our government very kay siao

our NEA hor very kay siao one leh!

with this kind of hazy view.. they can tell us:

kns... haha.. but anw todays weather was real bad! was on msn with jess when she actually said.. "u never notice meh? govt always only weekend then say PSI over hundred one.. cos they scared everyone no want go out work.."

-_-

but that comment was overuled later in the afternoon..

wooo~! hitting new heights when the skyscrappers out of my window getting blurer... i am also starting to feel the irritation effect on my nose.. ahchoo!

trying to kaysiao again as going home time is approaching.. no improvement in the haze out side! and the air still has that burning smell.. i dunno how come they can calculate the PSI to decrease.. haa! maybe they scared we stay at office no want go home lo..

o.O

anw, last to leave office today, cos of some last min assignment to prepare for the council meeting tml.. having no one in t he office.. i plucked up the courage to....


eat those food in the common table! haa!!! always alot of people paiseh mah.. i ate the butter short cake which i dunno is who bought from which country but defiantely overseas.. and also the mooncake from the oriental hotel.. not bad la.. i was aiming for the mooncakes from the raffles but it disappeared before i knew.. =(

recap for the past 5 days

i havent blogged again for a few days! recap recap!

*sidetrack.. actually sometimes i think hor.. even this two days i didnt blog.. does anyone even bothers? lol.. cos i find my blog is more of like a personal journal of my life ba.. so...


10102006 -

mum's going to gran's place and i am suppose to eat out. alone. -_-

so sianz la... tot of asking "someone" but he did not reply my sms.. so i jio-ed xiu to makan lo! hohoo.. havent seen her for like a few months? (fyi xiu is my decade old friend! since kindergarten..) waited for her at marina sq before we wonder ard and have dinner at MOF. the food was so so only but the dessert was great! dinner with her is always great as we will have chance to catch up with each other's life and also do alot of GOSSIPING! haa.. hmm didnt really notice but this is only the FIRST time that its a one to one outing.. the rest used to have alot of people.. lol..

come to think of that, i actually always wonder, how many "friends" we make can last so long till years later, every thing will still be the same and it will still feel the same? i no longer noe the answer.. with so many things that has happened.. so.. i shall jus enjoy as it is now lo.. life has too much uncertainties le..

yummy yummy! what is xiu eating??

we had jap food!
tori karaage and char siew rice!

kel: hmm.. will the mango imo make me emo?
xiu: *bish* ahyos try it la then you will noe!

it didnt make me emo! its yummy!

xiu and kel..

11102006 -

celebration for zibinz's bdae~! met binz and lingz up after work at VIVO... da new place! not fully opened yet but its awfully big.


was there early and so walked ard first lo.. and then its the meet up and we all went to the sky garden to take some pics...


theres actually quite alot of shops ard.. of cos alot of them are not opened yet. maybe we will drop by again soon to take a look wats in the full packages... anw, yongsheng was therE! doing his ipp at wingtai and they owns FOX man and woman too.. so he's there lo..

next we hit toy'r'us! the toy city! lol.. had lotsa fun and crazy times at the halloween corner.. those wigs and toys for the dress up! if only it is a festival widely celebrated in singapore.. arent that so much more fun!


bin was hoping for a cap. and thats what i got him. no telling in the first place. purly me getting the present on my own feeling. can we call that telepathy? =)

anw, this two "naughty friend" got me to a real surprise la! remember that time we went to hougang mall for ling's bdae.. we were at this accessory shop and i saw this kind of plastic ring that is real cute and suggest that we all get it.. but in the end we didnt.. well this time round.. they played secretive and got this ring from don't know where got our so called "friendship band"! jus that ours is more special wear ard finger. ahah! they said its a gift from them for me.. what else can i say? what else more can i ask for? i have friends that loves me! HERRY AND THIS TWO PERSON!!!! *of cos there is still alot more! the list is inexhaustive!

("V") them very much. =)


13102006 -

carina's treat at sakae for lunch. she says its cos ying ying and me helped her last weekend on the letters rushing them out. but well she is really jus kind lo to treat us. we are jus doing what we shd! =)

had nice food. but i dun recommand this out let. slow service and takes a long time to serve. meat and veg are served first with the rice coming 20 mins later... -_- rite? but anw, the small lunch talk we had helped us understand each other alittle more! thats good.. more to come!

