i just found out.
looking back at the past and seeing the current situation things are at, i think i am pretty much a failure.
i don't wanna lose some people, but i've lost them. and it seem pretty permanent. things arent getting better and even i myself is escaping.
i jus dun wanna admit that i have lost.. thats y i have not broken down yet.. but the biggest prob is i dont know when i will.
sometimes i do wonder:-
why he cant find anything to talk to me anymore? we're supp to be good friends.. but now we are no better than strangers. have i not tried hard enough?
and many other cases. i know my friend has been sandwiched but that is not what i want either. the situation is making me wonder whether i has been sucha rotten person. that no one can have a way to communicate to me. that people are believing what they heard of my instead of the 'me' tat they know, that.. i am pretty shunned by the rest..
am i really that bad, friends? do you still treat me as, friends?
i reckon, its more or less my fault. maybe i try too hard. maybe our paths are just meant to intertwined at only a certain part.. and that part has ended already..
lost were the days, gone were the days. no matter how much and hard i try, things just arent getting better. i used to be v outspoken and speak my mind when i feel i dun like it. at that time, people say i was too direct. and that i put out all emotions on my face. now, people are saying i am too quiet and not really willing to communicate.. which is the kind of face that people want to see me put?
Sunday, May 27, 2007
Friday, May 25, 2007
what was in my mind then?
i think i was abit scared. to fact the reality i think.
scared that i will be in the same situation again. a situation where my existance is forgotten and everyone just go on and on yaking about that event - yes the one that i arent involve yea.. and i will like be in that awkward situation again which i do not know how i should react.
scared that i will be in the same situation again. a situation where my existance is forgotten and everyone just go on and on yaking about that event - yes the one that i arent involve yea.. and i will like be in that awkward situation again which i do not know how i should react.
Wednesday, May 23, 2007
Pain.
it always sets me to think:-
how much pain does it take for one to suffer before he/she becomes numb and dun feel it anymore?
how much pain is "alot"?
all but just emotions felt.
days passed fast with work, thou the endless spreadsheets and payment checklists are driving me absolutely crazy. running here and there does not make me look busy and hardworking, but only a crazy mad dog pacing ard.
=(
lunch today is like delayed till one cos of the meeting with promo peoples for the budgeting issues.. and after that is lunch. cant help but kinda feel left out, or issit that i had unknowingly isolated my self?
since when has that wall been built!
how much pain does it take for one to suffer before he/she becomes numb and dun feel it anymore?
how much pain is "alot"?
all but just emotions felt.
*****
days passed fast with work, thou the endless spreadsheets and payment checklists are driving me absolutely crazy. running here and there does not make me look busy and hardworking, but only a crazy mad dog pacing ard.
=(
lunch today is like delayed till one cos of the meeting with promo peoples for the budgeting issues.. and after that is lunch. cant help but kinda feel left out, or issit that i had unknowingly isolated my self?
since when has that wall been built!
Tuesday, May 22, 2007
quotes: from Nat #3
One of the hardest lessons in life is to learn how to love without having
to say it; And to learn when someone is loving you even when it isn’t
spoken.
Monday, May 21, 2007
now playing: 王菲 - 红豆
还没好好地感受雪花绽放的气候
我们一起颤抖会更明白什么是温柔
还没跟你牵著手走过荒芜的沙丘
可能从此以后学会珍惜天长和地久
有时候有时候我会相信一切有尽头
相聚离开都有时候没有什么会永垂不朽
可是我有时候宁愿选择留恋不放手
等到风景都看透也许你会陪我看细水长流
还没为你把红豆熬成缠绵的伤口
然后一起分享会更明白相思的哀愁
还没好好的感受醒著亲吻的温柔
可能在我左右你才追求孤独的自由
有时候有时候我会相信一切有尽头
相聚离开都有时候没有什么会永垂不朽
可是我有时候宁愿选择留恋不放手
等到风景都看透也许你会陪我看细水长流
我们一起颤抖会更明白什么是温柔
还没跟你牵著手走过荒芜的沙丘
可能从此以后学会珍惜天长和地久
有时候有时候我会相信一切有尽头
相聚离开都有时候没有什么会永垂不朽
可是我有时候宁愿选择留恋不放手
等到风景都看透也许你会陪我看细水长流
还没为你把红豆熬成缠绵的伤口
然后一起分享会更明白相思的哀愁
还没好好的感受醒著亲吻的温柔
可能在我左右你才追求孤独的自由
有时候有时候我会相信一切有尽头
相聚离开都有时候没有什么会永垂不朽
可是我有时候宁愿选择留恋不放手
等到风景都看透也许你会陪我看细水长流
Sunday, May 20, 2007
Herry, Angie, Adi, Kel.
it has been long since we all had a "good serious" gathering.. angiee had been at africa with her parents for the past 6 months.. and herry was.. more engaged with army and some other things. lol. it seems like it had been one hundred years since we were last this close. THANK GOD WE STILL ARE THIS CLOSE. everyone seem to be busy with their own life at one moment.. but i cant afford to lose them. lol. we must meet more!!!
was at PS and VIVO, also went to the spain2dream private sale, which we bought nothing but choclates. lol. snacked Carls Jr at the open plaze *is that what u call the open air level that is highest at vivo??*.
good talk with herry. i am happy. life shd be happy. and i am happy that i have a fren like him to care about me. what more can i ask? =) dunch worry bro i will be fine and will be the good old kk u loved!!! hohoho.
Let the pics tell the happiness:-
at subway..
in the MRT to vivo..
shopping.eating.chatting.chilling.
was at PS and VIVO, also went to the spain2dream private sale, which we bought nothing but choclates. lol. snacked Carls Jr at the open plaze *is that what u call the open air level that is highest at vivo??*.
good talk with herry. i am happy. life shd be happy. and i am happy that i have a fren like him to care about me. what more can i ask? =) dunch worry bro i will be fine and will be the good old kk u loved!!! hohoho.
Let the pics tell the happiness:-
at subway..
in the MRT to vivo..
shopping.eating.chatting.chilling.
quotes: from Mars vs Venus
you can fix a broken phone, but can you fix a broken friendship?
坏了的手機能修，
有裂痕的友誼，能嗎？
坏了的手機能修，
有裂痕的友誼，能嗎？
Saturday, May 19, 2007
brooding.
havent had a proper post for quite a few days. blogger has been down down into the drain and its irritating the hell outta me.
lunch today is at miss clarity, at bugis there right next to KA's new work place! hoho but he is not there so didnt manage to ka jiao him when i went.. as you know, office people are mostly "less sporting" to go somewhere further for lunch.. and so it is a feat for us to travel there by bus for lunch!! haha.. like what shrl say, "its good that we colleagues share some memories outside of central kopitiam". haha! foor there is not bad and affordable. $8.80 for set lunch with drinks, soup and dessert. ok rite! i ordered chrispy chicken baked rice and it is good.. nex time i will try the other dishes that the rest tried..
anw, ITS FRIDAY-!!! i do think that friday is a day which working people looks forward to.. for the good rest and the time to do things that they want. hit town after work to get some destress from walking ard.. called jas and she happens to be ard so we met up and chat/dinner! its been long.. also went to look up dan. that ah fat! haha..
shopping ard orchard!
sometimes, hearing what's happening at your ex-workplace do makes you feel fortunate that you are no longer there - that that place is already an 'ex'. heard from jas what has been happening, arent surprised but didnt tot that things have already gone this bad. well, current work is still not so bad after all! =)
like what ting says, wang shi zhi neng hui wei. those nice old good times only lives in memory..
carina has left! hais one less "partner" at work liao.. soon after shrl is going too.. and then ys and ly is going too.. like all the original people in dsg almost gone le.. the interns are leaving nex week too.. sianz.. i hope i will not be dragged my the snr mgt to have lunch tgt!! omg.. cant stand having to discuss work over lunch.. -_-
lunch is over at this super ex place at robertson quay. famous for their mussels. i love mussels but i didn't give it a try. remember i said it was expensive.. -_-
they've got nice decos on the walls.. one of the wall is made into the silhouette of TIN TIN characters. my fav comic! think i finish the whole series le.. last time, at old bedok library, there is a special shelf all TIN TIN comics!!
bye bye carina!
and i had the steak set lunch *cheapest on menu* which already cost near to 30. omg its jus a lunch for a part timer i would say it is VERY EX. as so agreed by the interns too. haha.
and so. that means i have to save save save for the coming weeks!
lunch today is at miss clarity, at bugis there right next to KA's new work place! hoho but he is not there so didnt manage to ka jiao him when i went.. as you know, office people are mostly "less sporting" to go somewhere further for lunch.. and so it is a feat for us to travel there by bus for lunch!! haha.. like what shrl say, "its good that we colleagues share some memories outside of central kopitiam". haha! foor there is not bad and affordable. $8.80 for set lunch with drinks, soup and dessert. ok rite! i ordered chrispy chicken baked rice and it is good.. nex time i will try the other dishes that the rest tried..
anw, ITS FRIDAY-!!! i do think that friday is a day which working people looks forward to.. for the good rest and the time to do things that they want. hit town after work to get some destress from walking ard.. called jas and she happens to be ard so we met up and chat/dinner! its been long.. also went to look up dan. that ah fat! haha..
shopping ard orchard!sometimes, hearing what's happening at your ex-workplace do makes you feel fortunate that you are no longer there - that that place is already an 'ex'. heard from jas what has been happening, arent surprised but didnt tot that things have already gone this bad. well, current work is still not so bad after all! =)
like what ting says, wang shi zhi neng hui wei. those nice old good times only lives in memory..
*****
carina has left! hais one less "partner" at work liao.. soon after shrl is going too.. and then ys and ly is going too.. like all the original people in dsg almost gone le.. the interns are leaving nex week too.. sianz.. i hope i will not be dragged my the snr mgt to have lunch tgt!! omg.. cant stand having to discuss work over lunch.. -_-
lunch is over at this super ex place at robertson quay. famous for their mussels. i love mussels but i didn't give it a try. remember i said it was expensive.. -_-
they've got nice decos on the walls.. one of the wall is made into the silhouette of TIN TIN characters. my fav comic! think i finish the whole series le.. last time, at old bedok library, there is a special shelf all TIN TIN comics!!
bye bye carina!and i had the steak set lunch *cheapest on menu* which already cost near to 30. omg its jus a lunch for a part timer i would say it is VERY EX. as so agreed by the interns too. haha.
and so. that means i have to save save save for the coming weeks!
Thursday, May 17, 2007
run.
suddenly, i feel like i am in the middle of no where. and that i dont belong to anywhere.
i wanna runn awayy...
i wanna runn awayy...
quotes: from NAT #2
Disappearance
Sometimes we wonder: If I disappeared (or died), would people come looking for me? Methinks that's the reason why a lot of people go into hiding. They want to know if they did make a difference. Whether their existence mattered.
At most, one or two people might come by, searching for you out of genuine concern. You retreat further. It breaks their heart but in the end, they give up. Maybe one of them might come by now and then to just drop in on you.
Then you move house without telling anyone. At the same time, you wonder where everybody has gone.
And you realise that when you wake from your hibernation, everyone else has moved on with their own life and have their own families and children and grandchildren. You remain trapped in the past. But you can't blame anyone because it was you who went into hibernation.
