Thursday, January 18, 2007

电影 [生日快乐]


他爱她。她也爱他。

大学毕业后,他和她没有在一起。他和她成为了比好朋友还好的朋友。

过了一阵子,他去了美国,而她之后去了日本。出现在他们身边的人不只一个。

再过一阵子,他和她在香港团聚。

但他和她还是没有在一起。

每年生日,她就等他的生日祝福。

There are things that I care about every day. But I can only say it once a year.

生日快乐



another must watch show of the year!

*****

last nite was at kang an's 21st. a small celebration at indo chine the nude restaurant. food's great! jus that the service there arent good.. and the kitchen's abit slow..





got KA a tee from M:Industries. hope that he likes it ba.. theres more then 10 of us there.. hope he is happy and enjoyed the day! 21 le.. the key to freedom..

Wednesday, January 17, 2007

IMC part 1 down.

happy like a little bird. finally its over! no amount of words can describe how i feel right now. its like the tonnes of weights is gone! *okok.. i noe still got alot more icas to rush.. T_T *


presentation is soso. herry says i presented wrongly. anw, i was on time for rehearsal but everyone's late. still say i will late. HAHA.

so sians. skipped the lecture and SBM day.. abit no point to go also. haha.




ok i gotta go prepare now! going out for KA's 21st!

Tuesday, January 16, 2007

逃。

"... a lot of things, if you grab too hard, you'll lose it. if you don't grab it at all, you'll lose it too..."

depressing but true...


*****




i wanna run. i wanna run far far away.

i gonna explode! can feel the tension of the deadlines coming.. gastric, spinning headaches, just to name a few. the serious deprive of sleep is also driving me up my corner..


dun worry, i am not crying. my eyes are teary not cos i am tearing.. just that my eyes are too tired! sianz. i wonder how i will survive in ns.. maybe i cant leh also never noe rite. haha.

ok my head is spinning again. i better hit bed now or i think i cant wake up tmr morning for IMC presentation.

Monday, January 15, 2007

disgusting. pukes.

【绝对】 文海:决赛有我和世维,会更好看!


woa. super bhb to say this of himself. i cant believe it!


孙文海则表示,“我和世维,一个有歌声;一个有舞台魅力,整个show将更有看头。”意思浅浅?!

actually, his singing is ok. but i dun like it when the judges are not doing justice to other contestants. like the fast and slow song round. he sang a ROCK song *note: not a fast but a rock one* and DID NOT dance at all. not to the theme at all. but yet he got the highest score. and he is super EMO!!

sometimes it jus make him quite fake yea? he cries everytime, regardless he is in or he is out. ok its quite reasonable when he is eliminated.. but those times that he got to go to the next stage? sometimes i wonder if its tears of relief that his money spend on voting isnt wasted and he can continue the journey..

孙文海:“我以为会和世维一起进入决赛”


一直以来,孙文海是众参赛者眼中的劲敌。他曾经在酒廊驻唱,经验丰富,歌艺比其他参赛者都好。

这一次出局,他坦言不无失望。昨晚他在台上演唱告别歌曲《如果爱》时,还一度语气哽咽,泪洒舞台。

“我哭,是因为我无法和好朋友世维一起进入总决赛。比赛前几天,我们已经讲好了,希望最后进入总决赛的是我们两个人。”

“我们一个靠声音、一个靠舞台魅力,这样整个show应该会很好看。没想到错过了这个机会。”


呃……就是说陈铿百没有声音也没有舞台魅力啦?!(记者来找碴)
“也不是这么说啦。铿百的进步大家都看得到。他唱《寂寞公路》(第四场复赛)的时候,我就觉得他也是一个‘强敌’。但是我和道文、世维、乐声、坊林的感情都很好……人都是自私的吧。如果让我选的话,我当然希望我们五个人都可以进入最后5强。”

这么说,你会把票投给好兄弟世维啰?
“铿百和世维都很棒,但是以专业的角度来看的话,我会投给世维;他在翻身赛之后越战越勇,舞台魅力无法挡。”

陈世维翻身成功之后,奋起直追,屡创高分。孙文海和陈世维从初赛开始,就已结成好朋友,孙文海还不是指点陈世维,教导他如何突围。没想到,现在自己反而被淘汰。陈世维扮猪吃老虎?!