Today -

finally!! i havent had the luxury to enjoy sat and sun for like a month!? but its off this weekend! due to the rashes i have and also the extreme tiredness i felt.. i need a break!

weather is not so good today.. th haze is making me sneezing...

as if like at genting...

shopping with mum and sis and cousin at PS today hunting for a dress for sis to wear on uncle's wedding nex month. but in the end, got so much more other things BUT the dress. !!!!!

i got myself a shirt from M:Industries at 50% off!!! i love sale! and also another long sleeve tee at S&K. also discounted! shioks!

today's victory: the checkered shirt and s&k shirt.
all these are bargains i decided to keep them for cny !!!

after the spree, went home and changed before heading to the dinner at the tampines chinese temple.. which my mum side family is quite involved.. nice open air banquet and the food is simply nice. those simple traditional chinese banquet stuff like steam fish, combo cold dish, stew meat bun and the cannot-be-missed yam paste with ginko nut! woohoo~!

the old school chopstick wrapper we used to see all the time!
teaching us how to use chopstick.. haa!

eat eat..

cousin and me! =)

theres even wayang k! big event!

yes effort is important but what if there was no reciprocation for the effort?

quotable quote of the day..

the last two sentence jus speaks so much...

Happy Birthday to zibinz!!!

so freaking many days without a post! have been too busy.. and so now i will do some proper blogging la! i also got readership de hor.. jess and manda has been surfing all the time, and so is herry =)


last fri's retreat turned out quite smoothly.. jus that we couldnt really keep to the stipulated time.. haa! alot of over runs.. prep works solely by me, andrea and miss lee.. the rest jus come, eat, and go! sighs.. came early and left latee.. but its a v satisfying event! cos i very involved in the organising part.. and execution part.. i have learnt THIS much can! no regrets for attachment at DesignSingapore..


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sat i worked.. afternoon shift.. a shift with ting and jas... its platform nite! everybody get down to the platform! haa! we 3 very havoc lo.. its good to work with people who likes to have fun the way you do.. also finally got myself that levis redwire tee! i gotta wear it SOON~! otherwise i may "outgrow" it very soon.. lol...


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haze is back! this year its worse in the past 9 years with PSI up to 150!!! even the tv has updated psi index at the corner.. havent seen it since ten years ago! gosh.. the smoky air is choking me! shall stay indoor more.. but its going to affect my execise plan! *but actually havent start.. hehe!*


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recent surf of Arthover's blog has made discovery of several quotable quotes that speaks of my mind recently...

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some pics that has been long over due to be posted.. paisehs...

with family at chinatown for the makan and lantern lighting..

fun at philatelic museum!

fish and co with bee... =)

how we past time at MICA?

outing for JC's birthday...

interesting answer lifen gave when i mass mailed to ask for double side tape..

count down to the staff retreat tomorrow.. there is just so much prep work to do! have gathered the equipments like flip charts and all these.. stationaries.. cam.. more or less settled everything le.. last minute called the Legends for confirmation to give myself peace of mind.. haa!

today, i received the staff handout that everyone will get for the retreat.. and there is so much sense of pride! almost half of the thick handout is prepared by me unknowingly! remember the terrible 50 page report i have to summarise to 8 page? its in there! and the mica outcome table i did.. the pragramme list.. the newspaper clips.. i am so proud of myself for this retreat! planning for the venue.. games.. equipments and all.. the sense of satisfaction is some thing that words cant describe!!! i am into the skies!!!

will post some pics of the event tml.. that is if i manage to get any.. ahah!

after the pissed-off-ness yesterday, life hasnt got much better. cant login to msn the whole of last nite. more piss-off-ness this morn, people says i am petty, office com bully me too, lotus notes bully me too. new shoe that levis just exchanged the spoiled one for me is spoiled again.. damns! sighs.. the last com issues cant blame cos is i remember wrong password resulting in cannot login.. haha!

i am silly la.. to think that even pass word also can remember wrong.. i shd have some cod liver oil to improve my brain mans!

gorging myself with food since i am in a bad mood.. for lunch i had a mini wok, mcspicy burger, four leaves bread, drinks, bread again, till i ki siao liao la! but its not healthy.. i am not going to do that so often.. haha!

went to orchard area for a walk after work.. i jus need those quality moments to be alone and clear my tots and be happy! haa... wanted to find Dann, Andy, Ling but they happens to be all not working! *note they are all at diff place some more and they don't know each other.. so i jus toured ard lo.. and shun bian take my fone go and repair... =)

fri is coming.. i am nervous.. cos its the staff retreat and i have planned quite some parts of it.. director's gona be there and i hope everything will turn out well. some more game masters for the team building games! faints... i got no experience at all.. hope it will turn out well...

meanwhile i will post updates on the retreat soon!