Everyone else thinks you died. They missed you for a little while, and then they moved on and resumed Life - as all living creatures are wont to do.
It was a sad day to learn the even sadder truth.
Like a modern day Rip van Winkle, the only company you have now is your own shadow and your very long beard.
Sometimes we wonder: If I disappeared (or died), would people come looking for me? Methinks that's the reason why a lot of people go into hiding. They want to know if they did make a difference. Whether their existence mattered.
At most, one or two people might come by, searching for you out of genuine concern. You retreat further. It breaks their heart but in the end, they give up. Maybe one of them might come by now and then to just drop in on you.
Then you move house without telling anyone. At the same time, you wonder where everybody has gone.
And you realise that when you wake from your hibernation, everyone else has moved on with their own life and have their own families and children and grandchildren. You remain trapped in the past. But you can't blame anyone because it was you who went into hibernation.
Everyone else thinks you died. They missed you for a little while, and then they moved on and resumed Life - as all living creatures are wont to do.
It was a sad day to learn the even sadder truth.
Like a modern day Rip van Winkle, the only company you have now is your own shadow and your very long beard.
Wednesday, May 16, 2007
dA: Sky
check out this new series that i have put up onto my dA. hope that i can me motivated enough to make it a ongoing project thou.. =)
quotes: from Nat
If people think you are bad, anything you do will always be perceived as
bad.
7. Love is: something that you can't impose on someone. You can only give it and hope that it's reciprocated. Love is also something that we must learn to receive, no matter how unworthy we think we are.
bad.
*****
7. Love is: something that you can't impose on someone. You can only give it and hope that it's reciprocated. Love is also something that we must learn to receive, no matter how unworthy we think we are.
*****
forgotten #2.
It's true. Do one wrong and all the goodness that's ever been done will be erased.
People are indeed forgetful.
People are indeed forgetful.
Tuesday, May 15, 2007
-_-
after being very late for work yesterday, i forced myself to get up real early today. and to make my self awake, i decided to jog for 1/2 hour before i go to work. shun bian training for NS!!!
but what happen this morning? managed to wake up at about 650.. buts its pouring like no one's business out side the window.. -_-"
sipeh sian!! told sandy when i reach office, and she say it means i am meant to go in to NS to suffer thats y now wake early le also cant jog. double -_-"
aarrhhgg!! tmr morn i will wake again to jog de!!!
but what happen this morning? managed to wake up at about 650.. buts its pouring like no one's business out side the window.. -_-"
sipeh sian!! told sandy when i reach office, and she say it means i am meant to go in to NS to suffer thats y now wake early le also cant jog. double -_-"
aarrhhgg!! tmr morn i will wake again to jog de!!!
forgotten.
sometimes, knowing more of the truth might only make ourselves feel worse off.. people say: curiosity kills the cat. the truth hurts. very.
日就見人心，時間久了就能看到真相，夢想就會破碎。
日就見人心，時間久了就能看到真相，夢想就會破碎。
Monday, May 14, 2007
Hate This Feeling.
i hate this kinda ambiguous feeling that i am having right now. like i am dying to find out what some people feel but to no avail. and i keep feeling like they have doubt of me/ my character/ hate me/ despise me.
haish..
when will the days like those we have in the past come back??
haish..
when will the days like those we have in the past come back??
Sunday, May 13, 2007
Spidey III
caught the show with the WSGang. qq,herry,jx,ka,ter,jess,cd. not bad a show i would say. after that is dinner at kfc and then slacking at SMa till 11 when everyone head home for guess3 - selina and hebe.
只是放手未必就好過.
其實，有多少人能真正了解，什麽是貌合神離？什麽是話不投機半句多？
並不是想說又是他們的不對，只是，那件事發生以後，什麽都變了吧。
回不到從前了。。是這樣嗎？
聼著他們說著我不不會被邀請的聚會，確實是有點尷尬。因爲不知道要怎樣面對，縱使我早已知道了這件事。
真的會像T所說的，事情縂有一天會好轉，時間能使一切變得正常嗎？希望如此。只是放手未必就好過.
Friday, May 11, 2007
quotes: from Mary
怎样忘记他
失恋后，我们总爱问：
“我怎样可以忘记他？我很想忘记他，但我就是没法忘记他。”
如果没法忘记他，就不要忘记好了。
为什么要那么痛苦地去忘记一个人？时间自然会让你忘记他。
现在，我请你干万别想着一头粉红色的大笨象。
请问，你想到的是什么？
你立刻就想到一头粉红色的大笨象了。
你愈努力想去忘记，你愈是无法忘记。
仍然爱着他，忘不了他，是理所当然的事，不必觉得惭愧。
有些人明明忘不了，却自欺欺人说：
“我已经忘了他。”
然而，只要别人一提起他，她就无法控制自己。
有一天，你会忘记他的。
真正的忘记，是不需要努力的。
有一天，你从浴室洗了一个澡出来，扭开唱机听听自己喜欢的音乐，你忽尔想起，
你曾经爱过一个人，啊，原来你爱过这个人，那仿佛是很遥远的事，你已经一点感觉也
没有了。这就是忘记。
有一天，别人提起某某，你才猛然想起，你曾经爱过这个人，现在已经不记得了。
这就是忘记。
如果时间不可以令你忘记那些不该记住的人，我们失去的岁月又有什么意义？
Monday, May 07, 2007
over the weekend.
remember the fire drill here at mica last yr? during the last week of my internship? its suppose to not happen so often. like once or twice a year only. and guess wat? i actually met one again. -_- last thurs!!!
as usual our dept is like one of the latest la. cant imagine what if a fire really break out. haha!
sentosa! still as good but not the same paradise anymore.went over to sentosa on sun cos its mum's bdae.. and dad suggest going there cos its like long since we last went (10 yrs) and also to see the new musical fountain. there so much changes over there!!! but anws, i am quite disappointed la.. cos theres no longer the tranquility that i used to be able to find there.. so many places down there that i used to go are gone liao.. even the ferry terminal! i think hor its like quite a icon of sentosa leh.. hm hmm.. maybe they're right.. we need these changes for a better future.. lets hope the better future will really come!
song of the sea! great!dropped by at the new musical fountain too! now its called the songs of the sea. with abit of simple story line and a few people acting, combined with fire and pyrotechnics. actually i do find that its quite worth the 6 bucks. not too bad. and also met YJ there! know he's working at sentosa but didnt really expect to see him there.. lol.. going there makes me so tempted to work there!!! i think if i really work there.. my mood will become v good lor haha. pictures up later. too lazy to upload. lol.
my autographed 延長比賽 album!and for today!!! i took half day leave hehe. went to meet sis peisin and jieying for TANK'S CONCERT!!! woohoo-! walaos its like totally so good lor. i heart him. his songs are great. one minor disappointment is that he did not sing 我們小時候。otherwise it would have been total perfect. also bought his album there since i have wanted to long ago, its cheaper there at 16, and i get to get it autographed! y not right??
eh.. the concert this time round is by 1003 de but i keep thinking and thot that it is 933.. till i see lingzhi i shocked.. cos i forgot she "jump" to 1003 liao.. still miss her way of hosting but she makes better chemistry with cruz back at the 933 days la..
view from MRT on my way to amk..after the concert, i see jieying home while peisin rush of to the next filming at mediacorp.. while i went to meet GC. haish.. miss her alot.. its been quite some time since we last met up and i really felt like i miss her alot on sat.. so i asked her if she wanna meet today.. was shopping ard amk hub and talking before her mum came and join us for dinner.. everything was great la.. the chat, the food, the company.
if only we were really together...
quotes: from [。小鳥與樹是甜蜜的。]
放棄不是逃避
放棄不是個錯誤
放棄不完全就叫半途而廢
放棄不一定比持續來的好過
狠下決心放棄一個人一件事其實是很難的
往往都是不得已才會有放棄的念頭
這是要經過漫長的考慮
想很多想很遠想很久才做得出的選擇
當人們選擇放棄
往後卻總是會想起當初如果沒放棄會如何
一直思考這無解的問題更是種折磨
放棄不是個錯誤
放棄不完全就叫半途而廢
放棄不一定比持續來的好過
狠下決心放棄一個人一件事其實是很難的
往往都是不得已才會有放棄的念頭
這是要經過漫長的考慮
想很多想很遠想很久才做得出的選擇
當人們選擇放棄
往後卻總是會想起當初如果沒放棄會如何
一直思考這無解的問題更是種折磨
Friday, May 04, 2007
now playing: 丁当 - 明白
盛夏光年 电影主题曲
词曲:五月天阿信
你说你感觉不对
心情很坏
我无法控制
泪水流下来
莫名的难过是情绪作祟
没有谁错谁对需要安慰
不能离开
我只是要你明白
明白我对你的爱
除了你我的爱无可取代
没有人让我如此的依赖
ho……
因为你我的爱
永远存在
词曲:五月天阿信
你说你感觉不对
心情很坏
我无法控制
泪水流下来
莫名的难过是情绪作祟
没有谁错谁对需要安慰
不能离开
我只是要你明白
明白我对你的爱
除了你我的爱无可取代
没有人让我如此的依赖
ho……
因为你我的爱
永远存在
Wednesday, May 02, 2007
quotes: from YJ
i see the nature of human,
i see through it
and realised all that touches the surface is nothing but a façade.
Tuesday, May 01, 2007
now playing: 吳青峰 - 小情歌
这是一首简单的小情歌
唱着人们心肠的曲折
我想我很快乐
当有你的温热
脚边的空气转了
唱着我们心头的白鸽
我想我很适合
当一个歌颂者
青春在风中飘着
你知道就算大雨让这座城市颠倒
我会给你怀抱
受不了看见你背影来到
写下我度秒如年难捱的离骚
就算整个世界被寂寞绑票
我也不会奔跑
逃不了最后谁也都苍老
写下我时间和琴声交错的城堡
最后谁也都苍老
唱着人们心肠的曲折
我想我很快乐
当有你的温热
脚边的空气转了
唱着我们心头的白鸽
我想我很适合
当一个歌颂者
青春在风中飘着
你知道就算大雨让这座城市颠倒
我会给你怀抱
受不了看见你背影来到
写下我度秒如年难捱的离骚
就算整个世界被寂寞绑票
我也不会奔跑
逃不了最后谁也都苍老
写下我时间和琴声交错的城堡
最后谁也都苍老
*****
its may day!! for the labourers.. and i do "farm" so that means i can celebrate it too! woohoo-! the best way to celebration is to have uninterupted sleep till 11... and i am now so happy! no sleep = unhappy. haha!
mediacorp suck. cos there is no shows to watch on every channel on a PH. i hope their business fold soon!!! but i think thats difficult... cos there is only one station.. bo pian all have to watch their programmes.. even when it suck.. -_-
had mac for brunch.. and fish burger lost the good old flavors of the past.. now its small and no longer nice... =( shall head to grandma's place later soon!
*****
a new series i shot for my dA, i got this idea of reflection cos of the recent series of things that happens between me and my fren, and that i wanna have a better picture of how people see me as. cos i wanna know.. if things really happened becos of me..
