years and beyond, Prime Minister Lee Hsien Loong yesterday pledged to 'tilt the balance' of public spending in favour of lower-income Singaporeans, who are not benefiting as much as other groups from economic growth.

New social measures include more help in education, housing and health care and more regular Workfare bonuses - a shift from a once-off measure - for the lower-income workers.

To foot the bigger bills, Mr Lee announced two new measures to raise government revenue.

The first is the GST hike, the details and implementation date of which will be revealed in the Budget, on Feb 15 next year.

The second is a plan to spend more of the returns from investing the nation's reserves. Right now, the Government can only spend half of such returns, or 'net investment income', defined to include dividends and interest. The definition will be broadened to include realised capital gains. The move is significant, requiring an amendment to the Constitution and 'working out' details with the Elected President.

In his first speech to the new Parliament and rounding up the debate on the President's Address, Mr Lee sketched out how globalisation had changed the environment for workers and widened the gap between incomes at the top and bottom.

'It's essential for us to tilt the balance in favour of lower income Singaporeans because globalisation is going to strain our social compact. That's why we are doing all this,' he said.

'But I would like to caution members that we should proceed with care...it is a real slippery slope. And many, many social welfare schemes which have ended up in serious trouble have started off with good intentions.''

Mr Lee made a firm pledge that the Government would put in place a comprehensive package to fully offset the impact of the GST hike. It would be weighted in favour of the middle- and lower-income and the elderly needy.

'It's not just a GST increase, it's a package which will fully offset the impact of the GST for these groups and begin to strengthen the social safety nets and tilt the balance in favour of the lower income Singaporeans,' he said.

As for the timing, Mr Lee said: 'I think it's better to do this now when the economy is doing well. Then we can manage the adjustments, we have the flexibility to adjust our programmes depending on how things turn out.'

........ (some parts deleted)

The GST was first introduced in 1994, at 3 per cent, and raised to 5 per cent in 2004. Yesterday, Mr Lee said that even at 7 per cent, it is still lower than that in nearly all countries with GST or value-added tax.

Singaporeans enjoyed a 'high quality but cheap government' *not cheap to live in singapore leh. otherwise how people will say can die but cannot get sick in singapore? hhahas*, Mr Lee said. Public spending stands at 14 to 15 per cent of the country's total output, or GDP - among the lowest in the world.

He also made clear that Singapore would not go down the route of Scandinavian countries, with generous welfare funded through high taxes that sap the incentive to work. Singapore would instead stick to its current social model based on wealth creation, self reliance, and individual savings and spending within one's means.

Moving ahead, the Government will work to strengthen the social safety nets to benefit all income groups. How? By building on key pillars of the system - Central Provident Fund (CPF) savings, health care and housing.

The CPF will be enhanced, to help workers earn better long-term returns. There will also be improvements to the 3M schemes through which Singapore pay for health care: Medicare, MediShield and Medifund. Health Minister Khaw Boon Wan will speak on this issue in Parliament today.

And the Government will find ways to help Singaporeans unlock the value of their homes.

Lower-income families will receive extra help. Mr Lee promised 'more Workfare schemes in future', through which low-wage workers get income top-ups.

Such families will also get more support for their children's education and additional housing grants of up to $20,000, with the sum going up over time.

Despite the challenges ahead, Mr Lee urged Singaporeans to also remember to celebrate all that was right about their country. 'Our prospects have never been brighter, our overall environment is positive, our economy is vibrant, our people are well-educated and equipped to excel in a globalised world,' he said.




some responses on straits times interactive:
what to say leh? this morn when i saw the papers i am so shocked. Our government is always saying that our GST is still lower than that in nearly all countries with GST or value-added tax. Which are the countries that the governement is comparing with? Be it the increase in the transportation fee, they will always use this phrase.

They are always using the lower income families as an excuse to increase taxes,etc. What have they really contributed to the lower income families? What have they done for our retirement and medical services? Everything that they said that they will help and provide asssistance are not felt and seen by the public. If the government is seriously helping the lower income families, I believe that I will not see or hear stories about poor people pondering over money matters.

Meaning cost of living are going up again.., why they never intend to increase back our CPF Rate since the economy is going well? So unfair, the government are just increasing our burden to the people.

Spore is a country and not a company therefore dont manage the country like a company.

Why do they have to struggle after the national service, then working up to the age of 40s and they are forced to retire. Whereby our ministers and president can still sit on the high chairs and getting fat salaries and refuse to vacate their seats and also refuse to have a perks cut and pay cut.

I don't see how lowering income tax and increasing GST will help the lower income group. Most of them would be in lower tax bracket and those who earn barely $1000 a month are unlikely to pay income tax and contribute CPF. Increasing GST will impact this income group the most. So, where is the logic?

I hv seen my income change dramatically over the last 10 yrs. Once, I paid income tax for a couple of thousand dollars annually. Now, I don't paid income tax anymore because of globalisation has affected me very badly & now I spend most of my time staying unemployed or under-employed. I do hope that I can get a job & remain employ for a longer period. I do believe that I am not alone in Singapore.

quotes: from mooiness

quoted from mooiness blog. coincidents! it says what is in my heart now - for ipp and the evening spent with herry.


went to dhoby ghaut with herry after school today.. i have a craving for the tau huay at selegie again. haha! but before that, we shopped ard at dhoby exchange and ps. herry got a pair of shoe which i think is worth the buy. cos it looks good on him and he feel comfortable in it. what more to ask for?

cool nite out. i jus hope more of these will come.

back to the school!

wooo~! now in the first lesson of the sem.. lab class la!

erm.. funny. i duno how to describe the feeling but i just felt like that class has fallen apart further. (or is it just me?)

msn: 能不能不要回头？i dun wan u 2 c the solitude in me

sch is starting tml. very mixed feelings.

don't really look forward to sch after all. issit cos i have got too comfortable and used to workplace? i do miss school.. miss my more free time.. but workplace is also more challenging and also its something i really liked to do.. even thou i am still quite a loner either way..

on top of that, there are TONNES of good people at workplace. experience gained. even got a little pay! sighs. i think i am after all not that cut for survival in nyp ba. sick of my life there. its not that i don't like sch life - i damn love it. its jus that there are alot of unforeseen reasons that i couldnt explain here that makes me dread sch so much ba.

i hope tml will be a good day!

but will it be?

the last day.. @ Dsg

not taken at the last day but at the second last.
3 of us had mo qi to wear all black together!

Lets have a look at D office:

DesignSingapore Council.. the entrance.

me in my make shift office.. kapo space from the meeting room..

my messy table..

doing newspaper cutting for our archives!

still the colorful windows.. view from office.

surprises came early in the morn when i reach office.. wendy and ying ying got breakfast for us! i am so touched..

da cakes are from cedele!

got ma fav walnut carrot cake some more!

p/s: da story of cedele cake.
my first contact with this walnut carrot cake is at dr milton's bdae when they got it for him. super nice and i keep telling ying ying and wendy. and they remembered! =)

surprise package on table when we reach office..

let you see who its from but not the message for me. haha!

andrea got something for me too!

even thou i knew that they had something for us, i was still quite moved la. got a little bit emo.. but still i am very happy! the small farewell party.. even dr milton came la! he so busy still come.. i really appreciate all that they had did for us!

alot of makan! ying ying and wendy busiest..
thanx!

discussion on how to eat those kuehs..
still say can see if there is peranakan blood in that person if they know how to eat it!

elaine i think she is the organiser.. she is cutting the cake for us!

woohoo~! do i have to explain more?

so long.. good bye..
i will miss this place where i spent 11 wonderful weeks..
i will miss this place lots!