你一直强调自己的实力不俗,出局因素是……

“我不是对自己的实力有信心,而是受到很多圈内人的肯定……我会出局,可能是缺少了铿百和世维所拥有的可爱和魅力。”

“当然,观众投票也是关键之一啦。我身边的人都收入平平,有朋友打了很多通电话,可是一分钱都没有跟我收,我觉得这个比赛让我感觉到家庭的温暖和朋友的友谊。”


你的粉丝不多,是不是因为看起来太凶?

“我不这么认为。之前我唱《微尘》的时候已经把摇滚的感觉改掉了。实力嘛,我是有一点啦;就是差了世维的魅力和铿百的可爱啰。”终归一句,就是外型“累事”啰。

一路走来,亲身体验之后,我们请孙文海告诉大家,SuperStar须具备什么条件?


“你必须有陈世维的舞台魅力、陈铿百的可爱、张乐声的声音,还有我的vocal power,哈哈!没有啦……其实我觉得SuperStar应该抱有活到老学到老的态度,谦虚的态度,不断学习、不断往上爬,加强自己的音乐知识。”


daren arent that well either? his dance steps are ok.. but this is a singing comp.. not dance floor la! that one is channel 5. last week i nearly threw up when he sang ju hua tai. wrong pronunciation of words.. wrong feeling.. everything feel so wrong. he let the song down. and i dunno how come he can still get so high scores.. week after week. his wu tai mei li is also ok only. generally i think that this time round, the contestants are not as good as those two years ago.. i think this time round.. we do have alot of entertainers.. but not a real superstar.

who wins or not dun really matters anw. its a reality tv show in disguise of a competition. who noes if mediacorp did anything to the results? or what so ever? its all well kept under the carpet.. so we just take it as entertainment lo.



*note all quotes from www.channelu.sg*

Saturday, January 13, 2007

day out. with hitsu.






we're supp to meet to go to the ntu talk at suntec followed by the national library.. but things are all so not in place to day. didnt go to any of the planned places.

cos time is changed. cos i was late. we didnt go to the talks. instead walked ard suntec and looked at alot of things. bumped into liqin, my sec sch class mate. talked for a while before we continue and finally enter carrefour, where we spent hours in there! shopped for some sushi.. and the drink - DUTCH LADY BANANA MILK the all time fav. other misc stuff includes breads for tmr breakfast and stuff.

"hi tea" is at the suntec fountain, where we got some sunlight. thats followwed by the walk along the river bank where we enjoy the sky, sea, land, breeze and everything. walked to esplanade where we rested for a while before miting her bro and mum to have dinne. pretty nervous cos its the first time la... but wells things turned out quite well. her bro is a farnie and humorous person, and mum is cheerful and friendly too. the dinner is great! everything is great.. =)

*****


frenship is fragile
both muz noe hw 2 act & react
nt every1 noe hw 2 reflect
so time sumtimes cn kill

yes i so agree with what manda has said. i think i am one who dont really know what is the right way to react ba.. thats y i always can only feel sad, frustrated.

sometimes i felt i have really let down those friends who care for me. but wells..

now playing: 娃娃 - 大雨

说真的我不是故意
看见你和她在街头伫立
我在犹豫该不该逃避
还是让你看见我在这里

天空间飘来的雨

滴滴洒落在我心里
我在怀疑该不该躲你
该不该躲这场雨

大雨就要开始不停的下
我的心我的心已经完全的没有主张
带我到没有爱情的地方哦

大雨就要开始不停的下
我的心我的心已经完全的失去方向
带我到没有爱情的地方

*****


its raining again.. sianz.. the big big rain makes me sleepy all the time and extremely emo.. feeling so blue!

sometimes recently, this song kept coming into my mind when it rains. but wells, not always la! quite an old school retro song.. but its still nice!

满城尽带黄金甲

菊花残满地伤
你的笑容已泛黄
花落人断肠我心事静静躺
北风乱夜未央
你的影子剪不断
徒留我孤单在湖面成双

*****

this show is fab! met up with mabel after sch to catch it.. was supposed to have catch it some time ago but was delayed till today.. and also its been quite some time and not many slots le.. lucky we settled at lido otherwise i believe it would have been alot of disappointment!

*sidetrack* next time dun go lido.. the seats is so... =X uncomfortable!

overall i think its a good show with a quite interesting story? or maybe it was cause of the cast ( and some say the way they are dressed)? but wells, jay has to improve his acting ba? haha..

high entertainment, scenes of the ju hua tai very magnificent. overall a very "royal" show trying to portrait the "grandness".. i would say its a good attempt..