Sunday, April 29, 2007
i have low credibility.
everyone choose to believe what some one else said of me. you choose to believe what someone else said of me but u forget, i am ur fren too. everyone of you has doubt on my credibility but no one talks to me abt it. no one has plans to clear it up.
yea yea. u guys must be saying i am a bastard yea, after what has happened. that i am heartless, unwilling to make any effort, that why some one can be present i cant. that i arent 'friend' enough.
why is it that no one choose to believe i am genuine busy and its not that i DO NOT want to go. i even brought that present to office. but with no destination for me to go to and no one picking up call, where do you guys want me to go?
why am i rushing and pushing myself to finish all the work in that limited time for? and for who?
had enough. didnt expect that not a single one have that lil faith in me.
and yes, they are my class mates. pals whom i spend 3 fucking years with. thru thick and thin and everything. but what did all these bring? it only turn out that they trust what someone else said of me. and that some heck cared.
i arent even angry, nor pissed off. i am jus...
lifes sad, that no one wants to know what i am thinking thru the person, but only thru my blog..
yea yea. u guys must be saying i am a bastard yea, after what has happened. that i am heartless, unwilling to make any effort, that why some one can be present i cant. that i arent 'friend' enough.
why is it that no one choose to believe i am genuine busy and its not that i DO NOT want to go. i even brought that present to office. but with no destination for me to go to and no one picking up call, where do you guys want me to go?
why am i rushing and pushing myself to finish all the work in that limited time for? and for who?
had enough. didnt expect that not a single one have that lil faith in me.
and yes, they are my class mates. pals whom i spend 3 fucking years with. thru thick and thin and everything. but what did all these bring? it only turn out that they trust what someone else said of me. and that some heck cared.
i arent even angry, nor pissed off. i am jus...
lifes sad, that no one wants to know what i am thinking thru the person, but only thru my blog..
Saturday, April 28, 2007
quotes: from h o z
If only you could see the tears in the world you left behind…
If only you could heal my heart just one more time…
Even when I close my eyes,
There’s an image of your face…
And once again I come to realize…
You’re a loss I can’t replace…
Friday, April 27, 2007
說曹操曹操就到
as i was ranting a few posts back about how nyp is slow even in graduation.. i got the letter today re the graduation! and yes we have the graduation robe too! i can foresee.. 數百人同時在謀殺底片的壯觀場面...
anw, jus out with ling and binz.. havent met them for a long long time! had xin wang hk cafe and it arent that good la.. but we made up with all the chatting! strolled from heartland mall back home.. ha! the last time... we strolled home after our outing too.. maybe the next time, we can just meet up and stroll the whole day.. *i was jus joking..*
work is getting more intense this few days! deadline for submission of budget is coming but the mgt has so many things not fixed yet! and things getting messier.. -_- and i also become more slack sighs.. everything pls be well soon!!! i hope that work can be more smoothly la..
anw, jus out with ling and binz.. havent met them for a long long time! had xin wang hk cafe and it arent that good la.. but we made up with all the chatting! strolled from heartland mall back home.. ha! the last time... we strolled home after our outing too.. maybe the next time, we can just meet up and stroll the whole day.. *i was jus joking..*
work is getting more intense this few days! deadline for submission of budget is coming but the mgt has so many things not fixed yet! and things getting messier.. -_- and i also become more slack sighs.. everything pls be well soon!!! i hope that work can be more smoothly la..
why? #3
i dunno...
when i told hao "forget it la"... it just pierced my heart.. that things have to come to this end..
thanks to hao for listening to me...
when i told hao "forget it la"... it just pierced my heart.. that things have to come to this end..
thanks to hao for listening to me...
Thursday, April 26, 2007
msn: k e l - 15sept, 1030am, bmtc 1 - who same slot???
wK says:
muahahahhaa
prepare to burn
in hell
thanks weikeong. for the comment haha!
EDIT:
weikeong posted something later on..
wah lau. it feels damn good to have come out of army. and see other people suffering
AHHAHA. sorry
-_-"
EDIT:
aiyah the only consolation you can have is that everyone has gone through it
and then you will, and can come out of it alive
ok. this makes me feel better. thanks wK!
It's here!
yeap the enlistment letter is here. nope did not get into police as i hoped. but yes i did get to enlist later. sept 15. but thinking ahead, arent that good huh cos that also means i ord later. -_-
erm, had a very mixed feeling when i got to know that the letter had finally arrived.. i wouldn't deny that there is a lil lil percentage in me that i actually felt a bit scared. but heys, thats a big uncertainty ahead yea! who would not? nervous!!!
anw, i will heed father's advise and start to work out so that i would not suffer when i go in.. i still have 4 more months! i hope i will be ready by then...
erm, had a very mixed feeling when i got to know that the letter had finally arrived.. i wouldn't deny that there is a lil lil percentage in me that i actually felt a bit scared. but heys, thats a big uncertainty ahead yea! who would not? nervous!!!
anw, i will heed father's advise and start to work out so that i would not suffer when i go in.. i still have 4 more months! i hope i will be ready by then...
now playing: 我懷念的/北極星的眼淚
yes am listening this two songs. haha. i heart wo huai huai nian de!!!! its the best song is stef's latest album.
...我怀念的 是无话不说 我怀念的 是一起作梦 我怀念的 是争吵以后还是想要爱你的冲动 我记得那年生日 也记得那一首歌 记得那片星空 最紧的右手 最暖的胸口 谁 记得 谁 忘了 我怀念的 是无言感动 我怀念的是绝对炽热 我怀念的 是你很激动 求我原谅抱得我都痛 我记得你在背后 也记得我颤抖着 记得感觉汹涌 最美的烟火 最长的相拥 谁爱得太自由谁过头太远了 谁要走我的心 谁忘了那就是承诺 谁自顾自地走 谁忘了看着我 谁让爱变沉重 谁忘了要给你温柔 我怀念的 我还有想要爱你的冲动我记得那年生日 也记得那一首歌 记得那片星空 最紧的右手 最暖的胸口 我放手 我让座 假 洒脱 谁懂我多么不舍得 太爱了 所以我 没有哭 没有说
*****
was quite a old song. has been in my shuffle for quite some time but i tend to skip it most of the time cos i wanna listen to 楓, 專屬天使 and 我們小時候。recently, listened to this song again and felt that it is really not bad!
...当对的人 等不到对的时间 就在放放开手的瞬间 爱撕成两边
...我怀念的 是无话不说 我怀念的 是一起作梦 我怀念的 是争吵以后还是想要爱你的冲动 我记得那年生日 也记得那一首歌 记得那片星空 最紧的右手 最暖的胸口 谁 记得 谁 忘了 我怀念的 是无言感动 我怀念的是绝对炽热 我怀念的 是你很激动 求我原谅抱得我都痛 我记得你在背后 也记得我颤抖着 记得感觉汹涌 最美的烟火 最长的相拥 谁爱得太自由谁过头太远了 谁要走我的心 谁忘了那就是承诺 谁自顾自地走 谁忘了看着我 谁让爱变沉重 谁忘了要给你温柔 我怀念的 我还有想要爱你的冲动我记得那年生日 也记得那一首歌 记得那片星空 最紧的右手 最暖的胸口 我放手 我让座 假 洒脱 谁懂我多么不舍得 太爱了 所以我 没有哭 没有说
*****
was quite a old song. has been in my shuffle for quite some time but i tend to skip it most of the time cos i wanna listen to 楓, 專屬天使 and 我們小時候。recently, listened to this song again and felt that it is really not bad!
...当对的人 等不到对的时间 就在放放开手的瞬间 爱撕成两边
why? #2
actually, i cant find the logic why someone has to comment on the way i mend my blog. seriously.
Do not cross(the line).
我們井水不犯河水。
Do not cross(the line).我們井水不犯河水。
why?
from SP..
from NP..AGAIN! again! how come nyp also so much more slower than all the other schools de? how come they have graduation robe and we dun have de!
sighs.. some may say whats the big deal its jus a graduation.. but to me i think it may be the last lap of my education le.. if thats the case then it does mean that its impt rite!
lets home some news of graduation come fast!!!
Wednesday, April 25, 2007
zzZzzZzzZZzzz..
sometimes, parents don't know that some small things they do will hurt their children: that look in their eyes, that small gesture they show, that phrase they say, the un-understanding that they showed.
ok case close! i dun want to go into the details cos i ddun wanna remember it.. haha..
now in office.. feeling damn bored.. cos once again i got nothing to do again.. hmm later jus got to go get lunch for those people thats having meeting... ciao~!
ok case close! i dun want to go into the details cos i ddun wanna remember it.. haha..
now in office.. feeling damn bored.. cos once again i got nothing to do again.. hmm later jus got to go get lunch for those people thats having meeting... ciao~!
Tuesday, April 24, 2007
&*^(%&%$ %#&*^
super shits. i just found out that the show i wanna watch is R21. and that means i cant watch!!! whats worse? i dun think i can pass off... cos i jus cut my hair and i look like i am sec four now. wth!!! -_- wrong timing!
happy happy day.
today, i took half day leave off the morning and spend some time with my grandmother!! woohoo-! happy happy cos i have not spend time with her for a long time liao..
took her to the poly clinic for the regular check up.. some things not so right but i hope the blood test will bring good news.. also went to settle some misc stuff before we have lunch at kopitiam! kopi roti egg + fish soup with rice.. its a nice meal! i heart ah ma. LOL.
work is pretty smooth today too. abit busy, but i like that feeling! it beats having nothing to do and rot at my seat laa..
took her to the poly clinic for the regular check up.. some things not so right but i hope the blood test will bring good news.. also went to settle some misc stuff before we have lunch at kopitiam! kopi roti egg + fish soup with rice.. its a nice meal! i heart ah ma. LOL.
work is pretty smooth today too. abit busy, but i like that feeling! it beats having nothing to do and rot at my seat laa..
quotes: from Dorence
theres a chinese saying: dui ren huan xi, bei ren liu lei (smile at others, heartache behind smiles). Sometimes you wanna have someone share with your sorrows, but theres something else. Ego or something else. So everytime you have to hide the truth and pretend to be strong in the forefront. this builds up and finally you think of giving up everything you have. Your life, your soul and yourself.
Monday, April 23, 2007
zZzZzzZzz..
getting tired easily nowadays.. it must be something to do with the late nights. but its not that i don't want to sleep early, but rather, its difficult to get into sleep. things keep flowing into the mind especially in the nights.. and i starts to think alot.
nights always gives me the very comfortable feeling.. that i can just think.. of a lot of things.. its truly a very good time to be in deep thots.
anw, just home not long ago. went to the pasar malam with mum and sis.. its been long since i go there to munch on the foodie!!! cos for a long long time.. i had been too lazy to go and always get the rest to tapao for me.. haha! miss those days man.. when i was still much younger and will always go pasar malam.. to play those games and buy those snacks..
biz there arent good. theres one stretch of the pasar malam practically has no one at all. how is biz going to cont man.. and then slowly this pasar malam culture wil be gone forever.. hm.. sad sad. cos its something truely singaporean.. and theres less and less of things that truely singaporean liao..