ES is short for Embarrassing Slience. Used when one is speachless or when there is awkwardness in the air.

无言以对

对于L今天在公司里出现，的确感到意外，甚至有点措手不及，深怕自己恼羞成怒。

有时实在受不了自己的放不开。事实已摆明眼前，他能来到我公司却cant be bothered to come and find me. 我还有什么好气的？不用劝说他可能不知道我也在这里实习，那不是更糟吗？连我在那里实习都不知道。

幸好，在他到来的“欢乐时光”中并没有碰见他，因为不知道我该用怎么样的心情与态度面对这个情景。


why should i be bothered, when he cant be bothered at all?

很丢脸，因为每次只是说得出，做不到。=（

its a meaningful pic i grabbed from jess's bro's blog.. i like what is written there.. feels like so lonely.. haha!

是巧合吗？

J问我，为什么我的 nick 跟Y的博客里的一句话一样。 我只能说是巧合吧。J说我们是有默契，我心里想，我真的是不敢当。总不能要我厚着脸皮说我是他好朋友吧？应为事实不是这样..

当他有烦恼时会找的不是我，闷时想出去玩找的也不会是我，口中的朋友也好像没出现过我的名字时，我常问自己，到底是哪里出了差错？或许他说得对。我们本来就是不同世界的人。

朋友的定义，人人不同。或许以我的定义，对他来说，我只是个路人甲。

曾经，我以为是我们改变了他，让他从他一个人的世界走了出来。but after all, i found out that i have no part to play in it at all.

或许我们的brotherhood，只是我一厢情愿的想法吧。我真得有点累了，对朋友这样的心力交瘁，我不知道我还能撑到几时。我常劝人，握紧的手到底又能抓住什么。但看来，我是最没有资格说这句话的人。放不下这个包袱我前进不了，但我又何尝不想？或许我需要的，只是多一点的时间..

and so its sunday. have not rested.

been awoke since 4.30 am when the darned taxi called. i wonder why they are here so early to pick me at 4.50 when shop only open at 6. so that means near to 45 mins of nothing to do when i can actually have more sleep!!! *anger*

whats more, the leg message machines have been removed as the area is under make over.. no entertainment!! so i decide to nap after i ate my breakfast from bk..

mundane life continues.. i have decided to work on all week ends and public holidays.. that means 7 day work weeks and it will continue till next month.. i dunno how long i am able to hang on! i hope i will be able to do so.. jess please dun scold me u noe my reasons.. i need support of friends like you to hang on.. =)

tml is monday! tml will be a new day! lets all start a fresh! jess cheer up! everything will be fine!!

like finally.. MY COM IS FINALLY BACK!! repaired and working well again but it costed me 170 bucks.. gee! wear and tear.. no choice..

ANWS, i think MINDEF dun like me. cos they dun let me submit my e measurement say got error, and i have to trouble QQ. then all the items i have is different from the rest. lastly, the date that they all booked is full and it means i have to go on another date ON MY OWN~~~!!!!!


oh gawd... sianz..

yea jie mei... i have heeded ur advices the last time things happened and have moved on.. its just that some times i jus looked backed and had some thoughts... blogging bout it doesnt mean i cant get over it, i have gotten over.. jus that sometimes i still think about it..

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anws THE BIG RED ENVELOP HAS ARRIVED! my invitation from MINDEF is sent right to my door step.. hahas.. saw it only on monday cos i didnt go and open my letter box.. haa! mixed messy feelings. shall see how things goes first ba.. better go register at the website first for a medical check up date otherwise they will anyhow allocate.. =(

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the week has been a fulfiling one actually.. been to some site visits like sentosa golf club and fort canning country club... been years since i went to sentosa liao. it has changes alot. i shall find some time and get a bunch of friends to go there soon!

the fort canning park is also a place i have not been to since i am primary four. remembering those tombs and taking fotos there.. been up there twice this week and i love the greenery there!

had a mini outing to the philatelic museum after lunch on wed.. cos yan er has a pass to go.. and so me and kah ying and pete went with him... had fun and see alot of interesting things! some of the stamps i have them at home too! an eye opener...