*****

after that was some shopping ard and dinner follows at lemongrass. the food there is quite good i would say.. i heart thai food! thou it was quite expensive.. happy that we both enjooyed the movie.. i am planning to catch confession of pain soon.. maybe next week?

Wednesday, January 10, 2007

=(

screwed up mind.
screwed up emotions.


rather saying i am disappointed in that person, i would rather say i am disappointed in my self. i dont know where's the limit as to things shd develop.. things that we all do.. but all i noe is..


i feel screwed up now.

Tuesday, January 09, 2007

REcap for the past few days

really wondered ard alot these few days.. haha.. i jus need some balance of that sucky feeling that keep attacking me nowadays!


sat*

night's out with xiu. wasnt feelin so great and i think i needed some time out and eat something i like.. so i asked xiu out to grab the tau huay at short street.. da best! before that i wondered ard alone.. walking from bugis - city hall - plaza sing - short street. enjoy some music and some walking.. good execise!

had the tau huay and the char kway teow.. jus a fab nite.. thanks xiu for the christmas pressie too! seeing what she got for me jus make me feel i did not put in much effort in my present for her.. but wells the next christmas i will!


sun*

buffet dinner at conrad continential.. the food there is nice! did not take any pic cos was too busy playing with baby ben and enjoying the food.. but pics with cousin will come soon!


today *

noon out at j8. havent been there for a long time! first is walk walk with kang an and co. then when i am going home i met herry and jess.. and we had some light desserts.. or maybe not so light after all.. ahaha! long talks over alot of things.. but well it is all heart to heart talk! good time spent with the two of them!


#####


i have only one pair of shoe currently.. that saf running shoe. but everyones saying that it is a mismatch to anything that i wear - it only goes well with sports wear.. how? looks like i need a new pair of shoe lahs. must go hunt for a nice one !

thinking..

i gotta sad feeling.. i wonder if he knows that its coming.. but i reckon he might not even know its coming la..

Monday, January 08, 2007

Juz b'Coz i SmiLe doeSn't MeaN i'M HapPy

sick tired of all the shits in school and ma life.

i have got no more energy left to do anything.. to explain anything.. or to clear anymore misunderstandings..

whats the reason that all of my friends eventually left me? is it cos i am really asking to much? is it cos i am not doing enough? or jus what is it.

many asked me to jus dun think so much and dun care what others think.. but is it that possible for me to live in just my own world. that is like not so possible for my case ba? "thinking" has already been so into my life that it is not jus as easy as snapping fingers to kick it off.

i got the feeling i jus wanna run away from this dumps of unhappiness.. but it is all but reality that i have to be stuck here. i reckon more unhappiness will come when i go into ns. =(






what has my life became? why is it into this state now? i dunno...

what will it lead to? i dunno...

Tuesday, January 02, 2007

quotes: from Anch Manch!

there once lived a farmboy, young and handsome..
he worked hard on his papa's farm, but this boy, he had wishes..
one day, he hoped, to make it to town..
and see for himself- jewels and crowns..

he n'er did complain, and years flew by
the boy turned tall, and my, he was a sight..
gers came giggling, then one day he picked
the prettiest of them all, his wife-to-be..

it was all so simple, a farmboy and his ger
until fortune changed and so did he..
he remembered his young dreams of making it in town,
when chance came, and presented itself...

he bid her goodbye, one cold rainy night
but he arrived in town- it was bright glittery lights..
he was captivated by it all, such hustle and bustle
especially the air, even that was better..

he worked extremely hard, he didnt wana let anyone down..
but life's hard, especially for someone new in town..

then one day, he was walking, struggling with his coat
a beautiful lady passed, he took a second look
'tis the woman he wans for life-
the boy fell for her, as hard as he could..

he started his romancing, for the ger he found..
only to realise she was most sought-after in town:
the only child of a rich businessman, poised and elegant
yet her courage- it makes tales of legend..

finally, he asked her out, and she willingly obliged..
it was a date under the starlight, one cold chilly night
they shared stories beside a shimmering river,
and laughed so happily, despite the shivers..

dates blossomed into love,
but a farmboy's status make for good rumours..
for in a world of oldschool traditions,
she was topclass and he, second position

she didnt mind, she declared her love..
she treasured those stolen moments, those latenight conversations..
but he instead, he began to waver..
he realised at the end of it all, money matters..