Sunday, April 22, 2007
confused.
sometimes.. i dun understand. why is it that i must think the way some people want me to? why is it that i cant dun like some people simply cos everyone else thinks he is ok? why is it that it is always me in the wrong jus cos i am the only one who is not "ok" with the rest?
i have my own thinking and my own perception of some people.
i need to give it a clear thot yea. this whole issue is taking up too much of my time. maybe its also a good chance that i can leave? since.. i cant really blend in.. why stay and make people sick of me?
i have my own thinking and my own perception of some people.
i need to give it a clear thot yea. this whole issue is taking up too much of my time. maybe its also a good chance that i can leave? since.. i cant really blend in.. why stay and make people sick of me?
Saturday, April 21, 2007
roti john at s'goon garden.
my mum is kp-ing to my dad about how "bad" i am on the fone now. damns. i am irritated. some arguement/disagreement/quarrel/whatever-u-call-it broke out this morn before i left home. less of this kinda life pls.. i am already very tired.. and these are adding weight onto me.. =(
went to cut my hair, cos the prev experience was bad enough and my hair was is bad condition ever since. hair is now short! cos i decide to cut off those damaged part and let my healthy hair grow.. i hope i can get back the length before i get enlisted!!
also had lunch with hitsu and a slacking session at her house. lunch's at serangoon garden hawker centre, its not chomp chomp.. its the one slightly opp it.
was home by about evening, bathed and was too lazy to go over to grandma's place.. so i rotted at home. how good it is to have the whole house just to my self and i can get a moment of quietness to myself and only myself? but not all the time yea.. family is still important too haha.
ok! thats it! tmr then cont to blog. ^^
went to cut my hair, cos the prev experience was bad enough and my hair was is bad condition ever since. hair is now short! cos i decide to cut off those damaged part and let my healthy hair grow.. i hope i can get back the length before i get enlisted!!
also had lunch with hitsu and a slacking session at her house. lunch's at serangoon garden hawker centre, its not chomp chomp.. its the one slightly opp it.
was home by about evening, bathed and was too lazy to go over to grandma's place.. so i rotted at home. how good it is to have the whole house just to my self and i can get a moment of quietness to myself and only myself? but not all the time yea.. family is still important too haha.
ok! thats it! tmr then cont to blog. ^^
Friday, April 20, 2007
feelin down..
on some recaps first, wed was spent out to be with the cousins for aunt's birthday.. dinner at fish and co! was a great gathering as we usually only gathers at grandma's place. seldom an outing like this!
when we were really young.. we had all the time to play together.. to enjoy every moments of our lives.. but as we all grow, time seems to be not enough. it has to be divided amongst other people. like friends, colleagues and others.. i hope that in future, we all can spend more time together!
today's weikeong and david's last day, and theres a farewell lunch at highlanders at clark quay.. foods nice but its ex too! i think that place's name is highlander or something? had fun and laughter there.. and also foto taking! had wanted to take some fotos with the friends there.. but it seem like they dun really take fotos de.. hmm hmm...
thou know dave and wk for only a short time but i will miss the slacking times and crapping times we all had laa! life's all about like this.. people come and people go.. but what's impt is that they left footprints rite?
jus home from supper with hitsu. wanted to go cut hair, shop close le. wanted to go prata, shop close down le. MY FAV ATHAR IS NO LONGER IN EXISTENCE!!!!
sighs.. its quite saddening.. its THE prata shop that accompanied me thru my sec sch days.. a fav hang out me and sam always go.. the supper place for me and hitsu. and now, without warning, its gone and its forever. how to say leh? its a horrible feeling. something you are familiar with and never thought will be gone, is just gone. and you know it won't be back.
that feeling suck. i stood for like 20 seconds outside the closed athar and my mind is at a sudden lost.
sometimes, i think that we as human take things too for granted.. that we never thought that one day, things might be gone.. for this athar case, its not only the food that i miss, but the feelings that i have grew for it over the years. countless supper, that late lunch i had there after my chinese story telling competition, breakfasts there before the remedial classes on sats... and the list goes on. these are part of my memories that i will treasure alot!!!
another task on hand right now is to find another supper/gathering spot at serangoon area. -_-
when we were really young.. we had all the time to play together.. to enjoy every moments of our lives.. but as we all grow, time seems to be not enough. it has to be divided amongst other people. like friends, colleagues and others.. i hope that in future, we all can spend more time together!
*****
today's weikeong and david's last day, and theres a farewell lunch at highlanders at clark quay.. foods nice but its ex too! i think that place's name is highlander or something? had fun and laughter there.. and also foto taking! had wanted to take some fotos with the friends there.. but it seem like they dun really take fotos de.. hmm hmm...
thou know dave and wk for only a short time but i will miss the slacking times and crapping times we all had laa! life's all about like this.. people come and people go.. but what's impt is that they left footprints rite?
*****
jus home from supper with hitsu. wanted to go cut hair, shop close le. wanted to go prata, shop close down le. MY FAV ATHAR IS NO LONGER IN EXISTENCE!!!!
sighs.. its quite saddening.. its THE prata shop that accompanied me thru my sec sch days.. a fav hang out me and sam always go.. the supper place for me and hitsu. and now, without warning, its gone and its forever. how to say leh? its a horrible feeling. something you are familiar with and never thought will be gone, is just gone. and you know it won't be back.
that feeling suck. i stood for like 20 seconds outside the closed athar and my mind is at a sudden lost.
sometimes, i think that we as human take things too for granted.. that we never thought that one day, things might be gone.. for this athar case, its not only the food that i miss, but the feelings that i have grew for it over the years. countless supper, that late lunch i had there after my chinese story telling competition, breakfasts there before the remedial classes on sats... and the list goes on. these are part of my memories that i will treasure alot!!!
another task on hand right now is to find another supper/gathering spot at serangoon area. -_-
Wednesday, April 18, 2007
repeated telecast.
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*****
now playing: Richard Marx - Now and Forever
Whenever I'm weary
from the battles that rage in my head
You make sense of madness
when my sanity hangs by a thread
I lose my way but still you
seem to understand
Now and forever
I will be your FRIEND.
Sometimes I just hold you
Too caught up in me to see
I'm holding a fortune
that heaven has given to me
I'll try to show you each and
every way I can
Now and forever
I will be your FRIEND.
Now I can rest my worries and always be sure
That I won't be alone anymore
If I'd only known you were there all the time
All this time
Until the day the ocean doesn't touch the sand
Now and forever
I will be your FRIEND.
Now and forever
I will be your FRIEND.
from the battles that rage in my head
You make sense of madness
when my sanity hangs by a thread
I lose my way but still you
seem to understand
Now and forever
I will be your FRIEND.
Sometimes I just hold you
Too caught up in me to see
I'm holding a fortune
that heaven has given to me
I'll try to show you each and
every way I can
Now and forever
I will be your FRIEND.
Now I can rest my worries and always be sure
That I won't be alone anymore
If I'd only known you were there all the time
All this time
Until the day the ocean doesn't touch the sand
Now and forever
I will be your FRIEND.
Now and forever
I will be your FRIEND.
Tuesday, April 17, 2007
now playing: 曹格 - 背叛
雨 不停落下来
花 怎么都不开
尽管我细心灌溉
你说不爱就不爱
我一个人 欣赏悲哀
爱 只剩下无奈
我 一直不愿再去猜
钢琴上黑键之间
永远都夹着空白
缺了一块 就不精采
紧紧相依的心如何
say goodbye
你比我清楚还要我说明白
爱太深会让人疯狂的勇敢
我用背叛自己
完成你的期盼
把手放开不问一句
当作最后一次对你的溺爱
冷冷清清淡淡今后都不管
只要你能愉快
心 有一句感慨
我 还能够跟谁对白
在你关上门之前
替我再回头看看
那些片段
还在不在
*****
花 怎么都不开
尽管我细心灌溉
你说不爱就不爱
我一个人 欣赏悲哀
爱 只剩下无奈
我 一直不愿再去猜
钢琴上黑键之间
永远都夹着空白
缺了一块 就不精采
紧紧相依的心如何
say goodbye
你比我清楚还要我说明白
爱太深会让人疯狂的勇敢
我用背叛自己
完成你的期盼
把手放开不问一句
当作最后一次对你的溺爱
冷冷清清淡淡今后都不管
只要你能愉快
心 有一句感慨
我 还能够跟谁对白
在你关上门之前
替我再回头看看
那些片段
还在不在
*****
常問自己，爲什麽我只能站在一旁看著他們快樂，而因而不快樂。這是我想要的嗎？因該不是吧，對於把朋友看得如此重的我。但爲何現實又不是如此？這些都是因我而起的嗎？我不會說我完全沒有責任，但 it takes two hands to clap.
原來事實就是如此。
Monday, April 16, 2007
i'm still waiting..
i don't know.. it seems that the people who made me pissed dunno whats going on.. but wells, i can't blame them yea. i shall keep mum if no one brought up the matter anymore.
anw, had a conversation today with the other temp staffs today over lunch and teabreak. the topic somehow landed on "ghost stories".. from travelling experiences to ns stories we heard and some experience from them. OMG spooky ones from sue and dave! hmm that joss paper story.. i hope i will NEVER EVER gonna experience that!!
am really tired.. mentally.. i need a break! i wanna go siem reap/viet/bali/batam or those short trips thats not expensive!!! any takers?
anw, had a conversation today with the other temp staffs today over lunch and teabreak. the topic somehow landed on "ghost stories".. from travelling experiences to ns stories we heard and some experience from them. OMG spooky ones from sue and dave! hmm that joss paper story.. i hope i will NEVER EVER gonna experience that!!
am really tired.. mentally.. i need a break! i wanna go siem reap/viet/bali/batam or those short trips thats not expensive!!! any takers?
Sunday, April 15, 2007
hmm
its like coming to 5 am liao! tired.. thats of cos! but i dunno why i suddenly fel like going down to mcd to have their breakfast.. hha!
was supp to meet herry.. but in the end he's out of home late and so couldnt meet me as he has to meet jess. well well, first time he is back since he got enlist. but we did not meet. but anw, it was only like 4 or 5 days since he enlist? -_- thats the plus point for signing on laa... haha.. not like us.. chao recruit go in must 3 weeks then can come out.. but still, must find time to meet! maybe next week then.. gf more impt haha thats of cos! but i am VERY touched that herr msn me last nite when he is back.. =) smiley!!!
last friday, i met up with Hao! yea consecutive two days lol. but this time round its for a specific reason. hao remembered i was craving for the frog leg porridge!!! and so we went.. awwweee i am so touched when i receive his sms asking me if i still crave and wanna meet for dinner not.. haha.. and so we went! also had some bbq chicken wings and its total yummy. plus shopping ard chinatown area.. and we also stopped by a booth at somewhere near temple street.. display of pictures of singapore in the older days.. photos of the old cathay building.. bugis street ah gua, old ck tangs, national theater.. and some other interesting places that too bad now has been torn down le... =(
there, we also met a 60+ y.o uncle who told us some stories of the older days.. interesting and informative! not a opportunity that comes by easy yea to know something not normally taught in classrooms... were there talking till like that boss sort of shoo us off!
in all, it was a great night spent. we talked alot, of people ard us, our future and sorts. hao even ask me why i dun wan to get a gf! well...
we gotta meet more hao! since office is so close.. haha...
ok at the end of this post, ten mins later, i have decided not to go down to mcd.. maybe some cereals or noodles will do! but sighs.. thats damn harmful to my growing tummy! i wan it to go off soon!!
was supp to meet herry.. but in the end he's out of home late and so couldnt meet me as he has to meet jess. well well, first time he is back since he got enlist. but we did not meet. but anw, it was only like 4 or 5 days since he enlist? -_- thats the plus point for signing on laa... haha.. not like us.. chao recruit go in must 3 weeks then can come out.. but still, must find time to meet! maybe next week then.. gf more impt haha thats of cos! but i am VERY touched that herr msn me last nite when he is back.. =) smiley!!!