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so now, i shall go for lunch.. tata~

why is it that everyone likes to do things that annoys me and in turn says that i am giving attitudes? i hate all these thats happening.. people claim alot of things.. like "you are a good boy.. we are good frens.. u are not disturbing... can always call me.." but how true are those comments?

i am starting to wonder what has the world become? why is it that no one is doing what he/she is preaching?

there was a time not long ago, i always get badly affected when i felt my "friends" left me out, neglected my feelings, dont treat me as frens. some one close told me not to be so petty.. forget the past and jus expect less from them lo...

now i was no longer "petty"...i jus heck if people dun like me and i can jus stay away from them in case i annoy them off... but what happens? people say u dun care about the friendship. i mean what the hell...

i cant care too much. then dun care also wrong. what to do? live with only myself is the best...

gee! the prev post that i post up caused a stir! =(

anw, dunch worry jess cos what this guy wrote does not really represent what i feel.. i jus copied it there cos its sort of diff from what we used to see in those old chain letters. so i am not a MCP like him!! hehe. its the new age and no one should longer be so chauvinistic rite? but then ur guess is definately rite! he is one lonely person and his best companion IS his best buddy - the dog.

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well anw its a 7 day work week for me last week... so tired! esp sat and sun.. worked morn shift at levis... now its giving me serious headache.. plus not enough sleep... imagine yest, the taxi is at my home at 0450 am!!! T_T all the not enough of sleep will make me age!!!


sat was day out with ben, cindy and joycelyn to celebrate her birthday, out at marina! the rest didnt come cos they were some what busy.. we ate yuki yaki and the night is filled with fun! also walk walked to esplanade there and we heard this performance at the out door theater.. this acapella group key elements. they sing well! the song that attracted me is liu shui nian hua.. their version is so nice and soothing! after that we walked to merlion too to take pics.. which after we all headed home.. i hope she liked the present we got for her!

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i seriously need more rest.. and motivation.. like some recognition from the work i am doing.. =(

i am quite free this morning! but it happens only once in a blue moon... =(

anw, since i am quite free, i SECRETLY go and surf blogs and webs and chat on msn.. a tough mission considering the amt of people walking pass my desk every moment.

first to present is what i have saw from jess's blog!

ok it all started when i said i dunno if i wanna go cos guys will have to be topless during spa sessions and all my fat meats will be out to meet the crowd. very malu. but then spa seems very appealing to me too! i shall do some calculation on the budget thingy so lets keep this on the top of our list still k jess? =)

in another conversation with Tatwee, we were discussing bout how we steal time from work to "take a rest". now i finally found someone who has the same habits as me!!!

was reading blinkymummy... and her post in the movie "the departed"... super funny can! haa!

又站在你家的门口
我们重复沉默
这样子单方面的守候
还能多久

终于你开口向我诉说她有多温柔
虽然你还握着我的手
但我已不在你心中

我真的懂
你不是喜新厌旧
是我没有 陪在你身边
当你寂寞时候

别再看着我
说着你爱过
别太伤痛
我不难过
这不算什么
只是为什么眼泪会流 我也不懂

就让我走
让我开始享受自由
回忆很多
你的影子也会充满我生活

我并不懦弱
你比谁都懂
虽然寂寞
这会是我
最后的宽容

抱紧我
再抱紧我
这一份感动
请你让我留在胸口
别再说是你的错
爱到了尽头
是非对错
就让它随风
忘了所有
过得比你快活

不要再说
或许这是最好的结果
现在分手
总好过你不爱我一拖再拖

松开你的手
离开你左右 我向前走
这会是我 真正的解脱

so free that i start blog jumping and trying out the quizzes that people have been trying. heres one, which you might want to try.


Get to know yourself better


Your view on yourself:

You are down-to-earth and people like you because you are so straightforward. You are an efficient problem solver because you will listen to both sides of an argument before making a decision that usually appeals to both parties.


The type of girlfriend/boyfriend you are looking for:

You are a true romantic. When you are in love, you will do anything and everything to keep your love true.


Your readiness to commit to a relationship:

You are ready to commit as soon as you meet the right person. And you believe you will pretty much know as soon as you might that person.