and the farmboy, well, he had none..
so often, he worried about not being good enough..
esp where his princess was concerned, he'd rather leave than fail
to give her the goodlife she'd been assured

he started to take steps, further and further away
he didnt wana see her tears, or her pretty eyes, grey..
she couldnt understand just what was wrong..
shouldnt love be the biggest strength of them all?

but no, as it happened, he was weak..
in his heart and his resolve- he gently weeped..
he decided one day, to return to his farm
because townslife, tho exciting, was still full of harms..

she waited endlessly, day after day..
at night she cried, and never again did she pray...
for God, she thought, didnt play his part
He sent him to her, then forced them apart..

months became years..
there never came news
she knew not what happened
he returned home to pay his dues

one mustnt forget he had a woman he left
sometime ago, the ger he was supposed to have.
and tho now he knows he doesnt love her
a promise's still a promise, they married in jazz

so he sits there still, thirty years down the road..
in his old rocking chair, the air stale and still..
his wife brings him tea, he thanks her sweetly..
but his heart, his mind- they swell guiltily.

cuz its been so long, but he still thinks of her..
the lovely princess in town- his love forever.
and sometimes he wonder, if he had the guts then,
would they have been happy now, mebe he'd have been a proud granddad..

but mebe sometimes, love just aint enough..
and for the old lady in the tower, no one else knows better
for she had been waiting, pining for her lover
but tears, her tears, they can only flow into the river..

*

爱真的需要勇气
来面对流言蜚语
只要你一个眼神肯定
我的爱就有意义

我们都需要勇气
去相信会在一起
人潮拥挤我能感觉你
放在我手心里
你的真心。

爱真的需要勇气- dun u all agree??

Monday, January 01, 2007

Happy New Year!

The new year has arrived. this year is a special one. cos i ushered in the new year all by myself. i went to the fireworks at esplanade alone and waited for like 3 hours for it? its a special experience ba..

reached at abt 9. and i stationed my self at the prime spot. thats the benefit for reaching early.. but the wait is tormenting! some more no one to tok to. lucky i got my radio and shuffle. otherwise sure seh la~!

anw, i think there are more PRCs and Bangalas then singaporeans there. and some of them are VERY inconsiderate.


our dear friend here from india. i think he "LOVES" me. i dunno! for some reason or what he keep staying EXTREMELY close to me. almost like sticking onto me~! and at some point of time he actually nearly rest his head on my shoulder. FUCK! but well, at least they buzz off after i started to stare at him real hard.

how can i forget that "auntie" that annoys and shock everyone? she took out a cig and start to smoke right there. there in the CROWD!!! RIGHT NEXT TO ME! siao. totally not civic minded. and her friend, talking so LOUD on the phone, as if she is at home. i should have taken a photo of then and post it here la! luckily they left at ard 10 when it started to rain...

talking abt rain, i must thank this couple in front of me. the boyfriend is really kind to include me under their umbrella.


fireworks is quite... ok. quite abit disappointed ba.. maybe its cos the company i tot would be here arent here? everything was so diff from last yr ba...




Following that was the party at hao's home. was last to be there as i went to the countdown. watched movie and them playing games and fell asleep. but nonetheless, its being there that counts. =) went to mc for breakfast.

Sunday, December 31, 2006

quotes: from [ChUa]

When we say countdown,
we're actually saying the countdown of all sorrows we've encountered,
and welcoming the happiness.


Happy New Year everyone!

Friday, December 29, 2006

That's it.. for this year..

And so, we all do the count down again.

end of year here again.. fast isnt it. just one year ago i am still whining at how sian tep is. now?

  • i have breezed thru ipp peacefully, i even got the A that i wanted.
  • reconcilled with someone whom i have been on cold war for 9 months.
  • made new friends.
  • lost some close frens thou.
  • seen how a close friend can turn to someone who is close to stranger.
  • and of cos, got the taste of being accused and could not rebutt back.
  • tried a new job, started it with joy and happiness, and now, at the last day of the year, leaving it with no regrets and little joy.

school hasnt been smooth. so i wish that it would be better. for the final bits of it that is left.

i want to execise more. more healthy ba. ahaha.

i want to have a better health. it suck to fall sick.

thats it! i think the next post would be next year. so ciao~!

*****


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Thursday, December 28, 2006

失望

我不知道, 失望这两个字, 足以形容我的感受吗?


原来, 只需要三百六十五天, 就可以是如此大的鸿沟, 让我们从朋友变得如此陌生.