*****
last friday, i met up with Hao! yea consecutive two days lol. but this time round its for a specific reason. hao remembered i was craving for the frog leg porridge!!! and so we went.. awwweee i am so touched when i receive his sms asking me if i still crave and wanna meet for dinner not.. haha.. and so we went! also had some bbq chicken wings and its total yummy. plus shopping ard chinatown area.. and we also stopped by a booth at somewhere near temple street.. display of pictures of singapore in the older days.. photos of the old cathay building.. bugis street ah gua, old ck tangs, national theater.. and some other interesting places that too bad now has been torn down le... =(
there, we also met a 60+ y.o uncle who told us some stories of the older days.. interesting and informative! not a opportunity that comes by easy yea to know something not normally taught in classrooms... were there talking till like that boss sort of shoo us off!
in all, it was a great night spent. we talked alot, of people ard us, our future and sorts. hao even ask me why i dun wan to get a gf! well...
we gotta meet more hao! since office is so close.. haha...
*****
ok at the end of this post, ten mins later, i have decided not to go down to mcd.. maybe some cereals or noodles will do! but sighs.. thats damn harmful to my growing tummy! i wan it to go off soon!!
Friday, April 13, 2007
now playing: 光良 - 雨
冷冷的空气
湿红的眼眶里装满忧郁
默默的聆听
窗外这场大雨下个不停
伞下还有你的痕迹
勉强撑过这场雨
我却没有更多勇气
坚强过这一个雨季
单薄的伞下那是多么孤寂
听雨的声音像悲伤的歌曲
滂沱大雨竟如此的孤寂
我陪雨哭泣雨却还不肯停
寂寞的人才懂雨的心情
雨反复唱着熟悉旋律
用悲伤的情绪
听雨的声音仿佛谁在哭泣
倾盆大雨淋湿我们爱情
雨模糊记忆我忘记了冷静
是经历艰辛才走能到如今
这漫长的路还有多少泥泞
还没有晾干的外衣
闷在寂寞的房里
面对明天沉重的心
悬挂着伤感的水滴
你我的爱似乎等不到天晴
听雨的声音像难过的心情
我的泪飘进冷冷的雨里
雨何时才停伤何时能痊愈
而我何时才能够不再想你
积雨的感情终究还是分离
下着雨的天气
爱消失的气息
想念你的心情我淋着雨
湿红的眼眶里装满忧郁
默默的聆听
窗外这场大雨下个不停
伞下还有你的痕迹
勉强撑过这场雨
我却没有更多勇气
坚强过这一个雨季
单薄的伞下那是多么孤寂
听雨的声音像悲伤的歌曲
滂沱大雨竟如此的孤寂
我陪雨哭泣雨却还不肯停
寂寞的人才懂雨的心情
雨反复唱着熟悉旋律
用悲伤的情绪
听雨的声音仿佛谁在哭泣
倾盆大雨淋湿我们爱情
雨模糊记忆我忘记了冷静
是经历艰辛才走能到如今
这漫长的路还有多少泥泞
还没有晾干的外衣
闷在寂寞的房里
面对明天沉重的心
悬挂着伤感的水滴
你我的爱似乎等不到天晴
听雨的声音像难过的心情
我的泪飘进冷冷的雨里
雨何时才停伤何时能痊愈
而我何时才能够不再想你
积雨的感情终究还是分离
下着雨的天气
爱消失的气息
想念你的心情我淋着雨
bad luck with makan.
sighs. the curry puffs i bought for this morn breakfast turns out to be potato ones when what i wanted are the sardines ones... -_-
since tues, my lunches had been screwed. had the cheater not nice claypot rice on tues and the tasteless hong kong mee on wed. whats the irony? carina and david ordered food from the same store on both days and their food turns out to be nice. double -_-
i must make a good choice for today's lunch!!!!!
since tues, my lunches had been screwed. had the cheater not nice claypot rice on tues and the tasteless hong kong mee on wed. whats the irony? carina and david ordered food from the same store on both days and their food turns out to be nice. double -_-
i must make a good choice for today's lunch!!!!!
Wednesday, April 11, 2007
You know what?
You guys can go *&*##@!@#$%^&* for not picking up calls. Gosh what are handphones for! dammit.
You guys think it's plain fucking easy to support you pple all the way, I can tell you, it was a fucking emotional draining thing to do. But I still did it. I didn't do it for myself, I did it for you pple. You want to fucking ignore me because I pressured you, because I didn't make the choice that suited you, think of the pressure you yourselves have placed me into, which I placed aside.
Yea, maybe I was really too nice. Till the point that one of these days, you'll just see me snap.
Just look how many are willing to stand by me when I'm down at this moment. Just one person. And I wasn't even exactly close to that person.
You guys think it's plain fucking easy to support you pple all the way, I can tell you, it was a fucking emotional draining thing to do. But I still did it. I didn't do it for myself, I did it for you pple. You want to fucking ignore me because I pressured you, because I didn't make the choice that suited you, think of the pressure you yourselves have placed me into, which I placed aside.
Yea, maybe I was really too nice. Till the point that one of these days, you'll just see me snap.
Just look how many are willing to stand by me when I'm down at this moment. Just one person. And I wasn't even exactly close to that person.
Pissed.
yes i am pissed. don't ask me why. cos i dun even think those involved will know. so yea. its ok. jus let me be.
anw, happy birthday tEr!!!
edit: erm.. ok not so much pissed i think... i guess its more disappointment... =(
Tuesday, April 10, 2007
now playing: Hebe - She's The One
I was her
she was me
We were one
we were free
And if there's somebody calling me on
She's the one
If there's somebody calling me on
She's the one
We were young
we were wrong
We were fine all along
If there's somebody calling me on
She's the one
When you get to where you wanna go
And you know the things you wanna know
You're smiling
When you said what you wanna say
And you know the way you wanna play
You'll be so high you'll be flying
Though the sea will be strong
I know we'll carry on
Cos if there's somebody calling me on
She's the one
she was me
We were one
we were free
And if there's somebody calling me on
She's the one
If there's somebody calling me on
She's the one
We were young
we were wrong
We were fine all along
If there's somebody calling me on
She's the one
When you get to where you wanna go
And you know the things you wanna know
You're smiling
When you said what you wanna say
And you know the way you wanna play
You'll be so high you'll be flying
Though the sea will be strong
I know we'll carry on
Cos if there's somebody calling me on
She's the one
stop it. i say stop it.
what do you think i am? a robot?
so what if i wanna slack at home during the weekends? so what if i decide that i want to rot my weekends away? its MY weekend and i decides how i shd rest on my rest day after a week of work.
stop it. youre driving me up the wall.
so what if i wanna slack at home during the weekends? so what if i decide that i want to rot my weekends away? its MY weekend and i decides how i shd rest on my rest day after a week of work.
stop it. youre driving me up the wall.
dA: Sparks
Artist's Comments
"What's love, Daddy?""Sparks. That get to you. Always lovely at first, but what happens after is a cloud of smoke."
"Just like those fireworks?"
"Yeah, just like them son, just like them."
*****
from ~if-i-nvr-knew
a plead from me.
我好像從來沒求過你.. 沒有要求過什麽。
驟雨之後，真地會有彩虹嗎？曾幾何時，說“有”已經變成了一種自欺欺人，自我安慰，一個似乎永遠都不會實現可能。
不敢奢望些什麽，只希望，未來，我的路會好走一些... 不敢想象何時我會放棄，但至少現在的我，還能有那麽一點點的力氣繼續下去。
驟雨之後，真地會有彩虹嗎？曾幾何時，說“有”已經變成了一種自欺欺人，自我安慰，一個似乎永遠都不會實現可能。
不敢奢望些什麽，只希望，未來，我的路會好走一些... 不敢想象何時我會放棄，但至少現在的我，還能有那麽一點點的力氣繼續下去。
Sunday, April 08, 2007
Saturday, April 07, 2007
quotes: from Chelle
A lost love cannot be recovered.
Same thing goes to a lost friendship cannot be recovered.
I thought time will heal the wound.
But i forget it will leave a scar...
*****
a day spent at home. on my own. i think sometimes.. i jus need times like this where i can get to enjoy that lil bit of tranquility that is needed? had some plans to go china town or catch a movie.. but in the end, called it off... was it due to my unwillingness to accept the fact that i am unable to find even one soul to go with me? most probably... i hate that feeling. but there arent much i can do about it yea.. they've got appts already... one simply jus dont reply... =(
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jus chatted with Jan!! she's currently having a break and travelling ard europe with her class mates.. will be going to austria, italy, france. and she is going to venice too!!! omg. a place where i hope i can go laa!!!! i hope one day i can have the chance to go to these places too.. hope that i can travel more to widen my visions... stay safe jan!
*****
now playing: 張惠妹 - 記得
谁还记得
是谁先说永远的爱我
以前的一句话
是我们以后的伤口
过了太久
没人记得当初那些温柔
我和你手牵手
说要一起走到最后
我们都忘了
这条路走了多久
心中是清楚的
有一天有一天都会停的
让时间说真话
虽然我也害怕
在天黑了以后
我们都不知道会不会有遗憾
谁还记得
是谁先说永远的爱我
以前的一句
是我们以后的伤口
过了太久
没人记得当初那些温柔
我和你手牵手
说要一起走到最后
我们都累了
却没办法往回走
两颗心都迷惑
怎么说怎么说都没有救
亲爱的为什么
也许你也不懂
两个相爱的人
等对方先说找分开的理由
谁还记得
爱情开始变化的时候
我和你的眼中
看见了不同的天空
走的太远
终于走到分岔路的路口
是不是你和我
要有两个相反的梦
谁还记得
是谁先说永远的爱我
以前的一句话
是我们以后的伤口
过了太久
没人记得当初那些温柔
我和你手牵手
说要一起走到最后
是谁先说永远的爱我
以前的一句话
是我们以后的伤口
过了太久
没人记得当初那些温柔
我和你手牵手
说要一起走到最后
我们都忘了
这条路走了多久
心中是清楚的
有一天有一天都会停的
让时间说真话
虽然我也害怕
在天黑了以后
我们都不知道会不会有遗憾
谁还记得
是谁先说永远的爱我
以前的一句
是我们以后的伤口
过了太久
没人记得当初那些温柔
我和你手牵手
说要一起走到最后
我们都累了
却没办法往回走
两颗心都迷惑
怎么说怎么说都没有救
亲爱的为什么
也许你也不懂
两个相爱的人
等对方先说找分开的理由
谁还记得
爱情开始变化的时候
我和你的眼中
看见了不同的天空
走的太远
终于走到分岔路的路口
是不是你和我
要有两个相反的梦
谁还记得
是谁先说永远的爱我
以前的一句话
是我们以后的伤口
过了太久
没人记得当初那些温柔
我和你手牵手
说要一起走到最后
Happy Bdae Chelle!! (3/4/07)
woo~! dinner at sam's place. the best ramen on earth. would like to thank chelle for her generous treat!! sigh too bad i choose the wrong flavour for the cake.. but i really hope we all enjoyed that nite! i hope that next year.. next next yr.. and so on.. we all could stll be able to enjoy.. and i hope that one day.. that someone could join us back too..