The seriousness of your love:

Your have very sensible tactics when approaching the opposite sex. In many ways people find your straightforwardness attractive, so you will find yourself with plenty of dates.
Your views on education

Education is very important in life. You want to study hard and learn as much as you can.


The right job for you:

You have many goals and want to achieve as much as you can. The jobs you enjoy are those that let you burn off your considerable excess energy.


How do you view success:

You are confident that you will be successful in your chosen career and nothing will stop you from trying.


What are you most afraid of:

You are afraid of things that you cannot control. Sometimes you show your anger to cover up how you feel.


Who is your true self:

You are full of energy and confidence. You are unpredictable, with moods changing as quickly as an ocean. You might occasionally be calm and still, but never for long.


---http://www.quizbox.com/personality/test82.aspx

Adopted from Cruzteng.com....



waaa!!!! i didnt noe 26 liao still can have mcdonald party!!! i also want!!! nex yr i will be 20 nia~ wun be too old yet! *envious envious*

i have never had a party ar mac b4... childhood dream but never fullfilled..

it has been a hundred years since i last blogged! but due to my home com breaking down.. sighs.. some one with lobangs please tell me to save my ccom!!!! T_T i want all my mp3s and my precious memories my fotos back! sighs..
i will be real sad if i lost all those fotos.. those precious memories! some gone that will never be back.. cos things changed, people changed. those people that i have took fotos with, might not want to take with me anymore now.. so.. please come back my fotos!!! jess i will be waiting to see if ur boy can help.. ha!
so meanwhile my limited readers, please bare with the time being for lack of posts!

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work has been fine! with the tasks given enough to keep me occupied at the correct time (ie, busy in the morn, free after lunch cos i am near to hibernating mood). the alone shoppings after work on my own has been enjoyable too and i am sad to pronounced that i am $XX poorer now! ha! but ok la.. cos the things that i have bought made mum happy lol..

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working has been becoming a chore. i am considering quiting levi's. cos i just simply cant stand some people anymore. like a bit no point staying there anymore liao le... cos i work and slog and i became someone who is more tired and sad. so whats the point? they raised the pay of people in the other boutiques but not ours in airport. we are suppose to get more higher paid then them cos its more troublesome for us to work! imagine the rubbish working hours. enough to tire everyone to death! sighs.. whats the use of sighing? as if its going to help..

i am so sorry binz.. i have disappointed 187373 peoples including you.. u all were there for me to be happy but i kept being unhappy cos of one person..

你们到底有没有想试过要了解我？



我多么希望我是个没情绪，没理由，没接口的人。但我不是。

总有一天我会败在自己的手上。当我独自寂寞时，世界还是一样会转动，大家还是一样会欢呼。


但，你会不会发现我已不在？

its quite a day.. imagine whole day, i am stil stuck at the 50 page report that i have to summarise to about 8 page only.. T_T have been doing it for about a week, but progress has not been significant till today. hope i can finish it by tml and hand it up!

meet up with jieyingz after work today!!! she is the best pal can! come down from science center to raffles city to pass me the vcd.. and we shopped ardd too!! i wanna say SORRY to her.. cos our shopping make her get suan by people!!! you will still be my good pal no matter wat jieying!

results is out! nearly forget abt it but jess reminded me.. hee.. and we waited till 12 tog. with amanda online too! results not out at 12 and me and jess were speculating that we are sabo-ed again. like the time for ipp posting. but at 1225 like that its out.

hmm. how to say leh. i am not satisfied with my results cos my gpa dropped. make me further from my ntu/smu dream le. like cant reach at all le. T_T

but nontheless, there is still causes worth celebrating!

whee!! i passed the f**king qm paper!!

yea i got D+. not a fab result at all. but considered how suck the lecturer/tutor and the notes is, i passed. i got a + somemore! ain't it worth celebrating??? i can't wait! tml going to reward myself over lunch!!!

p/s: MR LEE CHANG DA STOP BUGGING ME FOR MY RESULTS!!!!

gpa dropped. i am a little disappointed. cos that means i am one step further from ntu/smu. maybe i can get in there in my dreams. HAHA~ like they will allow! maybe in my dream i will be denied access too! ha!

jess passed all, and yh passed all too. and so does jieying, shaune, sam and herry. happy we cleared everything. and yongsheng jia you! dun give up. off i go to zzz! tml is another working day! now must cheong for ipp le.. hope it can pull my muddy grades higher!!!