Rot.

for 13 days, i have been rotting at home. term break don't seems to be that good as i tot. not really going out due to some reasons, and also the non stopping rain makes the day so gloomy.. so condusive for sleeping!!! have been having late mornings... and the low energy level makes it even more difficult for me to start on those projs!!!! sighs.... somebody save me man~!

anw, last nite was the outing for belated fraw's bdae. walking ard plus dinner at puncak. everything was quite fine and nice.. we even took nep print! it was long since the last time we took... and the rain was big on my way home! haa..

******

雨好大.. 有一点后悔没带伞出门,但也已近半夜了,总不能要家人捎把伞到车站来吧?

好久没淋那么大的雨了.. 此时的mp3, 播的是燕姿的《我不难过》。感觉很对。雨水能洗去我心里的不快乐吗?雨过天晴后,我真的能不在难过吗?现实总不是如此..

我喜欢淋雨的感觉.. 尤其是独自一人,在夜深人静的时候。有人问过我,为什么会喜欢夜深人静这种一个人过的时间。

是那种凉凉感觉?是那种感触良多的feeling?我也不知道..

Monday, December 25, 2006

M E R R Y C H R I S T M A S


*****

its christmas. kind of boring this year. hhaha. anw, i worked on the morn of christmas eve.. even thou i am still not very feeling well from the suspected food poisoning i had. vomitted many times and cant eat too.. must be that log cake from head office! dan is down, stef is down, me is down, and we all ate that log cake!! haha..

changi airport always alot of budget for decos.. 3 christmas tree together..
very the nice!


anw, since i reached early and had about half an hour of free time before shop opens, decided to walk ard. hasnt really done so even after here working for like half a yr liao? then saw the "memories of changi" exhibition.. actually it was first held a few months ago jus near my shop.. but it was shifted to T1 before i went to take any pics.. second chance so i took some pics of it to share here!


we would have more or less a few pics at these places too rite?? thou now gone, they definately had become an identity of airport.. the trishaw and the world clock. even i have pics with these places!

15 years diff in between..

thanks jas for the present!! i dunno how she noe that i like doraemon.. she gave me a doraemon mini pouch! like it but i dunno what can i put in it leh. haha.

*****

last wed was the chalet with herry, jess and her mum. we went to sakura too!



we bought some glow in the dark sticks as well.. wanted to save some for them for the next nite but herry set on it and it is all ignited.. haha!



lastly.. the giant candies!

Thursday, December 21, 2006

quotes: from h o z

we used to be very close.
but sometimes, when the person that you are closed to,
suddenly break that chain of trust,
there is no way that you able to reconnect what it has been done.

Wednesday, December 20, 2006

random post...


i like this jacket that jeff is wearing!!!!!

Tuesday, December 19, 2006

Rain.



我怀念有一年的夏天
一场大雨把你留在我身边
我看着你那被淋湿的脸
还有一片树叶贴在头发上面

那时我们被困在路边
世界不过是一个小小屋檐
你说如果雨一直下到明天
我们就厮守到永远

rain...
falling in my heart
你的声音仍然深印我心田
世界改变你也改变
我在海角天边

rain...
falling in my heart
你的诺言虽然没有实现
爱是雨点落在昨天
永不放晴的缠绵

*****

has been raining for a few days.. BIG rain in fact. weather was great for sleeping especially last night. has been raining for like since the past 20 hour? had a great night and slept till 1 today. how long has it been since the last time i had the luxury of having such quality sleep? i cant remember..

actually, sometimes i am amazed too.. at how easily i can be happy and contented.. jus a good night of sleep while its raining can make me feel good... but then, a raining day always makes me moody... staring out of the window at the rain, it sets me thinking of alot of things. *contradictions..*

*****

where's our priority? i wonder where do us, friends, stand in some people's life. are some friends more important than others?

relooking some old posts of the past month and came across this that i have posted some time back. who would understand how i feel? again, i am not angry at anyone for the decision that they have made.. but thens there is also nothing i can do to control it also rite?

*****

christmas is coming in like 6 days?! that is very fast!!! last nite is the first christmas gathering of the year.. met up with M and S. well again, they over-pamper me with the esprit shirt they shared... thanks! i really like that shirt and its nice.. =) had the filling dinner and yuki yaki and then we walked around "promoting the growth of the singapore retail industry". haha!

anw, we love sam&kev/i.p.zone. i saw this checkered brown/green pants and the good point of it is even thou it is slim cut, it doesnt make me look short!!!!! woohoo~! sooo tempted to get it. trying it only made my desire to want to get it stronger. I WANT IT!!!!! but wells, most prob i might not be able to get it due to the damned constraints in my acc. sighs.
Too Busy for a friend




One day a teacher asked her students to list the names of the
other students in the room on two sheets of paper, leaving a space
between each name.