Its Sat!!!
weekends here again... FINALLY! i think thats seriously what all working people are looking forward every week rite.. hha..
well, its good friday yesterday and my family went to Choa Chu Kang cemetry for qing ming festival praying.. wanted to take some pics to blog but in the end lost the kick to do so.. i reckon nex yr i wun be joining? cos of ns... hope that i can still go but maybe it arent matter to some anw.
i freaking hate all people who dun reply sms, miss calls and such. i hope all their hps DROP INTO THE TOILET BOWL~~~!!!!!
will i be part of the recalled memories of u guys? the tot of this is depressing...
its saturday. weekend.
and i arent happy. whats wrong with me?
well, its good friday yesterday and my family went to Choa Chu Kang cemetry for qing ming festival praying.. wanted to take some pics to blog but in the end lost the kick to do so.. i reckon nex yr i wun be joining? cos of ns... hope that i can still go but maybe it arent matter to some anw.
*****
i freaking hate all people who dun reply sms, miss calls and such. i hope all their hps DROP INTO THE TOILET BOWL~~~!!!!!
*****
will i be part of the recalled memories of u guys? the tot of this is depressing...
*****
its saturday. weekend.
and i arent happy. whats wrong with me?
Friday, April 06, 2007
Lie down to look at the stars.
it was ONLY two hrs spent eating, jaywalking, talking abt this & that this & that, us sitting there keeping a lookout for those disturbing ants, u wanting to cross over e 'gate' (happily happily forgetting abt e security who appeared b4 us talking to others b4 that!) YET it was time HAPPILY WELL SPENT esp after e whole longggg dae at work..
uve said -> 'we dun need to haf too many ppl at a chalet to enjoy' & now i say -> 'we dun even need a chalet to b able to enjoy!' =))
this testi from xiu pretty much sum up what we did last nite.. a gathering out of the busy work schedules we all have yea.
Thursday, April 05, 2007
now playing: 伍思凯 - 寂寞公路
说好和你一起流浪
失约的我独自飞翔
窗外景物不断的变换
提醒我背叛的心慌
说好不让你再流泪
迷惑的我不知是错是对
下雪街头独自的行走
握不住一杯温热的咖啡
new york dallas los angeles
寂寞公路每站都下雪
想念等候流逝的梦
寂寞公路每寸都伤痛
sunrise moomshake heartbreaker
寂寞公路每站都下雪
冷漠激情点烟的手
寂寞公路哪里是尽头
Wednesday, April 04, 2007
Damns!
wallaoz. i jus found out that i am the lowest paid temp staff there!! damns. Sue, the other temp got 7.6 while i am only paid 5.2!!!!! fucks la.. so much for having worked here before and being a poly grad. how much is experience worth seriously? and she even got OT pay!!!!
gee. but the place is really not bad laa... sighs. got used to this place le and then the environment is suitable for me...
the next time, i gotta seriously negotiate my pay!!!
gee. but the place is really not bad laa... sighs. got used to this place le and then the environment is suitable for me...
the next time, i gotta seriously negotiate my pay!!!
Saturday, March 31, 2007
nite cycle trip #5
its the fifth time we have nite cycle! routes have ranged from ECP, Changi V and airport runway. But this time round, we went to GEYLANG~! woohoo. Crew includes Herry, Hao, Jx, Ter, Jess, Yh, QQ, Cd. out of them its me, herry and jx who had been in for all the five trips. *JJJ ROX*
As usual, they are FREAKING LATE, which i don't understand why. all of them don't work and they are still late for near to one and half hour. I GOT WORK I STILL REACH EARLY CAN!! -_-"
the bikes suck. they don't give us discounts like they used to anymore.. citing "renovation liao then mor ex" as an excuse.. but the new bikes are not even better then those old one! those seats.. omg we are just starting and everyone's butt is like pain liao lor. CONDEMN next time find another shop!! haa..
ate alot for this trip too! its like an endless supper.. best is the tau huay at geylang la.. where we rest and talk.. and discussions lead to topics that is closely linked to geylang.. Jx has all the best insights! he must have alot of experience. ha! the way he give his comments confidently. ooh~
all activities ends at mcd as usual.. where we have our breakfast.. overall i think its considered a successful outing? just that i hate it when they are so late laa.. haa! was very tired after that with the tighs and ass that is hurting like hell.. gotta go rest liao!
ciao~
As usual, they are FREAKING LATE, which i don't understand why. all of them don't work and they are still late for near to one and half hour. I GOT WORK I STILL REACH EARLY CAN!! -_-"
the bikes suck. they don't give us discounts like they used to anymore.. citing "renovation liao then mor ex" as an excuse.. but the new bikes are not even better then those old one! those seats.. omg we are just starting and everyone's butt is like pain liao lor. CONDEMN next time find another shop!! haa..
ate alot for this trip too! its like an endless supper.. best is the tau huay at geylang la.. where we rest and talk.. and discussions lead to topics that is closely linked to geylang.. Jx has all the best insights! he must have alot of experience. ha! the way he give his comments confidently. ooh~
all activities ends at mcd as usual.. where we have our breakfast.. overall i think its considered a successful outing? just that i hate it when they are so late laa.. haa! was very tired after that with the tighs and ass that is hurting like hell.. gotta go rest liao!
ciao~
Defeat vs Giving Up
i don't know anymore.
若應有的生氣與不快盡只被失望取而代之，那麽到底還剩下些什麽？
5是一個漂亮的數字。就讓他停在這裡，留一個美好的記憶吧。
不要再有“以後”了..
若應有的生氣與不快盡只被失望取而代之，那麽到底還剩下些什麽？
5是一個漂亮的數字。就讓他停在這裡，留一個美好的記憶吧。
不要再有“以後”了..
Thursday, March 29, 2007
Fashion show?!
yays went to the first fashion show of my life. but a kinda flop one. haa! its the levi's copper fashion show. went cos dickson has tix and no one to go with so i went with him lor. its actually the first time i am going out with a net friend, but luckily things are still not so bad and we can chat alot. well we already talk alot online, so not much diff. he's taller than i tot! haa...
anw, on why the show is a flop? we go as members but were given not so good seats. the door gifts on the chair is all koped by people. sucky arrangement laa... what to do? must see which company also. haha!
after that we were shopping ard and ate dinner at the heeren wanton mee, followed by fav-ed tau huay at short street. but then the standard dropped so much!! =( i am going to give them only two more chances, if things arent changing for the better they will have to go off my list of yum yum.
anw, on why the show is a flop? we go as members but were given not so good seats. the door gifts on the chair is all koped by people. sucky arrangement laa... what to do? must see which company also. haha!
after that we were shopping ard and ate dinner at the heeren wanton mee, followed by fav-ed tau huay at short street. but then the standard dropped so much!! =( i am going to give them only two more chances, if things arent changing for the better they will have to go off my list of yum yum.
Wednesday, March 28, 2007
i need more energy!
haven't blogged for quite long.. and dun think i got energy now.. i don't know why i feel SO drained. i am even starting to question myself how am i going to nite cycle with the gang this coming friday. but anws, i have already gave my words to Herr Bro so i will go!
last sat, went to the xin yao concert at stadium.. the supposedly "last major commercial event at the national stadium that is going to be closed in june". kind of a sad feeling.. cos i was actually quite attached to that place. watching ndp near to ten years there.. was there is pri sch years to support my fren for national track and field.. was there when fandi ahmad scored goal.. was there at Kallang roar and wave.. was part of THAT era.
an era that will soon be gone. national theater was gone. national library was gone. now even national stadium is going to be gone. i wonder what will be left to our nation. yes progress, better facilities, but 就是少了那麽一點人情味吧。
anw, i have also started working, after the three weeks "break" i gave myself after i grad-ed.. and its really very tough! got too used to the timing of sleeping at the wee hours. now that i have to wake up real early, get to office and work during the timing when i was napping and having all the snacks - in short, enjoying life.
Life is a contradict!! when you are free, you cant really enjoy, cos no work = no money. when you got money, you cant enjoy cos got money = got work = really no time. now i believe, why people say they no time to execise when they work. its cos of the fatigue that makes them no more energy to move ard.
sadly, i am one of them. =(
hasn't seen the gang for a long time. like one week? hey thats considered long ok! considering i see them like everyday for the near to past 3 years.. couldnt join them for tmnt yesterday as i was working.. bleahs! wanted to watch that show de.. now that they have all watched, i guess i'll just have to wait for the dvd to be out lor. hao's back from taiwan, check out his blog for those nice sceneries he captured along the trip!
talking about going overseas.. i really envy them! 我也要我的畢業旅行！！！ but i dun think its possible le ba. haha. maybe.. after ns?
herry is going to be enlisted on 10 apr. i will be going to send him off at tekong. haha! so fast.. time flies.. i think within a few more blinks of the eyes.. we will be going to each other's wedding banquets liao.. and that is another scary thot!!!!
i wanna stay young, carefree and have nothing to worry about.
but thats not possible. time waits for no one yea. and therefore, its more important to cherish what we have right now! thats the common mentality that me and hao shares. and i hope, the rest of the gang will share with me too!
ok this post is kind of cha pa lang and random. bye!
last sat, went to the xin yao concert at stadium.. the supposedly "last major commercial event at the national stadium that is going to be closed in june". kind of a sad feeling.. cos i was actually quite attached to that place. watching ndp near to ten years there.. was there is pri sch years to support my fren for national track and field.. was there when fandi ahmad scored goal.. was there at Kallang roar and wave.. was part of THAT era.
an era that will soon be gone. national theater was gone. national library was gone. now even national stadium is going to be gone. i wonder what will be left to our nation. yes progress, better facilities, but 就是少了那麽一點人情味吧。
*****
anw, i have also started working, after the three weeks "break" i gave myself after i grad-ed.. and its really very tough! got too used to the timing of sleeping at the wee hours. now that i have to wake up real early, get to office and work during the timing when i was napping and having all the snacks - in short, enjoying life.
Life is a contradict!! when you are free, you cant really enjoy, cos no work = no money. when you got money, you cant enjoy cos got money = got work = really no time. now i believe, why people say they no time to execise when they work. its cos of the fatigue that makes them no more energy to move ard.
sadly, i am one of them. =(
*****
hasn't seen the gang for a long time. like one week? hey thats considered long ok! considering i see them like everyday for the near to past 3 years.. couldnt join them for tmnt yesterday as i was working.. bleahs! wanted to watch that show de.. now that they have all watched, i guess i'll just have to wait for the dvd to be out lor. hao's back from taiwan, check out his blog for those nice sceneries he captured along the trip!
talking about going overseas.. i really envy them! 我也要我的畢業旅行！！！ but i dun think its possible le ba. haha. maybe.. after ns?