mum has been commenting that i have been "socializing" more since ipp starts. well.. ipp jus sux too much la and have to chill out to release the stress..

have been noticing myself unknowingly going to raffles city for walk walk everyday after work.. i jus need time to be alone walking wondering ard to cool off all the stress! actually i wonder where my stress comes from but most of them comes from myself..

well well well. jess has been blogging saying that i don't blog la! so i going to blog a post for her. ha!

days have been rather mundane. and i am growing to be sick of it! i can stand it no more! *well at least GOING TO if not now* have been trying my very best to learn all the things but i really cant help it when i starts to doze off when miss lee is teaching us on the GeBiz system. i hope those info that i manage to get in is useful! otherwise later i will be lost when asked to operate it.. and there goes my good grades.. T_T have been hoping hard to get a good grade to pull up the gpa but i seriously dunno where i am in the scale of my supervisor. am i up to standards? sighs. rather not think of so far. week three in jus a wink! i jus hope i can go back to school soon..

ma workplace.. colourful! but not fun de.. haa.

housed in the meeting room..

da kuku com dat hurts my eyes n my so-cramp desk

last fri, had a chill out nite with Mabel and Boon. we talked about our thots and feelings. we shared alot of things. our emotions, feelings, even our burgers! hit carls junior before we head k box to sing our lungs out!

the food.. we love food!

Mabel, Kel, Boon. More then ten years and counting..

sat i went to meet vinas.. passing her bdae present.. for last yr and this yr! haa.. has been owing her.. we are all jus too busy*excuses* and not giving enough attention to our frens la!! chit chatted and she gave me a surprise.. i am so shocked but well i will be happy for u if u are really happy la!

chatted with shan on fone too and she gave me a surprise too! haha.. life is like a box of chocoloate.. full of surprises cos u wun noe wad u will get..

life at IPP is sure about eating and more eating! got to eat pocky la. and those drinks. love my daily suppl of coffee from the espresso machine.. so shiok to have the fresh coffee!! but well, no fab food ard. only week 3 and lunch has been growing into a chore. but still everyone is looking forward to it! have been telling mel, if we really become white collars whose purpose in being in the office everyday is to wait for lunch to come, isnt that a v sad thing?

pocky!

da old school strawberry milk we used to order thru our primary school...

anw, i jus hope the remaining nine weeks will be fab for me. PLEASE~! well almost no one has been asking me how my ipp is going.. haha.. peeps like H, Y, J, and some others. sighs. do i really have no frens? seen someone's blog la.. and found out that despite being quite close to him, i know nutting bout him.

how is his ipp?
how is his pay?
how is his life?

i dun noe at all. sometimes i felt like i am not qualified to be ur pal. cos i dunno u at all! sometimes i feel that u shut me out. well.. i am really at my wits end. jess teach me wat to do!

as for dearest H, after making me absolutely pissed with the undecisive guys, have not contacted me AT ALL. boo hoo. maybe i have grown used to people ignoring me. its happening too often. so often to the extend that i dont know how i should react.

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at the last day of exam, S asked me: isnt there any time you wanted to find out why we hated you so much? frankly, my heart skipped a beat when i heard the word "hate". i never tot someone would use such a word on me. especially this bunch of people whom i treated them like family in school can! but after that, i calmed down real quick in a split second and replied: is the reason really important? what will happen even if i noe it? will anything change?

she was dunbfolded. so am i. i dunno what gave me the power to reply so calmly, i have never been so calm before when handling such probs! but i think what i says really make senses la.. will it really help if i know? i am hated, and i move away. i jus felt it was logic to do so.. so that i annoy no one more. is that a fault too?

even if thing has turn well, i don't think i can still be as close with them as before? to make it simple, the trust is no longer there.. actually, i know that they have tonnes of activities but didnt call me. i actually don't mind, cos whats the use of me going and in the end everyone is unhappy? if its me 8 months ago, i would have died from anger. but that is the past. i think i must thank the quarrel with T and J, cos without that quarrel that disconnects me with the whole class, i would not have learnt so much. the truths.. abt frens.. what is actually real friendships? i doubt anyone will ever find an answer to it..

i am not being cold blooded now! stop calling me that! its not that i have no emotions.. and not that those friends meant nothing to me that its ok to lose them.. its jus that my perceptions have changed.. like i have said, its no use of my appearance if it is going to make everyone annoyed la.