Then she told them to think of the nicest thing they could say about =
each of their classmates and write it down.

It took the remainder of the class period to finish their assignment, =
and as the students left the room, each one handed in the papers.

That Saturday, the teacher wrote down the name of each student
on a separate sheet of paper, and listed what everyone else had
said about that individual.

On Monday she gave each student his or her list.

Before long, the entire class was smiling.

"Really?" she heard whispered. "I never knew that I meant anything to =
anyone!" and, "I didn't know others liked me so much." were most of the =
comments.

No one ever mentioned those papers in class again.
She never knew if they discussed them after class with their parents, =
but it didn't matter. The exercise had accomplished its purpose.

The students were happy with themselves and one another. That group of =
students moved on. Several years later, one of the students was killed =
in Vietnam and his teacher attended the funeral of that special student.

She had never seen a serviceman in a military coffin before. He looked =
so handsome, so mature. The church was packed with his friends.

One by one those who loved him took a last walk by the coffin.

The teacher was the last one to bless the coffin.


As she stood there, one of the soldiers who acted as pallbearer came up =
to her.


"Were you Mark's math teacher?" he asked. She nodded: "yes."
Then he said: "Mark talked about you a lot."


After the funeral, most of Mark's former classmates went together to a =
luncheon. Mark's mother and father were there, obviously waiting to =
speak with his teacher.


"We want to show you something," his father said, taking a wallet out of =
his pocket. "They found this on Mark when he was killed. We thought you =
might recognize it."


Opening the billfold, he carefully removed two worn pieces of notebook =
paper that had obviously been taped, folded and refolded many times.

The teacher knew without looking that the papers were the ones on which =
she had listed all the good things each of Mark's classmates had said =
about him.

"Thank you so much for doing that," Mark's mother said. "As you can see, =
Mark treasured it."


All of Mark's former classmates started to gather around. Charlie smiled =
rather sheepishly and said, "I still have my list. It's in the top =
drawer of my desk at home."

Chuck's wife said, "Chuck asked me to put his in our wedding album."

"I have mine too," Marilyn said. "It's in my diary."

Then Vicki, another classmate, reached into her purse and showed her =
frazzled list to the group. "I carry this with me at all times, " Vicki =
said and without batting an eyelash, she continued: "I think we all =
saved our lists."

That's when the teacher finally sat down and cried. She cried for Mark =
and for all his friends who would never see him again.


The density of people in society is so thick that we forget that life =
will end one day. And we don't know when that one day will be.

So please, tell the people you love and care for, that they are
special and important.


Tell them, before it is too late..

Disgusted

i was pretty disgusted by her attitude over the result.. acting innocent. trying to play ard with words. even saying things like "i think you learnt more" and "i think we have tried our best". oh pleeaase lo! i what you have done. i am happy that i got what i wanted. but nonetheless, but i am jus feeling my unworthyness that you got the same result as me cos u used something that does not belong to you in your report. but neverminds la. the world is never fair.

Sunday, December 17, 2006

call me shEn~!


my sales for yesterday.. worked for only 7 hours! an average of about 300 bucks per hour... woohoo~! i think i have broken my own record. but thens, there is no commission.. so the good sales is only here to boost my morale!

Saturday, December 16, 2006

开始是自己不敢一个人过,后来演变成一个人不知如何是好。

他的人生如果没有我,只是少了个人。
我的人生没有他,却成了没有方向。

Friday, December 15, 2006

Finally.


at last! 我终于盼到了我在NYP的第一个A~~!!!

for my 3 years at nyp i had never gotten an A before.. not even at the modules that i have had confidence.. well this time round i really worked hard towards my goal: that is to learn as much as i can during my ipp, give everything i can and get what i want. of cos my stay there is really fruitful and alot of people to thank for me getting this gradE!!!

maybe i will drop by real soon back there to say hi sometimes next week. haha!