*****
*****
herry is going to be enlisted on 10 apr. i will be going to send him off at tekong. haha! so fast.. time flies.. i think within a few more blinks of the eyes.. we will be going to each other's wedding banquets liao.. and that is another scary thot!!!!
i wanna stay young, carefree and have nothing to worry about.
but thats not possible. time waits for no one yea. and therefore, its more important to cherish what we have right now! thats the common mentality that me and hao shares. and i hope, the rest of the gang will share with me too!
*****
ok this post is kind of cha pa lang and random. bye!
Monday, March 26, 2007
我很怕
scared.. that i could no longer take it. that i will just give up on my own..
that i could no longer find any more strength to brave all these invisible pressure that i has..
that i could no longer find any more strength to brave all these invisible pressure that i has..
Thursday, March 22, 2007
RROOAARR!!
i felt like stretching out my hand. but the thought that there aren't anyone there to rescue me turns me off the idea.. stretching out but only to the air? thanks but no thanks.
i more or less had enough at home. that stupid issue that someone thinks that i am unwilling to help is driving me up my blood pressure. when will this damn stupid thing going to stop?
stop questioning me as if i am the ungrateful bastard that cares only for myself! but that's nothing new yea.. who had been listening to what i wanna say? no one.
so much for the frustration, and things aren't getting better. finally i succumbed to the sickness and went to see the doc. asthma is acting up and i got lotsa pills to pop. meeting with xiu today had to be cancelled at the very last min and i am really sorry yea! will make it up soon! after you are back from taiwan.. ^^
as for the time being, i don't know when will the pressure cooker in me explode. i dun dare to wish for things to get better, but i jus hope it dont get worse. =(
i more or less had enough at home. that stupid issue that someone thinks that i am unwilling to help is driving me up my blood pressure. when will this damn stupid thing going to stop?
stop questioning me as if i am the ungrateful bastard that cares only for myself! but that's nothing new yea.. who had been listening to what i wanna say? no one.
so much for the frustration, and things aren't getting better. finally i succumbed to the sickness and went to see the doc. asthma is acting up and i got lotsa pills to pop. meeting with xiu today had to be cancelled at the very last min and i am really sorry yea! will make it up soon! after you are back from taiwan.. ^^
as for the time being, i don't know when will the pressure cooker in me explode. i dun dare to wish for things to get better, but i jus hope it dont get worse. =(
Wednesday, March 21, 2007
Yea yea.
you can go to hell bastard. i don't need a friend like you. what's the use of clinging on when things aren't getting better? i give up.
sometimes, things just arent the way it seem to be.
i don't care! get it! do what ever you want and u think its correct.
sometimes, things just arent the way it seem to be.
i don't care! get it! do what ever you want and u think its correct.
DAMMIT!
that bitch ruined my hair!!! i will never go there to cut my hair! NEVER!
now, i look like some toot toot boy. knn!!!!
i is angry. sorry for the vulgarness. =)
now, i look like some toot toot boy. knn!!!!
i is angry. sorry for the vulgarness. =)
Tuesday, March 20, 2007
now playing: 孫燕姿 - 雨天
站在十字路的交点
该怎么走 我却只剩回头
除了你给的伞我再也没有
别的借口 去拥有你的什么
你能体谅我有雨天
偶尔胆怯你都了解
过去那些大雨落下的瞬间
我突然发现
谁能体谅我的雨天
所以情愿回你身边
此刻脚步会慢一些
如此坚决
你却越来越远
牵手和分手来自同一双手
做回朋友 我却为何不懂挽留
是否太晚路已走远
我的眼眶泪太满
走不回你身边
*****
该怎么走 我却只剩回头
除了你给的伞我再也没有
别的借口 去拥有你的什么
你能体谅我有雨天
偶尔胆怯你都了解
过去那些大雨落下的瞬间
我突然发现
谁能体谅我的雨天
所以情愿回你身边
此刻脚步会慢一些
如此坚决
你却越来越远
牵手和分手来自同一双手
做回朋友 我却为何不懂挽留
是否太晚路已走远
我的眼眶泪太满
走不回你身边
*****
havent been raining for quite some time.. or its just that i did not notice?
just rained. was looking out of the window.. looking at the rain.. thinking..
havent done that for a long time liao. it just sets me.. thinking.
*****
going to interview tmr! havent been to one for a long long time... even thou its conducted by familiar faces but it is just very stressful! dun like.. but well that is something that has to be done! otherwise no job.. no life.. haha!
hope that everything will be fine~!
Truth.
the truth hurts, yet its even worst knowing that u're in it ALONE.
i saw this sentence in jessica anne's blog. well, how true? what's worse than being the last one to know..
*****
i received a letter from nyp today.
We are pleased to inform you that the Assessment Board has, on 14 March 2007, conferred on you the DIPLOMA IN BUSINESS MANAGEMENT.
Congratulations!!
err, kind of mixed feelings. haha. are they so rushing to send us off into the society to die? haa!
damn bored today! sort of feeling down at home.. i dun like this kinda feeling.. why do i feel like my world is crumbling down?
tau huay break.
met up with chelle today. think of the 7 years we know eachother.. this is the first outing.. only us. ha!
from serangoon-dhoby ghaut-outram park-chinatown-serangoon. travelled alot! wanted some movie but chelle dun really like movies.. and also its kinda like wasting time la. could be better spent bonding and chatting. ate at rochor tau huay.. and ate alot! wanted to skip dinner but forgot abt it and we went to eat kfc zinger meal.. =( diet mission FAIL!
more activities coming please... =)
Monday, March 19, 2007
late night supper.
supper last thurs nite with chelle and vic! Was a very last min supper..
vic called chelle @ 11 plus and offered to drive us there. so we ate at amk S11 and after that decided to rot at Serangoon MAc. was talking.. eating.. slacking.. Time really flies! suddenly i realise that i have known them for 7 years.. i am glad we are still in touch.
More of these kind of gatherings please..! very destressing. haa!
with chelle.
with vic.
vic called chelle @ 11 plus and offered to drive us there. so we ate at amk S11 and after that decided to rot at Serangoon MAc. was talking.. eating.. slacking.. Time really flies! suddenly i realise that i have known them for 7 years.. i am glad we are still in touch.
More of these kind of gatherings please..! very destressing. haa!
with chelle.
with vic.
results for exam is out.
.: W.H :.says:
we grad le
wahahaha
waiting for our papers now!
yup, passed all modules! with that, its really the end le.
VERY not satisfied with the result. those that i tot i did well, i flop. those that i tot wasnt good, it turned out ok. and i got a present from "victim of a childish act" wor.. thief shout thief. i arent surprised about the outcome of that project. well, thats how the society works la. those who know how to tell tales will win.
apart from that, i reckon there is still room for celebration yea.. hehe. so cheerios! activities most prob will start when hao's back.. gotta wait for him la ! haa..
Saturday, March 17, 2007
PLEASE~~~!!!!
someone get me the dvd for hana kimi can!!! i will be eternal greatful!!!!
i so wanna own the complete set!!
=( but i don't.
i so wanna own the complete set!!
=( but i don't.
nite nite.
its late! 3.20 am le but i still cant sleep. (must be the nap at 8pm.)
and worse, i cant log on to msn! =(
sianz.
and worse, i cant log on to msn! =(
sianz.
Thursday, March 15, 2007
EMO
.: W.H :.says:
its a path to choose mah
different ppl will be waiting at different end
its as good as saying from now, we are splitting!
we know
but we do not speak it out
the above emo conversation with hao is started by his emo post as follows.
I went Dim Sum Buffet as organised by Xue Li and went singing session at Ten Dollar Club with yong hui(jay zhou), qq (Pu Xue Liang!), jx (andy lau), chang da (wang li hom) and kelvin (lee sheng jie!). The meal was hearty and i almost vomit out since i ate with no limits. But its the singing session that starts making me wonder ...
What a emotional day for me as my brain finally can't block the urge to think wad's the future for me, and this group of friends whom i've spent 2-3 interesting years with countless memorable events. I really don't know. It's this uncertainty that sets me into a confused and lost feeling which i don't usually faced!
Being emotional a.k.a EMO is not a familiar habit for me but still i know i can manage it. However, a loss of word in describing how i feel currently. So plain in my mind now.
It's a sign for a brand new start? or is it time to sleep? LOL. Will do the thinking these few daes or maybe even in taiwan where it's a 'no-friends' environment. Only family.
(I wonder what will happen to them when i'm in taiwan ..... )
(Will i leave a empty space inside their heart when i leave? ..... )
Sometimes i wonder ...
i hate making that choice that hao is saying. i know myself, that is i got too comfortable in my comfort zone and is reluctant to leave. i mean.. we are all so into each other's life for the past 3 years can! its not easy.. to leave.. to let go.. it never is...
i hate to make choices/decisions that is life-changing. to make things worse, i am in the stage of my life where alot of these decision makings are happening.. too much changes.. more than what i can handle. the "friends" issue is jus a starting point.. which will eventually root out to more decisions that is coming my way. but of cos, i do hope i can handle them well!
anw.. i still hope that this cycle of friends in my poly life will stay forever.. i dun dare to ask for all of them to be.. but i will make my effort on my part.. and i hope it will be reciprocated yea.. single hand cant clap. lol. and of cos, the creator of this emo feeling mr lee wei hao will be one of them who stays. haa!
Tuesday, March 13, 2007
and the rotting continues.
as much as i want to get out and stop rotting, the financial status of me now does not allow me to. its all "outs" and no "ins" can! anw, hope i can go back to Dsg to work. have already sent the resume back to them liao. hohoho. lucky i sms HY to ask her bout temp-ing there..
anw, i have finished 花樣 too! ok i am abit slow.. but thats cos i waited for cousin to lend me the dvd and so i can watch it in comfort lah.. haa.. its not as flop as all had said la.. some may complaint that it is too ambiguous but i think that it is still ok lo. its just trying to 延續 the idea of the show, that is 曖昧是愛裏最美的. so what if rui xi does not know that quan already know she is a "she"? she knows that he love her. she more or less can guess that he knows she is a girl. then jiu hao liao ma. it also leaves clue that there is a part two.. aren't that better!! but must be the same cast la.. otherwise the feeling is all diff liao.. look what happen to goong S. total flop. haha!
anw, i have finished 花樣 too! ok i am abit slow.. but thats cos i waited for cousin to lend me the dvd and so i can watch it in comfort lah.. haa.. its not as flop as all had said la.. some may complaint that it is too ambiguous but i think that it is still ok lo. its just trying to 延續 the idea of the show, that is 曖昧是愛裏最美的. so what if rui xi does not know that quan already know she is a "she"? she knows that he love her. she more or less can guess that he knows she is a girl. then jiu hao liao ma. it also leaves clue that there is a part two.. aren't that better!! but must be the same cast la.. otherwise the feeling is all diff liao.. look what happen to goong S. total flop. haha!
quotes: from DTF
“这么多年，你现在才知道我好啊？” Ah Toot说了这句话，停顿了一下。在那一瞬间，我似乎可以感觉到他心里的伤感。但，他很快就把话当玩笑，开心地笑了。
i don't know why, but this sentence have a 淡淡的憂傷。
Monday, March 12, 2007
sick tired
hate to face this time over and again! i noe 家家有本難念的經 but why is mine never ending?
just when i tot peace is here, things happen over and again jus to prove me wrong. when will peaceful life come? i dun even dare to think what things would become when i go to the army...
its msia trip again today! but response was cold. only me and ka and qq and hao and hitsu. hitsu is last min i ask her go de. hoo~! little shopping, just went in there to eat.. cant really find the things that i wanna buy leh. maybe can cut down the number of times going in liao lo..
also, went to jx's house. first time hor, haha! no la. jus go there sit sit bond bond. cos the rest wanna go there dunno do what so i go together lo! life's been pretty mundane recently.. how long more can i hang on?
just when i tot peace is here, things happen over and again jus to prove me wrong. when will peaceful life come? i dun even dare to think what things would become when i go to the army...