Wednesday, December 13, 2006

k lunch is...

not nice! i mean the food. haha. several lessons cancelled resulting in us going home and wanting to skip a lecture that 4 hours later. me and jx is walking out of the gate when i asked him: 向左走?向右走?immediately he know what i meant and proposed a movie but there is no shows that appealed to us. so we went k lo. sang to our hearts content~! but after that i syco him to come back to the lecture that is four hours later.. that proved not to be productive for us cos we didnt bring notes.. -_- flop la..

dun see look like nice.. but the fish and baby octopus is *pukes*

jx sings

i sings

picture not to our desired angle but it turned out well..

projs is pilling up

but well a temporary fullstop was put on today as we mark the coming of the term break and our temporary break off from all these work for a short while!

went to CMPB today for the ns check up. was supp to be 3 of us but gary got something on.. so its only me and binz. rushed there after the damned IMC presentation that went so wrong. i think i am going to flop it. hha. the check up was kinda fast except for the test i think to test our iq or wat. alot of assumption and maths qns. in total it was near to 3 hours spent and got to know two guys there.. they are from RP..

foto taking for the NS id card is a flow. cos we are told to "back comb" our hair, which landed my state of looking like some ah bengs from the 80s. '~'

*****

i have decided not to go for the batam trip next week.. due to the change in date.. the new date crashes with the chalet. H keeps telling me its ok but i jus feel its not right i pang seh him at this stage. he specially planned for me and i jus leave to go batam. but still the trip is really tempting!!! serious speaking, i was very wanting to go. otherwise i wouldnt have wanted to go in the first place. but wells, since a promise is made, i cannot put aeroplane to H. so i am sure the chalet will be of equal quality! to the gang.. sorry.. i will join the next trip then!

大头芬的世界

大头芬的好朋友ah toot 最近和爸爸吵架了。看了这一集,对这句话最有感触..

喜欢一个人并不一定要在一起,只要心里头留了一个位子给自己最重要的人,就够了,希望他快乐,也就够了。


虽是如此说到,但又有几个人能真正做到?最少我知道自己的“道行”还没那么高.. 做不到..

Tuesday, December 12, 2006

Gold Fish Memory

i hereby pronounce, i have gold fish's 3 sec memory.

i actually forgot that my ns checkup at cmpb is this wed! until binz reminded me.. and whats worsE? i have presentation for brenda lim on that morn!! that means i have to present first at 8 and then run off. cos my appointment is at 10. waraus! rush rush..

Monday, December 11, 2006

hitsu did something for me..

hitsu made a wish for me at her msn nick! touched..

Sunday, December 10, 2006

the star awards?

i think it has became like another "mediacorp's money spinning antics". are the awards going to the really deserving ones? i think quite flop lo.

they are creative in bringing it to stjamespowerhouse. but i dun think they are prepared to bring it there. seems like there were quite a few technical faults. and also the stage look miserably small, with seatings of the stars at shabbily looking chairs. but wells, maybe its still good that at least they tried to make it more "happening" by nakata's appearance.. hohoho!

anw, back to the deserving winners part, i am not trying to say who worked hard or not, nor am i going to say bad things bout anyone la. its just that i felt that it is a TV event. and getting so many people not into TV really doesnt make any sense. and with some supporters who jus votes blindly, how can we see the best? maybe thats y now all we see is the most popular.

with weilian getting new comer and top ten, i think its quite not fair for the others lo. WL has no intention to continue in TV. but the others do! i think getting this award is more impt for those who wanna be in the TV industry rite? i think those who voted has deprived someone else who’s more worthy of the Newcomer and Top 10 Awards in Star Awards 2006.

quoting dickson:

Stretching backwards to the Singapore Music Awards 2006, Chen Weilian did not received the Most Popular Singer (Singapore) Award. You all made up a big fuss about it and even requested for the votings to be revealed. What obnoxious and hideous fans, you are!

very true rite? but wells, thats something that we cant control:Behavior of others!

anyway, alot of peeps that i think shd get an award didnt get. the biggest regret i think is ann kok and patrica mok! ann shd have gotten the best actress! she is nominated for her role in love conceirge, my fav show of the year. best cast, good story, and the leads match each other well. but well, i dont know why not nominated in all the big awards. anw, its still my fav and ann did well!

pat mok i think also very ke lian. can act can host can do comedy. but then leh? 10 yrs liao still cant will top ten.

i sort of agree with dickson. that the so called "stars" nowadays are too "instant". and there is no solid back ground and foundation. see zoe. top star search but also a few yrs before she made it queen of calecott hill. that is why i like those shows thats SBC era, with all the veterans that really acted well. call me "orbit" or old fashion i dun care, but ask u a qn: which show nowadays can seriously leave a deep impression and u wud say its real good? and not say for a while only but years later? look at the kopi-o drama and a few others. no show surpassed them.


also, i feel like they have not "utilised" the foreign stars they invite. like those hong kong one. not even a interview or any performance by them. they wanna say a few words also keep interupted by that overun handsign. total disgrace. mavis hee come also din get her to perform any song. no wonder our local star award can never been able to be compared to what taiwan has. their jin zhong jiang for tv. walaoz! like a dunno what event like that. i wonder when we can elevate ourselves to that level..