*****
its msia trip again today! but response was cold. only me and ka and qq and hao and hitsu. hitsu is last min i ask her go de. hoo~! little shopping, just went in there to eat.. cant really find the things that i wanna buy leh. maybe can cut down the number of times going in liao lo..
also, went to jx's house. first time hor, haha! no la. jus go there sit sit bond bond. cos the rest wanna go there dunno do what so i go together lo! life's been pretty mundane recently.. how long more can i hang on?
Friday, March 09, 2007
抱抱！aka Hug Hug!
went to mos with the gang on wed. was kind of not used to going out at night, leaving home at 8 plus makes me feel so odd! hmm.. maybe i am just too used to going out in bright day light. get used to it by going out more frequently in the nights! (my mum's going to kill me if she see this. haa!)
out of the gang of 7 (herry, ter, ka, jx, hao, qq + myself) 4 was a "virgin.nite" at clubbing. hoho. was a crazy nite out. and i cant dance for nuts!!! even KA dance better than me!! was not so crowded at the time we reach at abt ten.. but by the time we leave at abt 4 it was a hell lots of people! met up with teri and amy there too! and teri is another party animal.. hoho..
from now on, my new nick name for herry is snake. cos when he dance he is like a snake!
slacked at mcd after that for breakfast.. at 4 am!! earliest breakfast i ever had! haha. a few of us quite seh liao and i actually fell asleep there at mcd.. boo boo to me! headed home with qq as we are the only two taking train and crashed bed the moment i reach home. first time i miss my bed so much.
as for the relation of the title to this post, its for us to know and not for you to find out. hohoho~
out of the gang of 7 (herry, ter, ka, jx, hao, qq + myself) 4 was a "virgin.nite" at clubbing. hoho. was a crazy nite out. and i cant dance for nuts!!! even KA dance better than me!! was not so crowded at the time we reach at abt ten.. but by the time we leave at abt 4 it was a hell lots of people! met up with teri and amy there too! and teri is another party animal.. hoho..
from now on, my new nick name for herry is snake. cos when he dance he is like a snake!
slacked at mcd after that for breakfast.. at 4 am!! earliest breakfast i ever had! haha. a few of us quite seh liao and i actually fell asleep there at mcd.. boo boo to me! headed home with qq as we are the only two taking train and crashed bed the moment i reach home. first time i miss my bed so much.
as for the relation of the title to this post, its for us to know and not for you to find out. hohoho~
Tuesday, March 06, 2007
pursuit of happyness.
its a not bad show. caught it yesterday with the gang. quite meaningful thou a bit boring. it made tEr yawned 3 times. haha! but still, i give it 3.5 pop corns!
before the movie, went to KA's house to do something to our hair.. qq and darren was there with me.. anw, i steamed my hair!! its more softer now. hehe. and i will be back soon for another session! *i hope i got enough money!*
after that, we went to ALIF! the long awaited meal there. havent been there for a long time. yh,hao, jx, herry,ter joined.
anw, i dunno why i am so tired after the movie that i headed home and crash bed. haha! nice day out with the gang! they're clubbing tmr and i arent sure if i can join.. mum's commenting that i spend too much going out yea. sianz!
before the movie, went to KA's house to do something to our hair.. qq and darren was there with me.. anw, i steamed my hair!! its more softer now. hehe. and i will be back soon for another session! *i hope i got enough money!*
after that, we went to ALIF! the long awaited meal there. havent been there for a long time. yh,hao, jx, herry,ter joined.
anw, i dunno why i am so tired after the movie that i headed home and crash bed. haha! nice day out with the gang! they're clubbing tmr and i arent sure if i can join.. mum's commenting that i spend too much going out yea. sianz!
Monday, March 05, 2007
It's Monday!
the first monday after i graduated. *I HOPE i really do*
its very... empty lei. i felt like there was no more purpose. sighs.
anw, work at Dsg seems to have been blown. i think YL arent working there anymore so no one from corp comm can bring me in liao. sigh sigh. gotta look for another job!
last sat, gathering at mrs quek's was quite a success, even thou there is only 3 of us who went. namely, its chelle, me and vic. had lots of fun chatting and bonding. Mrs quek was telling us about how we should plan for our marriage.. what kind of restaurants or hotels to book, how much ang pao to give etc.
We talked about school time and how this guy threatened Mrs quek when she was still a relief teacher in our school. We all thought it was someone chelle know and was very close. but after all the pics we showed quek, still cant recognise, haha! so it shall remain a mystery.
right after that was meeting yen to get the chocs she made for me *so sweet of her!!!!* thanks girl! also walked ard at the popular there.. and i am torn between getting the sheng ri kuai le sound track or its novel...
they had this 愛的主題曲 in the show.. 有多少愛可以重來。
when i always talk about love, i dun only talk about love between couples. it can be family love, friendship love. i love my family! i love my friends! so its universal thing ok.. dun be so narrowminded.. hee!
right now it applies to the love i have for my friends! the uncertainties. how will things be in the future?
don't know.
don't want to think.
its very... empty lei. i felt like there was no more purpose. sighs.
anw, work at Dsg seems to have been blown. i think YL arent working there anymore so no one from corp comm can bring me in liao. sigh sigh. gotta look for another job!
*****
last sat, gathering at mrs quek's was quite a success, even thou there is only 3 of us who went. namely, its chelle, me and vic. had lots of fun chatting and bonding. Mrs quek was telling us about how we should plan for our marriage.. what kind of restaurants or hotels to book, how much ang pao to give etc.
We talked about school time and how this guy threatened Mrs quek when she was still a relief teacher in our school. We all thought it was someone chelle know and was very close. but after all the pics we showed quek, still cant recognise, haha! so it shall remain a mystery.
right after that was meeting yen to get the chocs she made for me *so sweet of her!!!!* thanks girl! also walked ard at the popular there.. and i am torn between getting the sheng ri kuai le sound track or its novel...
*****
they had this 愛的主題曲 in the show.. 有多少愛可以重來。
有多少愛可以重來 有多少人願意等待 當懂得珍惜以後回來卻不知那份愛會不會還在
when i always talk about love, i dun only talk about love between couples. it can be family love, friendship love. i love my family! i love my friends! so its universal thing ok.. dun be so narrowminded.. hee!
right now it applies to the love i have for my friends! the uncertainties. how will things be in the future?
don't know.
don't want to think.
Saturday, March 03, 2007
我要點首歌
你累了没有 可否伸出双手
想拥抱 怎能握着拳头
我们还有很多梦没做
还有很多明天要走
要让世界听见我们的歌
准备好没有 时间不再回头
想要飞 不必任何理由
不管世界尽头多寂寞
你的身边一定有我
我们说过不管天高地厚
想飞到那最高最远最洒脱
想拥抱在最美丽的那一刻
想看见陪我到最后谁是朋友
你是我最期待的那一个
可以一起闯祸 一起沉默 一起走
可以一起飞翔 一起沦落
不管天高地厚陪着我
陪我一起大声狂吼
想飙到那最高最远最辽阔
想唱完那最感动的一首歌
没看见那天高地厚不肯放手
因为我有我想要的朋友
你是我最想要的朋友
*****
想拥抱 怎能握着拳头
我们还有很多梦没做
还有很多明天要走
要让世界听见我们的歌
准备好没有 时间不再回头
想要飞 不必任何理由
不管世界尽头多寂寞
你的身边一定有我
我们说过不管天高地厚
想飞到那最高最远最洒脱
想拥抱在最美丽的那一刻
想看见陪我到最后谁是朋友
你是我最期待的那一个
可以一起闯祸 一起沉默 一起走
可以一起飞翔 一起沦落
不管天高地厚陪着我
陪我一起大声狂吼
想飙到那最高最远最辽阔
想唱完那最感动的一首歌
没看见那天高地厚不肯放手
因为我有我想要的朋友
你是我最想要的朋友
*****
僅此把這首歌獻給所有人，愛我的，恨我的，謝謝你們在我的生命中留下了腳印。我會好好珍惜的！
*****
when you're tired
stretch out your hands.
how do you accept a hug
when you clutch your fists tightly?
we still have many dreams unfulfilled
we still have many tomorrows
and we want our views to be heard by the world.
are you prepared? time waits for no one.
you don't need a reason to venture out far into the sky.
it doesn't matter how lonely it is
i will always be around you.
we are all going to soar into the skies
who will be the one who will accompany me to the end?
i hope that you are the one.
****translation is specially for mr herry haryadi!!!
and so.. thats the end!
with the completion of today's final paper at nyp, it also marks the end of my poly life! woo! so fast, at a blink of the eyes. well the day was quite filled.. and still will be for the next 2 days.. so i think the feeling of emptyness won't come so fast rite? however, the other mixed feelings have set in - the feelings that i have for all the friends here.
nonetheless, the usual me who is always getting too comfortable in the comfort zone, is reluctant to the changes that will occur in my life. those people whom i won't be seeing that often anymore. those that i cant talk to everyday anymore. its not that we are all not going to meet liao. but some things jus arent going to be the same anymore..
am thankful that i met all of u! never regretted any moment..
*****
today, the gang went to suki sushi.. celebration for the end of school, and also mengsiang's birthday! happy birthday!!
the sushi buffet is great. lots of food. also, the time spent bonding rox yea! =)
after that its mabel's and gary's for the annual cny visit. jus gotta squeeze them later cos of the exams la.. tmr still got mrs quek's place to head to! once a year only to bond with them, how can not go?
nonetheless, the usual me who is always getting too comfortable in the comfort zone, is reluctant to the changes that will occur in my life. those people whom i won't be seeing that often anymore. those that i cant talk to everyday anymore. its not that we are all not going to meet liao. but some things jus arent going to be the same anymore..
am thankful that i met all of u! never regretted any moment..
*****
today, the gang went to suki sushi.. celebration for the end of school, and also mengsiang's birthday! happy birthday!!
the sushi buffet is great. lots of food. also, the time spent bonding rox yea! =)
after that its mabel's and gary's for the annual cny visit. jus gotta squeeze them later cos of the exams la.. tmr still got mrs quek's place to head to! once a year only to bond with them, how can not go?
Thursday, March 01, 2007
Hana Kimi
ok. now i get what jieying mean when she say this show is poisonous. it jus sucked me into it and i cant miss any episodes of it! the cast is good, the song is nice. and my ella is the lead!!! she is jus too cute.
ultra addictive. watch the show at your own risk.
other than the ever so cute ella and handsome wu zun, the ending theme is great. zhuan shu tian shi. another great song by tank. ahhh....
ultra addictive. watch the show at your own risk.other than the ever so cute ella and handsome wu zun, the ending theme is great. zhuan shu tian shi. another great song by tank. ahhh....
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