Friday, December 08, 2006

now playing: 裘海正 - 爱我的人和我爱的人

盼不到我爱的人
我知道我愿意再等
疼不了爱我的人
片刻柔情它骗不了人
我不是无情的人
却将你伤的最深
我不忍我不能
别再认真忘了我的人

离不开我爱的人
我知道爱需要缘分
放不下爱我的人
因为了解他多么认真
为什么最真的心
碰不到最好的人
我不问我不能
拥在怀中直到他变冷

爱我的人为我痴心不悔
我却为我爱的人甘心一生伤悲
在乎的人始终不对
谁对谁不必虚伪
爱我的人为我付出一切
我却为我爱的人流泪狂乱心碎
爱与被爱同样受罪
为什么不懂拒绝痴情的包围

Why?

Just back home from work not long ago. As expected, the news of my resignation had spreaded. JG is too small a company to keep any secrets. haha.

Suddenly, every one starts to treat me quite good. Their attitudes soften alot. I also found out that i have colleagues whom i have not really known them alot yet. and their warmness towards me make me feel like i shd stay... but i noe i shd not.. sigh.. why is the situation make me feel like staying only when i have decided, and will, go soon?

the world is sucha contradicting planet. i hate all these.

Wednesday, December 06, 2006

心寒

其实不该感到心寒, 至少这个回复, 是迟到好过没到. 但看到“在联络”这三个字,我突然觉得我们已是陌生人。那是我想都没想过的。

我该怎么应付这样的情况?故事的最终回又会有怎么样的结局?

Monday, December 04, 2006

每一个人,都有自己的故事。遗憾的,坎坷的较多……

每一个人,都有自己的故事。遗憾的,坎坷的较多... 我们多数在朋友面前"装疯卖傻",不为什么,只是不想让别人担忧... 有些事情,也难以启齿...

保留,选择停留在心坎里,不是说有苦自己承担,朋友不愿分担,而是你我知道,有些“苦”,自己承受就好。

the big R

i tendered today!
finally!
made up my mind to resign from THAT company.

they were nasty. coming up with reasons to shoo me away when they eat my 30 bucks voucher. well, i dun care that much anymore. there is nothing i can do if they purposely want to take away my benefits: the management will always come up with one after another reason to excuse themselves.

the main reason that spurred me to tender is cos of the christmas festive season. i go straight to the point, i was helping them when they have not enough people for hari raya and deepavali even thou i was having ipp. NOT EASY! imagine working like 6 am to 4 pm or 3 pm to 1 am. plus 2 hrs before and after for travelling? and i have my office hour ipp to look after also. and now all i am asking for is to take a rest on christmas and no one is willing to help. ask me to work on 24th, 25th, 31st and 1st. I IS ANGRY. part timers are not well paid and no benefits at all. and on top of that, people say alot of jiao weh of you. what for am i trying so hard to help when all these happen?

politics. happen all the time at anyplace. but its getting worse. a part timer shd not be involved in office politics but i am so badly affacted.


i used to love that place alot. the environment, the people, the food, the "freedom" we had there. it werent easy beinging in the service line but i think things had not been that bad there. we were a team and everything was well.. till the "改朝换代" incident happen. i dun wanna comment much but things just got worse. i am not the only one with this sentiment so i think the prob doesnt lie with me. working there has always been enjoyable but since then things had changed and every working day had became a torture. i tried not to be bothered by the system and other people but things are tough. i can stil maintain my high sale, my sales for yesterday was 1500. but the so stuck up system made me super uber tulan and i didnt even wanna move today to get more sales. whats the use? when u slog hard and people jus rip ur benefits away.


i dun even care what they wanna say of me anymore. continue to have more rumor of me and so be it. i cant be bothered as i am leaving. whats the use of wasting emotions on colleagues and company that does not even wanna acknowledge ur existance?

so so be it la. i am jus plain happy i left HELL. airport is still a nice place to work at, i must admit. i hope not with THIS company anymore. HAHA!